#SPNVAN 2022 | Gold Panel [video @sherry]

Bonus

my silly “bts inspired” jenmish op 😂

but bonus…misha’s tummy 🤣

Jensen Ackles - SPNVAN 2022

HELP FIND MY JOURNAL--REWARD FOR RETURN

On 1/30/23 I was on flight UA510 Newark>Orlando & left my journal in the seat pocket. Includes longhand writing inside, photos (including from SPN VanCon 2022--me w/Jensen Ackles and Misha Collins), editorial cartoons, tweet print-outs, washi tape decorations & is precious to me. My name & address are on inside front cover. I'll reward whoever returns it to me either with $100 to the returner or to their favorite charity (charity, not political cause). Please be kind enough to share this post as far and wide as you can. The notebook is a Cognitive Surplus softcover lined notebook, 6"x9", and looks like the above, with a ribbon glued into it as a bookmark.

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Fan Question: Have you and Jared ever gone driving in Baby around Austin because you miss playing Sam & Dean so much? [Jensen laughs]

Audience Member: Please say yes!

Jensen: [pointing and laughing] Please say yes. Um, uh, yes. But not because we missed playing Sam & Dean! Because we're children! And we wanted to go fast in a car that we spent so much time in and we thought it'd be great to do that. Right now I will say that both the Impalas, the hero, which #1, the one that I have, and then #3, which was the backup to #1 - #2 was the stunt one that got beat to crap. But #3 was the backup to whenever - whenever #1 wouldn't start. You gotta remember, these were just picture cars. These weren't like, y'know, car show type cars. I mean, there was a reason that door squeaked the way it did. Since they weren't high functioning automobiles. That being said? Now that Jared and I own both of those, both of those cars are currently in the same shop in Texas right now getting done to where we can put them in a car show. I will say though, I will say, leaving the squeak in the door though. And not touching the paint job. So every scratch, every dent, every nick, every paint chip that was on the car when it was onscreen will remain the same. We're just getting everything underneath it nice and reliable? And because we both live in Texas we're also putting in air conditioning - and a sound system. Because what they did when Jared and I were there is they stripped the car of anything that we could annoy the crew with. It used to have police lights on the [gestures] - gone. Because usually those were high beamed pointed directly into the camera lens and Brad was like [mimes looking into a camera], 'Ow!' They took the horn out, because that was always fun when somebody was right over the hood like adjusting a light to just be like hoooonk! They removed the horn, they removed the stereo system because we kept playing music. So they had to take a lot of stuff out of the Impala just so they could get through the day with us. 'Cause again, we're children. So I'm having to put all that stuff back in now. So they'll be street legal. But yes, I'm excited to get them back and then Jared and I can race them down South Congress Avenue. And get arrested. Thank you.

Delayed posting, but here it is in all it's (scanned) glory, my secret Cockles op for my wonderful Sunshine Shellers family.

I was scared that it would be lame, but I actually kinda love how it came out (even if I do have my tea-drinking pinky out).

I wanted to do something special for the wonderful community I have curated on Discord - my family within the SPN family - and this is the result.

(I kinda wish I'd done this one before my other cockles op, so that Misha didn't have his disappointed act to drop, but I digress).

If you want to join a group of unhinged, yet totally lovable, cockles-shippers for thirst-posting, meta discussion about all things spn and adjacent, and wonderful new friends, check out the pinned post on this blog.

Love always, Chloe 💖 (@the-rollerchloster)

just putting it out here, in case anyone needs to see this:

If you're hurt by what Jensen said about Dean's feelings for Cas, if it actually matters to you that Jensen, who's supposed to know Dean the best, doesn't see him as having romantic feelings for Cas, if you feel heartbroken for Cas' unrequited queer, romantic love...

you are valid.

you're not alone and I feel the same way, and I've teared up a few times since it happened. your feelings matter. our feelings matter.

feel free to @ or DM me to chat, I can offer some love and some virtual cookies.

[and yes, we do know that at the end of the day, Jensen's reading on Dean's feelings is only his and doesn't invalidate all of our headcanons and queer readings of our beloved Dean. Dean is ours as much as is his. doesn't change the fact that the whole thing sucks. ]

Quality (x)

Okay, so, I'm trying to figure out how to phrase this so I don't get in trouble with creation or violate any of the rules. But I have to share what happened at my meet and greet with Misha on Sunday at VanCon and how that led to this insanity during the Jensen and guests panel...

