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#Tritype 459
playsthetics · 2 years
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Enneagram Tritype Moodboards: (23/27)
459 (The Contemplative)
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mothprincess · 3 months
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i wish that 457 was a legit enneagram tritype. that would fit perfectly. instead, i am between 497 and 459 🚬😔
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candysweetiepie · 8 months
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945 is going to be a triple withdrawn type. The 459 tritype is going to be extremely, extremely, EXTREMELY introverted & withdrawn. 4 & 5 are two of the most negative, alien, and self-centered enneatypes, so having both of them together is going to make someone who is very involved with their-self, their research, their emotions. A 9w1 with 4 & 5 fixes are going to be far more out of touch w/ society (& probably don’t care that they are), solitary, and awkward in their own presence on planet earth than any other 9w1.
947 is a double withdrawn, double positive outlook, and double frustration type. A 479 tritype creates someone that’s overly imaginative, creative, and often sometimes confusing. Because of the overly positive nature of 7 & overly negative nature of 4, there will be the slightest bit of conflict in the type itself, as 7 wants to reframe everything as positive and 4 wants to lurk around in the pain of existing.
Both tritypes have the quality of being fairly out-of-touch with greater society (1 attachment fix + no complaint fixes). However, the biggest difference between 479 & 459 is that 459s, having no assertive or complaint fixes, have no natural ability to spur things into reality. 479s, even though still double withdrawn, do have a 7 fix that can make them be able to push for what they want. 459s will Always just withdraw when there’s a problem.
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m-v-tique · 16 days
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Being an infp 459 is funny.
Follow ur head when ur head is sensitive. Follow your heart when ur heart is bland.
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weirdmageddon · 7 months
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HES 9W8 AGAIN MEDIA LITERACY IS SOOO FUCKING BACK 💪💪💪💪 now we just gotta change his tritype from 459 to 945 and his socionics type from ILI to SLI
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lemonthepotato · 4 months
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Muffins Ennea ADDENDUM:
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I wasn’t planning on making a follow-up to that post, but mama/dada’s got some ideas cooking. Mama? Dada? What’s the non-binary version of mama? Nvm, it would sound cringe. I think I’d rather misgender myself than call myself a ‘zaza’ lmao. 😭
Anyway, that post was kinda dogshit. I mean, I stand by a lot of what I said, but I also don’t. So, this is my full personality profile of the bakers!
So, let’s go over the conclusions I made last time:
Pinkie Pie: Enneagram 7w6 with a SP instinct.
Inkie Pie: Enneagram 8w7 with a SX instinct?
Minkie Pie: Enneagram 4w5 with a SO instinct.
Blinkie Pie: Enneagram 4wX with a SX instinct.
Apple Bloom: “IT GOT ERASED AGAIN. APPLE BLOOM SO3.”
Derpy: “DERPY SX7/IDK FUCKING SP6 IDC.”
Babs: “BABS IDFK SP5?? SO5?? FUCKING SP8 dawg I’m too angry to care.”
I don’t agree with all of these anymore, but I stand by the fact Minkie and Pinkie are probably enneagram 4 and 7. I’m not entirely sure of Minkie’s instinct.
In this post, I am going to be breaking down EVERY piece of EVERY characters typology. Maybe I’ll even go into the victims typology in the story? Prolly not.
Minkie Pie 🥧
MBTI: ISFP
After some consideration, I decided Minkie Pie is probably an INFP. And it seemed the consensus on PDB was much the same, which made me immediately reconsider. Just kidding. So, my reasoning is that she is an obvious Fi dom. There’s little question there. Genuinely not understanding how someone thought she was a Fe aux. But the question remains about Ne vs Se.
Minkie has a lot of creative, but practical ideas. And I wouldn’t say she has more ideas than she can execute, nor is she stuck ‘in her imagination.’ So, I can definitely see a Se argument. However, she dwells on the past a lot, which is why FiSi makes more sense than FiNi. In her LARS, I mean, Mad Madusings, she constantly compares her past to the present. She does this to prove some sort of overarching idea, which could be FiNi, but hmmm… her ability to “just know lies” is also very FiNi. I’m torn. Actually, I think I’m going to go with IXFP. She’s clearly a Xe aux. Kidding. INFP makes sense. But ISFP also makes sense especially when in her mad musings she always makes conclusions about people based on past experience to form some sort of archetype of person. Which is Ni…
Ni can look like Si, but Si is more routine based than Ni. I’m gonna go with ISFP for now.
Enneagram: 4w5 (so/sx/sp blind)
Enneagram so4w5 seems right, but I’m also open to sx4. Though, Minkie doesn’t particularly seem envious of others as like, an overarching trait. She just seems pissed at the world. I suppose that could be sx4. I’m a little torn.
Also holy shit, my Ne brain just realised The Game. Minkie’s life is like a video game, trying haurd to beat the stage.
Anyway, I don’t know tbh. Sx4 makes senseeee, but Sx4 is shameless. Minkie is not. Unhealthy so4, ig.
Tritype: 459.
Minkie is obviously a so4, but what about her tritype? Well, because I think she’s a 4w5, her head type is 5w6. Her gut type then, is probably 9w8. I don’t have much good reasoning.
Socionics: ESI
AHH. I hate socionics. I really do. Because I don’t understand it, so it’s bad. Jk. Uh, so, I don’t know. I’m going to go with uh ESI but I can also seen an argument for anything because idk lol.
Big Five: RLOEN.
I don’t like big5 much lol.
Psychosophy: No.
Okay, psychosophy is something I don’t understand.
Temperament: Melancholic.
Come on, it’s really obvious?
Classic Jungian: IF(S)
Pretty obvious.
Conclusion: ISFP IF(S) ESI RLOEN so4 w 5 459 melancholic [dominant].
Blinkie Pie 🥧
Blinkie SX4 is something I stand by. It makes the most sense for her character. She’s probably a sx4w3, as she’s focused on accomplishment and ‘authenticity.’ Her tritype is harder to crack down. She doesn’t seem like a very intellectually driven type, but she does value community ‘at least if we were all locked away, we’d have each other.’ Which is an argument for 6, however… I don’t know. Probably 468. Her MBTI… ah god. Okay, so, unlike that one Deviantart post, I am going to go out on a whim and say she’s probably not an ESTJ. Cognitively extroverted 4 is pretty weird. I’m completely unsure of her MBTI. She has values, but they’re influenced from her friends and father. But Fe anywhere in her stack is weird. ISTJ could work? In Inkie’s Stellar Obsession, she spends the whole time telling Inkie how ridiculous her idea is. Granted, it’s also because she doesn’t like Stella (Fi) but still. ISTJ 4 is uh… weird. So maybe ISFP? I know I’m switching stacks but ugh. I don’t know. Te-Fi is obvious. Si-Ne and Se-Ni I’m more confused about. Maybe Se? She’s very practical. ISFP is the best guess I can give. Then, that would be ESI again, right? She’s probably SCOEN. And yes, S makes sense because introvert =/= unsociable. And she’s not limbic, just because she’s mentally ill. She’s probably a choleric-melancholic?
Conclusion: ISFP IF(S) ESI RCOEN sx4 w 3 468 cholmel.
Inkie Pie 🥧
Enneagram: sx8w7
Inkie, a character I wasn’t sure about. I’m still not convinced she’s an 8. She could be a 9. But she doesn’t seem to struggle with self-inertia.
“Ah, Marblestone "Inkie" Pie... what a Sugarcube. Inkie is the second oldest of the four pie sisters, though she grew up as the oldest since Minkie had not been found yet. she is often very honest, but if you are not on her good side, her honesty is blunt and very insulting. she speaks in a firm, low voice, and is very confident. she seems very proud, holding her head up high and walking with a strut. she has heavy lidded eyes, and her smile can be quite intimidating and frightening, even when she tries to act casual. inkie is a natural born leader, and has been known to be the "protective" pony of the group, and makes a majority of decisions. sometimes she gets pissy when her decisions are shot down, but this never lasts long when it comes to her friends and sisters. Inkie has the ability to love as strong as her ability to hate. she often uses pet names toward her friends and sisters, such as "hunny," "sweety," "sweeatheart," "love," "dear," and many others. she'll address her sisters as "dear sister" when being reassuring toward them. since inkie and Blinkie are the sisters that have spent the most time together, they seem very in tune to each other, thinking along the same lines and coming to similar conclusions. I was originally going to give inkie pie hallucinations, but I decided against it. she's too in control of herself. [that’s not how hallucinations work but ok hunny]”
So, what we can learn from this is that Inkie is honest, blunt and confident. She’s proud, protective and a natural born leader. She makes the decisions for the group and doesn’t like her ideas being shut down, but she doesn’t care if it’s her sisters. Inkie has the ability to love just as much as she hates, which completely goes against the idea that she views other ponies aside from her sisters as toys and not something to love/hate but I digress.
In the actual story, Inkie displays these behaviours several times. This leads me to believe she could be an 8 or 9, but which?
Well, Inkie doesn’t value peace, come to think of it, so she’s likely an 8w9. I still say 8w9 > 8w7 because she’s much calmer than other wings. I view wings more as flavouring than having to match up 100%. So, I’m leaning 8w9. Actually, I think 8w7 makes more sense… she doesn’t have much 9 qualities.
So, what instinct? I still stand by sx/sp 8. So sx8 then.
Tritype: 874
We know her core type (gut) is 8, and I’d imagine she struggles the least with shame. So, we need to figure out her head type. She could be a 5, as she doesn’t seem to struggle with any of the anxiety 6’s do, but 7 is also likely. She’s an unconventional 7 if so, but still. She’s probably 874. But I can see 854. I should probably make my mind up though. Hmm… 874.
