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rockettothesky · 3 months

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just what is it.... that really matters...? when i die.... what metric will be used to measure the worth of my life...? is it enough.... just to love my friends.... and to love goku...? one day.... will my love of goku.... matter...? will it be what saves me...? billions of people across time.... are not remembered.... but is that okay...? were they useless...? or meaningless...? did it matter if they were happy or sad.... or if they were able to live the life they wanted to...? will building my minecraft world and drawing and making ocs and chewing into media and talking to friends and drinking bubble tea and eating udon with a soft boiled egg be enough.... even if i die young poor kissless and as a disappointment and failure in the eyes of my father who's life i have ruined...?

#clyde.txt #existential panic and ocd real but also i think the way the world is is so wrong i refuse to live in it abiding by it's rules praying every #day the straw on the camel's back breaks and i get the utopia and happiness i've always wanted and believed my life will one day be....#but i am privileged enough to be a neet at that's where this POV comes from and i never learned how to apply myself and learninf now is #hard and i'm a lazy baby who never wants to work ever unless it's One Thinf which would take me learning languages #which takes me applying myself. LOL #EVERY DAY I FIGURE IT OUT MORE I SWEAR I'LL FUNCTION IN THIS WORLD SOMEDAY #i was almost there too before Bad Thing happened to me which has now made me live my entire life in fear and trying to do #everything i can to not make anything else bad happen to me. LOL #but alas. excuses. it'll all come together someday

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