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polysyndetonaddictsupportgroup · 5 months

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I was reading sea glass gardens for like the 8th time in a row (listen I was praying to the gods for a fic focuses on Megumi & Yuuta, for a fic that shows Megs dynamic with the Zenins more, and for a fun little gojo adopts the fushiguro siblings and forced his friends to play aunt and uncle. You checked all my boxes. I am in debt to you now.) and its the way I'm still seeing the little details that should've been so fucking obvious to me —

Megumi and Tsumiki fucking around and adopting some of Gojo’s habits and sayings? I know he was so proud that his children is becoming mini versions of him. Toji is crying in the depths of hell while Mamaguro is happy as hell in the pearly gates.

“It’s a garden” it took so long for me to peep that this was his domain. Like tfw when your domain is fucking you up. I pray that Gege shows us his completed domain. Actually I PRAY GEGE LET MEGUMI SHOW OFF HIS FUCKING POTENTIAL. But alas Gege is a coward.

THE NICOTINE PATCH? Oh Shoko my beloved. I get her. I fucking hate cancer sticks but if I had to spend time with corpses, being forced to converse with the higher ups, and having to be friends with Gojo and Geto AND witness their divorce. Well. I would’ve smoked something too. Like goddamn these bitches should’ve been at the club.

The little callbacks to the playbooks? How petty the sorcerer world gotta be for them to have cheat sheets on their enemies. Is that not crazy? Is this who they are? Petty bastards.

toji pulling up to get married in sweats. megumi killing curses at such a young age for his sister? toji giving megumi shit to get him to stfu? oh megumi you dodged a bullet with toji.

BUT WHAT I REALLT WANTED TO WAS THE BATHHOUSE. Megumi needs to go feral as a threat cause imagine how humiliating that must’ve been. A bunch of assholes & such watching you like some fucking cult. I really hope that Megumi and Gojo have some type of reassuring talk about his time at the Zenins.

(Yaga and Gojo going at it while Panda in the room is so funny to be but…it’s also kind of sad. Like imagine seeing your dad figure basically be okay, well not okay but not willing to fight back, about the higher ups and everything.)

Obsessed with the fact that I can toss up what seems to me to be a random niche interest and find a community of people who wanted exactly that. I’m thrilled I checked off your boxes.

The bathhouse was designed to be humiliating by nature. I talked about it more on another post (but fuck if I know where it is), but the point of including that whole bit was that I really couldnt think of any better way to emphasize that megumi wasn’t a person to them.

On its face, the private bathhouse with servants tending to it could be a sign of status. It’s kind of an old world nobility thing to have? Which fits with the Zenin, who are very traditional and value Megumi as their most treasured person to be born to the clan in centuries. He would be presumptive heir if Gojo hadn’t intervened. So they’d easily be able to cast this in their own minds as a good thing, as a way they’re taking care of him. He’s not subjected to the communal bathhouses or small private bathrooms like the majority of the clan—they’ve given him his own private facilities and servants to care for him in it.

However, once you take away Megumi’s consent, it becomes an absolutely humiliating and degrading experience that only happens for the Zenin’s comfort and not his own.

I spoke about this in the other post in more detail, but I tried to imply that this wasn’t the first time the Zenin had done this to him. And there’s two points that kind of implicate that—when Maki’s talking to Yuuta about how it used to be when Megumi was a kid, she says the first thing that they would do when he arrived in the clan was hand him over to the servants to make him presentable. She also talks about how viciously he hated the way they’d make him look in the clan, including stomping the clothes they’d make him wear in the mud. When Megumi himself is talking about the bathhouse, he says he was given over to the servants like when he was a kid. This wasn’t a new experience for him. They weren’t doing this to him for the first time. They did this to him when he was a kid, and he’s reliving all of that trauma anew.

In my mind, it was a product of how selfish the Zenin’s love for megumi is.

He’s their favorite doll. He’s a possession. They want him to look and act exactly the way they expect from him, and they despise any divergence from what they want the ten shadows to be. And they hate it when they’re reminded of how Gojo took him from them.

