[ID: A digital illustration of Fresh Cut Grass and FRIDA from Critical Role. They are stood close together, holding hands and looking at each other affectionately. A heart is drawn between their heads. End description.]

Some loveletters for therapy purposes <3

Hey, we saw you from across the bar and we really hate your vibe

Start Running

You ran away from something Dorian? Hmmm? A sad little halfling with a lot of survivors guilt maybe? HMMMMM?

I hope there is a chance for the bh to try and resurrect fcg, despite the result because I think it says a lot for the friends of someone who sacrificed themselves to try and get them back because they want them back to them. I don’t mind if fcg comes back or not it’s about the characters holding on

I'm almost certain Bell's Hells will try to get F.C.G back, although I'm unsure if it will be posed above table as a legitimate rez attempt or whether its going to be more a scene of collective grief and effort by the Bells, in character, that will take me out at the knees while reaffirming their love and the depth of their loss, but without the out-of-game framing of a legitimate chance to bring back F.C.G.

I assume that distinction will depend largely/almost exclusively on how Sam feels about bringing F.C.G back + whatever the cast have discussed since the ep happened, but! If it is any comfort, I do not see any world in which the next episode does not display how much the Bell's Hells care about F.C.G and how much they'd want to bring him back, while struggling with the weight and reality of the intentional sacrifice that F.C.G chose. And whatever happens, I see the potential for a deeply compelling story/character interplay that's gonna. Kick my ass. <3

Ugh just. the entire premise of. your friend sacrificed themselves for you. it worked. so now what. is fucking devastating. and can spin out so many ways. Im not sure what will happen. fascinated to see what direction they'll take it.

i am getting closer and closer to travis and robbie sitting next to each other again

LET'S GO BACK TO AEOR

If Chetney has to take the lead because the rest of the Bell's are in shambles, between losing FCG and Liliana's arrival (because there's no way they're just going to be fine with her being there - especially Orym and Laudna and obviously Imogen and probably Fearne who is struggling with her own Ruby Vanguard parent and Ashton is going to want to take his anger out on Someone and it's not like Liliana hasn't asked for it)...

I've seen quite a few people try to claim that they don't like C3 because it "villianized the Gods out of nowhere and makes it seem like some of the old pcs might have been on the wrong side of history consciously or not" and that's the DUMBEST thing I've heard in quite some time. If y'all genuinely thought the Gods are good then you clearly haven't been paying much attention to C1 and C2. The Gods have always been AWFUL, helpful and "nice" at certain times that suited them but AWFUL nonetheless. I'M BEGGING y'all to start developing some critical thinking skills because nothing related to the Gods in Exandria ever screamed GENUINE GOODNESS it was always the opposite. That said they're unfortunately useful and I don't think it would go too well for the people of Exandria if they all died all of a sudden but they shouldn't be confused for something Good and worth worshipping or loving, they're a necessary evil imo.

Orym giving it his all in the fight against Otohan, but finally being knocked unconscious.

Orym waking up to find his friend has obliterated themselves to take Otohan down with them.

Orym who offered his service to a friendly hag so his friends would come back safe.

Orym who lost his father and his husband to this same woman without knowing why. Who always felt guilty for not being strong enough to save them.

Orym who couldn't move on and couldn't stay home long. Who spent six years traveling the world to try and understand why. Why were the Air Ashari attacked? Why couldn't his family be revived? When will this happen again? And now he has answers, and is fighting so hard against the villains doing this, but he's still not enough. And now Fresh Cut Grass is blown to smithereens.

Orym, inconsolable, holding the pieces and searching for any way to take it back and not face one more loss.

Ashton, throughout this campaign, whenever they get their hands on a magical item: destroys it

Ashton in C3E91 when everyone wants them to destroy Otohan's backpack: wants to move away from the item and says 'I think it's fucking dead'

(he goes to help Laudna, so that's great, of course)

Seeing people miffed in the tags (what else is new?) but I'm honestly loving the reminder that all of these stories are taking place in the same world, dealing with rippling circumstances and consequences, and that they're all connected. We may be seeing the stories in pockets, but the world is still moving.

THERE'S A FRESH CUT GRASS HEADER ON THE CRITICAL ROLE SHOP HOME PAGE 😭😭😭😭

"Are we kissing?" 👀

The mental cries of your daughter. TALISEN JAFFE I ARORE YOU.

I need to yell about fcg and *specifically* this great post that you wrote ( https://www.tumblr.com/sparring-spirals/747570433506902016/okay-after-some-sleep-back-on-my-bullshit-lets ) because it made me realize that I really, truly hope Laura will remember she took off her circlet moments before the bang and Imogen had the chance to hear that fcg was at peace with this decision, not because they were trying to be a martyr, but because they had a true chance to save their friends, knowing full well that detonating *would* be a sacrifice because their life *did* matter.

(I hope sending asks is okay, sorry to barge in like this)

Ahw, hell yeah, glad the post hit hard, recontextualizing it in my head helped a lot with chewing through my feelings about. All of this. I'm always okay with asks!! As long as folks are aware I am not necessarily going to agree with every ask that comes in, and more critically, sometimes I disappear off the face of the Earth for a while, dont answer asks, and then feel too embarassed about answering them so much later/get asks about something I didnt watch, go "ah ill answer when i watch it" and then. Well.

(To the various people who sent the total 12 asks that have been sitting in my box for over a year now. I am. So sorry.)

Honestly, I didnt even think about the possibility that Imogen might have heard it, goddamn. Fascinating. I was fully bracing myself for Bell's Hells just- never knowing, and them having to grapple with it. Which. Takes me out at the knees, tbh. I hesitate to speculate on it too much when the episode is going to come out Thursday and probably prove me wrong, but. God, there's no world where the Bell's Hells would instinctively know that F.C.G had made the call with that attitude, and fuck, that puts all of it into a different light, clearly.

I'm a little apprehensive and tbh deeply curious to see how the Bell's Hells take this- the depth of the loss, the sudden nature of it, the victory against Otohan probably not even feeling that way. Maybe wanting to honor F.C.G's sacrifice but. Probably. And understandably. Angry at them for making that call, but he's not. Even there for them to be angry at. So what then? So what then? They can have all these feelings and have all these questions about why he did it, about what he was thinking, and he's not there to answer them, and that's the issue.

If Imogen did hear his last thoughts, this elevates it into a different kind of heartbreaking, but probably still easier overall. The world where they don't know. Is. A more tricky one to navigate, for sure.

But also if I'm being honest. I am not opposed to how the cast would have the Bell's Hells experience and explore that scenario. So i mean. I mean. I hope so too. But if Imogen didnt. Consider me buckled in for whatever happens.