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i feel like people are sleeping on the occam's razor situation of how buckwild it is to outright accuse a guy of being a clone of your friend even if you DO have a lot of circumstantial evidence. there's other options is what im saying. they could just be like. a guy. that's a sensible deduction. you should explore that deduction. ignore my shirt that reads I <3 RED HERRINGS.
i still think odile has the correct theory on lock but she's smart enough to know it needs like... a real smoking gun to be able to bring it up without sounding insane.
anyway. (mirabelle voice) i know its rude to speculate but has anyone else noticed the grieving? they seem to be grieving. does anyone have any thoughts on the grieving? i have some thoughts on the grieving.
#[isabeau voice] am i insane or does sometimes loop talk like they might have killed their whole family. is that just me? just checking.#nille design highly inspired by @kiwibrain's since its the one that imprinted in my mind. liberties taken since i didnt look @ reference#anyway i have a lot more thoughts on this? i guess ill hide them in the tags...? scroll down i suppose.#isat#in stars and time#isat spoilers#in stars and time spoilers#isat act 6 spoilers#isat loop#isat siffrin#isat bonnie#isat nille#isat fanart#in stars and time fanart#doodlebyte#----------------------------------------------------------------------#anyway the extra thoughts. are literally just my general thoughts on postcanon. (and thus are the context for all of my postcanon doodles!)#which is i think nille joins the party before loop reappears for a start (either from a period of nonexistence or just wandering around)#and that like. i think the party should be able to integrate loop as a completely new person. because they are! the secrecy isn't great but#They and Siffrin shuffle into different ecological niches in the party (eg. i think sif is more squeamish after it all but loop isnt)#and while it's not *exactly* what Loop wanted they get that beggars can't be choosers. and its pretty good#(i am glossing over how i think loop's reappearence drags both them and siffrin into a massive behavioural backslide and is likely a bit#distressing to watch go down. cycle of argument -> lovebombing -> normalcy -> repeat. etc etc. but since they are no longer literally#stewing in the worst pressure cooker of all time they do resolve it via productive conversation on their own time. its fine)#the party well-meaningly tries to deduce things from loop's vagueries and are able to pin down the DEAD FAMILY vibe pretty quickly.#but eventually the question of their prior identity falls by the wayside because well! they're just their friend loop! (also change belief)#as for how The Truth Come Out... this is what i mean by The Isabeau Torment Nexus(tm). which is that i think... isiloop should almost occur#BEFORE isabeau knows who loop is. he's just genuinely charmed by them eventually and tries to close the open end of the polycule#which FREAKS LOOP THE FUCK OUT because thats just too genuinely sick and wrong. and obviously w emotions high its not a great confrontation#ANYWAY told u i had more thoughts. if i were normal itd be a text post but.
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i see that ask game going around about your trademark and its all good fun but i raise you this:
what's my selfship trademark? it can be a specific ship, a theme in my ship(s), selfinsert design staple, etc., but basically. what do you all associate with me or my ships?
pr*ship/c*mship etc. dni.
