going INSANE. what is he thinking. why did he say this. why does he do all of this. i am thinking so hard.

we know he's seeking arceus to recreate the world bc in his eyes the world is cruel and unjust and it needs to be destroyed and remade. he's set himself on a mission to create the better reality he's envisioned for his whole life.

but everything else he does. the way he spends his time on pasio making people smile with togepi. even if he justifies it as something purely transactional to get more customers, we know he doesn't really take his merchant job seriously. the way he loves his pokemon so much that they will pop out of their pokeball to excitedly tell whoever will listen how much they love volo back. him trying to capture these moments of happiness tangibly because they never last long and can be wiped away any second.

he still hangs onto hope so much despite what's implied to have happened to him. in spite of all the anger and bitterness that's festered in him, he doesn't really want to destroy everything as he says.

it all started with a wish for the world to be a better place, for the good in the world to outweigh all the cruelty. he's still trying to spread what happiness he can.

but at the same time his past drags behind him and reminds him that he can't afford to trust in the goodness of the world.

that self-assigned mission to usurp arceus's power and rewrite everything.. to him, it's his duty now. he has to do it for himself and, as he rationalizes to himself, for the world.

so he ignores the flaws and holes he finds in his own reasoning. he can't help but seek out the brightness and happiness and goodness that does exist in the world, yet he has to dismiss it to justify his goals.

... all this to try and explain to myself why volo's asking all these questions and making all these comments that seem to go against what we'd expect given his ulterior motive and plans. and it's like he's asking the few friends he has to remember him as the one who seeks joy, even when he does the worst to fulfill his dreams

I think it’ll all be okay actually.

EOWAOUGUAHGHGHAGHGHHHHHH freshman year fabian being denied by daybreak for not being a team player and being offended when gorthalax offered for gorgug and riz to join the owlbears when he clearly should be captain vs junior year fabian making a speech about how the most important thing they have is heart and giving riz bardic inspiration for his tryouts. are you hearing me.

if i may put on the extreme phannie hat for a quick sec, the thing that’s driving me so bonkers about the messy room watch ur step babygirl meme inclusion is the fact that nowhere in the tweet does it say anything like “bringing dan to his room to film pinof” or anything like that it’s literally just. phil bringing dan to his room in 2009. cause. yknow. he was bringing him to his room cause *gunshots*

hey. hey. kinda insane that. in secret life. there was the zombie apocalypse. and who survived it?

grian. scott. martyn. cleo.

and now in real life? scott and cleo were the final two. and scott died to a zombie.

When the cool buff butch joins ur silly bee club . Me and my rare pairs . Bladebees????? anyone. .

as a non-qsmp watcher this is kinda like watching a clown car crash into your neighbor's house killing everyone involved

Always thinking about I have a family. Btw. Bc. Well look at it. John says I wish you had a normal life and a family. And dean says I do have a family. John’s response to this is. Yeah. Alright. Before they roll into sitting silently at a dinner table across from each other. Pointedly not speaking. There’s no way it’s John being ignorant of the fact that there are people in dean’s life. There is no world! In which dean doesn’t mention cas and jack At All when he’s doing a tldr of the last decade. Above and beyond that IF it was a matter of Not Comjng Up In Conversation before dropping I have a family. John’s response would have been yeah? I’m glad. You’ll have to tell me more about them. But he doesn’t. He goes. Yeah. Alright. And then they sit at the dinner table and do not speak. So. John heard dean talk about his buddy he lives with and brushed it off. And heard about the non conventional child he was raising (not blood related) (adopted) (weird and autistic) and brushed HIM off too. And dean says. No. You’re wrong. that IS my family.

posts that compare clara to rose as parallel companions always surprise me cause to me she's so much more like martha. theyre both so similar to the doctor but crucially Not Quite Enough. they both quickly develop a weird codependence with doc thats very alarming to everyone around them. theyre both capable of becoming the doctor the second he steps out of the room. ten hurts martha and puts her in danger and twelve hurts clara and puts her in danger and both of them continue to travel despite it. maybe even because of it. season 3 ends with martha leaving to become a doctor and season 9 ends with clara flying off in a tardis. tenmarthaclaratwelve circle of codependence

at first i thought it was kinda funny in a way that crowley's wings got darker when he learned that they would be shutting everything down so soon since they can literally choose their wing colours. like it was a "ok i'm emo now. i hate you mom" sort of situation

and THEN i thought about the juxtaposition between black and the colours of the stars he created. of those colours he put into the dark universe to make it not so dark anymore. there not being even a trace of black on their clothes or the items they use to create. the whiteness of heaven. and i was like oh :)

because. because his wings getting darker is an unconscious separation from everything that he has identified with and been surrounded by in the past few billion years. the colour is an unfamiliarity that he starts to relate to for the first time. when he experiences, for the first time, things being ripped away from him, and that loss of faith is potent enough to physically manifest in his wings

they were fucked up for this line distribution

something to be said about the way bdubs refused to kill etho while boogey even though he had every opportunity and was risking everything

and now etho, infected, refuses to betray cleo and grian..

cap and kitty's little improv scene... the way they gossip about 90s bands together... the fairy godmother.... that winning smile of yours, now where is it... now our song about clouds is doooooone... the wizard of oz.... when he turns the attention on himself so she doesn't have to talk about eleanor... she pictures her father as him in the flashbacks... agh ants! no, no, they can't hurt you... why would you want to kill time it's meant to be enjoyed.. ah what's the rush, we've got forever... kitty thinks her baby kicked and calls cap over to feel... father christmas is not reallllll-ly in the habit.... no one wants to listen to this old walrus... hang on you made me do something horrible. yes but they're staying... maybe they'll decide to stay. they won't, kitty.

WHAT???????