So a little bit of background, I'm one of the administrators on the Twitter and Tumblr account for the Winchester daily updates (@thewinchestersupdates , @twdailyupdates on Twitter, give us a follow if you don't already!) Which means I've read all of the press that's come out related to the Winchester's. And it's very well documented that before Jensen and Danneel started chaos machine productions and came up with the Winchester's idea, that they had a little rewatch pilot with Misha to watch Lazarus Rising (Jensen first talks about filming it during the rosenbaum podcasts audio linked below)

https://twitter.com/acklesbitch/status/1483370216029622279?t=CMpzsuG6rYbbDk22r3q3hQ&s=19

So of course, being a fan of Misha and the Ackles, I knew this weekend I wanted to ask someone about this zoom call they filmed! So in my m&g with Misha I asked him basically (in a jumbled word salad cause I was nervous)

"In press about The Winchesters Jensen's talked about a lazarus rising rewatch you guys did during quarantine so (1) will y'all be sharing the video and (2) how was it rewatching your episode?"

And this man says "there's video? What?"

And then the m&g room all say it's a podcast and blah blah blah (I'm pretty sure it wasn't a podcast cause Jensen talked about filming a pilot and building a set but whatevers 🤷‍♀️) and Misha looks so confused and has no clue what I'm talking about. I chalk it up to the fact that no one can remember what happened at the beginning of quarantine. So I'm like "oh okay" facepalm and THEN this fucker (affectionately) says "oh you know Jensen and danneel, after they put the kids to bed, they just... Watch videos of me." 💀

So that was gonna be my private shame and since it's a m&g story I wasn't gonna share it.

Until.....

I'm sitting in Jensen's panel and here a high pitched squeal asking Jensen about watching Lazarus Rising and watching videos of Misha. And I. ABSOLUTELY. LOSE IT. No one in the audience but the other 19 m&g attendees have no context for Misha's question, but I KNOW WHAT HES DOING. So I'm basically shaking and freaking out and cannot explain to anyone why this is insanity. Jensen mocks misha's affect and asked if he was doing Ruthie's voice but I think he was mocking ME asking that question in my scared wobbly voice lmao 🤣

And of course Jensen asks Misha if he (Jensen) should answer the fans question or "mishas horrible question" and I wanted to sink into the floor 😂

And if you've seen the video, you know how Jensen answers the question and the clusterfuck the answer turned into.

So of course, I have Misha's auto later that night and I decide I have to say something to him. I was getting the poem Taxi signed by him, which means a lot for me and how I see my relationship with my mom, and I was gonna say something about how much it resonates with me, but instead I had to pivot. So I went up to his table and put down my items to get signed and said to him:

"Misha I have a bone to pick with you. You stole my m&g question to ask Jensen at his panel today!"

And this man says "What question?!"

💀

So of course I say "the Lazarus rising question. And I think I'm entitled to financial compensation for you stealing my question." And he turns to his handler and says something and turns back to me and says "I'm asking her if it's too late for you to get a refund."

So I laugh and then he said "it was a good question!" And I said "Thank you for asking it! I wasn't expecting the answer to go in that direction though" and he just gives me a look, cocking his head to the side, and I grab my items and run away 🤣

Anyway, I'm still waiting to find out what happened with that pilot episode and if it'll ever see the light of day 🙏

(Also, based on my own experience this weekend, I wouldnt be surprised if Misha genuinely cannot remember stuff in response to my questions because he's busy and frantic and short term memory kind of does in all the stress but if he was just jerking me around all weekend that was the best experience ever)

My auto items are in the images below. Special thanks to @wigglebox for giving me the cas & dean in the empty artwork so I could have Misha sign it. Can't wait to hang it up.

Hello,gorgeous 😍😍

Credit

We all have a platform, right? Some are larger than others but everybody has a space to express themselves. Certainly social media has given that to everybody. It is up to the individual to respect it. If you don’t respect the platform and what it can do because it can be damaging and it can also be up lifting. It’s up to the individuals to choose what they’re gonna use that platform for. I am very precious with the fact that I get to stand on a stage and address you all. I don’t take that for granted and I wanna earn it. I don’t deserve this but I’m gonna try to earn it every time I get on stage and every time I get in front of a mic or every time I post something on Internet (…) It is a responsibility that a lot of people didn’t use to have and now we all have it. And It’s up to us to decide what we’re gonna do with that. Do we want to bring light to the world or do we wanna cast shadows? I choose to bring as much light as I possibly can and I will continue to do that.

#SPVAN 2022 | Gold panel | Gayled_it

misha @spnvan 😍

I agree with Jensen. This is what panels should look like.

Jensen's gold panel is up!!!

I’m at VanCon! Shocking I know. Seat A16 all weekend if you wanna say hey.