"okay. I will be your boyfriend."

The Sandman | Morpheus being a sad wet cat

Harry Kim saying Naomi is lucky to be born on Voyager and that he would have given "anything" to have her life when he was a kid...

So I know we here at Startrekfandom love that "came back wrong but from the pov of the wrong" thing and apply it to many different characters and canon situations and I am far from trying to complain about it (I'm "came out wrong" trope myself so I was always gonna obsess over it) but having recently watched a very important episode (you'll know which one) for the first time I think there's a character who hits both tropes mentioned but llike, intertwined, opposite and subverted, and whom I wanna talk about.

Julian Bashir.

From his parents' pov he's "came out wrong but we got him help and he came back better" while from his own pov it's "came out 'insufficient', was destroyed for it, came back wrong and only later slowly came to terms with his new self tho never the process (justifiably so)" and it's heartbreaking because in a way, he's right! Jules Bashir died! His parents had an intellectually disabled child and decided to eugenics him! Julian is not the person he used to be and while I do love the person he is now, that doesn't bring back who he was! Part of me wishes we could've gotten to see Jules at least once and part of me hopes we never do because my heart would shatter.

This isn't a good comparison but nonetheless one I can't help drawing: it's giving similar vibes to anti-vaxxers. "I'd rather risk having a child who is dead than one who's autistic". Obviously this doesn't map over since Julian is still autistic and the procedure his parents subjected him to specifically targeted his intellectual disability and if any folks with id wanna comment on this I definitely recommend you listen to them over me, but it's a similarity I, as an autistic who has encountered anti-vaxxers again and again, can't help but point out. "Give me a normal child or give them death."

This may have been written about already but there needs to be stories about teenage Julian (after finding out and rediscovering who he was) practicing some good ol' recognition of the self through media. I need to hear about how he would encounter a story about someone who came back wrong (I'm gonna assume there's plenty of "wrong" pov stories floating around by the 24th century) and absolutely weep. I need to see Julian mourning Jules, taking years and years to process his feelings, experiencing guilt about how he, the imposter, didn't deserve to live Jules' life.

Came back wrong from the returned's pov but it wasn't an accident. It was done to you deliberately by the people who claim to love you. And now you are here, piloting the corpse of your predecessor.

Jules Bashir is dead. Long live Julian Bashir.

I'm frightened of you knowing who I am but, could you possibly give me your frank frankly theories pretty please idc if you only have like 2.1 I want them regardless of how many you have.

mayhaps?

ah man i wish i had some to give! i think all of my Frank theories (at present) are tied into other theory posts! he simply doesn't have a lot to chew on yet

Listening to instrumentals from the silly doo-wee-ooo show is actually something that can be so painful.

car seat headrest concert footage is fun to watch because there will be several minutes of just wordless wailing and guitar distortion and the audience will be a pretty even split of people losing their absolute shit to it and people who are clearly you know. they’ve heard music before and they’re not entirely sure that’s what’s happening right now

i just wanna send an ask to feed fake bean, they must eat. also hope youre doing well bean

(Fake Bean thanks you for the meal!!!

And I am doing good too! I'm trying to draw the next update, but I keep bursting into tears bc your guys' asks are so nice!!! But it will be done, we gotta get everyone happy again!!!

i feel like i need to do laps of the house rn i have so much to talk to you guys about and idk where to start

You’ve got me thinking about Asmo and how the only thing he values about himself is his looks and how it would be if MC was blind.

Asmo starts talking about how beautiful he is and it’s no wonder MC loves him. He’d make comments about how they can “feel his beauty” even if they can’t see it. Asmo asks them to list the reasons they love him and (unsurprisingly) they don’t list any physical attributes aside from maybe how soft his skin and hair is.

Asmo in tears with hearts in his eyes

Anon ur so smart for this cause this is so heart touching

Just imagining asmo being slightly caught off guard when he realizes mc is mainly listing off his positive personality traits...😭

Youre a great listener!

