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jaysunderwear · 1 year

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I posted 709 times in 2022

That's 193 more posts than 2021!

37 posts created (5%)

672 posts reblogged (95%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@anakinfruit

@spidezer

@gffa

@scylla-rammshorn

@thirteenmyspacegirl

I tagged 670 of my posts in 2022

Only 6% of my posts had no tags

#sw - 189 posts

#art - 105 posts

#fallen order - 64 posts

#q - 61 posts

#the witcher - 52 posts

#aa - 37 posts

#cal <3 - 32 posts

#ofmd - 25 posts

#csm - 20 posts

#hq - 17 posts

Longest Tag: 136 characters

#there was a tiktok trend like two years ago where you were supposed to film yourself talking about something you’re passionate about and

My Top Posts in 2022:

hi it’s me again

i just played through the first bit at kujet’s tomb again (the part where you remember o66 and then find out who malicos and merrin are) and man. every time i get here i remember that this was the bit that really solidified cal as a favourite character of ever

[oops this got long so here’s a cut]

he was so young when he lost everything and he’s had so many chances to choose how he’s gonna react to what that means. for most of the game playing through you can forget how serious the commitment of the jedi is, and what that connection to the force means to them - you’re just swinging a lightsaber and blowing things up! but there are multiple times where cere asks cal if he has any doubts about the quest, how he feels about the responsibility it carries, and you can choose an option to doubt! but i love what he says when you don’t. he says that ever since he was a youngling he’s always trusted in the force…

in that flashback (and all of them really) you can tell he is so earnest about his training and learning, but he’s still twelve. he goofs off with the clones and he doesn’t make his bed and he shucks his boots off at the door without care, but he loves being a jedi, you can feel it! and the cry he lets out when he loses everything, so similar to how he reacts when he holds trilla’s inquisitor saber, shows how much he is still full of his emotions, as is typical of a young padawan.

his conversation with malicos where he is so appalled at how he has twisted his power over the nightbrothers says everything to me. he went through the same thing malicos did, he also had to kill friends, he also lost everything, and as a child. if anyone should understand why malicos turned, cal was right there with him (he had even seen echos from his descent!) but it’s so opposed to who he is, it’s just horrid to him. the whole time merrin has been accusing him of murdering her sisters and he has only been reaching out. he warns her that if she keeps lashing out he will have to retaliate in defence, but he’s not here with destructive intent! as much as cal has been hurt and targeted and kicked while he’s down he gets up and he puts his whole damn heart first!

when cere catches him after busting tapal’s saber and tells him about her struggle with the dark side it is both a lesson and an outstretched hand. you are not alone, cal, you have a choice, this is not the end, get up! we still have work to do! and his small voice asking, begging, for a way out, something that makes sense, what does he do now? how does he move on? he is still so so young and in need of guidance and his only option is a woman actively struggling with exactly what he needs leading away from.

the only thing he can do in order to keep going is to fix the lightsaber, so he buries his pain and doubt and grief and keeps looking forward. he has no choice but to be ready for the trials ahead of him. he has to keep failing. he has to keep getting up. he trusts in the force.

(i love him so ridiculously much)

35 notes - Posted July 13, 2022

something something cal living for years on bracca hiding half of his life and who he is from everyone, even prauf who he clearly had a somewhat close relationship with (a frankly extremely queer experience but i dont have time to unpack all That)

bd waiting alone without his memories on bogano for Someone who would come who he would help and trust and look out for, but not knowing when

cere who ran from the force in her guilt but still worked for years trying to find someone else to take up the mantle, someone else who still believed, who united with a gambler pilot and started making those choices to trust

all of them coming together as such extremely flawed people who had been alone and hiding secrets for years. finding trust and safety together. letting all those secrets out and staying together despite challenges…

52 notes - Posted July 12, 2022

i’m working on a bit of a meta fic based on this idea but it’s not fully formed so i just need to ramble a bit about it first

the thing that Gets Me so much about the cheeky way fallen order builds the force powers gradually for Story Reasons is that. you have hints all over that cal Knows he used to be able to do these things

when you go through the weathered monument on zeffo and BD inspects the cracked wall and cal sadly admits that he can’t push it… and again with the wall into the ice caves

when you’re on dathomir (early) trying to get to the tomb and you can’t quite make the jump and cal incorrectly says he can’t jump that high… and BD corrects him

he knows exactly what he has lost and has probably had to carry that with him for years. i go absolutely feral every time i play through the game and learn the powers again if just for the little pop up that “cal has healed his connection to the force” bc man. you just know that he’s missed it <3

