#I'd put away all of tmrw to having my heart (most likely) shattered and now its been delayed to tuesday so now i have to just | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

paralien · 3 months

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The worst thing in the entire world isn't waiting for a planned Talk™; It's having waited for A Talk™ for days and then less than 24hrs before it, the person who planned it asks if you can do a rain check and take it another day

#Im going to tear my skin off.#I'd put away all of tmrw to having my heart (most likely) shattered and now its been delayed to tuesday so now i have to just #pretend monday is a normal day and not the day i thought i was going to (figuratively) die #Feel kind of bad for only replying to all of his texts w just. one liners. no emojis. but im just. so emotionally tired #hes been ignoring me for 2 months. and now he suddenly wants to have a talk and i bet i already know what hes going to say #which isnt going to be “hey ive been worse than awful” which he has been #but instead he'll most likely just say hey sorry i need to work on myswlf and also im moving away and like #i swear i wasnt ignoring you bc i thought abt u while we didnt see eachother for 2 months #and then completely ignore the elepahnt in the room which is that he cant just say. hey im not ready for a relationship. but then:#flirt with me. kiss me. constantly cuddle w me. initiate sex. and then ignore me for 2 whole months and pretend any of that was ok or normal #im just. tired and anxious and feeling so pessimistic. like theres no way up from here

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