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#ITD LIKE. not just having to deal w his own mind turning against him but he also has to deal w. just being like everybody else. he sees them
neon--nightmare · 2 years
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What are some songs that remind you of fresh?
OH OH OH!!! I ACTUALLY HAVE A. cough. Almost seven hour. playlist of songs i associate with him!!! ITS ON SPOTIFY HERE!! some songs are there just for psychic damage like caramelldansen and casin, id recommend listenin on shuffle so u can have the intended experience of going from Hey Ya! by Outkast to Back and Forth by Dr. Steel to Karma by AJR to Purple People Eater. as someone who’s special interest and ID has been fresh for,,, *checks* seven years strong, it’s definitely. The playlist i’ve made of all time
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#doodles#freshposting#UGH I LOVE TALKIN ABT HIM SO MUCH DUDE please send more asks abt him bros i need a distraction rn AVSNA;VDNSBFB#EVERY SONG IS ON THERE FOR A REASON!!!#even if the reason is ‘Yeah thatd be funny’#LIKE CARTOONS IS ON THERE BC. fresh doesnt view the people around him as REAL people#like he knows theyre real but he like. cant.. rlly UNDERSTAND or process it he jus sees them as pawns!! and its his way of like#not dealin w like… their emotions or thinkin any further abt it bc he just cant understand ITS HARD TO PUT INTO WORDS BUT I HOPE THE VIBES#THERE like he knows rationally they’re alive but he only rlly comprehends it w very few people (like pacifrisk in canon!!)#HE ALSO HAS A HUGE SUPERIORITY COMPLEX THAT HE DOESNT KNOW IS A SUPERIORITY COMPLEX unrelated to the song but bc of that#HE SEES HIMSELF AS JUST. BETTER. ABOVE. BC HE WAS *MADE* TO BE IN HIS MIND. and that’s why he refers to any of his emotions as like#ITD LIKE. not just having to deal w his own mind turning against him but he also has to deal w. just being like everybody else. he sees them#as WEAKNESS and therefore to him having them means hes weak and turns his entire worldview on his head#EVEN IGNORING THE WHOLE THING W THE HIGHER UPS AND FRESH 2.0 WHERE IF HE STOPPED BEING ENTERTAINING TO THEM HED LITERALLY BE KILLED ND#REPLACED WITH A ‘BETTER’ VERSION WHOS EVERYTHING HE CANT BE BUT REFUSES TO ADMIT IT EVEN TO HIMSELF#ITS ALL SO. MAN people overlook his superiority complex a lot and I think that needs to be explored more in fanon bc itd be a huge part of#his struggle w emotions; and he wouldnt even ADMIT it was a complex bc to him its just. the truth. he IS better. hes above all the ‘weak’#people w their confusing emotions and boring lives and happiness sadness love attachments unchecked anger#hes ABOVE that and bc he cant comprehend it it’s like#watchin animals at the zoo through a thick layer of glass and throwin rocks at them from safety. u know theyre real but they can’t affect u#they can react but theyre helpless and at ur ‘mercy’ for entertainment NOT SAYIN. ANYBODY WOULD DO THIS BUT.#and that in ur mind ur better than them; because youre FREE arent you? you’re not caged#but in reality you’re inside an even bigger glass cage. you’re an experiment just as much as they are. you’re not better you’re the same as#the animals.#HES SO COMPLICATED DUDE AAAGH this is what happens when u ask me one sentence i turn it into a completely different essay on freshs#COMPLEXES IM SORRY AJDBSJFBDKFBDMFBS#HES JUST. AAAHHH STAMPS MY FEET I WAS PACIN NONSTOP AS I WROTE THIS i love fresh so much#I MISS RPING HIM SO BADLY EVERY DAY I SWEARRRRR#it’s just an energy issue unfortunately ADKJSMSBFNBD#asks
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bradfordarchive · 4 years
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clicks my fingers to no humanly discernible rhythm as i strut bk onto the dash w chara number two!! (it’s me nai bk again bt this time wearing a stick on moustache). bradley’s pinterest is HERE n u kno the drill mre abt her under the cut n like this fr those Sweet Sweet plots!!
