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betweenthescarletmoon · 2 years

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Something i adore about scenes from a marriage (2021), whether or not the theme was present in the original, is the presence and effects of childhood emotional neglect in the main characters.

From the first episode, you can feel it. There's so much love and care yet so much disconnect and misunderstanding between Jonathan and Mira. They suppress themselves, they discredit their needs to prioritize the other's, they promise they're fine when their eyes scream otherwise.

Episode two shows how Mira felt dead and numb with Jonathan, how she felt like she couldn't breathe with him. And the fact that they never, ever, ever talked about how the abortion destroyed them... Jonathan watches porn and eats alone at night, only for his face to light up like a lighthouse when Mira returned (because he felt so lonely, but he never told her that). How Mira felt so much bitterness and resentment for him, stuck in loneliness herself, but lost her self-assertion and security (or never had it) and chose to never tell him the truth. The way she was finally facing so many emotions (guilt, regret, rage, sorrow, fear) she probably never allowed herself to feel before (perhaps since childhood), so it was too overwhelming and painful for her to do so. The way he abraded his face before tears would spill, and shut down and forgave and comforted instead of feeling, until the repressed boiling stress and agony caused an asthma attack.

Episode three was all Mira trying to feel some familiarity and security now that she was finding none anywhere, using a Jonathan who holds no boundaries, who apologizes for trying to assert his need to heal, his right to consent or deny sex. Mira, who cannot handle true emotional intimacy, because it scares her, so when Jonathan is finally learning to open up emotionally for the first time in his life, exactly about the emotional neglect that traumatized him, she tries to make it physical and sensual to escape that terrifying new level of trust. The need in Mira to diminish the relationship they had, the need in Jonathan to begin detaching himself from all future relationships just like Mira does. This is the beginning of the rot that takes place in both of them, because if you don't tend to what's inside how can it stay alive? It is our job to take care, heal, and maintain what our parents failed to care, raise, and love unconditionally. Jonathan is trying with therapy, while Mira is not. Later we see the roles switch.

In episode four we witness them at their worst. Wildly violent and impulsive in sexual, physical, and verbal dimensions, no matter the repercussions and the wellbeing of the other. And yet, Jonathan is more self-aware than ever. He asserts himself, he stands up for himself, he fights her insults, he tries to communicate, and finally, he extricates himself from the situation (until a desperate, emotionally breaking down, hopeless Mira stops him). Mira, without space or will to face what is within, is instinctively running to Jonathan without thought or care towards him or even herself. It is deeply toxic because she can't be alone with her hurt, can't bring herself to process all this grief. This is what primarily tears them apart the way they did that night.

And in the finale, we see Mira finally able to do just what she couldn't last episode. And devastatingly, we see Jonathan become the empty shell we saw in Mira in episode three. When you choose to perceive the world as untrustworthy, as unable to see you for who you are, as unconditionally vicious and neglectful and cruel, no amount of therapy or self-awarenes will change that will to see the world like this. His choice in detaching and numbing himself, relying on cognitive dissonance about freedom and morality, is his choice to emotionally neglect his new wife and child (as well as Ava, as well as himself). And the beauty, the absolute beauty of episode five, despite how messed up and horrid it is for them to be having this affair, is that Mira was emotionally present for him. She listened to him for the first time in four episodes. She expressed her sorrow for him, her worry. She held him with care and gentleness, and not with an ulterior need. She empathized in his weakest moments, embraced him when that neglected inner child was unleashed in the attic, in the darkness, after that nightmare. And Jonathan knows. He is well aware she is loving him the way he wasn't as a child, and he states exactly how his mother failed to do what Mira is doing now.

In short, educate yourself about CEN. Learn about how your most well-meaning parents could've emotionally failed you. And see for yourself how, untreated and unprocessed, or simply not accepted, that invisible and underestimated trauma can rot people up on the inside. This series portrays wonderfully, painfully, the true poison that is emotional neglect, and the necessity to have emotional maturity and love to heal.

#scenes from a marriage analysis #scenes from a marriage meta #scenes from a marriage 2021 #scenes from a marriage #jonathan levy #mira phillips #jonathan levy analysis #mira phillips analysis #jonathan levy has cen spread the word #mira phillips has cen spread the word #oscar isaac #oscar isaac hernandez estrada #jessica chastain

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highly-flammable · 2 years

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I would never dream of condoning Mira’s cheating in Scenes From A Marriage but it’s astonishing how so many people on the internet don’t understand how condescending and minimizing Jonathan was being to her during their marriage. These are two extremely flawed people with painful upbringings and destructive patterns and neither of them know how to love well, even though they love each other.