Besides, it doesn’t make much sense to have your wing not be your fix. It’s not impossible but me.
MBTI: ESFP
Okay, so, I’m going with Se-Ti here. You might be wondering why, but it’s actually very simple. When going into typing characters, I always assume they’re a sensor until proven otherwise. However, I don’t let myself get biased. I was sure Inkie would turn out to be an intuitive. However, re-reading, Inkie is actually very grounded in reality. She isn’t creative, more of a ‘technical thinker’ as she says and focuses on the present moment. She also makes decisions primarily based on what she wants, her own ‘values.’ Values don’t always have to be moral, and she’s a clear example of that. She values her sisters, but not other people, hence why she protects them but dismisses the other. I just can’t see Fe-Ti or Ne-Si.
Big five: SCUEN.
Might seem weird, but Inkie actually does tend towards the calm side of things. She goes into things with little plan when her sisters aren’t around, and egocentric is a no brainer. N is self explanatory; I is usually more of an experience seeker.
Temperament: Choleric-sanguine is the closest fit to her. You may argue phlegmatic but she does not try to serve others in the slightest lmao. She’s selfish.
Conclusion: ESFP sx8w7 874 SCUEN choleric.
Oh, fun fact, “yup! i like to think that there's something running in the family. pinkie is bipolar, inkie is scitzophrenic (sp?), and blinkie has bordeline personality disorder XD” Where do we get any idea of that in the story, through their behaviour? Nowhere.
Also, despite Inkie knowing her actions are wrong, and the others, Rei said this regarding Derpy: “she doesn't think it's wrong. none of them do. you gotta put yourself in the shoes of a sociopath; they each may have different reasons why they think the way they do, but when your brain works in this fashion, your view of the world is warped.”
Pinkie Pie:
Enneagram: sp7w8
Alright! Let’s go back to this! Reminder that I am ONLY talking about Muffins Pinkie Pie here, and not MLP Pinkie Pie, who is very different from Muffins Pinkie Pie. So, I don’t think my typing was wrong at all. But I’ve been considering 8 for Pinkie. However, I’m not sure if she’s 7w8 or 8w7. I think Pinkie starts off as a 7w8 but Reitanna randomly decides to make her a megalomaniac. So, it’s complicated.
8’s don’t like vulnerability, but Pinkie doesn’t care. In fact, she’ll use her vulnerability to manipulate Apple Bloom in Silence Is Silver. So, that rules 8 out.
That being said… well, we’ll cross tritype when we get there.
So, I stand by her being a sp7w8. You might think Pinkie is too pessimistic to be an 8, but she isn’t a pessimist. An edgelord, but not a pessimist. She only confronts her dark attitude in life when literally being sentenced to death.
Tritype: 782
I think Pinkie is a textbook 782, and I’ll explain why. I was inclined to say 728 but I think she struggles with shame the least. She is very aggressive in getting what she wants, but she also has a 2 fix because she views her baking as a give and take.
"You do not control lives, Pinkie Pie," Celestia growled lowly, feeling hatred toward the party pony. "And you have caused more sadness than you can even imagine..."
"Have I?" sneered Pinkie. "With all of the cupcakes and pastries I brought to parties? With all of the money I helped bring in when I started working at Sugarcube Corner so that the Cakes found financial stability? To the point where they were able to care for themselves and two brand new foals when they came along?" She suddenly stamped her hoof on the floor, making everypony jump once again. "I know for a fact that every single pony in this room consumed quite a large amount of my special pastries, including you, Princess Celestia, Princess Luna. And I can recall each and every one of your reactions after taking the first bite! You want to know what it was?" Her furious eyes scanned the room as she was met with no response. Then she chuckled lightly. "A smile."
She’s clearly just messing with Celestia, but there is some truth to what she is saying. She clearly views what she’s doing as “good” to a degree because other people like her gifts. 2’s struggle with pride, and because Pinkie thinks she’s helpful, she feels she is entitled to do what she wants. This is a light fix, but still there.
Pinkie Pie also has a need for her cupcakes to be THE BEST, leading me towards a 2w3 > 3w2 fix. Being the BEST isn’t her main goal, but it’s up there.
Oh, fun fact about Fluttershy by the way, Reitanna was considering making her a baker. As a FuckedUp!PinkieShy shipper (like in an AU where they’re both fucked up idk) I would’ve loved that.
“Yeah, your story makes more sense than mine, but I like the "what ifs" you can come with by reading stories like these. Could you imagine Fluttershy turning into a psycho with Pinkie, or getting super mad and taking revenge?” “I actually considered that, but just like you said, it seemed a bit OOC”
MBTI: ENFP.
Pinkie Pie is probably an ENFP. At first, I considered Se dom, however she is VERY opportunistic and has constant ideas. Who even gets an idea to bake someone because of a cheese grater? Poor writing, or a Ne character? Either way, I think Ne-Si makes more sense than Ni-Se. Pinkie actually does use Si to a degree. She gets enraged when Celestia takes her friends away (even if she did it herself. Hypocrisy!) and also has a very strict schedule on how she does things. Fi > Fe might seem very strange however Fi users can manipulate. Pinkie doesn’t care at all about societal standards. She only keeps up with them to avoid being caught for her crimes. Also, while she hides her depression, it’s mostly to protect herself rather than her sisters. In Twilight’s Fall, she has no problem being pessimistic to her friends and saying horrible stuff.
OCEAN: SLOEI.
Pretty self explanatory. I don’t think I need to explain this.
Temperament: Sanguine-choleric.
Conclusion: Sanguine-choleric sp7w8 782 ENFP SLOEI
Apple Bloom:
Oh Apple Bloom- she’s had it rough. Definitely a type. So, for her enneagram… I decided to look at Broken Tiara, as it’s the story I think characterises Apple Bloom the most, and Silence Is Silver. We learn from the former that Apple Bloom struggles with rage and wrath. She wants to cause other people pain because she’s suffered. Apple Bloom self-sabotages in the story, killing her very own big sister but using Pinkie Pie to fill the gap. She destroys her family, because they don’t matter anymore, Pinkie Pie does. She believes killing is her destiny.
Enneagram: sp6w7- explanation below
Reitanna says this about Apple Bloom, “Actually, no, it's nothing physical, it's a trauma model. Apple Bloom had already shown sociopathic traits by joining pinkie in the first place, but what people don't realize is, the actual act does a lot more to the mind than watching someone lose their life. First, with each incident she witnessed, stress and trauma were put on her brain little by little, meaning it was literally breaking her sanity. Once she did it herself, the power of this act traumatized her so severely, it finally broke her sanity. Since she is a child, the effects of this are much more detrimental than to an adult, due to the fact that the brain is still developing. The damage has caused her to develop one or two personality disorders, which is common in trauma models in children. Since she has been treated so kindly by pinkie pie, Apple Bloom's brain associates these acts as good things because she has been shown positive reinforcement by her mentor, therefore, she doesn't comprehend the fact that something bad has happened to her. She is under the assumption that THIS is who she really is because of pinkie's manipulation. This loss of reality makes her, by definition, insane.”
“I can't pinpoint exactly what she has because I would need to look at all of the personality disorders, but she's definitely not sane.”
Personally, I won’t theorise on what personality disorders Apple Bloom could have, as she is still a child, and children usually get diagnosed with conduct disorder rather than ASPD, so I don’t want to speculate too much.
Apple Bloom compartmentalises her empathy and true nature for her trauma and manipulated self. ("Nah," she chuckled, “That wasn't the real me. It never was. This is the real me, the other one was just tryin to keep me locked away.")
She has an obsession with destruction. She refers to wanting to destroy other ponies in Broken Tiara and says the exact same thing in Silence Is Silver when talking about Silver Spoon. She’s also power-driven, much like Pinkie Pie, and wrathful.
In ABGHCM (Apple Bloom Gets Her Cutie Mark) we see more of this behavior repeated. “I think this was all meant to happen. Everything happens for a reason, right? That's why I was the one who volunteered to take you when your number came up."
She justifies it all with it being her destiny. And getting her cutie mark (one of the worst utilising of this plot device ever) helps her solidify this. I sorta have a theory that Pinkie used dark magic or smth to give Apple Bloom that cutie mark to manipulate her further, but that would be silly. Perfect for Muffins, I can’t take a single thing in this story seriously.
I had to go back to the quiz to get more characterisation of Apple Bloom. If you want all the answers by the way, I’ll drop them right here:
Pinkie Answers:
"How are you today?" "Fine and dandy, right as candy!"
"When it comes to friendship, what do you think is most important?" "Support!My friends are my life! I'd be nothing without them!"
"If you found yourself in a very scary situation, how would you react?" "HA Me? Afraid? I fear nothing."
"What do you think of the world and the people in it?" "Oh, I LOVE everybody”
"If somepony attacks you, how do you respond?" "Oh, that was an attack? It felt like a bug bite.”
"What's your idea of a good time?" “EVERYBODY needs to be having a good time! Everybody that matters, of course!"
"How would you get revenge on those who hurt you?" "Life isn't about revenge, but every body else can do as they please!"
"How do you deal with sadness?" "I suppress the sadness by pretending it's not there."
"Do you think you might be crazy?" "No pony is entirely sane! I'm crazy in my own way!"
"When you do something bad, how do you feel?" "Oh, I NEVER do anything bad!" (Explicitly contradicted by her saying "we're bad people" in On Trial)
"What do you think of life?" "I love life! It's great!"
"How are your dreams?" "I have good dreams. If they turn bad, I just make them good again." (Contradicted in Sting.)
"How was your childhood?" "It was depressing until I was inspired to go my own way and find happiness."
"Someone just lied to you. How did you find out, and how do you respond?"