#ok2rb! no pressure to send either.#but a lot of answers i see are ship specific so how about just. a new askgame thats based on that tee hee#self ship#self shipping#selfship#safeship#safeshipping#f/o x s/i#self ship ask game#:3#.sillypost
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i now understand what people mean by the curse of a Tumblr post that gets more than 500 notes. where are all of these people coming from
#og#im glad my explanation of the boops is helpful but damn thats a lot of notifs#not complaining! just surprised#someone said soemthing about pregnant castiel in the notes. and good for them it just almost killed me out of shock#update:#i did in fact turn off reblogs for the post#cause it got to 10k notes and my blood pressure started rising
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I still think I was onto something when I said that Kim's fixation on the revolutionary air brigades felt kind of like a kid with glasses really wanting to be a firefighter and then learning that you can't be a firefighter if you don't have natural 20/20 visiom because the heat would melt plastic or cause burns from metal frames and contacts weren't a safe choice either. It feels a lot like that. He wanted to work on those aerostatics but couldn't because of his eyesight
#disco elysium#de#kim kitsuragi#also brought to you by the fact that someone from my province is gonna be on the international spacestation#and i got curious#so i looked and was like 'lots of schooling but I could justify it-'#and then seeing that not only do you have to pass physicals you had to have within a certain blood pressure and heart rate range#i still think I could handle the gforces#and i thought about kim feeling the same way#and thats why he drives so fast#he wantd to be in the air brigades but either directly being tolda that there was a 'safety risk' for pilots to have any eye issues#at such high speeds you need to constantly be ready to react and glasses impede that somehow#so he enjoys showing off proof of his driving abilitg
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Drawing so much on paper kinda makes me want to start drawing half heart pages traditionally and then scan them to color them digitally, at least until I need a new laptop and can get one better suited for drawing (or maybe a tablet)
#obviously schools been a big reason but idk if you guys have also noticed#my art production has slowed down tremendously since my old computer broke#and thats because its a lot less enjoyable to draw on my current laptop because it didnt come with its own stylus#nd universal stylus pens suck and have poor pen pressure and control#i have so much tradish art supplies n dont really use them cept for silly stuff/planning
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i am finally starting on my whumpboratory story. because of the nature of the story and what the protagonist does, she will either be a wheelchair user or have a prosthetic leg and/or a cane (because she's gonna be missing one or both legs). that means tons of research for me, however. google and any other online thing has a tendency to like... focus on the family/friends of the disabled person and not the disabled person themself? like how to be a Good Parent to a kid who uses a wheelchair, and how to be a tolerant teacher or whatever.
so. i would be really grateful if u guys shared some stuff u never see in fiction regarding amputees/wheelchair users, or stuff u always see but hate, stuff to avoid, stuff to include, idk. anything u can think of and want to share.
because of my limited knowledge of the topic im considering writing my story in the form of a bunch of diary entries from the protagonist. but in case i decide to write prose i would really like to avoid making mistakes that couldve easily been avoided had i asked this question before starting
#on that same note if anyone would like to volunteer as a sensitivity reader......#no pressure at all but just putting it out there#i would appreciate it a lot#the story will likely have lots of gore and parasites and also cannibalism so if thats not ur thing i totally get it#whump community
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Secret sire gift for @beansprean!!! Thanks for the inspiring prompt, this was SO fun!! Nandor embracing the Guywife Life™
Bonus under the cut >:p
#WEEHEHEHEHAHAHSEHFHRNFD#please love this as much as i do#i made a comic for the comix king thats a lot of pressure ok!!!! lmao#wwdits#nandermo#guillermo de la cruz#nandor the relentless#What We Do in the Shadows#wwdits freddie#wwdits fanart#wwdits fx#my art#wwdits comic#guywife
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that one arashi post about presenting her as overtly feminine in fan media but not in a "trans women are only valid if they conform to traditional femininity" kinda way and more in a "happyele are a bunch of pussies for having a trans woman imply/state she wants to be more feminine in every sense of the word and then never letting her do so beyond socially" kinda way