Jonathan got with an insecure person like Mira because he needed someone to see him as better and respond to his pain, someone to always witness how he was a victim of his situation. He needed someone broken to feel better about himself. He was obsessed with feeling like he always had the moral high ground in every situation. And since Mira was the breadwinner, she had to make herself smaller in the house, take the role of the worse parent because of her postpartum depression and workload, all not to emasculate Jonathan. All to feed his ego. Seriously, rewatch the first episode. And at the same time, Jonathan was incapable of making her feel desired as a woman because of his vices. Moreover, he would support her abortion with his words but punish her silently for months, knowing how miserable having another child at that point would have made her, knowing that if she had to go through the whole painful cycle after having another kid he would have resented her for that anyway. All of those things contributed in Mira feeling like she was so far below Jonathan that she might as well just go get an outlet like Poli, even though she loved Jonathan. She fell back into her pattern of getting with alpha males who would dominate her overtly because she tried that life with the nice guy but that wasn’t working out.

I’m not saying Mira should have cheated. Hell, no. But sometimes doing the right thing is hard and you don’t believe you’re even capable of it anymore. You’re just a pathetic creature of desperation. And Jonathan did push Mira in that direction. He put the entire responsibility of his happiness on her and neglected to take responsibility for hers. And she was in turn so hollow that she had completely given up on the idea that she could make him happy anymore. It’s a complicated, shitty situation so can we stop pretending like Jonathan was a saint? Mira was an insecure woman, a liar, a cheat, a hypocrite, a manipulator, but Jonathan wasn’t a great husband either before he got cheated on. Everyone I see with these flaming hot takes of how he was too good for Mira and it was just Mira who didn’t know how to treat their spouse right has literally missed the point of the show. The actors are also executive producers and know these characters by heart, so maybe watch some more of their interviews, including the episode briefs on HBO Max’s website SMH.

#jonathan levy #mira phillips #jessica chastain #oscar isaac #scenes from a marriage #so i basically have oscar isaac projects brainrot #anyway there are wholesome oscar characters #and there are toxic oscar characters #our sad friend jonathan happens to be a toxic one #you have to feel sorry for him but he’s not perfect

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im-his-druidess · 2 years

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Mira Jonathan and reader with a pregnancy kink. Jonathan would be the type to drink breast milk a hundred percent. He’d lay on your chest and rub your belly and suck on them until he’s got a heavy tummy and he’s starting to fall asleep, remains of milk all in his beard. Mira would just have you back in her lap relaxing and petting your hair.

They both have a nipple play kink and both love your breasts. So I can actually see both of them snuggling up to you and mouthing at your chest, licking over your sore swollen nipples while you whimper softly, and suckle at you as you sigh in relief.

But I can see this happening too, Jonathan curled around your body while stroking over your baby bump, suckling at you lazily as Mira pets your hair and scratches her nails against Jonathan's scalp until you and him both are half asleep.

#the cryptid answers #jonathan levy x reader x mira phillips #scenes from a marriage #Jonathan Levy #Mira Phillips #Oscar Isaac #Jessica Chastain

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theposhperyton · 2 months

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if you have the time could you tell me literally everything you know about isfd?

I found your blog through the one piece posts and now need to learn anything I can about this obscure fandom

An ISFD ask from someone who isn't already lost in the sauce? (<-Self call-out) O glorious day!

Gosh, there's so much, I don't really know where to start. I've been following this micro-fandom for YEARS now, and it's one of those things that just keeps on giving. The amount of lost/missing content and the frickin nuked forum (I'm a survivor, baebee!!) really does sometimes make it feel like the universe is trying to wipe us out, but hey. ISFD fans are basically cockroaches. Killable in theory, but surprisingly hearty in an actual life or death of a fandom scenario.