MARGARET QUALLEY / CIS-FEMALE — don’t look now, but is that bradley milligan i see? the 23 year old psychology student is in their junior year and she is a rochester alum. i hear they can be brave, resilient, destructive and ruthless, so maybe keep that in mind. i bet she will make a name for themselves living in off campus. ( nai. 23. gmt. she/her. )
aesthetics: singeing a hole in your fishnets with the cherry of a menthol, spitting a pistachio behind the bar just to hear it ping off the nozzle top bottles, lemon in a fresh cut, a war torn poppy standing alone in an empty field, poking bruises, stomping over flowerbeds when there’s a path right next to it, dangling over ledges just to feel your chest jolt, a snarling rottweiler that should be muzzled, limp feet poking out behind a door, ‘I PROMISE I DON’T BITE’ scrawled on a name tag, slapping a bald head in front of you at the cinema like it’s a bongo, not owning a single jacket that isn’t stolen, driving a stolen car in the wrong lane against the traffic, blowing coke in someone’s face after asking “hey, does this smell funny to you?”, hair more feral than a wolf cub and eyes smudgier than a coal mine.  
BACKGROUND:
father runs a gang n strip club in queens called ‘no angels’ tht fronts an affluent drug trade, primarily coke. his name is tony milligan n his gang is p infamous around there fr being jst like…. completely cutthroat n awful. they were nicknamed ‘tony’s rottweilers’ by locals bc he bsically has all of these trained dogs on leash at his command n they’re still a growing organisation tday
he’s pretty much the worst human being alive n bradley hs like….. a lot of issues with herself as a result of years of toxicity n abuse
in terms of more family bkground info her mum’s name was alyssa n she vanished when bradley was 12. jst like…. into thin air. nothing. no note. zilch. gan! n when bradley asked her dad abt it his response was essentially “guess she didn’t love us enough to stay”. as bradley’s got older tho n become (without intention) more involved in the business side of things, it’s become pretty clear there was far more to the story.
they had a horrible marriage n tony ws quite violent at the best of times, which didn’t help the fact tht alyssa ws struggling a lot w severe depression n rly just… not in the mindset to b dealing w anything else on top of tht, even where motherhood ws concerned. bradley p much… would look after her a lot n they’d both b scared of her dad n it was just a whole mess.
anyway im rambling bt basically tony (bradley’s dad) gt wind of alyssa sleeping w men tht worked fr him n he just… got rid. bradley’s kind of worked out over the yrs tht her mum didn’t jst leave on her own accord n tht something must hav happened to her bt she’s too scared of her dad to ever directly accuse him
when her mum went all of her dad’s cruelty pretty mch got channelled straight onto her. it ws diluted between two before bt as u can probably imagine her upbringing was jst…. a steep downhill decline frm tht point onwards
she learnt ways 2 deal w the incurring trauma bt they weren’t healthy ones at all! bsically jst. will do or take anything fr the distraction. chases a thrill like it’s the only way to remind her she’s alive. has absolutely no regard fr her own wellbeing n sometimes gets other ppl in trouble too bc she’s so insatiably reckless
she hd….2 separate stints of psychiatric hospitalisation n she never tlks abt it. like ever. acknowledging she’s been vulnerable is her worst nightmare n bc of the way her dad raised her she always thinks any sign of struggling within herself is weakness. truly does…. not kno how to properly emotion
CUT TO!!!! huntington beach. she’s currently living in a spacious loft above a rly busy bar tht i picture like. p close to campus so a lot of students prob frequent it?? she loves it bc she can sit on the window sill smoking n argue w ppl tht walk past drunk. jst randomly callin out like. nice chest hair Loser. i feel like she hasn’t even paid fr wifi she jst uses the bar’s free one n like. goes in there expecting free drinks all the time?? is jst like erm? i live here? let me drink? this is my house? aka she’s. a lot.
her dad’s opening up a new strip club (also called no angels bc he’s trying to lowkey make it like a chain) n he’s only allowed her to make the move bc she’s overseeing it kind of???? as well as a few guys tht worked fr him back in queens. one in particular called billy hs made the move n he’s a menace so. three cheers fr anarchy!