You do your best to make sure everyone feels included

Youre extrememly open and passionate about your interests and encourage others to do the same

Youre effortlessly funny

Etc etc

They could honestly keep going for a while probably lol

And MC hears him sniffle and is like "wait are you crying?? :0"

when you read a fic that gives you a hyper-specific whump scenario that you know would either A.) take forever to find in another story or B.) hasn't been written at all so the obvious conclusion is that you have to write it yourself

hi ik you don’t really do prompt rn but could we have some soft billdip hcs/drabble (or as soft as these two can get)? i’m a sucker for the way you write them and your works have genuinely helped me through the past weeks. even if not thank you for your works bc mmmm idk how you do it it’s just *chefs kiss* (:

Have some soft headcanons, then!

The first time Bill and Dipper took a bath together wasn't.... really a bath, per se. They'd probably run afoul of some supernatural skunk thing and had to soak in tomato juice, bickering about whose fault it was. The times they actually bathed together usually ended in water fights. Dipper half-drowned a couple times; Bill plays rough.

They've since settled down a bit! These days, the times they sink into one of Bill's hedonistic baths in his pyramid are pretty relaxing times to chat and flirt with each other.

And if Dipper's very sick or injured, Bill might even pick him up and set him in a warm bath, while taking charge of all the scrubbing down and rinsing of the pitiful mortal. While grumbling a little, but still!

Bill can cook. The trouble is getting him to stop adding ingredients that 'make things interesting', or go more along demonic culinary tastes - But he could, theoretically, make a decent meal. This is an uphill battle, since Bill's convinced following human recipes is boring and dumb. Dipper may even win it one day.

A fun fact that Dipper may or may not have learned by now is that Bill can purr! For the same reasons a cat might - calm, content, and relaxed.

However, Bill also hasn't done it in forever. For that kind of thing to happen, he'd have to be really content - to the point where let his guard down completely. Which I don't imagine he's done in basically.... eons? For all that he's had happy Party Times and pleased Winning Times and even Chill times, it's pretty impossible to ever really stop watching your back in the demon realm.

But say. After a great day. One where Bill's just won something, he's done something clever to pat himself on the back about, and he gets to chill with his husband in bed while Dipper rubs his back - just a calm, domestic-ish hangout where they're chilling - Dipper might feel and hear that rumbling start up. To his great surprise.

(And Bill's. He genuinely can't remember the last time that old instinct kicked in; it's unsettling.)

Here is what I imagine a triangle purring sounds like. It's more big-cat-like in the human body.

Kid Kazuichi! I like to think she's never totally looked "normal," that the teeth were always sharp and her hair was usually a curly mess in between those times where her dad or grandma got some clippers and gave her a homemade buzzcut, but her hair grows back fast. When she was really little, with her long hair and her running around pretending to be a magical princess when she was away from home, a lot of people thought she was a girl...heh.

Judging from her conversations with Hajime, I got the sense that apart from comic books she was mostly into nonfiction like guides on building things or cars or history.

I have a lot of feels about Kazuichi's relationship with reading. When she was a kid, the library was a safe haven: mentally and physically, she could get away from her dad, teachers, mean kids, and just escape -and she is an escapist with a big imagination. But as she got older, it was hard to keep up with the other nerds in her class, who had an easier time focusing and understanding, and reading felt more brutal and insulting. There was a false dichotomy of being an advanced reader or being "stupid." At her breaking point, she couldn't keep up her grades any more and was burning out, and if it wasn't for Hope's Peak giving her a new chance she may have considered dropping out altogether.

Every time she tried to return to books, it would remind her of the stress of school. It also felt like she was leagues behind everyone else, that she was "stupid", and the shame would drive her away. But there is no rule that you have to only read books at a "high level" - when you're not in school, this doesn't matter at all. It's okay to admit that you have a disability and it makes it harder to read some books.