As for the actual content of ISFD that I engage in, I'm a rare(?) case where I kinda dabble in everything. I can confidently say I'm a member of the ** original ** gen of fans, so I've been around for the noteable eras, and have obsessed over every major character group at one time or another, as well as some niche characters (Cyan and his 2 other fans, rise up 🔥🔥)

I gotta say though, I am currently obsessed with the mafia portion of the universe (and, tbh, by extension, the Marama family. They are to me what the Kardashians are to some)

In particular, Phillip Varic has been my consistent blorbo since last September. It is not an exaggeration to say I've averaged about 40 drawings of him a month since then (my friends and I have counted. I should be on my strange addiction at this point, tbh. Or seeking other professional insight)

Here's some of the doodles in question! I am not terribly good at finishing art of him, I just sketch him loosely and rotate him rapidly in my head

I just think he's so neat. And I think his stupid, codependant, and mildly dysfunctional mafia found-family are so neat. And I think his husband (seraphine) and wife (abram) are so neat. And all his kids, both the legal kids and the ones whom he mostly just pays college tuition for, they're neat to. And the echos of Magnolia throughout his life and the larger narrative, even decades later. That's also very neat (my heart doesn't hurt at all!)

I realize I kinda derailed from answering your original ask because the mafia brainrot is debilitating and chronic, but I'm not entirely sure how I'd go about answering it anyway because there is just. So, so much world and lore to glean from ISFD, and none of it in any easy or direct way. Honestly though? The mafia might not be a bad place to start? If you want, I can tell you as much as I know about the cast and dynamics of the mafia, because I feel like a lot of the mafia character's lore and backgrounds act as a good segway to other noteable aspects of the larger ISFD narratives and the in-world political climate as a whole (Especially Mask and Howard. Not to single those poor souls out, but genuinely. How are they both gonna be so afflicted by the narrative like that)

If you're still interested after I practically talked your ear off, I could totally make a larger post about the whole mafia :3 They're my special blorbos ❤️ I would not feel safe around them IRL, but trapped within the confines of fiction, they're all free for me to babygirlify with almost no consequences

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writtenbykie · 1 year

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WHO I WRITE FOR!

CRIMINAL MINDS: spencer reid, emily prentiss, alex blake

MARVEL: matt murdock, natasha romanoff, sharon carter, steve rogers, riri williams, sarah wilson, joaquín torres

OTHER: shiv roy, jessica chastain characters (mace brown, mira phillips, beverly marsh, ava faulkner, melissa lewis…)

#spencer reid x reader #emily prentiss x reader #alex blake x reader #matt murdock x reader #sharon carter x reader #natasha romanoff x reader #steve rogers x reader #riri williams x reader #sarah wilson x reader #joaquín torres x reader #shiv roy x reader #jessica chastain x reader #mira phillips x reader #ava faulkner x reader #melissa lewis x reader #beverly marsh x reader #mace brown x reader

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sarahhillips · 10 months

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What would you people assume about me based off my comfort characters?

#violet parr #mira nova #jessie the cowgirl #sarah phillips #ariadne #inception #cindy vortex

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mirasmirages · 4 months

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✨OCs✨

Do you have a favorite one?

I feel like I've asked this question before, I hope not. If so, I don't remember the answer-

I mean… it has to be Henry, doesn’t it? He’s so versatile and fun to build AUs about! But since he comes in many flavors and the closest to a canon he has is a role play on a private server, it’s not super easy to explain him to people 😅

He usually has the same backstory, grew up in an abusive home, lost his mom when he was nine, his dad drank a lot and was Not Very Nice. And then when he’s 18 his story kind of splits into three.

In the “canon”, or his original form, his dad owes money to a man named Charles Duncan, and Charles offers to take Henry as payment. Henry manages to convince Charles that he’s worth more if he goes to college, and basically gains himself a scholarship, but with the caveat that he has to keep Charles happy or else bad things will happen. (Like his dad being in prison. Or killed. Or… who knows who else could end up dead!)

The second version is similar, and started out as me wondering what would happen if Henry became Mr. Duncan’s slave in a more traditional sense, moving into his house, dropping out of school, being useful for his looks instead of his brain. I don’t think I will ever write this story because it would need me to write more porn and/or politics than I’m interested in, but it has given me some fun side characters, like Mr. Duncan’s wife Charlotte (hate her) and Chrissie, another person Mr. Duncan owns. (Love her)

The third main AU is what would happen if Charles Duncan didn’t exist at all. If Henry moved away from his dad and went to college and made friends and got therapy and was allowed to be a genuinely cool person, without a rich man putting time and money into ruining it for him. That story will never be written because it would need too much research and politics and new characters, but it’s a great basis for other AUs, because even if I love me some dysfunction I still like a happy ending.

He already has a face claim but I’m thinking of changing it to this guy. He has the face and the body and the hair for it, but not always the clothes.