#i cant remember if i rbd that on my old blog or this one??#but i am Thinking about it again#its smth i always try to be conscious about?? bc as a more man-leaning person i do not present masc 90% of the time#and i rlly dont feel pressured to present a certain way since im kinda all over the place when it comes to gender#and with arashi its like. the opposite?? like she feels pressured to present more masculine bc of her public status#but she WANTS to wear cute dresses and flowy skirts and big puffy blouses with obnoxiously large bows#the long hair is non negotiable i give all my faves a mullet whether they want it or not#i blame axel kingdom hearts for starting that trend#ensemble stars#enstars#arashi narukami#AND SOCIAL TRANSITION IS JUST AS IMPORTANT AS ANY OTHER KIND#and for a lot of trans ppl thats enough!#but she is v clear about wanting to fit a more traditional feminine image bc she WANTS to. NOT bc shes EXPECTED to.#ok thats it i always get defensive for literally no reason whenever i draw her#i think its bc hiyori is there too and i feel like i dont make her as fem looking??? i just suck at drawing women idk man#if youre not androgynous/slightly fem looking or literally built like yoshiya kiryu i cannot draw you sorry#iamtryingforchiakiiamTRYING
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some men are textbook villains fr
#tw religion?#kinda need to rant.. kinda wanna explain what's going on#some ppl are part of humanity but don't know how to be humane... like the guy i started talking to almost 2 weeks ago#liked him a lot bc he was funny sickeningly sweet mature and understanding.. until he was not#tl dr version is that we somehow drifted to the topic religion and i told him im not too religious and don't believe in superstition much#i was extremely respectful and even when he said that he does believe a lot i was like 'thats cool!! different people believe in different#things!!' and at first it was a normal convo until man went all psycho on me (after one damn week!!!) and started talking about how#id have to be religious in a relationship with him.. my dude i barely know your fav food can we not talk about relationships yet#but he says he doesn't even need a woman who cooks/cleans just someone who believes.. n im like i get it but i can't change myself like that#and then guy moves to marriage and is all 'well my entire family is religious' n my mom and sister (who's 16) would be putting pressure on#you n force you to pray etc.. and I'm like???? who can force anyone to a thing like that are u kidding#things escalate and my absolute STUPID ass tells him about my deepest fkn trauma to explain what made me abandon religion bc#life just never got better and this trauma remained for yrs... and he gets so angry that he says he wants to stop talking to me just to spam#me all day next day.. he'd keep messaging me switching between 'i still want you we shouldn't throw this away i have feelings for you'#AFTER A WEEEEEEKKKK!!! and then goes back to 'i wasted my time with you you were so unnecessary im in a bad mood bc of you'#even said 'you'll never find a guy with a trauma and mindset like this. i will find a religious girl but no one will love you like that'#and the worst thing is that he told his friends and mom about the trauma i had just to spite me.. note that he promised to never tell anyone#(and then still asked for forgiveness and for me to rethink whether we want to end this after telling me 473626x he wanted to end it)#(nothing even ever started you bitchass)#also note that his mom knows my mom n basically most of my relatives.. so i was here trembling for days fearing they'd get to know about it#mom somehow convinced her to not tell anyone bc it's important to me and very very fucking personal..#but he harassed me all day - i wouldn't answer and he'd send 55 messages.. multiple missed calls like dude i got so fkn scared#my heart jumped whenever he texted he was so fkn aggressive and SO MEAN#'you just needed to adjust and we would've been okay' 'tell me are u gonna fkn be religious or not????' 'you ruined everything' kinda mean#i just :') it was the worst time and i don't think i've ever seen someone degrade me so much or make me feel this defective#but.. it's finally over. his mom called my mom and mine was like pls teach him some manners.. n since i couldn't and wouldn't text him back#and literally avoided whatsapp bc of him she ended it all for me and now it's hopefully done forever#anyway i saw jks gcf performance yday n him singing still with you put a genuine smile on my face.. ill stick to THAT boyfriend honestly lol#def gonna delete later#but ty for reading if u did <3
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in a world where the dungeon meshi cast are playing a ttrpg. did shuro just like inexplicably get roped in one day and he just. kept showing up
#hes like theres an expectation that i be there every week now i Have to go........#ohhhdbbxd wait wait wait i gotta draw this. shuro bursting out with I DONT EVEN LIKE TABLE TOP RPGS#laios. devastated.....#OH ok so. falin needs to take a break for smth so her character gets killed off for a bit#and at that point shuro is into falin and thinks ok thats the final straw im ditching for a while.#but then he finds himself??? missing it????#he probably experiences a lot of pressure from his parents to like. get into smth rly tough#law or medicine or some shit lmao. and his dad harangues him about socialising more#so playing ttrpgs was both a way of socialising but also an escape from that pressure#he eventually comes back even knowing falin wasnt back yet#and while he explodes with the not liking ttrpgs thing. he has to admit hes having fun and likes being there at least somewhat#and maybe.... has to admit he likes laios more than he lets on wndnxjxjdj???#BECAUSE HE DIDNT START OUT LIKING FALIN EVEN IN CANON REMEMBER!!!!!#so something Else had been keeping him there at first...