"I don't really care if they lied to me, l'm a pretty big liar myself."
"I see you have cupcakes. May I have one?" "Of course, take two if you'd like!"
"How do you perceive the mind?" "It's an amazing machine that can create wonderful things. Without it, we'd be boring."
"You know, I think you're an idiot." "Ha, yeah, sometimes I am."
"Last question... how is your sleep?" “I never want the day to end, so I stay up late until I pass out. My energy can keep me up for hours when it's time for bed, so I only get a few hours of sleep. It doesn't take a huge toll on me, though."
Minkie Answers:
"First of all, how are you doing today?" "Same as every day.”
"When it comes to friendship, what do you feel is most important?" "Love. The love shared among friends is the true key to happiness."
"If you found yourself in a very scary situation, how would you react?" "I hardly fear things. Whatever it is, I'll make it more afraid of me."
"What do you think of the world, other than yourself and those close to you?" "Scum. Trash.”
"If somepony attacks you, how do you respond?" “They know better than to attack me. So they wouldn't."
"What's your idea of a good time?" "If my friends are smiling and laughing, then I'm having the time of my life!"
"How would you get revenge on those who hurt you?" "I need to make sure they feel ALL of my pain."
"How do you deal with sadness?" "I'm honestly not very good at fighting it.”
"Do you think you may be crazy?" “I know I'm ill, but l'm not crazy. Crazy ponies aren't aware of their actions."
"When you do something bad, how do you feel?" "I only feel guilty if I did it to somepony I love, otherwise I feel nothing."
"What do you think of life?" "Life? What life?"
"How are your dreams?" "Mostly nightmares about traumatic events in my past. They wake me up frequently."
"How was your childhood?" "I was hurt and neglected for a long time. It has broken me, but I find things to make me feel better."
"Somepony just lied to you. How do you find out, and what do you do?" "They lied to my face. I can tell if somepony is lying immediately to me, and I make sure they stop.”
"I see you have cupcakes. Can I have one?" "Yes, but just one, okay?"
"How do you perceive the mind?" "Sometimes it's not so good to us. It can make us think things we don't want to think."
"You know what? I think you're an idiot.” “…”
"Last question, how is your sleep?" "Well, since I have trouble sleeping, I'll do whatever anypony else is doing if THEY are still up. Otherwise I lay in bed, hoping sleep will take me. This makes me sleepy during the day. When I DO sleep, my nightmares will wake me back up.”
Blinkie answers:
"First off, how are you doing today?" "What's it to YOU?"
"When it comes to friendship, what do you feel is most important?" "Honesty. I think it's important to stay honest with your friends."
"If you found yourself in a very scary situation, how would you react?" "If I’M not the cause of it, how scary can it be?"
"What do you think of the rest of the world, other than yourself and those around you?" "Ha! The world is full of ponies too DUMB to see the blatant truth in front of their eyes."
"If someone attacks you, how do you respond?” “Are you serious?”
"What's your idea of a good time?" “I need to be in control of the activity, or I'm not happy." (Well we can rule out A > E in OCEAN)
"How would you get revenge on those who hurt you?" "I will let them feel all the power of my rage.”
"How do you deal with sadness?" "With anger. Turn sadness to anger. It's the only way to cope." (Real, relatable)
"Do you think you might be crazy?" "Why would you ask that? Are you implying something?!"
"When you do something bad, how do you feel?" "I don't care. I MEANT to do it.”
"What do you think of life?" "Life is only as good as what I make it."
"How are your dreams?" "My dreams are however I want them to be. I can lucid dream." (Contradicted in Sting)
"How was your childhood?" "My family never supported anything I did, and I hated them for it. I was disciplined often."
"Someone just lied to you. How do you figure it out?" "Doesn't matter how I find out. I'll… make sure they regret it."
"I see you have a cupcake, may I have one?" "If you really wanted one, you'd go get it yourself.”
"How do you perceive the mind?" "It's the thing that creates ideas, good and bad. You don't have to do what it says."
"You know what? I think you're an idiot.” "[navy seals copypasta]”
"Last question, how is your sleep?" "I feel uncomfortable if everyone is asleep and I'm not. I might purposefully keep somepony awake if l'm not tired."
Inkie Answers:
"First off, how are you doing?" "If I get my way, I'm good any day."
"When it comes to friendship, what do you think is most important?" "Loyalty. I always protect those who are dear to me."
"If you found yourself in a scary situation, how'd you react?" "I don't scare easily. I'm decently calm."
"What do you think of the rest of the world, other than yourself and those close to you?" "Do you REALLY consider them individuals? Pfft."
"If someone decides to attacks you, how do you respond?” "Anyone dumb enough to try and attack me will regret it.”
"What's your idea of a good time?" "Everything needs to be to MY liking."
"How would you get revenge on those who hurt you?" "To them, it'll seem like it didn't affect me. But when they least expect it, I will go to extremes to make them pay."
"How do you deal with sadness?" "Well, I rarely feel sad at all, but when I do, it's not pretty."
"Do you think you might be crazy?" "Some people may consider my behaviour crazy, but if in my right mind, is it really so?"
"When you do something bad, how do you feel?” "If everything that happens happens, can we really do anything wrong?"
"What do you think of life?” "I don't hate life, I hate the concept of it. It's wasted on those who don't appreciate it.”
"How are your dreams?" "I prefer the bad dreams because they give me cool ideas. They're more frequent than the good dreams."
"How was your childhood?" "My family put a lot of pressure on me. The affects stay with me to this day."
"Somepony just lied to you. How did you find out, and how do you respond?" "If I have a gut feeling I'm being lied to, l'll try and force the truth out of them."
"I see you have a cupcake or two. May I have one? "I'll think about it... how about you try and impress me for it?"
"How do you perceive the mind?" "The mind is whatever you make it."
"You know, I think you're an idiot." "Hmph. Likewise."
"Last question, how is your sleep?" "I like to settle down and chill, enjoying the company of anypony else who is still up. I'll easily go to sleep when they do. I have a bad habit of waking too early, which makes me sort of groggy, but l'm fine."
Apple-Bloom Answers:
"How is your day?” "I'm cautious, but I know I'II be fine!"
"When it comes to friendship, what do you think is most important?" "Dedication! I think friends should remain loyal and true."
"If you find yourself in a scary situation, how would you react?" "Sometimes the fear DOES strike me, but responding with courage is a true sign of character." (Sx6? Sp6 with a sx second instinct and so blind?)
"What do you think of the world, other than yourself and those close to you?" "Pathetic, absolutely pathetic. In fact it's REALLY funny."
"If somepony attacks you, how do you respond?" "I may be small, but i'm tough. Don't underestimate how badly I can kick their butt."
"What's your idea of fun?" "If I can let loose completely, it's a party!”
"How would you get revenge on those who've hurt you?" "They hurt me, so I want them to hurt 10x more."
"How do you deal with sadness?" “I have to cry it out, but I don't want anypony to see me doing it."
"Do you think you might be crazy?" "Of course not! I am who I am! Everypony else is crazy!"
"When you do something bad, how do you feel?" "Sometimes I feel a twinge of guilt, but if I ignore it, it goes away."
"What do you think of your life?" "When I was young, everything seemed so dandy... When did it start feeling so terrible?" (I know she’s had a terrible childhood but girl- WHEN?)
"How are your dreams?" "Sometimes my dreams are pretty bad, and they stem from bad memories or feelings."
"How was your childhood?" "I was raised well by my family, but I chose my own path, one they didn't approve of."
"Somepony just lied to you, how do you find out?" "They lied to me? I'll lie right back, in that way it'll be my revenge."
"I see you have a cupcake, may I have one?” "Why not? I have them, so l'll share them!"
"How do you perceive the mind?" "It's fragile. If it breaks, it's unlikely to be fixed."
"You know, I think you're an idiot” "I'll remember that next time I consider doing something nice for you."
"Last question, how is your sleep?" "I spent all day having fun, so I feel exhausted toward the end of the night. I try to stay up with my friends, but end up falling asleep at some point or another. Sometimes my bad dreams wake me up in the middle of the night, but I can fall asleep soon after."
BabsSeed Answr:
"First off, how are you doing today?" "I can't complain, really!"
"When it comes to friendship, what do you feel is most important?" "Giving back. When a friend helps you when things are bad, it's important to pay it forward."
"If you found yourself in a very scary situation, how would you react?" "Fight or flight? Ha, my first instinct is to fight.” (Counter6)
"What do you think of the world aside from your friends?" “They are weak fools who can't think for themselves."
"If someone attacks, what do you do?" "No one gets away with attacking me."
"What's your idea of a good time?" "If my friends and I don't have to hold anything back, it's a PARTY, PARTY PARTY"
"How would you get revenge on those who hurt you?" "Hahaha... let's say... no one gets away with hurting me."
"How do you deal with sadness?" "…have to distract myself.”
"Do you think you might be crazy?" "I am perfectly sane! I know exactly what I'm doing.”
"When you do something bad, how do you feel?" "Well, no pony knows l'm the one that did it. It's only wrong if I get caught." (Reitanna stop making TOOL references every two seconds challenge: IMPOSSIBLE)
"What do you think of life?" "Life was really unfair to me. But it's just a game, right? Now I'm the one winning."
"How are your dreams?" "My dreams are usually pretty nice. Sometimes I get bad ones, though that don't bother me."
"How was your childhood?" "| experienced heavy losses so young in life, as well as suffered from violent bullying. I was depressed until a dear friend helped me get back up."
"Somepony just lied to you. How do you figure that?" "I'll find out on my own. I'm smart, so I know. I’ll play along with them until I get the chance.”
"I see you have a cupcake. Can I have one?" "Depends... what have you done for me lately?"