#Mira replies #Thank you for asking Uva <3 #Face claim guy is names Zane Phillips

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felteverywhere · 1 year

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it’s not until her boyfriend leaves the room, heading off to take a shower while mira and phillip remain there in front of the fireplace that she feels her shoulders relax. her head lulls back onto the couch from where she’s sitting on the floor and she stares at the vaulted ceilings of the cabin for a moment, blowing air from her lips. “on a scale from one to ten, how upset do you think he’s gonna get when i tell him i think he made the wrong call today?” kieran has a notoriously short fuse, which truly was the source of the whole horrible interaction with that crusty, unsettling old man at the gas station. “i’m debating keeping it to myself, but that’s... not communicating and i’m supposed to be getting better at that.” the only person mira tells details about her therapy sessions about is lip, so she knows he’ll remember the conversation she’s referencing. she has a bad habit of holding everything in until it’s time to explode, unleashing every angry thought and annoyance all at once. it’s destroyed her fair share of relationships, but lip has always been the constant in her life, her unwavering best friend.

for @fewrebels

#mira romero threads.#mira feat. phillip #fewrebels

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vintagewarhol · 2 years

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#condor #tv shows #max irons #brendan fraser #william hurt #leem lubany #angel bonanni #kristen hager #mira sorvino #bob balaban #constance zimmer #alexei bondar #jonathan kells phillips #eric johnson #toby leonard moore #illustration #vintage art #alternative movie posters

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forhappysake · 5 months

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What Lurks Within, Pt. 11

Author's Note: This is it, final chapter!

Content: Four team members debrief in the hospital after the Denver case is officially closed. Subsequently, Spencer and Y/N do some reflecting on their relationship and all they've been through together.

Warnings: Established relationship, fluff, some angst if you squint, mentions of death and violence, references to the Season 12 finale/first episode of Season 13, hospital setting

Beep… Beep… Beep…

Not again. I groaned as I turned over in the hospital bed. I had been removed from my comfortable clothing, placed in a cheap hospital gown once more. Another IV drip was attached to my hand, and those tiny EKG stickies were back to their position all over my chest.

“Good morning,” sang a familiar voice. Luke stood at my bedside, holding a glass of water. I groaned in response.

“Why am I here again?” I asked.

“Because after we got Spencer in the car, you passed out,” he said. “The doctors said you’d only been running on shock and adrenaline. Once that wore off, your body gave out.”

“Oh no,” I whispered, “did Spencer see me pass out? That’s so embarrassing.” I covered my face with my hands.

Luke laughed, “He sure did. He did his best to help load you into the back of the SUV with him. We brought you both here at the same time. He’s just down the hall.”

I leaned forward in my bed, looking around the room. Instead of a walker, someone had left me a wheelchair this time. “You’ve got to be kidding,” I said.

“It’s either wheelchair or nowhere,” Luke rhymed. I sighed, motioning for him to bring the wheelchair over by the bed. He did so without a word, helping to lower me into the seat. “Do you think they’ll pay me extra since I’ve spent so much time as your nurse during this case?” I rolled my eyes, choosing not to respond as he pushed me down the hallway towards another hospital room.

He stopped me in front of the door, leaning over to knock. JJ’s voice rang out from inside, “Come in!” Luke swung the door open and pushed me into the room as I took in the sight.

JJ sat perched at the edge of the bed as Spencer, also in a hospital gown, thumbed through a book in his hands. “You’re awake!” JJ said excitedly. She rushed over and bent down to my level, offering me a gentle hug.

“I so am,” I said, “ and I see someone else is too.” Spencer beamed at me, closing his book and tossing it carelessly on to the bed. Luke wheeled me over to his side.

“Y/N, I was so worried,” he reached his hands out to me as he intertwined our fingers.

“Me too,” I whispered. I felt tears pricking at the corner of my eyes. A stray tear felt down my cheek and Spencer gently wiped it away with his thumb. I laughed, trying to make light of the situation. “So, what’s your diagnosis?”

“Hmm,” Spencer thought for a moment, “nothing major.” He shrugged as best he could, a small smirk forming on his bruised cheek.

JJ let out a laugh from the corner of the room, “He’s got three broken ribs, a bruised lung, and a concussion.”

I dropped my jaw at him. “That doesn’t sound like ‘nothing major,’ Spencer.”

“As if you’re much better off,” he scoffed. I furrowed my eyebrows at him, turning to face Luke.

“What’s wrong with me?” I asked.

Luke sighed, “Let me think. You’ve got a busted head, concussion, and you did have a small brain bleed, but the doctors think that’s over now.”