They don’t want him dressed in modern clothes. They don’t want his hair styled in a manner similar to Gojo’s. They want him to look like the Ten Shadows they always wanted, and one surefire way of controlling that is to simply do it themselves, whether or not megumi is on board.

And the thing is? It is such a fundamentally minor thing to let someone bathe and dress themselves. It would have cost the Zenin so so little to let Megumi do it. Even if they were still dictating what clothes he wore and how he styled his hair (which would still rob him of his autonomy on its own, they could have at least let him do the actual act of bathing and dressing himself. They could have violated him a little bit less than they already were. The biggest inconvenience it would have risked to them would be him doing something not to their exact standards and losing a few minutes to making him redo it. But on Megumi’s end, it symbolizes a huge source of autonomy and comfort. Letting Megumi bathe himself really does impact so little for them, but for Megumi, it could have saved him from lasting trauma.

The Zenin do it to him anyway because they value their minor conveniences over his very bodily autonomy. They don’t even recognize that as a genuine concern. He’s a possession to them. An object. They don’t actually love him, and the love they think they have is actively dangerous to him. They will violate him in a very fundamental way just so they can make sure he looks how the ten shadows is supposed to look, and they won’t care.

Being forcibly bathed against your will is just humiliating, especially at Megumi’s age, and it’s one of the things that hurt him the worst out of everything the Zenin just did to him. I think Megumi takes physical pain better than he does humiliation. Having to be exposed and vulnerable the way he was with other people watching was a more effective torture than locking him in a room with curses for days.

But there’s extra layers to it if you consider 1) this is something the Zenin have done to him before and 2) this is something that he could have stopped.

When Megumi was six, he was definitely at the age where he was already bathing himself. Some parenting books say parents should still be helping at that age, but his parents were completely checked out well before then. He had already been handling all his hygiene needs on his own. Having strange adults force him to let them do it for him was a traumatizing and infantilizing experience that represented one of the many ways the Zenin robbed him of all control over his own life when they had him.

But now it’s happening again.

And megumi probably didn’t think the Zenin would do that to him again, walking into this. He probably explained it away as them doing that to him because he was still a little kid at the time. He told himself it happened because he was six, and he’s not six anymore.

Having it all happen again was a very visceral reminder of how helpless his abusers used to make him, and immediately kicked him back down to that level with a very potent reminder. It’s trauma reawakening trauma. He felt like he was six again. He probably told himself for a long time that it would never happen again and it still did.

The other thing is that he’s a lot more capable in a fight than a six year old. He’s a grade two jujutsu sorcerer. He’s a fighter. And he’s being manhandled by servants who don’t have a lot of cursed energy, if they’re even sorcerers at all, and aren’t meant to be combatants. These are people he should be able to defend himself against easily. He should be able to stop them from doing this to him again.

For whatever reason, he couldn’t.

Maybe Gojos theory about them having something on him was right. Or maybe he was too worn down and broken from the cursed spirits. Maybe it was something else. Whatever the reason, this is something that he would have told himself he was strong enough to stop, and then he wasn’t. He either had to let it happen or couldn’t stop it even if he tried. It’s a new level of helplessness and humiliation that it made him experience.

In short, megumi does deserve to go feral over the bathhouse, and probably needs to. He’s really not okay over it. It would probably be cathartic.