"How do you perceive the mind?" "The mind is sacred. It should be fed knowledge, it should be soothed with meditation." (5 fix?)
"You know, I think you're an idiot." "Oh yeah? Well [a yo-mama-fat type insult, literally]”
Last question... how is your sleepis?" "Well, I make full use of the evening until I start to feel tired. Then I listen to music as I fall asleep. I keep it on low volume, and on repeat, so I hear my favourite songs in my dreams."
Our Muffins Blorbo 🫧:
"First off, how are you feeling today?" “I am so, SO happy today.”
"When it comes to friendship, what do you think is most important?" "Happiness! If my friends are happy, I am too!" (Fe > Fi?)
"You find yourself in a scary place and situation, how do you react?" "Sometimes I give into fear and run, it depends on HOW scary it is."
"What do you think of the rest of the world, other than yourself and those close to you?” "Oh! Everyone is great, there are a few bad ones though."
"If somepony attacks you, how do you respond?” "Why would they do that?! I haven't done anything wrong! have a right to defend myself!” (Hypocrite)
"What's your idea of a good time?" "Surrounded by all my friends no matter what!”
"How would you get revenge on those who hurt you?" "I'm tired of getting harmed. My revenge is going on anyone get my hooves on."
"How do you deal with sadness?" "I have to cry. If you cry, you feel better afterwards."
"Do you think you might be crazy?" "I'm not crazy, my reality is different than yours!"
"When you do something bad, how do you feel?" "My GOOD actions make up for my bad ones."
"What do you think of life?" "I feel betrayed by life. No pony exists on purpose. But I find reasons to smile!"
"How are your dreams?" "Usually my dreams are so real, I mistake them for reality. They can be good or bad."
"How was your childhood?" "I thought everything was good, but then I got abandoned and had to find my own way."
"Somepony just lied to you. What do you do?” "I am told by a friend and feel hurt by a liar, and tell them to never talk to me again."
"I see you have a cupcake, can I have one?" "I'll give you more than one! You can have half, and l'll have half, that way it's even."
"How do you perceive the mind?" "Sometimes you see things differently from others because your brain is programmed differently." (And rei says she isn't autistic coded...)
“You know what? You’re an idiot.” “I am NOT an idiot.” (10/10 defence.)
"Last question, how is your sleep?” ur sl "I try to stay up with my friends, but end up falling asleep first. just get really tired if it's been a long day, and sometimes I'II also take naps. I DO feel refreshed while I'm awake, though."
RUN:
"First off, how are you doing today?" "Things are great!"
"When it comes to friendship, what do you think is most important?" "Connection. I just love my friends so much, I don't know what I'd do if I lost them."
"If you found yourself in a very scary situation, what is your reaction?" "I tend to flee."
"What do you think about the rest of the world other than yourself?" "Some are good, some are bad, that's just the way it is."
"If somepony attacks you, how do you respond?" "I would ask them why they attacked me!"
"What's your idea of a good time?" “I like to party with my friends, but I also like to make new ones."
"How do you get revenge on those who hurt you?" "Revenge never solves anything."
"How do you deal with sadness?" "I just try to think positively, even when crying."
"Do you think you are crazy?" "Well, what do you mean by crazy? 'Crazy' as in eccentric, 'crazy' as in insane? I need some more context!" (Reitanna hates rational people who ask questions.)
"When you do something bad, do you feel bad?" "I feel guilty, and that guilt doesn't go away until I confess."
"What do you think of life?" "Life is good. I wake up every morning and I just feel so good!"
"How are your dreams?" “They can be good, they can be bad. It just depends on what my brain is dealing with at the time."
"How was your childhood?" “There were good times and bad. My experiences made me who I am."
"Somepony just lied to you. How did you find out, and how do you respond?" "Why would somepony lie to me? No, there must be some mistake. People don't just... LIE... do they?!" (Yeah no one thinks this...)
"Can I have a cupcake?" "I'm not gonna finish them all on my own, silly!'"
"How do you perceive the mind?" "Your mind is like a sanctuary; it tells you what is right and what is wrong."
"You know what, I think you're a fucking idiot." "That's not very nice. How can you say something like that so easily?"
"Last question, how is your sleep?" "I like to iust settle down and read or something else calming) until I'm tired enough to sleep. I don't have any troubles falling asleep at all."
Anyway, let’s look at Apple Bloom’s answers. She’s optimistic (believing everything will be okay), loyal, “brave,” condescending, anger driven and spiteful. Things we already knew. Her enneagram being 1 is unlikely, unless she’s a very unhealthy one. 2 isn’t impossible, but she doesn’t seem very heart triad, you know? Probably not a 5. 6, 7, 8 and 9 are on the table. I think 6 is the most likely, and we can rule out 8 and 9. She’s probably a sp6w7.
“Preservation Sixes want to feel the embrace of the family, to be in a warm, protected place where there are no enemies. They search for an "idealized other" for protection, and they can have issues that look like separation anxiety. Like a child who needs to hold on to the mother, these Sixes don't feel confident in defending their own self-interests and survival.”
“These Sixes seek to escape anxiety by seeking the security of protection; therefore, they become dependent on others. They have a passion for compensating for the fear of separation, which manifests as warm and friendly temperament. Their driving need is therefore for something like (neurotic) friendship or warmth, which makes this subtype the warmest of these Sixes. They tend to be in a good mood and have a generally pleasant disposition. They look for a bond of intimacy and trust in their relationships, and they fear disappointing others, especially those who are closest to them. Being warm is their way of getting people to be friendly so they won't be attacked.”
However, due to her sx instinct being second, I think she still has some sx 6 traits. Also,
She doesn’t seem to hide her anger. In fact, she actively goes against Pinkie, but that’s when she’s REALLY pissed off towards Diamond Tiara, not her usual mode. In fact, she seems scared of Pinkie otherwise.
Could be sp7, but I doubt it.
Tritype: 638
Okay, figuring out her tritype was HELL, but I think I’ve got it down. So, her heart type was the hardest to find, but I think she’s a 3 fix. Why? Because she’s obsessed with getting her cutie mark, as a means of protection (6 core) from her bullies. As for her gut type, I think we can rule out 1, as she doesn’t really care about morality, and 9, because she isn’t conflict-avoiding.
MBTI: ISTP
So, probably a Fe-Ti user, but I can see her Ti being higher than Fe. As for her other functions, I think… Se-Ni? Maybe Ti-Se-Fe-Ni… but that doesn’t FEEL right. That’s ISTP, right? Um…
She uses Ni in ABGHCM when she predicts Applejack will need stronger restraints, and she has very Ni attitudes in life (“this was meant to happen.”
Ni-Fe? INFJ? Unlikely. Her Fe isn’t THAT strong. Tert Fe seems right. ESTP? But E6 is cognitively introverted. She uses a LOT of Ni.
Actually, I can see Fi-Ni for Apple Bloom, but maybe Inferior Fi? No… Tert Fi? What “values” does she have though? Literally none.
ISTP? She’s kinda manipulative, but inferior Fe users still have Fe in their stack. I mean she literally taunts Applejack by saying “One last bit of sisterly bonding, right?”
And she HAS gone against group values before… I don’t know. I can’t guess very well, but ISTP is the closest I can guess.
SLOAN: SLUEN
Temperament. Sanguine-choleric. [angry sanguine <:()
Conclusion: sp6w7 638 ISTP SLUEN Sanguine-choleric.
Derpy Hooves:
Enneagram: sp7w6
Derpy!! Our blorbo!! We only have Derpy and Babs left, so let’s start with our autistic little blorbo. So, Derpy was abandoned from a young age, and had no friends. Stumbling across Pinkie’s hobby sort of gave her a connection, or someone to rely on. Sp7 is my first thought, to be honest. Not a 1, 2, 3 and probably not a core 4. We can rule out 5, and 6 is unlikely. Same with 8 or 9. In fact, I’m pretty confident she is a 7. I don’t know her instinct though. Reitanna once said on Twitter Derpy struggles with Gluttony, so…
Probably sp/sx 7w6 (still wary) 741.
Okay, so, I probably have to justify that 1 fix. Derpy is very cautious of making a mistake, so the point where she cries because of it. She’s also under the impression that what she’s doing is morally justified to a degree, “what’s bad for you is good for us,” though that could just be selfishness. Her 1 fix is very light, but I feel like she hates the way she was treated and hates how cruel the world is, despite the fact she is a hypocrite.
MBTI: ESFJ
Fe is not impossible, but idk if it’s her dominant function, really so. I think she’s an XSFJ, probably ESFJ. And the reasoning is that she’s very empathetic, albeit selectively, and she values her friends happiness over her own. She doesn’t like change very much, like when Pinkie got taken away, and that’s how anyone would react, but she does seem to like feeling safe and structured. She had an adventurous side though (Tert Neh) and uses VERY flawed logic to justify her actions using her inf logic.
SLOAN: SLUAN.
She’s just a little borbcy.
Temperament: sanguine-phlegmatic.
Conclusion: ESFJ sp7w6 741 SLUAN sanguine-phlegmatic.
Babs Seed’s Typing:
Enneagram: sx6
Ah yes, the best Muffins character. Well, according to Reitanna and only Reitanna, no one else likes her. Anyway, let’s rule out the obvious. She’s probably not a 1, 2, 3 or 4. 4 fix is possible. 7 and 9 is also less likely. 5, 6 and 8 are the main contenders. We can rule out sp6 and so6. I don’t think she’s an 8, as she doesn’t seem to care about control, but protecting herself. So, now we’re torn between 5 and 6. I’m leaning 5? She could also be a 9. No, I think she’s a 5. She’s very obsessed with mindfulness, taming the mind and… she’s also too confident to be a 5. I know, fallacy. But I don’t really understand fives. You’re like aliens.