“Oh,” I said, widening my eyes and glancing at Spencer. “Maybe we are in the same boat.” He smiled and nodded a bit, wincing as he leaned back in the bed, our hands still intertwined.

“Wait,” I piped up again, “what happened to the Graydons?”

“Mira was dead by the time the ambulance arrived,” Luke said, the energy in the room becoming more somber.

I nodded, “What about the other two?”

JJ spoke this time, “Phillip Graydon’s been booked in connection to multiple murders. The former Chief Graydon has been officially removed from the force and will stand trial for aiding and abetting, as well as obstructing a criminal investigation. Ryan Whittendon has been promoted to Chief of Police.” I nodded, satisfied with her answer as silence fell over the room again. Spencer and I processed the information without a word.

Spencer glanced up at our teammates standing in the corner of the room,“Luke, JJ, do you think you could leave us alone for a minute? I’d like to talk to Y/N in private.”

Luke and JJ looked at each other, raising their eyebrows. Luke sighed dramatically, “Alright, but no funny business. Neither one of you are fit to be banging-” JJ smacked Luke on the shoulder and he gasped in playful shock, “What the hell was that for?”

“Get out of this room, now,” JJ said, turning on her “mom” voice and scolding him. Luke smirked, opening the door and leading JJ out of the room. She turned and mouthed the word ‘sorry’ before shutting it behind her. I couldn’t help but giggle, and I saw Spencer try to suppress his laugh for the sake of his broken ribs.

I shook my head, turning my attention back to the man on the bed next to me. “Anyway, what do you want to talk about, Spence?”

He looked at me as he bit his lip nervously, trying to come up with the right phrase. “I’m not sure the proper way to start this conversation,” he said. An anxious feeling crept into my chest.

“Uh oh,” I laughed nervously, “you’re only speechless when it's serious.”

He nodded, “It is kind of serious, actually.” I winced a bit at the thought and he squeezed my hand to offer some comfort.

I sighed, “Well, you know I’m impatient. What’s on your brain?”

He didn’t waste any time. “Do you remember when we were in the SUV the other day, on the way to Andrews’ house, and we talked about how we don’t like to talk about what happened to us?” His eyes scanned my own, looking for some sign of understanding.

“I remember. I had a brain bleed, not amnesia,” I half-joked.

“Right,” he said. Spencer paused for a moment, scanning my face again. “Well, I… I think we should talk about it.”

I sighed, leaning back in the wheelchair. I let my hand slip out of his as I did so, using my now-freed hand to play with the hem of the hospital gown I was in. “I get what you mean, but what is there to talk about, Spencer?”

“Listen,” he started as he readjusted himself in the hospital bed so he could better face me. “Something Emily said the other day got me thinking. We’ve never really stopped to talk about what happened from your perspective.”

I shook my head, “Spencer, what happened wasn’t about me. You’re the one who suffered all those months. I was just a part of her game.”

He returned the shake of his head. “It was just as much about you as it was about me. She played with both of us, Y/N.”

I stared off into the corner of the room. Conversations from that night replayed in my head:

“I wonder what your little girlfriend will have to say about all this. What, with the baby and everything,” Cat said, sitting across from Spencer. I stared at her from my spot behind the one-way glass, JJ by my side. I stood with my arms crossed.

“I hope you have more luck with her than the last one,” Cat used her hand to make the shape of a gun. Holding it to her temple, she pretended to shoot herself, falling back dramatically in the chair.

“Don’t talk about her,” Spencer said quietly.

Cat had laughed, cocking her head back and twirling a strand of hair around her fingers. “Which one? The dead one? Or the one that’s definitely staring at me from behind the glass.” She leaned over so that I could see her more clearly, offering me a small wave.

“Don’t talk about either one of them,” Spencer said, rising from his chair to pace around the room for a moment.

“I’d like to see her,” Cat said. “The live one, that is.” My breath hitched in my throat as Spencer turned and walked out of the interrogation room into the observation room. He didn’t look at me, pacing nervously around the room.

“What do I do?” he asked JJ. “I’m not letting her drag Y/N into this.”

I cleared my throat, “I am right here, you know.” He stopped pacing, turning to look at me as JJ did so too. “I can handle it. Tell me how to play her game.”

Spencer’s eyes looked me up and down. He sighed, running a hand through his messy hair before rubbing his tired eyes. “I don’t want you to play into her fantasy. Her goal when you are in the room is going to be to give you every reason to leave me,” he said.