72 notes - Posted July 12, 2022

i love you star wars rebels enjoyers, i love you EU truthers, i love you jedi fallen order players, i love you reva fans, i love you padme lovers, i love you clone oc creators, i love you mara jade respecters, i love you sw5e players, i love you sequel deniers, i love you prequel respecters , i love you rogue one fans, i love you solo enjoyers, i love you fanfic writers, i love you wookieepedia editors, i love you star wars the old republic players, i love you star wars cosplayers

78 notes - Posted July 12, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

it always amuses me that cal just. sits down. in the very wet vault on bogano. without hesitation.

just. i am talking to droid now he is small friend i must also be small i will Sit to talk to my Friend

i study him

105 notes - Posted July 22, 2022

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#the way that 4/5 of my top posts are just about cal #my special guy

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will-noble-owns-my-ass · 3 years

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Hold Back the River

This is a story based off of this fantastic piece by @goodboybadrep-ooc, who also wrote the letter from Ethan to Amelia which is featured in this piece. Thank you for letting me use Siobhan, I hope you enjoy ❤️

Rash sighed and closed his eyes trying to focus himself, feeling the plane start to descend. Where was he going? He was flying to Ireland to join his girlfriend, she’d flown over a week ago to visit her friend Siobhan. As he walked through the arrivals lounge of Dublin airport, looking for Siobhan, who Will had called to pick him up, he wracked his brain trying to decide how to tell Amy the devastating news. How was he supposed to tell her she was now an only child? He had no idea.

Siobhan waved him over and he offered her a weak smile “Hey Siobhan, where’s Amy?”

“Hey Rash, she’s at my place. She doesn’t know your here because she was asleep when Will called and I didn’t want to wake her. Not yet. I figured if Will called as late as he did then something must be wrong.” She looked at him and her face dropped. “No.. Poor Will.. Poor Amy” she ran a hand over her face “Poor Aoife”

Rash sighed “I know... he.. he wrote her a letter.. Will thought it might be best if I tell her in person... god this is going to break her.” He said quietly as they reached the car, they got in and he leaned against the seat “Siobhan?”

She glanced at him aa she started driving, tears in her eyes “Yes Rash?” She asked softly “Her world is about to collapse around her.. all over again.. how do I tell her?” His voice broke. Siobhan bit her lip ad she drove. “Be there for her Rash, she’s going to need us.. Did you say he wrote her a letter?” Rash nodded “She’s always got me.. Always” he sighed “Yeah he wrote a letter for the whole ED, he probably wrote one for Aoife for when she gets older too. He wrote one for Amy. Will said he thought it would help her.”

Siobhan offered him another weak smile “He was right. It’ll be hard but a letter will help her..” He let out a breath he didn’t know he’d been holding as they reached Siobhan’s house “Can we sit out here a little longer? I’m not ready to break her heart yet.” Siobhan nodded and looked at him “I get it but you’re going to have to tell her Rash it isn’t fair on her.”

He nodded and took a deep breath spotting Amelia leaning against the door frame. They got out of the car and made their way toward the house. Amelia grinned as she saw him “Rash! I thought you were working what are you doing here?” Rash looked at her and put on a bright smile “Dylan gave me a few days so I thought I’d come and join you.” He pulled her into a tight hug “It’s good to see you.” She said quietly as she pulled away “How’s Ethan?”

Rash looked at at her as Siobhan led them both into the living room, pushing Amelia down onto the sofa gently. Rash put his bag down and joined her quickly, taking her hands in his. “Rash.. What are you doing? You’re scaring me.” Rash looked at her and squeezed her hand “Amy... I... I’m so sorry.” Amelia laughed emotionlessly “There’s no need to be sorry Rash, everything’s fine, everyone is fine.” She let out a broken sob “He has to be okay.. because if he’s not that means I’m alone in the world, and I can’t handle that Rash I can’t.” She said through wracking sobs, her shoulders shaking as Rash pulled her into him, his heart breaking for her “shhh your not alone Lia.. we’re here.. we’re right here” she bit her lip and sucked in s difficult breath “Oh.. Oh God.. Aoife..”

Rash looked at her and rested his chin on her shoulder “Aoife is okay.. she’s got Will and Robyn... she is asking for Aunt Lia though” he told her softly “I should have been there.” Siobhan cur in then “Amy stop, he wanted you to come over here remember? He had Will buy you your ticket.” She let out a wet laugh “I didn’t even get to say goodbye Siobhan. Again. First Cal died and now Ethan and I didn’t get to say goodbye to either of them!” She yelled “Sorry, I didn’t mean...” Siobhan pulled her into a hug “shh, it’s alright I understand, it’ll be okay, Rash and I are right here.”

