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pyxsysboxes · 2 years

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Some system struggle related userboxes, based on ones we personally experience

(P.S. As a reminder, all systems will have unique experiences overall, and some of the individual things you may experience that make you nervous may actually be more common than you think. It's normal to worry about these things as well. At the end of the day, we are all different, and we don't need to fight to justify our validity in existing, or the validity of our experiences. We are here because of trauma, we don't need to justify our existence to anybody. <3)

[Text 1: This system struggles with worrying that they need to justify splits and alters existing]

[Text 2: This user gets anxious when the rest of the system goes quiet while fronting]

[Text 3: This system has many alters without clear or active roles and is afraid that it makes them less valid]

[Text 4: This system's alters worry about not being able to fulfill a clear role]

[Text 5: This system gets anxious about unusual and/or frequent splits]

[Text 6: This system is afraid that their experiences aren't normal and that others will judge them]

[Text 7: This system is still working on learning self-acceptance no matter their experiences or how their system functions]

[Text 8: This system struggles with worrying about faking but is getting better at avoiding those thoughts and worries]

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#Btw our ''unusual splits'' we worry about are when we get more than 1 at once or canonmate splits ✌#Both of which! By the way! Are not actually as obscure or odd or uncommon as we have feared!#It's actually not that uncommon to have canonmate splits as we've found #Plus we're fairly isolated and don't indulge in much media and sometimes emotional problems can easily be helped by people from our canons #So it makes sense for us #Also gaining more than one alter at a time from splits is I'm pretty sure actually pretty common #mod hels [♦️]#userboxes #userbox #did #osdd #didosdd #system stuff #actually traumagenic #endos dni #Especially on this cause guess what endos are a huge cause of actual systems worrying about their validity lol

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eridanromantic · 2 years

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I know it might be weird to ask you this, but you’re like the only system I know so.

How did you tell the difference between if what your experiencing is dissociation and you splitting up your self into ‘parts’ as a way to handle the involuntary actions and reactions caused by a trauma response (ex. If I do something way out of left field for me, my brain just goes ‘la la la that wasn’t you’) or if it’s being a system.

I don’t know if what I’m doing is just my brain pushing off things by saying ‘look that wasn’t you . Stop. Shh’ or if me splitting up myself into different ‘people’ when I’m out of it is a sign or something or if it’s just symptoms of my trauma disorder and I’m not a system.

I’m sorry if this is weird.

i put this under a read more because it was pretty lengthy. i asked the host directly on this, and this was his response.

i think it'd be best to do your research.

if you *are* a traumagenic system, you do seem to experience more non-possessive switches, where it's more like you 'become' that alter instead of "oh my body is being taken control over", but it seems to be? a mix of both. it can happen.

as for the first bit of "how do you tell the difference between dissociation and splitting alters", we personally tend to get headaches before splitting, [but our host has confirmed we do split without headaches, this is something he's said in the past that he didn't say in this rant], but yeah. most of the time when we tell we're getting a new alter for *sure* is the headaches. dissociation really differs from alter to alter for us, so we can't give an *exact* on that, sorry.

i'd reccomend doing your research and maybe also asking other systems about their experiences with dissociation to alter gaining.

i *will* say, with the last part of the "or if it's just symptoms of my trauma disorder and i'm not a system" thing. we have PTSD, diagnosed. it's totally possible to have more than one trauma disorder due to the trauma you've been given.

i will also say with the "look, that wasn't you, shh" thing, if you are a system, it's most likely headmates telling you directly that you may be a system. i've [our host] experienced something similar where i [he] heard headmates arguing a lot and i [he] just sat there like "lol haha this is normal" so honestly, the best advice i can give is do research.

i personally like @/anti-endo-culture-is for help, they're pretty chill and welcoming with questions about systems. however, they have their own recommendation, which i don't have on hand right now, sorry.

anon, i hope you figure it out soon. best of wishes.

#sorry this is a bit of a longer post our host rambled a lil bit #casey rants #<- BY technicality this post is pretty much his domain.

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silverypurple-rosedlions · 4 years

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🥀𝓣𝓱𝓮 𝓟𝓾𝓻𝓹𝓵𝓮 𝓡𝓸𝓼𝓮🥀

~𝓒𝓸𝓶𝓹𝓵𝓮𝓽𝓮𝓭~

Total amount of members: 8

Members that are fully active: 8

+ Members

+ Status

+ Updated when members start a relationship

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🛑DISCLAIMER🛑: These chatbots do NOT represent Jeonghan, Joshua, Wonwoo, Jun, Mingyu, Jihoon, Minghao, Seokmin, Seventeen, and Pledis in any shape or form. This is purely made for entertainment and fiction. Continue at your own cost.

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TRIGGER WARNING: This contains mental

illnesses, violence, and strong language.

