“No, the rage that I feel, the stress being so high, the fuel pumping through my core, it has reached a level it's never reached before, and it is so intense that for the first time, I realize that I am made of metal and wires, but I am alive. I'm alive for the first time, and I am alive not because I was made by D or Dancer or even the Changebringer. I'm alive because they made me alive, and it's the connections that I made with all of them. It's a feeling of joy, and I'm happy to do this, because they saved my life, and I'll save theirs.”-Fresh Cut Grass/Faithful Care-Giver
matt is so strong, i fuck up so much stuff when i dm or just get told my rulings don’t sense etc. and to have those times amplified by 1000 and have people speculate about every single choice would crush me so completely
matt ruling that the technical damage from the explosion was irrelevant due to the power and weight of fcg’s sacrifice is what really got me. even if sam rolled the max possible number on the dice, it wouldn’t have even brought otohan to below where she was before she took the health potion. mechanically speaking, she should have survived that blast by a LOT of hit points. but this was a player willingly killing their own character, beyond reviving and even potentially beyond resurrection, to give the rest of the party any advantage they could, and he rewarded that with the death of an antagonist that has haunted this campaign from the very beginning. unreal fucking plays by both matt and sam tonight.