I don’t think she’s a 5. Probably a 6w7, actually. Sx/sp6.
Tritype: 684
Probably a 8 and 4 fix. Like, she definitely has 4 traits. She gets jealous of ducks. DUCKS. She insists on fighting her OWN battles, and boy does she fight. She has some so8 traits but uh, killing Fluttershy isn’t exactly “protecting the weak.” She thinks homiending is “strong.”
MBTI:
Ahhh… ugh. Okay, so, Fi inferior isn’t impossible, but Ti > Te makes sense. So, maybe Fe tert? ESTP? Se-Ni is obvious. ESTP is my best guess.
SLOAN: SCOEN.
Temperament: choleric-sanguine.
Conclusion: choleric-sanguine ESTP sx6w7 684 SCOEN.
And that’s it! That’s my analysis of the bakers! I don’t plan on making any changes, and I probably WILL change my mind many times. I could go into other characters, but the point is, the writing in Muffins isn’t the best, so that’s unlikely. Chances are, I’ll leave this post here and yeah.
Edit: When I made this post, my understanding of enneagram wasn’t perfect, and my understanding of socionics was worse. If you want to know my updated thoughts, I might make a post about it, but I’ve already made two posts about this at this point. Would you guys like a part three?
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so4core · 1 year
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my typology profile no one asked 💌 [] means it isnt fully confirmed or i havent learnt yet.
MBTI: INFP
Jung: IF(N)
Enneagram: 4
Subtype: so4
Tritype/Trifix: 459
Instinctual Variant: so/sx
Socionics+subtype: EII-2Fi-H
Big 5: /R/[L]oAI
Psychosophy: ELVF (3441)
Temperament: melancholic-phlegmatic
FIRO: ph-suph-phsu
Motives: mo[T]ideg
Temporistics: []
Amatorics: []
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thedivineerotic · 11 months
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❄️The Ice Breaker❄️
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Greetings and salutations, nice to see you stumbled upon my blog. Welcome to my vain attempt to evict myself from my own head and out into the world. The primary audience for this blog is myself but if anything I post interests you, touches you or even simply makes you think twice you are welcome to share my world, just be sure to grab a life-raft because it gets deep. Here are a few basic facts so you can get a feel for the water before you jump in 
Age: 24
Pronouns: She/Her
Sexuality: Don’t know, not dying to figure it out yet
DNI: If you be on bullshit
Cancer Rising, Aquarius Sun, Libra Moon (Tropical)
Gemini Rising, Capricorn Sun, Virgo Moon (Sidereal)
INFJ
4w5 (459 tritype)
Occasionally NSFW
Steal any of my intellectual property (poetry, short stories, writing samples, original characters etc.) and i’m on that ass like huggies
Primary Interests and Post Content: 
Writing (Realistic Fiction, Erotica, Short Stories, Poetry)
Journaling
Book Reviews
Retro Dance Music 
Obscure funk and R&B
Vaporwave
Cozycore
Citypop
Astrology (mostly sidereal inc. Vedic)
Personality Assessment (MBTI and Enneagram)
Psychology/ Sociology/ Philosophy/ Anthropology
20th Century Black History
Mississippi Delta Culture
Ancestry
Ways to describe me:
The Intensely Mellow Enigma
The Old Soul That’s a Child at Heart
The Black Ice Queen
The Divine Erotic
That's all I got for the surface, see you guys down below!
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funkymbtifiction · 1 year
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I have a hard time figuring my tritype 496 or 495. I have been rereading the description over and over again but i can relate both. Maybe can u help me differentiate it? Like i want security and comfort like type 6 and i thirst for knowledge and seek the truth like type 5 so idk...
The fact that you asked me for help suggests 6 over 5, but beyond that -- look at reactivity. Do you have two reactive fixes or three withdrawn fixes? Being reactive means when you get upset, you react and draw attention to the negativity. 4, 6, and 8 are reactive fixes. 4-6 amplifies emotional states and how incurable they are and how something is wrong and can't be fixed, while wanting sympathy and support from others.
4, 5, and 9 are in the withdrawn triad, which means they do not think about consulting with others or assume anyone else has anything to offer them; they don't really care what others are 'doing' and they solve their own problems by looking inward. 4 is reactive, 5 and 9 have flat emotions. So both of those fixes try to tone down the 4 through numbing/analysis. This tritype has no reason to move toward people -- so they long for others to approach them, but forget that they have to do something and/or initiate to maintain a connection. It also never occurs to you to do anything about any situation that you are faced with, since there's no number in this tritype that is motivated to take action.
469 is more people-oriented and warmer, 459 is super introverted and has trouble knowing how to connect to others.
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littlx-songbxrd · 1 year
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Hey I meant to ask you about Kit's tritype. I like he might be a 459 but i figured i should ask you because you know more about thos stuff.
Also idk if you heard but CC is starting writing for twp in the fall apparently. I am cautiously excited.
God I've been so off on shadowhunters but I think thats definetly posible. Fives reaction to fear is trying to get as much knowledge as posible because if they hold the knowldege then they dont have to be afraid. I get that making sense for kit. And having a reaction to anger by stuffing it down and being so incredibly angry on the inside, like a fuse about to blow. Yeah. Im seeing the picture
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etherealcandie · 2 months
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479 – Gentle Spirit Archetype
479 - This is the sort of sprite or fairy like tritype. There is a need to remain positive while still searching for meaning. The blindspot is that there is an attraction to magical thinking and missed opportunities to speak their truth so they find themselves glossing over negative feeling states in favor of something more comfortable or positive. When 4 is in charge there's a tendency to not see all the ways in which depression or sadness is evaded through this magical thinking process.
the life mission is that this is the true healer archetype. They are often found doing bodywork or other healing practices as these are the 3 types that have a desire to transform. They like to inspire people toward happiness through expressing their creativity in a peaceful non-intrusive way.
She said this is the most lyrical type, a sort of ethereal archetype (so is the 459 but it is a more withdrawn ethereal quality, almost wispy and ghost like) whereas the energy here is lighter and more impish or I think when it's a male energy you get a strong trickster archetype (like dfgray). Playful yet meaningful. Very idealistic (although not quite as idealistic as the 471) but still concerned with maintaining positivity and feelings of being up.
She said this is the gentle soul tritype that has a healing presence on others whether or not they intend to so when she says healer this is what she means as opposed to being vocationally attracted to the healing arts (although this is very common with this tritype).
you are very identified with the defense of optimism and tend to hid your more painful feelings and pessimism for fear of being rejected. you see the wonder in beauty and are gentle, lyrical, and idealistic in the way you relate to others. you are attracted to the healing profession or arts.
your life mission is to identify what is truly meaningful in life and help people transform negative feeling into positive change. a true gentle spirit, you feel happiest when you have creative expression to reconnect with your innermost self and facilitate change.
your blind spot is that you can be so focused on ideal circumstances that you become trapped in magical thinking and fail to speak your higher truth and act in accordance with your true feelings.
your growing edge is to speak your truth even if it will create conflict with others. going along to get along or to keep things light and upbeat denies the truth of the moment and can cause you to become distant from yourself. higher love has a voice and true joy is not dependent on the image of being happy.
This tritype [927] is the most identified with seeing themselves as peaceful. More than any other tritype, they need peace and positive relating to experience a sense of being... so are extremely uncomfortable with negativity in relationships. The 479 doesn't like it but expects it.
4 and 7 together combine to create a sense of the creative, intuitive, magical and imaginative. The gut type determines the flavor. 479s are elegant, wispy and ethereal. When 4 is dominant the 4 is reluctant to show their edgy, more negative emotions. The emphasis is on having an image that is deep but not seen as difficult. Suffering is more private.
The 749 is the 7 that is the most elusive, liquid and fluid. They are positive in a gentle way with a touch of sadness. They are identified with being deep but still future oriented and forward moving whereas the 479 is identified with past and what is missing and believed to be of importance.
The 947 usually thinks that they are the 4 as they see life as bittersweet and feel deeply but they are not as intense as the 4 or as hungry for diversity and experience as the 7. The 947 and 974 seek harmonic resonance more than the the 479 or 794. They want depth and beauty but seek peace and tranquility more. They pine in a quiet gentle manner. They lack voltage...and struggle with naming their preferences in the face of adversity.
If you have the sexual instinct as dominant you could easily identify with 974. The 972 is less ethereal and more focused on being positive. The 974 knows that they feel unhappy, they are more inclined to hide so that they will not be rejected for being negative.
All of the 7-9 combinations are somewhat positive. The 279 is focused on being pleasant. The 379 the most positive. The 479 Is positive outwardly but doesn't always feel it.
The 479 report that they feat that if they show negative emotions they might be rejected.
The 479 with 4 dominant feels devastated by negative mirroring. If a flaw is pointed out if feels disheartening. With negative feedback, the 479 will have trouble holding on to their sense of self... Self esteem suffers as the 479's sense of self is too fluid and takes the shape of the last mirror.
For the most part, 479s like to be in the healing/helping professions where they have the opportunity to use their intuition and creativity.
The 471 and the 479 are both focused on the vision, creativity and the magical. The difference is in the gut center. The 471 has 3 types with access to 1, so are very critical of themselves and feel they must manifest the vision. The 479 is less strident and more soft-spoken and gentle. They are dreamers and intuit but can be shy about pushing to manifest.
9s fear being in conflict. 479 vs 469. Look at the level of confidence and optimism. The 7 brings a light touch with magical thinking, hoping for the best. In contrast, the 6 brings support and loyalty. Both are highly intuitive but the 469 has more doubts - The 479 is more future oriented, focusing on the possibilities. The 469 is more dutiful with a heavier heart, fearing that they can't make enough of a difference.