JJ nodded, “You act as the reality in the room. She has this made-up idea of her and Spencer being some kind of romantic trope. You’re the thing that messes that up in her head. Hopefully your physical presence will do the same.”

“Okay,” I said. I walked over to the door. Spencer crossed the room in three large steps, swinging the door open and entering first. I followed close behind him, eyes adjusting to the fluorescent light over the table.

“Well, well, well,” Cat said. She reached out her hand and offered me a fake smile, “Cat Adams, pleasure to meet you.” I ignored her hand, instead choosing to sit down next to Spencer.

“I heard you wanted to speak with me,” I said. I examined my nails, then tapped them lightly on the table, leaning on my other hand.

She continued twirling a hair around her finger, “Well, she is cute,” she said to Spencer, raising an eyebrow.

I snapped my fingers in front of her face once, “Excuse me, I was told someone wanted to talk to me, not him. If I’m not wanted, I’m happy to excuse myself,” I started to rise from the table, but she quickly spoke up again, raising a hand.

“Hold it. I’m not done yet.”

I plopped myself back down in the chair. “What do you want to know?” I asked.

“Why would a pretty thing like you choose to be with Spencer Reid?” Spencer almost winced at the use of his full name.

I had to disturb the fantasy. “Well, if you must know,” I cleared my throat, “it really comes down to fantastic sex.” Spencer shifted awkwardly in his seat.

Cat didn’t like that answer, nearly snarling. She quickly composed herself. “Funny that I’m the one who's having his baby,” she retorted.

“I always thought I’d be a young, hot stepmother,” I joked. She didn’t like that response either, learning back against the cool metal of her seat.

She scoffed. Her plan wasn’t working. “You have no idea what he’s done.” I narrowed my eyes at her, rising from my seat and leaning across the table.

“Enlighten me,” I said quietly. She clammed up. She was one statement away from giving up the final answer to her entire game. “Yeah,” I said, “that’s what I thought.” With that statement, I turned on my heel and left the interrogation room.

I snapped back to reality as Spencer stared at me, letting me take my time to think through it all. “What are you thinking?” he asked.

“I’m just thinking about what happened,” I said quietly. I looked at him for a moment before I returned my gaze to the corner of the room. “We spent that whole night in the interrogation room. Your mom came home, thank God. You guys left to go home. The rest of us piled into that SUV. It was a dumb move, all of us being out there at once,” I shook my head. “I don’t remember much. We hit the spikes, something hit us, my leg hurt. I passed out.”

Spencer nodded. “Keep going,” he encouraged gently.

“I woke up on the way to the hospital, and they wouldn’t let me call anyone. They kept telling me I had to lay still and that they’d call my emergency contact. I didn’t want them to call you, because I knew you’d panic,” I sighed, the throbbing pain in the back of my head was returning with all this memory recall.

He sat in silence, waiting for me to go on, and I did. “I think I passed out again. I know they took me into surgery at some point. When I woke up, I was in a hospital room,” I shuddered at the thought. “I think I was…” I paused, trying to decide how truthful to be in that moment.

“You think you were what?” Spencer asked.

“When I woke up alone, I was angry. I was angry at you because I felt like you’d abandoned me there, and I was angry at myself for feeling that way towards you after everything you’d been through.”

Spencer nodded. “You had every right to feel that way, and I’m so sorry I wasn’t there.”

I rolled my eyes, “Spencer, you were saving Emily’s life. Don’t be sorry.”

“No, Y/N,” he started. Spencer paused for a moment, taking a deep breath. “I was there before you woke up. I could have stayed, and I didn’t. I ran away.” I raised an eyebrow at this new bit of information.

“Why, Spence?” I asked.

He sighed, searching for the right words again. “When you got out of surgery, they took me back to your room. You looked so exhausted. I thought of all the things you’d been through for my sake. I just… I didn’t know what I’d say if you woke up while I was there. I decided it would be best for both of us if I went back to the office, but really it was my own selfish fear.”

“So we’re both terrible people?” I asked, jokingly. He sighed, wincing again when his diaphragm expanded. “I’m kidding,” I said, “we were both scared, Spencer.”

The room was quiet after that. I leaned my battered head forward on top of his hand, using it as a makeshift pillow. I heard Spencer gasp when he noticed the bandages on the back of my head.

“I thought you died last night,” Spencer whispered. I could hear the break in his voice and envision the tears in his eyes without so much as lifting my head.