Rash shot her s sympathetic look and pulled open his bag going straight to the pocket where he’d placed Ethan’s last letter to his sister. “Amy?” He caught her attention “From Ethan.” She sucked in a breath taking it from him with shaking hands. She closed her eyes “Uh... Siobhan.. Can you read it for me?.. I.. I can’t.” Siobhan took it from her gently “Of course I will Amy” Amelia rested her head on Rash’s shoulder as she opened the letter.

Dearest Amelia

Promise me that when you read this, you’ll have Rash and Siobhan by your side to support you as by the time you read this I will likely be no more.

I know I’m dying but I’m going with dignity and in place I want to be apart from the fact you aren’t with me.. It’s strange. It feels like letting go. Breathing is getting harder but I feel lighter? Like it is time. Aspiration pneumonia is a bitch! Oh I swore! Oops!

As I sit here watching the waves lap against the beach I cannot help but reminisce. We shared such wonderful memories here. Day trips with Mum which ended in us all getting ice-cream (even though I hated it!). I’ll never forget your graduation night; you dragged me down here and we drank, danced, and sang under the stars. You’ve always been my star. My moral compass and it kills me to know that those days are coming to an end.

The hardest part of this is loosing you.

You know me, I’m not religious but the things I do firmly believe in are kindness, compassion and that our spirit and the splits of those we love never truly leave us. They remain in everything we do, think of and love.

When we first found out about the HD my only thought was you. I didn’t want to be a burden. I didn’t want you put your life on hold because of me and I don’t want you to do so when I succumb either. When I could no longer run, you held me up. When I couldn’t walk, you held my hand. When we lost Caleb.. We held each other. I sure won’t be lonely if I rejoin him in heaven.. That day when I trialed working in the chair you turned to me and said I’m still your Dr Who and you gave out stink to a patient who questioned my ability because of it. You inspired me to keep fighting, keep trying everything I could to keep going but now… I want you to have the strength to keep going without me.

There’s no easy way to convey all the things I want to say to you but please believe me when I say that I’ll never leave you. I’ll always be with you. I think the best way to sum it up would be to quote Mary Elizabeth Frye. “Do not stand at my grave and weep,I am not there, I do not sleep.I am in a thousand winds that blow, I am the softly falling snow. I am the gentle showers of rain, I am the fields of ripening grain.I am in the morning hush, I am in the graceful rush. Of beautiful birds in circling flight, I am the starshine of the night. I am in the flowers that bloom, I am in a quiet room. I am in the birds that sing, I am in each lovely thing. Do not stand at my grave bereft. I am not there. I have not left.” And my old pal Shakespeare: “Doubt thou the stars are fire; Doubt that the sun doth move; Doubt truth to be a liar; But never doubt I love.”

Love Ethan xx.

Ps. If Rash doesn’t marry you I will haunt his ass!

As Siobhan refolded the letter, Amelia let out a wet sort of laugh as Rash turned red “In the future.” He said quietly she chuckled resting her head on his shoulder “I’ll be there.” She looked toward the sky closing her hand around the necklace her brother’s had bought her when they were younger “and so will they.”

#casulty oneshot #casualty story #ethan hardy #will noble #own character #rash masum x oc #rash masum

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kkamist · 6 years

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ok so ive been tagged in different tags by different people ,,, nd have procrastinated on actually doing them ,, so i decided to compile all of them in one post !!

warning: this will be a v long post ,, read only if u wanna ,, know more abt me i guess (why would u lmAO)

fact tag?? i guess

rules: tag 9 people you want to get to know better and answer the questions

was tagged by maria !! @s0ftminho ♡ඩ⌔ඩ♡

Relationship status: single

Favourite colour: yellow,, peach,, nd black

Top 3 ships: oof idk?? oo nomin probably !!

Lipstick or chapstick: i dont use them :”)

Last song: im listening to gfriend - rough rn!

Last movie: spiderman homecoming hAHHAHA ( i was doing a mini marvel marathon bc my dad had the movies and didnt ! tell ! me ! but i uh stopped there lmao )

Top 3 shows: i dont watch shows often,, but i do rly like knowing brothers, night goblin :”) nd its dangerous outside the blanket! oooo theres also cafe amor that is p cute too !!