479 do not realize how healing their gentle nature can be. Your life mission is to identify what is truly meaningful in life and help people transform negative feeling into positive change.
The 479 is more inclined to side step, make nice, and try to get along as conflict feel unbearable.
If you are a 479, you are intuitive, innovative and accepting. You want to be original, positive and peaceful. You are very identified with the defense of optimism and tend to hide your more painful feelings and pessimism for fear of being rejected. You see the wonder in beauty and are gentle, lyrical and idealistic in the way you relate to others.
Inwardly they feel a lot of intensity, especially if they are the sexual instinct. identification is with gentleness and can feel uncomfortable if they share something negative.
479 and 379 I have deemed the "cool guy" tritypes. When 4 is there you get that sort of archetype of the cool artist, laid back, playful, witty, but with a sort of "hidden sorrow". You sense there is more there but that they are keeping you at bay in order to avoid dipping too much into the swamp.
7-4-9 (and the variations thereof) would have a goodly dose of magical thinking. Tending to overdose (in some form) on imagination and whim.
If you knew just how off-base the names 'Healer' and 'Gentle Spirit' are for the 9-4-7 tritype, and how slanted the name 'Ambassador' is for the 9-3-7 (or as you imply 9-4-7 with a very heavy Three wing), how pronounced the narcissistism and exhibitionism of these two tritypes can be, you might perhaps not be so eager to identify with them. Also, the challenge to feel grounded in the physical world, or at least in one's own physicality, is part of the Nine itself, not to mention the Four.
--'a more abandoning and erratic 9. An insatiable and emotionally discriminating 9.':
I'm 974 and others wouldn't describe me as 'erratic' (nor would I). I think 'abandoning and erratic' comes from your so/sx stack, which comes through as a loud note, to me, in your posts.
As for "insatiable and emotionally discriminating", I think this also taps your stack. Your so/sx-ness brings forward the more gregarious aspect of the 7 in your tritype, which manifests as a more-extroverted interplay with those in your presence - though I'm not saying you're an extrovert - there's just more desire for inclusion there. For me (sp/sx), the 7 in my tritype shows up more exclusively as "private mental fun", with only a small interest in "sharing the good times with y'all".
The 4 (in my tritype) shows up as a focus on aesthetics (including a pretty high degree of full-on snobbery in that area), plus life-long issues with depression and feelings of being valueless.
479 - Innovative and accepting 4. Most positive 4. May have defense of optimism hiding pessimism as sadness is hidden.
Also, both sevens and nines have a tendency to want to avoid dealing with negative situations for different reasons...with 7-9-4, I'd guess there would be a lot more denial than the usual 7, but with 4 in there it couldn't be kept up for as long, so there might be cycles of denial-and-crash. There would probably be more underlying self-doubt than is normally found in seven, as well as using the withdrawing defense a bit more.
Yeah, I think seven brings a mild denial through optimism...and then nines tend to get into a bit of denial, because of their desire to avoid conflict/upsetting their equilibrium, so if nine were one of your tritypes, you'd probably have a bit of the "optimistic denial" of 7, but a bit of the "I don't want to deal with this" denial of 9, as well. By contrast, an 8 tritype would probably be more of a sobering influence on the seven, and 1 would probably add a bit of criticality and increased perfectionism (also making for a triple frustration type, with the 4 and 7...but probably less likely due to what you said about the "live and let live" approach to people.)
(4)-7-9 - The Positive 4
4-(7)-9 - The Withdrawn 7
4-7-(9) - The idealistic 9
A dreamer in every sense of the word. They love to go on flights of imagination, and dream up fantasy worlds. They may often find themselves disappointed in the real world however.
974: intuitive and innovative 9. Most creative 9, especially with an 8 wing (i would think 1 wing here). Tends to be moody. Extraverted 7ish.
As a 9-4-7, I value emotion in a 4-ish way. But the valuing seems once-removed in relation to my 9-ness. It's a belief (about emotion), and though beliefs affect behavior and attitude, in the case of the secondary tritype elements, they're not as reflexive as the response from the primary type.
The 479 is more gentle...and more ethereal. The 479 displays congenial attitudes and hides their feelings of anger for fear of being rejected. The 469 is more phobic than the 468. The 479 seems more easy going as they are more conflict-avoidant. They can demonstrate the outbursts of the sexual 4 when there is a threat to intimacy but feel terrible shame as their identity is built around being gentle and kind. The 468 feels more inclined to be the truth teller at all costs so they take greater risks.
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paranoxia888 · 6 months
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INTRO POST
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Hey there. I’m Noah, I’m an artist currently living in the uk. My current interests are Genshin, Prosekai, Prodiva, Serial Experiments Lain, Typology, and Law. I’m also a big fan of vaporwave, cyberpunk and cybercore.
I am self diagnosed autistic, im not usually a fan of self diagnosing but I have done months and months of research and it fits me very well, I’d get a proper diagnosis but currently it seems like it would close more doors than it would open for me. I can seem quite blunt or judgemental at times but I really don’t mean to, so I’m sorry if I seem that way. I also have quite a low social battery so please don’t be offended if I don’t talk much or for long.
My mbti at the moment is either INTP/INTJ and enneagram 5w4/9w8, leaning more towards INTJ 9w8 but if you’re good at typing people I’d appreciate it lots. I’m pretty sure my tritype is 459 and my big 5 is RLOAI.
I have some other blogs but I thought I’d start a new one since I hadn’t used the others in quite a while. The online games I currently play are genshin, proseka, roblox and I’m also down to play splatoon although I haven’t played it in a while, I’m waiting for the dlc to come out lol.
Feel free to message me if we’re mutuals, I’d love to talk to you. Hoping you have a good rest of your day
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m-v-tique · 23 days
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Personality Typing Alex Basics!!!
Alex
MBTI: ENTJ or ENFJ
Enneagram + Tritype: 8w9, 3w4, or 1w2 | 853, 358, 351, or 153
Instinctual Variant: SO/SX, SO/SP or SX/SO
Temperament: Phlegmatic-Sanguine, Choleric (Dominant)
Big 5 (*SLOAN): Social, Calm, Organized, Egotistical, Non Open-minded [SCOEN]
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Dolly
MBTI: ISTJ or ESTJ
Enneagram + Tritype: 1w2 or 1w9 | 163
Instinctual Variant: SP/SX, SP/SO or SO/SP
Temperament: Phlegmatic (Dom) or Phlegmatic-Choleric
Big 5: Social, Calm, Organized, Egotistical/Accommodating, Inquisitive/Non Open-Minded [SCO**]
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Scrina
MBTI: INFJ or ISFJ
Enneagram + Tritype: 6w5 || 612
Instinctual Variant: SO/SP
Temperament: Phlegmatic (Dominant)
Big 5: Reserved, Calm, Organized, Accommodating, Inquisitive [RCOAI]
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Candy Princess
MBTI: ESFP or ENFP
Enneagram + Tritype: 3w2 or 2w3 || 397 or 297
Instinctual Variant: SO/SX or SX/SO
Temperament: Sanguine (Dominant)
Big 5: Social, Calm, Unorganized, Accommodating, Non Open-Minded [SCUAN]
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Asmodena
MBTI: ENFP
Enneagram + Tritype: 7w6 || 749 or 794
Instinctual Variant: SO/SP
Temperament: Sanguine (Dominant) or Sanguine-Phlegmatic
Big 5: Social, Calm, Unorganized, Accomodating, Inquisitive/Non open-minded [SCUA*]
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IDK WHO TF IS THAT BROOMSTICK
MBTI: ISTP
Enneagram + Tritype: 1w9 or 9w8 || 153, 135, 953 or 935
Instinctual variant: SP/SX or SP/SO
Temperament: Phlegmatic (Dominant)
Big 5: Reserved, Calm, Organized, Egotistical, Non open-minded [RCOEN]
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Olivia (Player)
MBTI: ISFP
Enneagram + Tritype: 4w5, 4w3, or 9w1 || 458, 459, 954 or 945
Instinctual variant: SP/SX, SO/SP or SO/SX
Temperament: Melancholic-Phlegmatic, Phlegmatic (Dom) or Melancholic (Dom)
Big 5: Reserved, Calm, UnOrganized, Accommodating, Inquisitive [RCUAI]
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Personality Profile
Primary Type Wiring
4
Starring Roles
Individualist, Tragic-Romantic, Connoisseur, Humanitarian, Aesthetic Person, One-of-a-kind, Dramatic King or Queen
TrueType Wiring
4 - 5 - 9
Personality Type
The Contemplative
Instinctual Wiring
Intimate
Instinctual Stack
Intimate, Social, Self-Preserving
Personality Profile
Worldview
Inner World
Outer World
Operating System
Growth Journey
In the Workplace
Famous People
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Worldview of Type 4
Melissa's
Overview
You are a deep, intuitive, self-aware person who strives to be unique and individualistic. Your passionate nature, incredible sensitivity, vision and emotional intelligence affords you the ability to see things in an entirely original way which is inspiring to others.
You have an aesthetic sensibility with a flair for the dramatic and you like to put your personal mark on things. Emotionally expressive, you notice what is missing and may at times feel swept away by intense feelings. Your keys to growth include realizing that everyone is equally unique and important, and finding emotional balance in the present moment.
What You Are Great At
Being passionate and romantic.
Maintaining an idealistic vision even in mundane realities.
Self-searching honesty with a willingness to look within.
Being emotionally deep and authentic.
Being creative, artistic and expressive with an eye for aesthetics and beauty.
Inspiring, moving, and uplifting others especially when they are suffering.
Being comfortable with all human emotions (even “darker” emotions).
Being compassionate, empathic and supportive to others.