“For a couple minutes, so did I,” I answered quietly. I lifted my head to look at him. “But, I didn’t.”

Spencer smiled, cupping my face with one of his hands. “You didn’t.”

“And neither did you,” I said, offering him a playful poke on the thigh. He suppressed another laugh, leaning back further into the hospital bed. “Well, I should probably let you get some rest,” I said. I leaned back from the bed, easing myself further down into my wheelchair.

“Where are you going to go?” Spencer asked, with an eyebrow raised. “I don’t think you’re exactly fit to travel.”

“I’m going to make Luke find me a vending machine, because I am starving. Do you want anything?” Deja vu from before this all started, from our late-night back in the bullpen, hit me like a truck:

“Considering neither of us are making any groundbreaking discoveries, I’m gonna run to the vending machine. Do you want anything?” I swiveled my chair back around in his direction, awaiting his reply.

He looked up for a moment, seeming to give it some thought before shaking his head. “No thanks, Y/N. I really appreciate the offer, though.” He gave me a small nod.

“No problem, brainiac. I’ll be back in a few.”

Spencer seemed to recall the memory too. “You know what, this time, I think I’ll take you up on that.”

I smiled, turning towards the door. “Luke!” I shouted. In a few moments, the door burst open.

“What's wrong?” Luke asked, raising an eyebrow with his hand on his pistol. Clearly he thought my call for him was of a much more serious nature.

“We really want something to eat,” I said with a smile, which Spencer mirrored with full enthusiasm.

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This has been so fun to write, I can't wait to do more in the future. Don't be afraid to lmk what you think <3

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Hot Vintage TV Women's Bracket - List of the Ladies!

As promised below is a full list of all 130 women in the Hot Vintage TV Women's Tournament! Thank you to everyone who submitted their favs!

Just a brief bit of cleanup before the list. Thank you for all the submissions. If your submission didn't make it into the bracket or some of your propaganda isn't used know that I still appreciated the submission even if we weren't able to use it. Some things got cut for being outside the bounds of the tournament, some things got cut because the links were broken, etc. Anything I wasn't sure about got brought to family and friends for a second opinion. I did my best to keep as much in as possible but some things just ended up leaning too far outside of our criteria. If you notice some stuff that seems outside the criteria slip by it's because I tried to be very generous so as long as something wasn't obviously outside of our time period or rules I usually gave it a pass.

Anyway, I am working on the bracket as we speak and apologize in advance cause I don't think there's any way to make round 1 completely painless, as you'll see we have a pretty stacked line-up so I'm excited to see how things work out! Enjoy and see you all on Monday April 15th for round one of the Hot Vintage TV Women's Bracket!

