tw: super vague, non-descriptive mentions of toxic relationships and childhood trauma

so i will fully admit that cmi inspired this and then my brain just ran with it. i grew up in a house where my parents had (and still have) just a very toxic, unhealthy marriage, and i developed a lot of childhood trauma around that. ironically, it turned me into a hopeless romantic, and i very much clung to love stories in books and movies as a means of proving to myself that "love" didn't have to look like that, and now my love of love stories is, i feel, fundamental to who i am as a person.

i didn't know much about forget-me-nots before cmi, but their meaning of truest love, devotion, and respect just RESONATED, hence how i arrived here. i meant this as a tribute to all of the love stories that have kept me going, but it's always gonna remind me of the cmi babies first and foremost since they inspired it. 💙

are. you. fkn. kidding. me.

ari 😭

look, i'm so sleep deprived and this week was long, so i'm already vulnerable af.. so imagine how our local crybaby (it me) might be looking at her phone rn. LIKE ARE YOU SERIOUS, this is the best thing ever, it's as if you pulled a cmi!jk by doing this?? how truly romantic and sweet is that 😭

and ugh ari, i so understand what you're talking about. my family and i have an incredibly loving and respectful relationship with each other now, but there were incredibly rough times growing up and i know they shape us as people.. like i still feel affected by them. so i'm so sorry you had to go through all that, but i'm also so proud that you didn't let it destroy you as a person, that requires a shit ton of courage and you've always struck me as strong af — and so lovely and emphatic. staying true to your tattoo, never forget who you are, how fond you are of those stories and how they affect you.. they're truly so much more valuable than one might think.

god ari, the way i'm trying not to answer this entire ask in capslock. no seriously, i am so fucking flattered and honoured and i will never, never take this for granted. i never knew cmi would ever have such an impact on anyone, so to know it's able to give so much comfort and stay in y'all's memory is.. absolutely insane. thank you for this, i am genuinely lost for words :((( i love you so much and i hope you're living your best life with the healthiest relationships; will always remember this lil bit gesture :(( 🤍