Stede expects all kind of reactions from Ed when he sees him again - cursing, hitting, stabbing, throwing him overboard. He promises himself to take it all like a man.
When he does meet Ed again, he looks furious. But he lowers his sword and just stares at Stede for a long minute.
And then he says in a quiet voice - "I don't get it, man. I kissed you. You kissed me back. And then you just left. Why? Was I not good enough for you?" And there are unshed tears in the corners of his eyes.
And Stede wishes that he would just punch him or throw him overboard instead, because seeing Ed like this is one of the most painful things he'd ever experienced in his life.
i am a “i don’t know how, but i’m taller” “sleeping off the growing pains” “i can’t believe childhood is over” “i don’t believe in that stuff anymore” “if only you had seen what you know now then” “you’re still an innocent” “i miss everything” “you know you’ll always know me” “before i learned civility, i use to scream ferociously” “i was so ahead of the curve, the curve became a sphere” “and i was catching my breath” “i rewind the type, but all it does is pause” “and i’m still a believer, and i don’t know why” “the end is here” “it’s like the tide going out... it can’t be stopped” “i’ll stop it” “if i were a girl in a book this would all be so easy” “and though i can’t recall your face, i still got love for you” “and i woke up in my childhood bed” “romanticise a quiet life, there’s no place like my room” “wishing i was someone else” “so i got wasted like all my potential” “fell behind all my classmates and i ended up here” “all your closets of backlogged dreams” “she reminds me of memories” “to be certain, we’ll be tall again”