Eartha Kitt

Dawn French

Julia Louis-Dreyfus

Nichelle Nichols

Loretta Swit

Joan Bennett

Mary Tyler Moore

Yvonne Craig

Barbara Stanwyck

Lara Parker

Bea Arthur

Barbara Feldon

Rue McClanahan

Lynda Carter

Kellye Nakahara

Jan Smithers

Elisabeth Sladen

Diana Rigg

Janet Hubert

Carol Burnett

Jackée Harry

Betty White

Gillian Anderson

Anne Francis

Peggy Lipton

Eliza Dushku

Joan Chen

Terry Farrell

Gina Torres

Catherine Bach

Tina Louise

Carolyn Jones

Dawn Wells

Vivica A Fox

Mariska Hargitay

Deidre Hall

Aimi MacDonald

Carol Cleveland

Valerie Harper

Lisa Hartman

Julie Newmar

Fran Drescher

Melissa Joan Hart

Mira Furlan

Nana Visitor

Claudia Black

Courteney Cox

Sarah Jessica Parker

Jane Krakowski

Sarah Michelle Gellar

Sherilyn Fenn

Eve Arden

Elizabeth Montgomery

Marlo Thomas

Lucy Lawless

Joanna Lumley

Barbara Eden

Kathryn Leigh Scott

Grayson Hall

Eva Gabor

Siân Phillips

Shannen Doherty

Lisa Robin Kelly

Debbie Allen

Lisa Bonet / Lilakoi Moon

Rachel Bilson

Karyn Parsons

Jane Seymour

Jonelle Allen

Julia Duffy

Lalla Ward

Miranda Richardson

Mag Ruffman

Penelope Keith

Carole André

Amanda Tapping

Lucille Ball

Nicole de Boer

Jeri Ryan

Penny Johnson Jerald

Katy Manning

Charisma Carpenter

Morena Baccarin

Katee Sackhoff

Janine Turner

Marcia Strassman

Farrah Fawcett

Kate Jackson

Jaclyn Smith

Lily Tomlin

Melissa Leo

Sabrina Lloyd

Joan Collins

Diahann Carroll

Jennifer Aniston

Pamela Anderson

Alexandra Paul

Chloe Annett

Hattie Hayridge

Thalía

Itatí Cantoral

Connie Booth

Linda Cristal

Doris Day

Angela Lansbury

Dorothy Provine

Vivian Vance

Suzanne Pleshette

Bea Benaderet

Gracie Allen

Amanda Randolph

Anna May Wong

Sheila Kuehl

Barbara Billingsley

Barbara Mullen

Phyllis Logan

Annette Crosbie

Geraldine James

Audrey Meadows

Peggy Ashcroft

Holland Taylor

Emma Thompson

Judy Parfitt

Francesca Annis

Mädchen Amick

Joely Richardson

Alex Kingston

Cicely Tyson

Lauren Graham

Kim Cattrall

#vintage tv stars poll #todays news #breaking news #tumblr polls #vintage tv

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I love the post you made about sfam. It is probably the 2nd maybe 3rd post I've seen that points out the fact that Johnathan wasn't a saint. I find it very interesting how most people who commented on the series all were like "how can anyone not find Oscar Isaac attractive?" / "I would never do what Mira did!" or saying how Mira was wrong for divorcing him and how she's toxic but hardly any have said that Johnathan was just as bad as she was. I mean, yeah Oscar is very attractive and both he and Jessica made make my bi-heart stutter but the characters they played were both shitty in their own way. I feel like the people that were bashing Mira and saying all sorts of things about her didn't watch the final episode. Johnathan literally cheated on his new wife, who mind you was taking care of his months old son. He also lied to her and was pretending to be somewhere he wasn't, but hey, let's all blame the female character because the male is played by a handsome, charming guy. All this to say I found your post very refreshing <3

@chastainromanova Thank you! It’s so good to see that at least some other people are recognizing that Jonathan is flawed as well. I certainly feel like Mira did a significant amount of damage to him but his damage to Mira was also there. It was just a lot more subtle and incremental in nature. You can say that Jonathan caused a rot while Mira caused an explosion.

And yeah, Jonathan ended up doing the exact same things he and the audience hated Mira for. And why did he do it? Because he and Mira were so out of sync after Mira left that they couldn’t fix the relationship even though at different points they wanted to, and Jonathan ended up valuing his ego so much that he gave up on what really made him happy even when it made its way back to him. I definitely empathize with not wanting to be hurt again, not wanting to give someone that power. But then really get over that person and IDK, properly commit yourself to the new situation that you think is oh-so-right for you. He didn’t do that. In fact, he is doing a whole lot less for his new marriage than Mira did to keep their marriage going even when she was depressed and cheating. It says a lot about Jonathan that both times after having a kid with a woman his marriage with her became stagnant and he stopped looking after the woman herself, focusing more on the child. He really does care more about being a father than a partner. You can hear in his interview in the first episode that he thinks marriage is a platform, as in, it is just going to stay there below your feet. He has a habit of taking the women for granted after he has had a kid with them because he sees that as the ultimate culmination of a relationship. He doesn’t like working on relationships. The only time he actually even wanted to was when Mira was already on her way out, and that’s only because deep down he does love Mira, always has, always will in his fucked up way. But he still couldn’t think of doing right by her before it was too late. And he won’t work on his relationship with Jane at all because he doesn’t even care about her. All he cared about was that she could give him a kid and an environment that reminded him of the one he grew up in.

What I find hilarious is that there are people blaming Mira for ruining Jonathan to the point that he eventually became a serial cheater, but it has been canonically established that a bunch of bad relationships also hurt Mira in the past so are they going to make the same excuse for her? Clearly no. I agree that along with Jonathan’s flaws being a lot more subtle in nature, his actor being attractive has a lot to do with people being biased towards him but buddies, look at Jessica Chastain for a second. She’s a hottie too but that doesn’t make Mira a good person 😂 They’re both attractive and both are playing toxic people, what’s not clicking? It’s exhausting to see only one character getting the bashing in a show where both characters are equally messed up so I just had to speak about it.

#scenes from a marriage #mira phillips #jonathan levy #jessica chastain #oscar isaac

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