Currently reading: ok if manga counts, kimi no todoke nd bnha ,, if not ,, waking gods by sylvain neuvel (but i paused like ,, last yr prob hAHHA)

kpop + music tag!

ok so i was tagged by @01yoonjin to do ,, both of these tags if im not wrong,, and @maetaamong tagged me for the music shuffle tag and @hyuunjins tagged me for the kpop tag thingy aha

music shuffle tag

rules: put all of your phone’s music library – no playlists! – on shuffle. list the first ten songs that play. bold the song(s) that lift your mood and italicise the song(s) that makes you the most emotional. then tag ten people!

mad city - nct 127

campfire - svt

us now - vixx

hold me tight - bts

talk me down - troye sivan

paradise - nct 127

too good - troye sivan

grr 총량의 법칙 - skz

another world - nct 127

blue - troye sivan ft alex hope

kpop tag

rules: answer the questions!

1) 5 favorite groups?

skz

nct

nuest

sf9

2) Top 5 on your bias list? (no particular order)

hyunjin

(lee) chan

(lee) mark

chanhee

jr (jonghyun)

3) Ult Bias group and why you love them?

oof ok i,,, dont know? im not the type to actually Stay ulting a group?? like ill stan then ,,, then,, get into another grp,,, yeah,,,, im not v loyal aa my friends always ask what grps i stan and im liek ,,,,, idk,,,, i stan a Lot,,, (that was a real convo between a new friend i made weeks ago) but i guess,, atm its skz? their music is,, my taste? like the meaning of it nd all,, and uh theyre also v v fun to b with,, there isnt a moment when i dont smile whenever i see one of their vids or during their vlives :”) tbh what i like the most in groups i stan is their humor lmao,,, like if theyre v funny, i automatically love them even more :”))

4) Ult Bias and why you love them?

again,,, idk man,, i dont think i even Ult hAHHA ok but i ,, rlly like bae jinyoung nd chani hHAHHA ok but also ,,,, hyunjin. that boy,,,,, id do anything for him tbh ,, also bjy wasnt even mentioned in 2 but,,, i rlly love him ,, like idk,, i dont stan w1 as much now but ,, whenever i see him im like :-))))) (same goes for chani aa) fiuwe idk y i like them sm tho aa

5) Favorite Kpop Meme

iiiiii dont have any guawdeij

6) Favorite pic of your ult? (I dare you to only pick one)

ok what,,, i dont even know my ult hAHAH

7) 5 Favorite Kpop MVs

dont stop - twice (this is in jap tho,, does it count?)

nuest - daybreak

blooming days - exo cbx

you&me - kisum

go - nct dream

8) 10 Favorite Kpop songs?

vivid - loona/heejin

heart attack - loona/chuu

singing in the rain - loona/jinsoul

scentist - vixx

boss - nct u

rollercoaster - chungha

shine - pentagon

blooming days - exo cbx

trigger - vixx

my valentine - vixx

nd a lot more auief

9) Favorite Kpop crack video?

oof i dont watch crack often-

10) Favorite content creator within the fandom?

all of them!! :”)

11) What fandoms would you say you’re an active member of?

aa atm the sk fandom !! i was q active in the svt fandom in my main blog but i dont make content anymore :-( i do want to b active in other grps (like nct nd sf9 nd mayb nuest) but i dont have enough Commitment to run other blogs at the same time :”)))

12) Take your top 3 biases- fmk

these arent my top 3 but-

F(riendly convo with) - murk leeeee

M - oof tbh id marry seungcheol or mingYU OmG :-)))))))) hes not my bias but ,, hes such husband material tbh ,,,,,,,,

K - lee chan bc he,, keeps Killing me w those looks even when im tryna stan another grp ughrei

13) If you could be best friends with any idol, who would you choose?

chani? or chenle!! for chani ,, we’re q similar nd we both like chicken !!!!!!!!!!!! so yes. for chenle ,, we’re also kinda similar but we def have the same humor ,,, which is always great :^)))))

14) If you could date any idol, who?

hm,,, tbh these days ive been feeling Soft for mark (lee) nd !! also bjy ,,,, ahHa im sorry hyunjin yshvriIHFED

15) What’s one Kpop album you think everyone should have listened to?

vixx - eau de vixx bc nO ONE i know talks abt it :-((((

16) Are you a soft or a hard stan?

swoft??? or medium idK HAHAH

17) An idol that makes you go into soft mode?

100% hyunjin,,, Also bjy.