#sea glass gardens #this fic was designed to make sure megumi came out of it with a really bad state of mind and part of the reason why is because it’s meant to #slot into the gap of canon between JJK0 and season 1 #Megumi walks into season 1 with his fixation on maharoaga at an absolutely dire level #he tries to pull the trigger there every other fight #and in my mind a lot of that’s because Megumi’s just /not okay/ when canon starts #this episode with the Zenin is supposed to feed into that #prior to the Zenin mahoraga was a last resort #but when we hit season 1 Megumi’s very decidely hitting ‘last resort’ a bit. prematurely.#he’ll start a fight and be like ‘whelp this is it’ bb try at least #this zenin incident is meant to feed into it #he had his moment of last resort. the moment where even Gojo and Nanami agreed that what the Zenin were demanding he do was a death sentence #and he /didn’t use it/ for some reason. they kept him from it.#mahoraga was his safety blanket over the years. the one sure point of control over his life. he’d die as a jujutsu sorcerer and not have #a choice in becoming one to begin with. but he’d die taking them down with him. he’d die on his terms. it was the /one/ point of control he #had. the Zenin robbed him of that and robbed him of a lot of other illusions of control #megumi didn’t have control over when he slept. when he ate. where he went. what clothes he wore. they even stripped him of the basic act of #getting control over his own bathing processes. it was the most violating loss of autonomy imaginable.#Megumi’s going into season 1 with severe ptsd and an almost manic desire to make sure he doesn’t lose control again. he wants to make sure #that he can at least go out on his terms. he lost every other feeling of security and autonomy and he needs to still have this #also panda was fucking sweating during that time #his dad was Not the most popular man in that room and he agreed #megumi thinks that the Zenin did that purposefully to hurt him and it would honestly hurt him worse to find out that it was a twisted act of #love. like. he gets hate. he understands hate. he knows why someone would do that to hurt him. he doesn’t know why they would do it out of #love. and it would disturb him on a profound level if he knew that was what the Zenin thought of that moment #they told themselves that they were putting him to rights and restoring him to the ten shadows he would one day be again and would #understand then. they can’t conceptualize a version of megumi that legitimately rejects them so they reject his autonomy and freedom in #getting to decide to reject them

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darkpoisonouslove · 1 year

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Spoiler. Perhaps Griffin and Valtor based because of who I am as a person?

...The fact that I had trouble thinking of anything about Griffin x Valtor because I have a lot of ideas for them for the rewrite but all of them are discarded in various degrees. I changed the concepts of those scenes and the characters so many times that I have no idea what is going on anymore. That said, I was looking at my notes and I got an exciting, fresh angle to Valtor's behavioral patterns.

Valtor is hilarious in this because after he imprisons Griffin, he's visiting her at least once a day. He just can't help it. She's the only one that truly understands the goal here, not to mention that the Trix make him uneasy. I'm gonna go on a slight detour here about the situation with the Trix to give a better idea of the situation because I wanted to talk about it.

I absolutely despise the idea that the Trix will be so cringefail fight each other over a man. Plus, Darcy is literally Griffin and Valtor's daughter so I have gone in a different direction. First of all, they remind Valtor way too much of the Ancestral Witches and he simply Does Not Vibe TM. However, they will be much more dangerous left unsupervised, especially if any of the ex Coven members get a hold of them. Now while the Trix were with Darkar, they met some of the ex Coven members but, thankfully, none of them mentioned Valtor and his role in events so the Trix are blissfully unaware of who he is.

Valtor would like to keep it that way so he focuses on his divide and conquer strategy where they are concerned. He tries to make them jealous of the attention he pays to each of them but Icy is the only one who might be interested in him romantically sexually. Darcy wants his approval to a point where even she can't understand why until she hears that he was partners with Griffin and she remembers that she had the same feeling towards Griffin so what gives; is he her father and Griffin - her mother (as she has been suspecting for a while now)?* And Stormy just simply does not care as long as there's some shit to wreck AND she's with her sisters. (I can't afford another tangent so I'm gonna put the thing about Stormy in the tags.)

*Imagine the heart attack that Valtor almost has when Darcy starts asking him about his past with Griffin. They have an extremely funny case of misunderstanding where Valtor has heard enough about the Trix' relationship with Griffin to know that they suspect she has some kind of connection to the Coven because she knows things that she shouldn't know so he assumes that Darcy is trying to make him give himself away as part of the Coven and a creation of the Ancestral Witches. Meanwhile, Darcy is just trying to piece together the timeline and figure out if Griffin and Valtor are, in fact, her parents and she's getting so fucking frustrated by Valtor's extremely vague responses that she starts suspecting that he is hiding something about the Coven as well.

