1/6/2022

oh i found out yesterday that my old company was gonna fire me if i’d stayed on IT procurement. like almost certainly bc my manager threw me to the wolves but zero surprise there since she kind of does that to everyone. i guess wolves is the wrong expression--she did, in the sense that she would only train me when i asked for training and when i asked for more work to do never provided anything (but told me to take initiative? on... something?) but i mean more under the bus.

maybe she’d be better at training somebody else, i don’t know. but she wanted someone who already knew how to do the job and would take work off her plate, and i wanted like, feedback and direction. it was never a good fit, but it was all they’d offer me bc they weren’t willing to make the mail room a full time job even in light of the pandemic.

well, until now. i’m really hoping my data can convince vicki that putting more on my apprentice is a bad fucking idea. like if they give her anything else before she’s got like AT LEAST six months of this shit under her belt she is going to burn herself out trying to do it.

i already knew my current company valued me more as an asset but like. it is nice that they’re willing to work with me on where i should go now that the mail’s no longer an option. my old company was just gonna outsource the mail and drop me. which again, i’d strongly suspected--learning it was true is just a “lmao” at this point.

still sad about the friends i’m leaving behind though. really glad the shitty CIO is gone, since he made everyone’s lives harder for no reason every four or five months. i should see about introducing sabrina to folks with the clare seal of approval. ari for sure, faizah if she comes by. i need to clear some kind of announcement with vicki so we can prepare people, the transition will be a lot smoother with overlap. it’s one thing for me to set an email response like “hey i’m gone but sabrina’s cool, trust me” u know? it’ll go down easier with time to accept a) that i’m leaving, b) that sabrina’s basically me from when i started, except (possibly) straight and less prone to violence, so they can trust her

lord this is happening too fast :/ i’ve gone rogue on my mail hours too. HR told me not to make up monday’s but i’m just... doing it anyway. letting me make my own schedule was always Way Too Much Power