18) An idol that makes you want to smash the empire state building with one single punch?

o man is also hyunjin aLSO mark lee :-))))))))))

19) Favorite vocalist?

oof hm,, defo seungkwan ,,, seokmin,,, basically svt’s vocal team :-))) oOF reading this again ,, yo haechan???? God tier vocals,,, pls stan nct :-)))

20) Favorite Rapper?

oo ok so i watched high school rapper nd i really like osshun? nd oH bang jaemin :”) aa i need to watch s2 soon jgafiue

in terms of idols, defo 3racha,,, theyre So Good uiahrfiu

21) Favorite dancer?

aAA in terms of girls: cHUNGHA!! for boys its ,, basically all of svt performance team nd,, ten and taeyong- (i like a lot of dancers its hard to choose ifajoiwe)

22) Things you have in common with your ult?

ok i,, dk my ult but ill just do it w the idols i put in in that q - for hyunjin i feel like we ,, both struggle w cooking lmAo nd have troubles waking up early :”) ,, actually now that i think abt it,, were both v quiet nd shy but when u get to know us? were v Loud nd savage (same w bjy nd chani) also again ,, chani likes chicken, i do too so :-)))))))

23) The mot beautiful trait any idol can have?

hm,, confidence? it takes a lot for someone to just go on stage and sing/dance etc,, like i would Never b able to do that- (proven today: had a skit and had a shaky voice the whole time , also laughed alot oops)

24) Songs that will always make you jam along?

vIVID by heejin nd singing in the rain by jinsoul nD ALL THE OTHER LOONA SONGS-

also rock by skz !!!!! nd nd omg rollercoaster by chungha nd,,, scentist by vixx nd many others hAHAH

25) Your worst wrecker?

in skz its ,,,,,,,, ***** :-)) also nomin have been wrecking me these days ,, rip

26) Any kpop concerts you’ve been to?

0 bc my parents wont let me :-(

27) Favorite choreo?

there r too many-

28) Favorite live performance?

also too many- but i do like concert performances where the fans sing along too- like those Hit me in the feels everytime (eg: smile flower - svt!!!) iahfnie (does this even count lmao)

29) Favorite debut mv?

adore u- svt !! (3rd anniv coming up ihHIWU)

30) Recommend a rookie group

skz obv, loona, unb ,, (g)i-dle !!

31) A kpop song you could listen to every day for the rest of your life?

there is a Lot but prob vivid - heejin hAHAH I RLLY LIKE THAT SONG AUWIFHIAU

20 question tag!

rules: answer 20 questions and then tag twenty people you want to get to know better

i was tagged by em !! @realstraykids (´∀｀)♡

name: hazirah (oo name reveal :^))

nickname(s): haz

zodiac sign: scorpio

height: i am smoller than em ,, barely 5 feet :-)))))))))

languages spoken: ok ,, eng, malay, arabic, uuuh tiiiiiny bit of chinese and im now (kind of) self learning korean :^)

nationality: singaporean

favourite season: ok we dont have fall in sg,, but fall !!

favourite flowers: baby’s breath!

favourite scents: the scent of fried chicken :-)) or fresh laundry ,,, also petrol smell :-)

favourite color: i answered above but yellow, peach nd black

favourite animal: shiba inus !!

favourite fictional characters: mmmm kacchan nd aizawa nD TODOROKI IFIAEUR HOW COULD I FORGET HIM O Mg frm bnha !! also baz nd simon frm the book carry on, simon by raindow rowell (one of my fav books tbh) ,,,, also tanaka frm tanaka kun is always listless bc hes goals tbh. ALSO oMg USUI TAKUMI FRM KAICHOU WA MAID SAMA OH MY GODUIHF

coffee, tea, or hot chocolate: ok in cold countries i Always get hot chocolate,, here in sg i always get green tea,, or ice lemon tea sometimes :-)))

average sleeping hours: 5-6

dog or cat person: both but more towards cats tbh

number of blankets you sleep with: 1

dream trip: the world !! or like japan/england ,,

blog established: feb 1 2018

followers: a number :-)

random fact: mmmmmmmm i broke my fast w two of my friends last night nd caught up w each other nd im v happy :-)))))

nd thats the end !! (not really,, theres like 2 slefie tags but i have 0 pics oops) but if you read through all this,, congratulations,, you probably know me more than my classmates :-))))

#tagged #about haz :o #i actually wrote some of these beforehand #so idk how accurate this is hHAHA #also for the bias thing #im bad at explaining/elaborating so descriptions r short nd stuff #i apologise ayugfbuwe

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