everything i know about joan of arc is from bill and ted's excellent adventure. soo many of you aren't ex christian you're just either queer or kinda mad at your parents. whenever yall say frank and gerard are matching their outfits they really aren't. "g note" isn't music theory. lotms is a hilarious awful work of editing. all the bullets songs blur together and yet i also skip multiple. it's really creepy how some of you refuse to talk about against me wo bringing up frank iero. im passing away and other death n suicide related comments about pretty or gender pictures of mcr gets really old really fast. and also its very fucking concerning that y'all don't register those phrases as suicide jokes. source one of my posts turned into that so much so i had to edit it saying to cut it out. also the girl gerard and she/hering everyone is creepy. yall dont know what gnc or drag king or camp or femme means. a lot of yall are fatphobic but refuse to admit it. i have never once listened to an LS dunes song. i actually don't want to know anything about any of these people's children. gerard isnt good at writing comics. or at singing. mikey or ray could sing lead and it would sound better. all of you are creepy racist weird about rays hair and infantilizing him. gerard wearing skirts is like cool and good for them but has made being around mcr fans so much worse uncomfortable and unsafe. no i did not feel safe or empowered or anything to be wearing a skirt over baggy pants to the mcr convert i went to. i was pretty sure people were going to misgender me. since you guys seem to be so good at that already. i never listened to the metal song gerard helped with. i never read the weird book about the black parade.

I think ultimately the intentions for me don't justify something that has a negative impact - your mileage may vary and that's totally cool, the world would be boring if we all agreed on everything! i think i hold mcr in particular to a high standard because when all the other bands on the scene were taking advantage of their fans, mcr always seemed different - remember that bit on their dvd where some bands on some tour were asking girls to show them their breasts in exchange for backstage passes, so gerard got onstage and was like 'if a guy tells you to show him your tits, you tell him to fuck off'? they've always had a sense of responsibility for their fans, so i want them to have that energy for their gnc/dysphoric/trans fans. anyways it was lovely chatting with you, have a lovely day/night depending on your timezone!

my mileage definitely varies but also, if intent matters less than impact, u have no reason at all to hold anything against him! sure, he stated an INTENT to release binders... but he hasn't actually done it, so there's been no impact at all! actually i put off buying a binder lol cause i was like you're gonna feel soooo stupid if u finally cave n buy one and then frank iero drops his binders 3 weeks later. so when u think about it every day frank iero does not release a binder he is having a positive impact on me personally! on a less silly note i do wonder if he's done more research and/or been informed by anyone abt the risks & harms & if that has anything to do w why there's been no significant updates on the whole thing.

& yes ofc i remember that 😭 i think about that all the time. i believe his exact words were "spit in their face and scream FUCK YOU!"... thank u gerard way for all that u are and have ever been to teen girls & young women everywhere. so sincerely from the bottom of my heart im so grateful to him. (at the same time he's obviously felt way Too responsible at times and got a whole hero/martyr complex abt it and. its not healthy i wouldn't wish that on the others. its ok for them to be just some guys its NOT their responsibility to be right abt everything all the time nd thats ok.)

its midday here but im on night shift so its like midnight for me nd i should really get 2 sleep 😭😭 goodbye my sweetheart i hope u have a lovely day or night too <3

Oh yeah also with all these Gerard posts today I just wanna clarify:

I am not horny for them

They're my cool gnc uncle

They're a valued teacher and inspiration

All I want is to have a simple platonic dinner conversation together where I interview them about Bullets/Three Cheers and show them my queer horror if they're interested

Please only interact if u are normal about band members being real human beings with thoughts and feelings. Bandom grooming really fucked me up as a kid so especially don't touch if you ship real human people together. That's all thank you I love you my chem blogs who find me let's gush let's scream let's cry together 🖤 Who wants to roll around in glittery fake blood puddles with me teehee

I ran a popular twenty one pilots blog but then when Tyler Joseph’s scandal happened last year all of the tøp blogs turned into mcr blogs and I had never really been exposed to mcr before so when I saw photos of Gerard looking gnc af and covered in blood I was like. Huh. Maybe this mcr stuff is cool. And then I fell into hyperfixation and I deleted my top blog and became a fulltime mcr stan and that’s how I got into mcr anyways fuck Tyler Joseph

i find it so interesting that top tumblr is/was still a thing bc when they first got popular they were allll over my dash cause they were lumped into bandom from the save rock and roll arena tour with panic and fob and it was just like top existed on my radar constantly but now i feel like i haven’t seen a top post in what feels like years so yea i find it interesting that y’all were still out there that whole time....anyway welcome to the party obv the members of mcr aren’t perfect but tyler’s post was so fucking tone deaf especiallylyyy in 2020 and honestly insulting society has progressed past the need for him

very long gender talk under the cut

thinking about how when I was in the 7th grade I was like ah I am nonbinary my pronouns are they/she and I said that with confidence on my instagram bandom/aes account without a care in the world. and then i left bandom and i was like ah i am not going to think about gender please nobody perceive me and that includes myself. if i think about gender for even a second then i will die. and then i rejoined bandom and i am again confidently saying i am nonbinary my pronouns r they/them (with exceptions). and my point is that it’s beautiful what seeing some dudes in makeup can do for your self acceptance❤️ no im kidding that is not the point. but actually it kind of is!

when i was 12 i didn't read into mcr lyrics and connect them to transness at all, because i was 12 and wasn’t yet intelligent enough to do so. but i saw gerard, along with other musicians, being gnc and i really connected with them, with their rebellion of the gender binary regardless of if they were cis or not. i saw gerard and ryan ross flaunting their makeup and cute little outfits around on stage and i thought to myself huh, if they can do that then i can reject the restrictions put on me by the gender binary as well! and when you’re so young, these think pieces we all spout out now don’t really matter, because you see people who you connect with regardless of if they are actually what you are or not and at the time it’s enough, the think pieces can come later in life. so part of my point is that trans people are allowed to connect with figures like this regardless of whether or not those figures themselves are trans as well, because nobody should be able to say “no that person isn't trans you can't relate to them or find self acceptance through their personal presentation.” like why does that matter so much to some people? why do people feel the need to police what trans people do and dont connect with? I think if a trans person finds some meaning and parts of themselves in the media, even if that thing isn't trans, then the meaning is still just as valuable to them.