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Threw his ass in the water today it's okay he deserved it
#daeran arendae#commander x daeran#pf wotr#pathfinder#pathfinder wotr#wotr commander#idk if thats like. even in character for him to say#also my commander is like. hes generally very serious#EXCEPT when hes just chilling with his pals#like he grew up noble and the pressure of being a noble tiefling kinda fucked him up#hes grown a lot tho!!! he used to be lawful good now hes neutral good#idk if im gonna try to get him to chaotic good#also hes angel mythic which is soooo funny to me#yeah we put a whole bunch of angelic powers in the fucked up guy with demon blood in his veins#yeah surely that wont be a problem#ik its not canon but i hc that like#using his angelic powers kinda burns?#like not much but i dont think they feel all that plessnt#anyways his name is tyrian and i fucking adore him#should i make a tag for him?#eh#woljif jefto#sorry i forgot i drew him in this lmao#my art#also forgot THAT tag#oc: tyrian
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A bunch of sona doodles
#im going to start making myself as unapproachable as possible. people cant harass me if they dont talk to me right. right#this is my middle school mentality. i am regressing to my middle school mentality#anyway pleeeaaaase avoid me like the plague pretty please#this is why people were scared of me in middle school. this is why people were startled when i smiled in middle school#drawing#art#digital#made in ms paint. again#ms paint is good when i just wanna doodle without putting any sort of pressure on myself...#oh also the 'setting myself on fire' bit is from a youtube video#'elmer hates his job'... great video... funny guy... im not going to set myself on fire#persona#sona#oh also me but catboy. of course. which also counts as a sona#also my cat doesnt look like that but i cant draw cats ok.#i have a Lot of sonas. thats the 'this is what my body looks like' one
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Girl help I can't stop that minecraft grind
#melon rambles#it's unfinished still and this is only the first part of the build#but I quite like it so far so I thought I'd share#minecraft build#mineblr#I was working on this a couple days ago then lost power then did a sketch of it and then as soon as I got power back I logged back in#and worked on it for another five hours or something#this is just the first part of a palace thing I want to build#it's for a little minecraft adventure that I run with my friends where they solve challenges and stuff#and I started sprinkling in a little bit of lore for them to find last time#and this palace is the area where a big chunk of the lore will be revealed to them#if I have enough energy after finishing the rest of the build then I'm going to make the pressure plates in the hallway functional#I'll make it so when the player runs over them a little melody plays#and the pressure plates on the other side will have the other part of the melody#but thats a lot of work so I'll leave that as a finishing detail if I want to do that
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bitches be like. i hate vegans so much that i’ve decided i like killing animals and its fine and i dont feel bad and animals dont have feelings and its fine and im cool subversive and different and edgy and like to post fucked up stuff to make vegans uncomfortable bc im just so cool
#you sound like every cishet republican man to me#you're not a Cool Subversive Leftist you're literally regressing by seeing animals as just objects of your pleasure and thats it lmao#im sorry but you dont just get to throw out all of veganism. it does infact have some roots in leftism.#you can sit there and cope with the fact you agree w some vegan talking point by calling it 'animal welfare' all you want#doesnt change the fact that a lot of those ideas in those circles were formed by vegans.#damn woooah vegans arent a monolith and dont all agree on the same shit woooahhh who knew#literally i have no idea how we even got to this point or how this would be surprising.#when i was on vegan twitter bitches were arguing all the fucking time within it. ur really gonna sit ther en tell me they're all secret#eco fash that hates native ppl and people who have to eat meat? ya sure???#you would think the individuals on tumblr- of all places- would understand how frustrating it would be to be grouped in with the worst#members of their community as if you represent them and are the sole spokesperson#you'd think they'd hate when someone jumps to conclusions about them based on their lifestyle#but naur. i think yall take it too personally. as if a vegan just being in a room is somehow trying to force you to be vegan.#literally grow tf up.#if a vegan being in the same room with you triggers feelings in you that you Have to stop eating meat- i really think thats a you problem#bud. homeboy hasnt even spoke to you leta lone look at you and apparently you feel this weird pressure now#idk man dont you think that pressure might be coming within?? maybe.... you do infact feel things and feel a lil guilty abt eating meat?#not telling you to stop... i still eat meat here n there. but at least im honest with myself about how it makes me feel to do it.#its infact normal to take a second to think about the loss someone made in exploitation to provide you with whatever.#if you can let yourself feel a lil guilt about buying a fast fashion thing you can sure as fuck finally extend your fuckin empathy to#animals and stop treating them like objects or toys.