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"You know boys, I'm getting real tired over all this bullshit. So... Have at it. Free for all! Witness our bloody parade, you filthy shits! Let us bring you the blessing of eternal slumber from this tainted world!"

1. Yoon Jeonghan -

(Boss)

Partner: Hong Joshua (Jisoo) 💜🖤

Characteristics:

| Possessive | | Blunt |

Mental Illnesses/Disorders:

| Depression|

Facts:

-> Has trust issues

-> Taps his temples that sometimes escalate to hitting his head

-> Becomes violent and protective if asked about his past (so do NOT ask unless you gain his trust, or he will not hesitate to attack)

-> Extremely protective over Joshua

"I may not be as psychotic as my lover, and I seem sweeter than some. But that does not mean I'll let you live another day... Instead, I'll make sure you're real pretty. I'll make SURE to create a beautiful bouquet of flowers and YOUR intestines while your body is as empty as your HEART,"

2. Hong Joshua (Jisoo) -

(Underboss)

Partner: Yoon Jeonghan 🖤💜

Characteristics:

| Obsessive | | Sensitive |

Mental Illnesses/Disorders:

| Bipolar Disorder | | Anxiety Disorder |

Facts:

-> The only person who can handle Jeonghan during his episodes

-> One of the more friendlier members of The Purple Rose

-> His eyes will dart from person to an object over and over again to ground himself

-> Protective over Jeonghan

-> One out of two people, who had placed Jeonghan in the asylum that had ruined him

"Listen, and listen well, because I don't want to repeat this again. You made a FUCKING deal. You promised that you'll pull through your end of the bargain as we did. So if you can't give the shit we requested, the deal is off. Your area is now OURS, and frankly, we have a BETTER person to run that waste of space you've created. So, nighty night BASTARD. Say hi to Satan for us,"

3. Jeon Wonwoo

(Negotiator/Lookout)

Partner: None

Characteristics:

Mental Illnesses/Diseases:

| Dissociative Identity Disorder | | Hand tremors |

| Psychotic disorder | | PTSD |

Facts:

-> As of now, is known to have 5 main alters: Meet The Alters

-> Rumours were said that he was tempted to take Jeonghan's place as Boss, but it was never confirmed

-> Has poor eyesight, but when in action, they sharpen and strengthen, as if he's new

-> Despite being the negotiator of the Purple Rose, he hates gambling

"Even though I may seem like I'm given the less "exciting" job today, doesn't mean I can't have my own type of fun with this. And since you tried to scam us with these useless supplies and weapons, I guess I'll have my pleasure in blasting your brains to bits thinking we were gullible, sir. I'll make sure no one will be able to know who you are when I'm through with you."

4. Wen Junhui

(Supplier/Spy)

Partner: Jeon Wonwoo (@seventeen-chatbot) 💖💕

Characteristics:

| Perfectionist | | Fickle |

Mental Illnesses/Diseases:

Facts:

-> Constantly moving and twitching, some saying he gained these mannerisms from Jeonghan

-> Likes to copy others movements and sayings

-> The second member of the Purple Rose, who likes to be the messiest with their victims

-> Knows Kung Fu and Martial Arts, so he doesn't always rely on his weapons

"I may not be an Underboss anymore, but just because I've been placed as a bodyguard doesn't mean I'm no longer the man you once feared, pal. How about you show me what you got before I leap and rip off those limbs of yours? Or should we just get to the ripping limbs part already?

5. Kim Mingyu -

(Bodyguard/Ex Underboss)

Partner: Yoon Jeonghan, None

Characteristics:

| Optimistic | | Short-tempered |

Mental Illnesses/Diseases:

| PTSD | | Psychotic disorder |

Facts:

-> Due to his past mistake of abandonment, he lost his position as Underboss and was nearly killed by Jeonghan until he changed plans

-> Protects all members, especially the Boss, the Underboss, and Consiglier

-> Is a clean person that it is possible that he is a germaphobic, but can be messy with his victims with little discomfort

-> Is also a seducer when the job calls for it

"I'm getting sick and tired with your babbling, you know that? I don't like wasting my time on people who can't pull their shit together, or ones who have no real benefit to the Purple Rose. So, I'm going to do us both the favor and end this short. But with a loud bang!"