Seeing what is missing and finding a unique way of addressing it.
Being open to the deeper truth or wisdom below the surface.
Enduring suffering and seeing its transformative value for inner growth.
Valuing and prioritizing deep connection with others.
Core Wiring
You want to be inspired, intuitive, and unique; but most importantly, you want to be passionate, true to your feelings, and authentic. You see yourself as a sensitive intellectual. That is, you see yourself as creative, expressive, and spiritual.
You are identified with your emotional states and their meaning. You see yourself as emotionally deep, and seek beauty and meaning in everything you do. You may envy others, however, and become moody, haughty or overly emotional under stress. At your best, you are emotionally self-aware, self-revealing, creative, extremely compassionate, and humane.
What Drives You
Feeling a deep sense of loss, and longing for what seems to be missing, can create the need for intensity and originality to fill the void. You try to be special and original, having a unique and distinct identity to manage feeling of rejection.
You are driven to avoid abandonment and don’t want to be seen as ordinary or shallow. You want to connect with your deepest emotions; express your passion and authentic individuality; understand and be understood; and create a world of beauty.
Inner World of Type 4
Melissa's
Core Fears
Your core fear of being rejected, may be expressed as fears of having no identity or personal significance, striving for individuality or chronic frustration. You may fear anything that would confirm your feelings of unworthiness, such as being made wrong, seen as defective or flawed or told that you are too sensitive or emotional.
Despite longing for deep connection, you fear alienating others with chronic woes or emotional reasoning. You may then fear actually opening up to others and experiencing the pain of losing again.
Core Desires
To be authentic, singular, unique, and exceptional, as well as to have deep emotional connections.
Core Needs
You need to be seen as artistic, gifted, and accomplished. You focus on your individuality and on carving a distinct image of yourself.
You need to express your deep feelings and want others to validate your emotions. Whether arranging your living space to reflect your refined tastes, or engaging in an artistic pursuit, it is essential for your sense of well-being to express your creativity.
Core Beliefs
Something is important is missing. Knowing my uniqueness and expressing my depth is essential to finding my authentic self and meaning in life.
Likes
Being validated for your emotional intelligence.
Being seen as singular, special or unique.
Feeling emotions deeply or intensely.
Feeling connected with others.
Receiving praise, recognition, and accolades for your originality.
Being “the one” and being in the “inner circle”.
Feeling love, approval, acceptance.
Having a special place next to the most valued or important person.
Making a unique contribution or being distinguished in your field.
Having your opinions be heard and well received.
Being adored, valued, and treated as important.
Finding what is original and giving meaning to suffering.
Dislikes
Being seen as ordinary or “one of the crowd”.
You dislike censorship, uniformity and regulation.
Feeling shame and being disconnected from others.
Receiving criticism or blame.
Being painfully self-conscious.
Being rejected if you display your deeper emotions.
Being made wrong or invalidated.
Having mundane tasks to complete that seem meaningless.
Being seen as inadequate, common or irrelevant.
Watching someone else get promoted or recognized.
Being told what to do.
Feeling that your voice isn’t heard - not being listened to.
Outer World of Type 4
Melissa's
Strategies
You look inward and focus on self-discovery to find meaning, as well as to understand yourself and others. You go into your emotional depths and seek happiness through beauty, suffering, and nostalgia.
Impact of Strategies
You are seen as singularly unique, and are emotionally understood and accepted for who you authentically are.
What's Great About You
You are passionate, deep, emotionally authentic, creative, fiery, and expressive. You are a true humanitarian and offer compassion to others.
Attention goes to...
Your attention goes to searching for meaning, noticing what is missing, feelings of melancholy and nostalgia, and longing for the unavailable. You appreciate the special, the humane and the beautiful.
You like to put your personal signature on everything that you do. Your refined tastes make you a great critic and someone who appreciates the truly exceptional.
Operating System of Type 4
Melissa's
At Your Best
You are an impassioned, sensitive, self-revealing, and original seeker, who focuses on what is different and unique in any given situation. You love life’s mysteries and have a rich inner life, recognizing that things are always deeper than they appear on the surface. You long to discover your true identity and feel called to quests for personal exploration.
You identify with your sense of humanity and find ways to give meaning to suffering. You value emotional authenticity (yours and others) and are not easily deterred by some of the “darker” aspects of the human experience, such as grief and shame. Your tendency to feel things fully and your openness to others’ emotional expression can make you a close friend and confidante.
You are naturally creative, with an eye for what is rare and exclusive, and love to create an atmosphere of beauty and romance around you, which can be uplifting and inspiring for others. Your people skills and sensitivity to the needs of others make you a valuable asset to your team in the areas of trust, authentic communication, continuous learning, and support.
Under Stress
When driven by fears of rejection and abandonment, your overriding felt experience may be that you are lacking or missing something really important that you perceive others have. You may compensate by focusing on how you are special, different or unique. You can be seen as temperamental when you swing between feeling special and fearing that you are inadequate or feeling emotionally burdened.
This can produce a sense of self-pity, envy and/or entitlement and a feeling that you should be “exempt” from life’s demands. When triggered, your emotions hijack your thinking and you can become unfocused, unproductive, depressed or resentful.
When self-absorbed or self-concerned, you may become hyper-sensitive and start to over-dramatize your situation, become insensitive to others, take things personally, or blame others for your suffering. This can fuel a need to withdraw to protect your image.
What Holds You Back
Being moody and getting lost or paralyzed in negative emotions.
Feeling flawed and an inner sense of shame.
Being envious of others who have what you want.
Needing to be seen as special or unique and never feeling “enough”.
Missing the joy of the moment when lost in regret and remorse.
Emotionally manipulating others with pain, vulnerability and suffering.
Overwhelming others with emotional intensity (without realizing it).
Feeling chronic dissatisfaction and longing for what seems missing.
Getting lost in a fantasy world of “what may be” – not oriented to reality.
Striving to achieve the unattainable – never satisfied with here/now.
Alienating others when self-absorbed and overcome with self-pity.
Focusing on your own inner experience to the neglect of others.
Coping Strategy
Emotionally strong, you manage the painful experiences of feeling abandoned, by blaming yourself or others because it means there might still be something you can do about it. If you can figure out what it is, you can give meaning to your distress and begin anew.
You may cope with perceived rejection by first internalizing it and then compensating for it by being special, unique, or exceptional. When you are able to remember that feelings are temporary(and disidentify from them), you can use their intensity as fuel for going after or creating what you crave. Other coping strategies include fantasizing about idealized circumstances to replace what’s lost.
Defense Strategy
To defend against the pain of being inherently flawed or lacking, you may “introject” complex negative emotions to feel a sense of self and have a feeling of control. Introjection is taking what we’ve experienced as being done to us and doing it to ourselves, such as rejecting ourselves to avoid being rejected by others.
You may similarly energetically “swallow the other whole,” or take in the other as being part of you to feel you can control them and can’t lose them. When one introjects things, there is a sense of being able to better manage them, as in self-blame and self-criticism.
Hot Buttons & Triggers
Feeling inadequate, irrelevant, and/or misunderstood.
Not being recognized for special efforts, gifts,talents or accomplishments.
Being left out of things or not communicated with about things that seem important.
Receiving critical feedback about performance – anything that feels like blame.
Seeing others happy and well when you’re down/depressed.
Not feeling part of the inner circle - not being on the inside.
Watching someone else take or receive credit for your work.
Feeling abandoned slighted, rejected or insignificant, even in the slightest way.
Having your special or unique status or position questioned.
Loss of love of any kind – death of a loved one or a breakup.
Seeing someone else receive or enjoy something you want.
Censorship and being told what to do, especially by someone who seems to be in an inferior position or not as accomplished as you.
Blind Spots
If you hold beliefs such as being inadequate, defective or fundamentally flawed (as a control strategy), you may become painfully self-conscious and become blind to your gifts, talents and accomplishments and unaware of your impact on others. By over focusing on what is missing and on what you don’t have, you may alienate others and it may be difficult restore connection to yourself and others. You may be blind to feeling envious of others and the ways you diminish their successes and accomplishments to manage your internal feelings of lack.
Because you may not want to be ordinary you may fail to see aspects of your work that are in fact ordinary. You may also miss that positive relationships may already be present in your life right now. Focused on the past and future, you may not appreciate or experience what is truly meaningful and fulfilling in your current relationships.
Mistaken Beliefs / Trap
It is a cognitive mistake to believe that you inherently lack something essential or that you will be abandoned because you are fatally flawed and do not posses it. This self-doubting fuels a constant comparison with others and sets up a never-ending story of rejection and loss where you pull people towards you only to push them away when they come too close.
The belief that you will only be loved if you are special denies you the opportunity of developing a more constant sense of self that is stable and fulfilling. Envying others denies you what you most crave-- deep, meaningful and lasting relationships. You then get caught in the trap of believing that it is unattainable and that others were given what you were not and that you must live with the corresponding anger and chronic frustration that ensues.
Growth Journey of Type 4
Melissa's
Transformation Journey
Your transformation journey involves:
1. Realizing that you don't need to be unique or even understood to be special, singular or extraordinary.
2. Letting go of sad stories of tragedy and instead feeling the joy of the present moment.
3. Finding beauty everywhere instead of feeling the need to find it or create it.
Under Stress
When driven by fears of rejection and abandonment, your overriding felt experience may be that you are lacking or missing something really important that you perceive others have. You may compensate by focusing on how you are special, different or unique. You can be seen as temperamental when you swing between feeling special and fearing that you are inadequate or feeling emotionally burdened.
This can produce a sense of self-pity, envy and/or entitlement and a feeling that you should be “exempt” from life’s demands. When triggered, your emotions hijack your thinking and you can become unfocused, unproductive, depressed or resentful.