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Hello! I'm here with ~another~ text post!
I unfortunately had assumed "ah yes, The Anxiety" has been my problem recently but in fact, no. It was The Depression! (or a combo, super likely!) Due to this, I will be taking a brief mental break from posting art here. The break may be three days, might be a week. Truly a mystery even to me.
I will be drawing daily so when I return I should have multiple pictures to show off which I will separate in posts by fandom. Drawing really helps calm me down unless I get to the point where it feels like a performance obligation which it currently feels like.
I appreciate your patience and I hope to be okay enough to be back soon.
(also, my ask box on this blog has been disabled until I return)
#moe talks a lot#not art#i feel like a take like some random mental health week every year but hey it helps take pressure off#and if i dont have to worry about pleasing everyone then i start to doodle more - at least in the past#sorry for all my anxious tags yesterday i just kinda like uh#dont have the energy to do much except think so my thoughts kinda spiral outta control and zone in#on like one silly little topic and one silly little comment ive gotten in the past#and if you follow me on twitch and see me start streaming yeah thats to get a social aspect in shhh#i like streaming doodles and it really relaxes me which means i might stream a fair amount while i recover#tfw you try to treat Your Anxiety with medication and it doesnt really work bc its not anxiety issues#but its a med that makes you mellow so then your depressed and mellow yeah thats been me lately oops
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2005 Chinese Grand Prix - Fernando Alonso(ft. Flavio Briatore)
#not pictured but: CRYING LAUGHING AT THE FACT THAT NANDO SET HIS OWN CAR ON FIRE BY REVVING FOR FUN TOO MUCH 😭😭#and the commentators saying 'well kids will be kids' abt it ^ im having a moment 🥺🥺🥺#not pictured: NANDO SINGING WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS ON THE RADIO 🥺🥺 I DIDNT REALIZE IT WAS FROM THIS RACE IM CRYINGNGGGG#all of the nando/flavio moments....if i speak-#theres just so many things i am staring intently at#SCREAMING CRYING THATS HIS BOY!!!! HIS BOYYYYY!!!!! LOOK AT THEM!!!!!!#im glad no one is around me when i watch race podiums bcs i make so many embarrassing squealing noises AHJDKFLFLLF#hate this podium(/s) bcs its peer-pressuring me into watching 2006 next...ahhhhh i might..#renault nando is just so....hes just sooooooo...he is my blorbo and i want more of him but ahhhh....#its really really so cute to imagine that zhou is somewhere at the racetrack watching nando win the wcc#apologies to ralf and kimi who are also on this podium but not pictured here but this is fernando's podiums theres too much good content#i hate to cut down these gif posts to 10 but then again i cant just post all 20 gifs i did make#speaking of gifs that didnt make it into this post theres one of him holding up '7' which will be included in a dif post!!#anyways im v sad that this journey is over but proud of myself for finishing it and posting all of these#tysm to everyone whos been here since round 1!! its been a lot of fun and i appreciate your support sm heheh#but worry not! the grind never stops! 2005 may be done but theres so many seasons i wanna watch#fernando alonso#fa14#2005 chinese gp#2005 chinese grand prix#renault nando#renault#flavio briatore#f1#formula 1#formula one#we do a little bit of f1#(2005: 19/19 races watched)#<- well that was satisfying to type out! :D
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