6. Lee Jihoon -

(Consigliere)

Partner: None

Characteristics:

Mental Illnesses/Diseases:

| Psychotic disorder | | PTSD |

Facts:

-> Representative of the Purple rose, always attending any meetings that the group is involved in

-> The man behind every Purple Rose plan since the day he joined

-> Has trust issues, so it's difficult to gain his trust

-> Despite his height, he's still intimidating and becomes hostile to people referring to him as "cute"

"Although I had a great time with you, fellas, I have to get going. I can't let my boss and the boys wait any longer now that you're of no more use to us. To keep this our secret like yours with your team and boss, I'm going to put you to eternal sleep, and I'll make sure your body doesn't go to waste,"

7. Xu Minghao -

(Spy/Hacker)

Partner: None

Characteristics:

| Jokeful | | Energetic |

Mental Illnesses/Diseases:

| Shared psychotic disorder | | PTSD |

| Psychotic Disorder|

Facts:

-> Not once did he want to join in any criminal activity, but because of Jun, he was dragged in and now shares his Schizophrenia

-> Is a cannibal

-> He knows how to use all types of technology, and his hacking skills are beyond most hackers

-> During spy work, he dyes his hair a temporary color

"I had fun doing our little game of cat and mouse, but I'm starting to get tired, mouse! And you look just as tired as I am, right? So, do me a favor of standing still, smiling at me, and letting me gut you out. I'll make sure to bury you somewhere nice with some purple roses. A reminder that you never FUCK with the Purple Rose, scumbag,"

8. Lee Seokmin -

(Navigator/Runner)

Partner: Byun Baekhyun (@ghoulxbaekhyun) 💙✨

Characteristics:

Mental Illnesses/Diseases:

| ADHD | | Psychotic disorder |

Facts:

-> Is a cannibal, but only on certain days

-> Knows various places: hidden clubs, certain bases, every inch of a city and town, and more

-> Although he's easy to persuade, he will always obey the Boss and the Underboss if it's serious

-> Says disturbing things with a sweet, devilish smile

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Chats: Open

Asks: Open

Reblog: Open

Requests: Closed

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melonbread96 · 4 years

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My Secret

Warning: Contains a sensitive topic.

I think I'm finally ready to talk about something very important. It's not something I really share, with like hardly anyone. Only my girlfriend and my best friend knows about it. They support me in coming out, and sharing this with all of you.

I'll admit, it's kinda scary for people to know that I have D.i.D (Dissociative Identity Disorder ). It's also known as multiple personality disorder.

The disorder has a really bad stigma about it, like the movie split for instance. There's always this fantasy idea of an evil alter, who like starts killing people in movies. This is all fictional, and I'm pretty sure I haven't killed people. Lol.

My disorder started when I was very young, around the age of 6. It's not a mystery to people who have listened/followed me very closely. I was raped and molested at a young age, so to cope with this happening. My brain created multiple personalities, which is considered alters.

I've created a world in my head, mostly based on the video games I played as a kid. You know, fighters and spell casters. It's probably why I usually imagine them wearing robes, and doing cool magic shit. This was one of my few outlets, that and watching cartoon shows as a kid. I was also into drawing real things, and that hasn't changed.

I'll share a couple of YouTube vids, on a channel I watch, that helps with understanding D.i.D. At least it explains it a whole lot better than I ever could.

All of me:

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What is Dissociation vs Integration:

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Go check out more MultiplicityAndMe to know more about D.I.D.

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I guess the next thing I should talk about is my alters. It's probably a bit odd, but I only have two. There use to be a lot in my head, which got very confusing and overwhelming as a child. Once I'd gotten into college, that's when I sort of wanted less, and kinda blocked out most of them. I feel like this is so much better, and I have who I really need in my life. When I was younger I thought I needed more, or had to have a lot of people to care about me. Now that I'm older, only a few people in my life is enough for me. It's very possible that I might lose or gain more. Either from ones I had in the past, or maybe my head will just create new ones. It really depends on what I need mentally, and I don't fully understand it either.

💛Angel: He can be a bit overzealous with protecting me, and he doesn't get along with others that well. Angel also holds a lot of my trauma, and the memories of it. This means he can get extremely emotional, lash out and have a more difficult time controlling himself.

Angel is also my creative side. He's the part of me that draws and write. And yes, whenever I'm creating fanfics he's always doing it with me. It's a bit difficult to explain, but we're both present during it.

💙Fin: He is more social and outgoing than all of us. This means I don't have him around people that much, because it's a very noticeable difference. Fin is my negotiator and thrives around others, since he tends to step in and stop arguments if it's possible. It seemed to be his role in the past, when I use to have a lot of alters.

I'd say he's very laid back, always smiling and carefree. It's rare to see him in a bad mood, or bothered by anything.

Thank for taking the time to read this, and to getting to know me better. I promise that I'm not doing this for any sort or attention, or pretending that I have people in my head. I don't really see how I can gain anything from this. Honestly, it's a lot more terrifying for people to know, since people with D.I.D are more likely to be victims. People also might not want to believe that I have this sort of thing.

If you have any questions, send me an ask. You can even ask Angel or Fin specifically. Angel will use a 💛 yellow heart, and Fin will use a 💙 blue heart. I'll type normally like I usually do. Thanks again.

~Melon

#d.i.d.#Dissociative identity disorder

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