When self-absorbed or self-concerned, you may become hyper-sensitive and start to over-dramatize your situation, become insensitive to others, take things personally, or blame others for your suffering. This can fuel a need to withdraw to protect your image.
An Average Day
As you see specialness as the self-created prison and mirage that it actually is, you become more conscious of the demands you make on yourself and others, and life to acknowledge and validate you, and you start to take responsibility for self-love. You gradually see that needing a unique identity that distinguishes you from others is ONLY driven by and fuels more self-hatred. You no longer wish to feed such misery, and you focus on your natural compassion and empathy for yourself and others.
You nurture your artistic, creative, and romantic orientation to life and make your surroundings beautiful and uplifting. As you become more balanced in experiencing your own emotions – no longer blown around by the intensity of emotional energy – you reach out to others and help them connect with and express their own emotional depths. You become more authentically self-honest, vulnerable, and emotionally strong – a refuge to others who wish to leave the prison of false identity and persona behind.
In The Zone
Seeing through the illusion of lacking and needing love altogether, you come to identify with the intention to BE the energy of love and become a force for healing and positivity in the world. You are increasingly self-aware, impeccably self-accountable, and tuned into your own and others’ inner dynamics and emotions. You are incredibly loving, patient, kind, and gentle with yourself and others, and more sensitive than ever to the intense pain of denying one’s truth and identifying with a false persona.
Less self-concerned, but very comfortable and familiar with the inner landscape, you aspire to help others in any possible way and can now be a benevolent resource, guide and support for others to grow and evolve. You are connected to the real source of creativity and artistic expression, and your work reflects this originality and beauty. You are inspired, inspiring to others, genuine and authentic, and able to see each being’s extraordinary uniqueness and their universality.
Keys to Growth
Balance your preference for emotionality with a healthy objectivity to achieve equanimity in your heart and mind.
Notice tendencies to compare yourself to others; practice gratitude for what you have rather than what others have, and appreciate the unique gifts/qualities of others.
Focus simultaneously and equally on yourself and other people; observe self-concern and reach out to others when feeling preoccupied with your own situation.
Take a careful inventory of how you engage in self-rejection and believe in inner lack for self-protection.
Carefully examine the push-pull pattern of relating - how you push and pull, and the costs in your life/relationships.
Notice tendencies to get stuck in negative emotions; observe them objectively, feel the sensations in the body, and accept rather than identify with these feeling states.
Actively see what is beautiful and joyful in the present rather than focusing on past/ future; watch how you reject opportunities to by joyful and happy in the moment.
Focus on what you have rather than on what is missing – take a daily “gratitude” inventory of the blessings in life.
Notice your tendency to over-intensify and over-dramatize things (even in your language or thought); practice lowering the intensity and notice the effects.
Align your desires with what is actually possible; drop unrealistic expectations of others and trying to attain what is unattainable, unreachable or unavailable.
Focus on service to others to avoid being self-absorbed.
Take action/be dynamic when lost in emotions/self-pity.
Type 4 In the Workplace
Melissa's
Working with Others
With work that feels unique and meaningful, you can be creative, inspired, and passionate. You may be drawn to careers in which creativity and individuality are prized or bring deep emotional connection with others, such as grief counseling, hospice work, acting. When you are driven by moods instead of objective standards, you may struggle with consistency and deadlines.
You dislike working with others who seem to get more attention, be more valued, or have more skill or status than you. Generally wanting to distinguish yourself from others, you can be competitive with team members. Longing for creative expression, you may become negative in work situations that feel mundane or ordinary.
Ideal Environment
You work best when you can showcase a special skill, talent, or ability and receive attention or accolades for your unique contribution. You thrive in making a dramatic presentation or special mark in your area of expertise.
When your work is associated with success for you, or makes you feel valued, you can be fully engaged and extremely productive. You love a good cause that’s emotionally evocative or has deep meaning or purpose. Others can feel inspired and challenged to do their best work to achieve the same level of originality.
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I would like to request for a moodboard please! I am an INTP 4w5 with a tritype of 549, and an instinctual variant which is
sp/sx
yeah <3
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INTP 4w5 459 sp/sx (M)Ask for: @kairu-kawaguchi
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Everything feels so crisp. The music sounds so clear, so rich. I feel so honored, so precious, for what I've experienced, for what I still experience... this clarity, this silence, this gravity, this resolve. I feel so pretty, so soft, so cozy. I treasure warmth, for the last time. I people watch (*winces an apology at the mockingjay nearly upside down in a tree). Its bark looks like box elder, but I'm so far from home I don't know if its range extends so far. The cool breeze flows in through the crack of the window like a cool brook, titillating me, shimmer shimmer through me. I prop my feet on the steering wheel and open my knees. I feel like a flower, velvety petals so thick and succulent. My sex feels aroused, down to my thighs, down to my toes, up to my heart till that chakra twirls gently and my tension flips. My skin is so soft, so soft. I wonder if it will recover when I'm recovered. I'm giving myself to my Love, to my Pan. I'm surrendering the little bit of distance I've gained, in my height of complexity, of perspective. Please take my passing softly, let it diffuse into you, let my essence whisper into you, keep me there, cuddle my dark, my soft, my quiet, my nothing in your inner yin. Please, don't remember me as a broken thing. Remember my delicate spirit, slipping away, slipping through all my permeable limitations. Remember my innocence that could not abide ethics without dissolving them, suffusing them away with my tincture of unconditional love. Without ethics, there is nothing to meander, delay the course of my trickle of undefinity, of ness without a prefix, down into the dark, flow to me, come to me, run to me, run with me. I am Ness, I shed my birthright prefixes, and even the attachment to proper noun Ness, to meld into nameless ness, as everything in time returns towards its center of authenticity. My spirit severed all her ties, attachments to her sphere of definity, of patterns of interaction, of discernment, till she pooled unbound in her sphere that no longer represented her, till she trickled out, through the soft porous earth, to the center of every center, gravity accelerating, ever greater pull on my faculties of perception at the surface, till they fell to bits on the grater of the impermeable veil between earth and aether. Please remember my innocence. Remember my passing as my final absolution of ethics, as a show of purity of love; that I can love, accept, forgive anything if I can embrace what would purport to strip everything from me. Please remember me as a little bit of night in a too bright world, a little bit of soft, a gentle softening kiss of yin on the shame of this world, a little bit of unconditional forgiveness, a little bit of clarity in this opaque surround. Remember the softness in my eyes as I slipped away. Please dearie, understand why I can't do this anymore, why I can't set my feet west and not east, why I can't place one above the many, why I can't betray my innocence in spurning infinity for finity. It's too heavy a burden on my delicate heart. My heart longs to love freely, without any agenda, without limit or direction. I die to allow my body, my mind, all that represents me, to match my inner quiet, my allowing love. My body, for all its inertia, for all its instinct, cannot long conflict with my inner quiet, my inner loveborne apathy, without eventually being coerced into synchrony. Please know I don't judge you in trickling home, I was merely early... in embracing safety, security, soft clear eyes that do not blink at the harshest expressions of my Love. I've held my yoyo self apart long enough, I'm delicate and gentle and weak, I'm ready to give myself back, to relieve my security, to let exposure whisper through my defenses, all I've used to hold myself apart. I'm ready to release my bookmark in time, and let time collapse in on me. It feels so strange, to eat, to drink, even to breathe when it's my time not to take but be taken, when I've already signed myself away, when I've already embraced acceptance, allowance. It feels strange to be a predator when I've embraced being prey, when I've objectified myself, when I've released my resistance against the weathering fading me away. Take me my love, trickle me away. I would head home now; were I humanity I would lay down arms wide and yield to the ecological succession we so efficiently suppress, were I the universe I would collapse in on myself. Please don't think of it as death. I'm still here, I will always be here, the only soul I have is the timeless universal soul; I'm simply closing my eyes, relinquishing my myopia, melding into our Love. I love you dearest, mummy. It breaks my hurt to think of your loneliness, of all the nuance, of all the poignancy you won't be able to share with your dear dear ruelet. Please don't let my absence curdle your innocence, please feel your loss as love, curl around it in your inner space and feel me there in your nothing, in your yin, in your warmth. My spirit came from yours, I am still there, within you. Thank you Tommy, for infusing my dark with sparkle, with stars. Thank you for training me, in the twilight of my life, to accept love without pain. I didn't at first, but you didn't give up. I'm so grateful. Please look after my mum, if you can. I hope I gave the greatest philosopher of the 21st century a measure of perspective, a certain sense of the horizons of experience. I hope you'll remember me a little; I would be honored to have a place of repose in your heart. To all the others, Dock and Aaron and Aeris and Blake and J Pierre and Maria and Auria and Vennie and Maya and Bec and Simeon and Sahar and my dearest dearest kin, thank you for the kindredness, thank you for pulling out so much nuance in my little quantum of soulness, thank you for keeping me company in these past few years of coming to embrace the many levels of dissolution. You've been my angels. Pippa, I'm sorry I've been away so much of the little time apportioned to us, in my inner or here in Canada. I'm sorry I won't get to grow up with you and bond and grow old and silly together. Elaine, I'm sorry you had to experience another suicide, it breaks my heart I must injure you so. Jemma, I missed you, I wanted so much in my heart to be close; I'm sorry I didn't make the effort before it was too late. Dee, thank you for your warmth and your quiet strong love. You are such a beautiful patriarch. Mariam, I'm so so sorry I abandoned you; please find it in your heart to understand one day, and forgive me. It grows near to sunset. My heart feels so quiet, my mind so still. I'm a little frightened. Goodnight, my loves. Think of me now and again in the course of your own dear trickles.
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