So this was my view of everything when I was really young- obviously there is hardly any nuance to it and I dont identify as what I did back then (I used to id as genderfluid specifically, but now I just id as nb), but that’s fine. I was a kid, and kids often don’t look into things the same way older teenagers and up do. and older teenagers dont look at things the same way as middle aged people and so on and so forth but that's not the point. the point is when you’re so young, sometimes all you know (or all I knew, at least) is that you dont like the gender everyone perceives you as and you relate to these people who break their own barriers, and it’s ENOUGH. it’s enough to help you and even if that person isn't trans, your connection to them isn't any less valid. and this obviously applies to older people as well, and it also applies to anytime in your ~gender journey~ but I'm just speaking from my own experience here.

and when I left bandom and mainly focused on mainstream media, the height of breaking the gender binary was, like, millionaire white gays putting on glam makeup. and saying that out loud makes it sound exactly like what the musicians I looked up to were doing, but I think the difference is that beauty gurus put on makeup to be beautiful and I could not connect to that or relate to that because wanting to be beautiful was the exact thing I was trying to escape from. it wasn't like fucking up your face with some red eyeshadow to look cool and evil, it was putting on 50 dollar highlighter to conform to capitalist standards of beauty. so because there wasn't any gnc representation I was looking to, I slowly began to hide from myself and became incredibly uncomfortable thinking about gender at all, and I stopped identifying as anything, never said I was cis but never said I wasn't, you know how it goes. and these years of my life really shine a light on how important finding things you can connect with and attach to as a trans/gnc/nb person is- again, even if those things aren't actually directly trans themselves. especially because we are lacking so much to cling to already, but also just because these connections of ours are personal and can help us for a plethora of reasons.

then I came back to bandom and the gerard way gender discussions came in my life at full speed and very quickly I began to reconnect with gerard specifically and I dunno, seeing all of that was so incredibly healing, I suppose. I spent a lot of time with a lot of anxiety about my gender because I had nothing to cling to or find meaning in, and even though I listened to mychem throughout those years I didn't analyze things like that, so really I owe a lot of the resurgence of my self acceptance to all of yalls gerard way gender think pieces lol. there are other figures I still connect with regarding this, but gerard specifically not only because of his directly expressed experiences with gender but also because of the analyses of lyrics and symbols brought to light to me by mcr tumblr. so my other point is that when a community of trans/nb/gnc people connect with someone, that connection absolutely should not be policed by others in any way, shape, or form. it just so happens that in the case of gerard, they have explicitly expressed their own gender experiences that do not align with being cis (and if you think that they do then you need to genuinely reevaluate your perception of gnc/nb people). but even if they hadn't, even if gerard arthur way was like I Am Cisgender I Have Never Questioned My Gender In My Life then guess what? trans people would still be allowed to connect with them. because it isn’t up to anybody what others find themselves in.

Anyways. I think this post was all over the place and I dont expect anyone to have read it but I just think people need to just fuckingjejbfakjnfjab stop being so scared of nb people. a lot of other ppl have said this stuff better and there's a lot more I could have elaborated on but u get the gist! the gist being: cis people shut the fuck up

frank iero isnt a lesbian or a butch, because he's a man. he can dress like stereotypical butch lesbians but that doesnt make him one, honorary or otherwise. i know ur posts abt him being butch are made jokingly but uh. :/. -a butch lesbian tired of being compared to men simply for being butch

Hm ok 1. I think this is a good point and I will definitely cool it with the jokes but also 2. Consider that I consider myself a gnc lesbian and this is my blog that I use for fun and stuff. They are truly just joaks and my genuine thought process is not butch lesbian = man, just frank iero specifically = butch lesbian - but I also know that it does imply a connection that didnt really hit me as I made the jokes. The fact that he is a man that so specifically strikes me as a butch is where I derive humor personally because it sort of comedically highlights how I developed my own sexuality. Same with gerard. Like me pre discovery gay brain latched onto these men (male presenting in gerards case) who just. Are so like. Lesbian looking. To me personally. Like yeah I like boys… here’s some boys I like they just so happen to look like pretty goth girls… no further introspection. I’ve joked about this before like it is just so fucking funny that none of my family picked up on my “lifestyle choice” earlier despite the fact that there were numerous, NUMEROUS occasions of them exclaiming that boy characters/celebrities I had crushes on looked like girls, and in one hall of Famer, a lesbian (my cousin about gerard. I am not joking this really happened). It adds a great sense of dramatic irony that I must joke about because it is so funny to me. I knew going in that butch is a really loaded term though so I am bowing out gracefully and just saying yeah ur right I can pull back from a joke. Sorry if some of the wording is awkward I did my best. tldr; i understand. Block if you wish i wont be mad.