So Valtor resorts to plan B, which is to bait them with promises of power. Now the Trix literally need him and the protection he can give them or it's back to jail for them, and they are painfully aware of that fact. Unfortunately for him, that leads them to start digging and finally figure out what the deal is with him but anyway. All of this to say that the Trix have a completely different understanding of his quest for gaining more power and the ways in which he means to accomplish it. For them power is a literal means of survival and their one patented strategy is to steal the most powerful magic they can find so that it's theirs and no one else's. And that is exactly what Valtor convinces them is his own approach - steal all the powerful magic you can. Basically that is what show!Valtor does. However, that is literally just a front and not his main Objective TM and that is what brings me back to Griffin.

Not only was Griffin the only one who was ever truly his partner and not just standing by him because of the Coven's agenda or for personal gain, but she also knows his true method of collecting power - by dictating what people think. If you look at his behavior on the show, Valtor is constantly manipulating people via promises of what they want. There's the Trix, Cassandra and Chimera, Diaspro, even Bloom. Basically, the true power that he collects is the ability to control people's desires and from there directing entire kingdoms to get what he wants. And Griffin gets that. That was her goal as well - to change people's behavior towards dark magic users, which could be accomplished through Valtor's methods of drawing to his side people in key positions of power. Griffin does a certain amount of influencing the thoughts of her own students and their parents (some of whom are royalty/otherwise important political figures) as well.

She's the only one who truly gets his brilliance and he so likes to be admired. The Trix would not understand his true genius and he'd burst at the seams if that goes unrecognized. So he goes to her to brag. He wouldn't tell Griffin the most important details, of course, even if it wouldn't hurt since he's so sure of his victory over her and his ability to keep her imprisoned. This is definitely not the hurt and trust issues of her betrayal resurfacing alongside the simple fact that he misses her. Not just his partner in crime, but the person who would always appreciate him in full, see all of him and his brilliance that is so painfully disregarded by the sheer fact that his true form is characterized by the brute force of his demonic self.

You crying yet?

I should thank you for this ask since it literally focused for me Valtor's entire plan and behavior. I have a much more complete idea of the s3 story now than I did before I started attempting to answer this.

#winx club #wc rewrite #winx valtor #winx griffin #griffin x valtor #trix #winx darcy #winx icy #winx stormy #spoilers #ask #trashcankitty12 #i almost forgot to add the bit about stormy's character arc #i just figured out how to do my idea for s4 and still stick to the fanon and kinda canon characterization of her as aroace #i'll make her be completely unimpressed by valtor's looks and charisma and then proceed with the plan for s4 #which is basically a trix + wizards of the black circle team-up (but not really) where darcy and stormy really need the help #so darcy uses her psychic powers to convince gantlos that he and stormy are somehow spiritually connected or whatever #and stormy has to play along and she is just Dying about it because it feels awfully forced and she Hates It!#and there might be a little self-exploration there where stormy admits to herself that she might have been forcing herself...#to act like her sisters a little and appear to be interested in someone when she was in fact not just to not stand apart #because her sisters are all she has and she didn't want to be different #lmao imagine how this arc will transfer onto s5 when icy is fucking her and darcy over because of a GUY...#with whom she actually has genuine connection and it appears that stormy's nightmare is coming true...#as icy has found herself more connected with a guy and darcy is... somewhat? bonding with griffin who's confirmed as her mom now #poor stormy #she suffers #but they will be fine #back to fucking shit up and trying to murder the winx in s6

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deltaruminations · 1 year

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sorry but i can’t stop thinking about Teen Gaster…… his name is Wingdings T. Skeleton and he is not an eldritch 666 mysteryman yet he is just a boy and he has never had friends before

#there is actually quite a bit to this AU or w/e but i’ll probably never get around to doing anything with it #basically. wingdings is the middle skelebro and originated in the DR universe with them #he is in hometown bc social troubles at school + their grandpa semi has fallen down & he cant handle being at home #gerson & semi are longtime friends so hometown seemed like a reasonable fit #both dess disappearing and adult gaster shattering are canon to the AU but #from the perspective seen here. those things haven’t happened yet #anyway it’s mostly a vehicle for silly slice of life stuff lmao #also yeah wingdings collects mosses and makes terraria with them #i dont think he actually Needed the loupe to ID rock’s cap moss he just feels smart & cool whenever he gets a chance to pull it out #wingdings’s idea of what is cool is very skewed and his older brother’s reassurances don’t really help #yeah bro nothing says cool like buttoning your shirt all the way up and carrying a loupe. youre almost as cool as paps. almost #deltarune #wd gaster #dess holiday #asriel #deltarune au #$ wingdings the boy

