Sry to the people who followed me for my carefully researched whaling history posts only for me to be like 'SOURCE: REINCARNATION???' sometimes.

If Tsu'tey lived and met my OC:

Tsu'tey: Ah, another Suli, here to stomp around and make a mess of things.

Kayla: ... You seem nice.

Tsu'tey: You should go away.

Kayla: Nah, you'd miss me.

Tsu'tey:

What can I say? They're my favorite.

i know everyone and their grandmother has said "he's such an asshole!! (affectionate!!)" and while that's obviously fully true.. it seems to overshadow one of the most seemingly counterintuitive things about Neil which is that he naturally can be very polite. obviously they're not mutually exclusive qualities but i feel like it's hardly ever talked about. like from the beginning he apologizes a lot and occasionally has manners and shit, and especially once he gets close to the foxes he genuinely feels bad and guilty about lying to them and hurting them. I feel like people try so hard to make sure he's not seen as soft that the general idea has become that he's this verbally aggressive jackass who's only ever nice to like. andrew. but I don't think he is

sometimes i fear i am filled with too much rage but then i go online and see. people so dedicated to their anger it is practically their entire existence. are you not tired? do you not feel consumed by it? it's okay to let go. your passion can still be expressed through other feelings as well. flames of emotion do not always have to burn you to ashes. please rest a bit and let them just pleasantly warm you

doing research

did you know that a tree doesn't actually grow from the center outward? the center core is actually just inert wood, and the living wood part is just underneath the barks. also trees don't heal by replacing cells, they just cordon off damaged/infected areas and keep growing around it. waow. becoming an arborist just to draw "a cool tree" once or twice

ohhh that's the thing that's the thing. that Sophie thinks of Fitz's anger as a mask the way Keefe uses humor but she can't accept that it might not be a mask, it might be an intrinsic part of him that comes with the package. there's Fitz and then there's his anger and you can't peel that fury away, you have to sit with it, with him, knowing that this is who he really is. it scares her. it scares all of them. to know him truly.

Since Louis remembers everything does that mean he most likely remembers all his deaths too?..

"Yes."

"Everytime."

( cw self-harm, s*icide attempts implied, blood )

"But not the perspective you might be imagining."

"... And, eventually, destroying 'me' wasn't enough."

...

"He's what you might call... Delicate. So you and I will be keeping this between us. Okay?"

wtf what kind of pussy power possession is happening here

day 8 in the apartment is just

seven: [trauma dumps] do you still think I'm hot

MC: yes

seven: no!!!!!!

actually i do want to make this a post. it’s so interesting to think about harry from other people’s perspectives, especially if they’re people who were around him before martinaise. because the thing about harry is: he’s a spectacle. there is not a single person left to him who genuinely *cares*. but there are people who take an interest for interest’s sake. harry is the car crash that people can’t look away from, and it’s such a rich lens to view him through.

let’s exclude jean, judit and trant because there’s already enough you can say about them as the sole remaining members of the major crimes unit. think of the other officers who worked at the 41st. whether they worked in c-wing with him or not, they were exposed to him. they had to be around him in some capacity. as a lieutenant, he was “responsible” (i use that term loosely) for overseeing a number of subordinates under the rank system. 

like put yourself in the shoes of a patrol officer at the 41st. you know harry as, in a word, unstable. a deeply unreliable man of extremes with alarmingly few personal attachments to keep him in check. he’s also practically untouchable as long as he keeps getting results, which he does, at a cost. so there’s never any point in formally complaining about him- he’s never going to be corrected or fired, so you just do one of the following: 1) keep your mouth shut (if you’re polite or playing it safe), 2) only bitch about him out of earshot (if you’ve got something to say but you’re nonconfrontational), 3) start shit with him but in a “playful” way that is secretly sincere (if you’re ballsy/have known him long enough), 4) or start shit with him for real (if you’re jean, or have a death wish). 

and the thing about the last two of those options- *especially the 3rd, which seems to be the favorite of his fellow C-wingers*- you have to know him VERY WELL to pull it off without ostensibly getting your nose broken (or worse). you have to know his moods and his triggers and what exact cocktail of bullshit he’s displaying that day so you know where the line is for this particular shift. whoever figures it out first passes it along to everyone else- hey, you can fuck with him about dating today, but don’t bring up the drinking or last week’s case or he’ll go ballistic. and it’s just like... he’s a specimen. you may not know him on a personal heart-to-heart level, but you know him the way a zookeeper knows their tigers, or the way the falconer knows their hawk. you know when to feed and when to back away with your arms up. it doesn’t make things better, but it stops them getting worse. (for you, anyway).

then martinaise happens and if he comes back- his instability is still there, but it’s not the same. you don’t recognize the way he’s acting. maybe some things are not as bad as before, but all of it is different and it’s impossible to get a read on it. you have no idea how to approach him now, or if you should approach him at all. there’s a new layer to his unreliability and it’s somehow even scarier than before. there’s a tiny tiny calm in his storm, finally, and you don’t know when it’s going to break or what’s going to break it. you hear he’s finally actually kicking the booze and maybe you just scoff and move on, or maybe you let yourself root for him. really it all depends on how long you’ve known him, how many times you’ve seen him *try*. how sympathetic you are to his conditions and how patient of a person you are. how many times he’s hurt you (because that number is rarely going to be zero). no matter what, you’re going to be left wondering. you don’t know how much of him is gone. you don’t know how much is going to come back. you’re not sure how much of each you *want*.

I think one of the scariest parts of capitalism is how it encourages a sort of moral apathy. Sure a lot of powerful people do bigoted things because they are, in fact, hateful bigots. But a lot of them might vote for and back right-wingers not because they personally hate minorities or want the world to burn but because the right-wingers will give them tax cuts and remove regulations and hey, thats just good business! Social media don’t put radical alt-righters on vulnerable people's timelines because the people running the site believe in those ideals and want to radicalize people, but because it triggers engagement, makes you stay logged on longer and makes them more money. They don’t ban queer people and adult content because they give a shit but because said content might scare off advertisers; advertisers are scared off not because they give a shit but because they want to appeal to as many people as possible to make more money. And there’s the reverse of this, too: when they see that it’s more profitable to be diverse and inclusive, that’s the content they push, not because they give a shit, but because it makes more money.

Big corporations aren't alone in this, either. Drama channels and the like don't arise because the people running them personally hate everyone they go after and try to get cancelled; a lot of the time, they just see that this sort of content gets the views and the money. And because they do bigoted things not out of political reasons but for economical ones, they convince themself it’s somehow neutral. Smart, even! Just good business. The world and its people are a tool for them to use and throw away as they see fit, and the fact that so many of the world's most powerful people think like this is terrifying.

you know the real tragedy is that even if billy did better he’d still think everyone would see him for what he was (which is hella fair tbh) and that shit would eat him up. cause he can’t even blame them.

It’s been a year but I am ONE FORM away from being done w sorting out my late father’s estate.

Maybe it’s just me here, but y’all notice how girl rebellion went from being punk, accepting body hair & flipping off men who cat-call, to being the hot conventionally attractive mean girl in 2000’s pink who manipulates & is rude to nearly everyone because why not?

Headcanon : There is no trainer dumb enough to use self-destruct. Geodudes just like to do that by instinct, and it can be pretty hard to train a geodude and teach it to NOT actually do that mid battle.