I hate that there's some discourse right now that makes people think it's wrong or somehow damaging to yourself only/mostly like media for children and teenagers, so I need to internalize more positive messages for myself. Anyway, media is supposed to be enjoyable, something you want to do, not something to keep up with social trends or to impress a former gifted kid with a superiority complex who misses the days when they could compete with you and feel like a big shot. You do not have to compete with them.

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Rimster wedding day. 💖 These boys are so shaped.

[ID: a digital illustration, in vibrant shades of blue in a cartoonish style showing the Red Dwarf characters Lister and Rimmer getting married, officiated by the Cat, while Kryten and Holly stand to the side as the wedding party and several guests look on.

Kryten is wearing a frilly hat and blouse in "mother of the bride" style. He is holding a handkerchief and crying dramatically.

Lister is wearing a tuxedo without the jacket, shirt partially untucked and bowtie undone. He is wearing his work boots. He is smiling fondly at Rimmer, arms crossed, confident.

Cat stands in the center in a black suit with a priest collar and thigh high white boots. He is wearing blue lipstick eyeliner, as well as silver heart-shaped dangly earrings and a natural hairstyle with gray hair on the temples and a braid in the back. He is posing with his eyes closed in a smug smile, as though he is modeling for a photoshoot.

Rimmer stands with his back very straight and his arms behind his back, wearing a white tuxedo with navy epaulets. He is blushing and smiling nervously at Lister.

To his right, the head of Holly in her female form is present on a screen, which is attached to a stand with wheels. Holly is wearing pearl earrings and her hair is in a neat updo with bangs. To the corner of her screen, there is a basket of rose petals.

The wedding party is standing in front of a large window with criss-crossing lattice, looking out onto the blue and purple starscape of space through the glass.

Small text in the upper left-hand corner reads "Jack D. Goodfellow, 2022"

In the foreground of the image, some wedding guests are visible in the audience, seen from behind as though the viewer were seated behind them. the guests appear to include Hogey the Rogue-y, two of the skutters leaning on each other romantically, Kochanski, and Snacky the snack robot.

The rest of the images are all various crops of the first image for the purpose of making the detail work easier to see.

End ID.]

every now and then i come on here and wail and yell into what I think of as the void and then ppl come out of the void to say some kind words to me and i appreciate it so much, and also i get so flustered because I was perceived being anything less than a completely normal joe HFDSJGKL

uenominako i let my intrusive thoughts win and didn't regret it for once! it was time for a much needed personal growth 💖 lately i've been thinking about how much i've changed over the years and how many things i've gone through. the person i saw in the mirror was familiar, yet she didn't feel like me anymore. she was still that excited little girl who moved to the big city on her own to see the world and realized things weren't that simple. the little girl that had to learn to fall down and pick herself back up again over and over, but that always refused to give up. i have every love in the world for her, but it was time to let her go. the road to healing and self-love is long and never-ending, but i'm proud of how far i've come. now, i wanted the outside to also reflect this new version of me, forever a beautiful work in progress, as it should be.

comments : hayashi.emi woman, you look stunning! why didn't you tell me you were going, i'd have gone with you. i can believe i missed this life changing moment 😭 i would have taken so many pictures! you are the most stunning person i've ever meat, both inside and out. i love you with all my heart, baby girl. s.ayaka this is a good look on you. you know i don't do well with these things, but being by your side through this journey has been a privilege. universe.sehyun 😍😍 that's my favorite girl, i'm literally barking and on my knees for you. you are perfect in every way possible adelineeee you look prettier and prettier every day, i think i'm in love starishnacchan i can't believe my baby cousin is all grown up and beautiful like this 🥺 i'm so proud of you, mina-chan~ i love you so so much ottokun always do what makes you happy 💕 you're one of the brightest stars i have ever met, don't let others dim your light fujioka.rina never thought i'd see you not blonde, but you are glowing more than ever before 🥰 you look happy jijihye SLAAAAAAAAAY QUEEN you deserve the world! kotochan oh my god i'm obssessed with this jiyoon.sugar my beautiful little sunflower💗 joodances did you know that you are my girl crush and i would do literally anything for you? because i would