PERSONALITY:
the kind of sour cherry only certain people have a taste for
once drank a bottle of whiskey, insisted she could still do a cartwheel and accidentally kicked an old man’s front tooth out in the process. proceeded 2 collapse into a flower bed and laugh so much abt it that she cried
barely takes anything seriously 50% of the time and is angry the other 50%
if she was a coffee she’d be black with five grains of sugar that you couldn’t taste until the last sip
high functioning alcoholic. if u ever see her w a coffee cup u jst kno tht one sniff will confirm high alcohol percentage. honestly idk hw she does it her liver must b yellin
loyal to a point of fault. if she cares abt u and u murder a man in cold blood she’ll brawl anyone that says ur guilty
honestly wld probably fight a person over anything. sometimes she’ll jst be having a bad day n she’ll burst n take it out on whoever says the wrong thing. a minefield!
has the worst luck in romance…. ever. the majority of her past bfs hav been absolute beasts n as a result she kind of has the ‘romance is dead n love is a lie’ mentality
speakin of which i feel like she’s bi bt wldnt have dated a girl or anythin. like guys r probably…. her preference just bc historically theyv treated her worse n she hs a very self destructive personality like that. sexy!
dresses like courtney love, 2014 sky ferreira and a character from this is england had a baby. mostly wears stolen clothes from strangers and jackets that swamp her. hair is p much always a wild mess n she usually hd kind of smudgy/smoky makeup bcos apparently she’s allergic to combs and generally looking presentable… relatable content
she’s v sarcastic. sometimes blunt. kind of has a habit of…. assessing a person n she’s quite perceptive bc she’s been trained to b by the way she always has to monitor her dad’s expression fr the slightest emotion change. she’s quite confident n can p much mke a conversation out of whatever. sort of independent too like she hs a bunch of friends bt she doesn’t care abt going out places alone if she’s in a certain mood n jst wants…… to get into chaos. she’s probably kind of known around campus bt itd b a 50/50 balance between bein known as intimidating n bein known as that one girl tht always gets into anarchy
likes: fishnets, stealing cars, throwing watermelons off rooftops and whiskey
dislikes: amy schumer, honesty, yellow tulips and going home
PLOTS:
someone tht got a job at the new strip club her dad opened up in town?? either as a dancer or bartender or whtever. just a forewarning it’s probably gna b a pretty..... seedy and Not That Pleasant environment bc it’s like. a crime hotspot inevitably bc it’s a gang hangout so. ur chara wld truly be in fr a rollercoaster ride to say the least
she deals coke fr her dad’s gang bt it’s more like. a hobby than a steady source of income tht she Needs bc she just likes the thrill of the fact tht encounters in tht line of work can turn sour tbh. a Thrill Seeker! mayb she deals to ur muse??
anyone….. she’s brawled in the past like. she’s literally a menace i cnt express this enough. wil jst randomly throw a drink in someone’s face fr no reason bc she’s bored. she’s probably pissed off 1000 diff ppl in 1000 diff ways. the possibilities r endless n i jst think tht’s a sexy prospect!
fwbs perhaps??? exes??? (probably ws a tumultuous relationship wtever…. ur muse is like like bradley is. a handful)
mayb someone tht she met at an aa meeting when she hd to go fr a court mandated thing one time after bein arrested fr public indecency. i feel like there’s probably a rly expensive statue somewhere thts fancily Sculpted n she like. did a flying kick n kicked the dick of it off n gt arrested fr it
ppl she……. Goes Wild Goes Crazy w. truly jst the most self destructive person alive so anyone w a similar mindset wld b a hellish bt fun combination
on the contrary a gd influence cld b nice perhaps? like someone tht genuinely cares abt her n she jst doesn’t kno hw to compute it
um. honestly the world’s our oyster. hmu n we cn brainstorm if none of tht catches ur eye!
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