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troonwolf · 1 year

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legitimately everytime a new thing became tumblr popular over the last ten years I’d be like “looks like shit isn’t even actually gay” and I gained such a pavlovian response towards Ignoring everything you guys like for it being boring and not actually gay, that when you guys got into actually gay shows (ofmd etc) I didn’t believe they were actually gay and just continued to ignore you until I saw a gifset of two men actually physically kissing

#the only media that's allowed to queerbait me is Star Trek #also tumblr fandom is always a mirror world version of what the media actually is #like people will talk about gay dynamics and etc as if they're canon #and then you watch the thing and it's like #oh they're actually all straight #it almost feels self destructive tbh #like you can just go find actual queer media #it does exist #butyeah this is why I literally never pay attention to tumblr popular things because it's never even accurate to the canon #half the time I dont understand why people like something because they're basically rewriting the whole media #like at that point you might as well just rip off the character dynamics you like and make OC content

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wardencommanderrodimiss · 1 year

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ah that Pokemon OC brainrot starting to hit again... as if it ever left...

#i'm feeling like. the basic bitch brainrot right now. like the fill out questionnaires brainrot #the fill out ship memes brainrot. despite the fact that i have like.#1 ship that's set in stone and has been for like 12 years. 2 ships that casually came about from me playing those games #1 ship that canonically breaks up. and 1 ship that i can't figure out if i'm committed to it or committed to the bit more.#almost every time i have tried to consciously pair two characters together in this universe has failed. AND YET i want to ship meme.#but actually i think it's bedtime. maybe i will be normal in the morning

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noperopesaredope · 1 year

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Me: *Decides to write Jacob as having legitimate NPD rather than wiping away all his canon symptoms*

Me: “Wow, it’s gonna be pretty hard to write an actual narcissist in a manner that you can legitimately sympathize with. And it’s probably gonna be even harder to create one that eventually manages to grow and evolve as a person and learns to maintain healthy (platonic) relationships that aren’t harmful to either side. This is gonna be the toughest thing I’ve ever written, and I’m not sure if I’ll even be able to do it.”

Me: “Oh well, might as well give it a try!”

Me: *Writes an outline explaining how it will fit into the story*

The Story: *Barely has any changes besides little differences in character dynamics and small interactions, but basically no changes in story beats*

Jacob: *Becomes a legitimately more interesting and complex character with a better character arc that the one I originally wrote, and is honestly more likeable to me for some reason*

Jacob and Coco’s Dynamic: *Somehow more healthy and wholesome than before once their character arcs start kicking in* (Jacob’s reasons for caring about Coco are still a bit self centered, but he’s better at treating them correctly. I somehow gave them a mutually positive relationship whilst keeping the NPD part consistent)

Themes and Message: *Appear out of thin air*

The Entire AU: *Improves in every way*

Me: “........................................”

Me: “Huh, that was surprisingly easy.”

#so yeah i kinda gave him back his narcissistic traits #and slightly leaned into it in a way that would portray him as either having narcissistic tendencies or straight up having npd #i somehow like him better like this #it kinda helps to know the actual basic neurological functions of narcissism (personality disorders are one of my weirder hyperfixations)#he becomes an almost sad character #like i mean he still starts out as a dickhead but there are some points where you feel kinda bad for him #jacob & coco across the universe #toh #toh jacob #toh fandom #the owl house #the owl house fandom #people in the fandom are gonna be so confused by this post #jacob hopkins #the owl house jacob #narcissist #narcissistic personality disorder #he's lowkey canonically a narcissist like he fits many of the symptoms and signs

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