hey maggots you see this human on my wall? it's @random-doctor-on-the-internet and they're my tax-evading husband and my best friend and they don't realise how loved they are so i'm here to BE VERY INTENSE ABOUT IT.

Ash listen here you little shit (/pepperoni) I love you so so so fucking much. The only reason I was brave enough to make the post about dropping out of college was because you spent the whole night before talking to me and telling me that my pain was valid and that I didn't deserve to go through that. And I'm still so scared of doing it I get more scared every moment but I'm trying to be brave like you are.

Now I hear you denying that immediately so with all the love in the world my angel SHUT UP. You're so so so fucking brave and so kind and gentle despite going through things no one should have to go through, much less someone who was a goddamn child. And you make people laugh with your mafia stories even though that whole part of your life must have been so so fucking traumatic and yet look at you, using it to bring joy to other strangers on the internet.

I'm so fucking amazed that you agreed to be my friend (after my four slide presentation on why you should, in fact, agree to be my friend) and it's such an honour to know you. You don't understand how amazing you are and how LOVED YOU ARE, OKAY? I LOVE YOU. YOU FOOL. UNDERSTAND IT. AND IF YOU DON'T THAT'S FINE I'LL KEEP REMINDING YOU.

I'M MAKING THIS A POST BECAUSE I NEED EVERYONE WHO READS IT TO KNOW THAT YOU'RE A BEAUTIFUL HUMAN BEING INSIDE AND OUT (PRETTIER THAN TIMOTHEE CHALAMET) AND YOU'RE SO PATIENT AND KIND TO ME AND YOU'RE SO INTELLIGENT LIKE JESUS FUCK WATCHING YOU TALK TO PEOPLE IN AFRIKAANS SCOTTISH GAELIC FRENCH AND LIKE TEN OTHER LANGUAGES IN THE SAME CONVERSATION IS INSANE. AND YOUR ART IS FUCKING UNREAL IT LOOKS LIKE IT'S BREATHING OUT OF THE PAPER. AND YOU'RE GOING TO BE SUCH AN AMAZING DOCTOR. AND YOU'VE GONE THROUGH LITERAL PHYSICAL TORTURE BUT YOU CAME OUT OF IT AND YOU SURVIVED AND I'M SO GLAD YOU DID BECAUSE IT MEANS I GOT TO KNOW YOU AND THAT'S AMAZING. OH AND YOU'RE SO INCREDIBLY FUNNY YOU MAKE ME LAUGH EVERY CONVERSATION.

DID YOU UNDERSTAND? PROBABLY NOT BECAUSE YOU'RE TOO SELF-DEPRECATING FOR YOUR OWN GOOD. BUT I HOPE YOU UNDERSTOOD JUST A LITTLE MORE. JE T'AIME VRAIMENT MON CHOU TU ES INCROYABLE ET JE SUIS SI HEUREUX QUE TU ES MON AMI.

SO. YES. *AGGRESSIVELY HUGS YOU*

Fic-iversary, Year 2!

So two years ago, I posted my first ever JatP fic (you can read it here if you so want-or the one I posted today if you'd rather) and whoo what a ride it has been since then!

I said at the time I wasn't sure if I was gonna write more for this fandom or not, not fully realizing how fully this silly little ghost show would consume my life. Now here we are, 2 years, 60+ fics (and almost 500 ficlets!) later.

We've gone through some hardships, and the fandom has definitely gotten smaller, but I'm sticking it out. I have too many ideas not to!

But because it's an anniversary of sorts, I just wanted to send some love to a few people who have made the ride all the sweeter. I love all of you Fantoms of course, but these four have been floating here in the Rulie canoe with me and deserve the extra attention.

@jmrothwell Josie, it has been a pleasure to watch you blossom as a writer in this fandom, and I just love your determination and creativity. I can't wait to see where your stories, both present and future take you and I hope you know how special you are to me. Thank you for every kind comment and reblog you've given me, and I wish you nothing but the best. Lots of love hun!

@innytoes Ah Inny, the Queen of Aus, the Queen of tags, lover of all things Ray Molina: Best Dad Ever (TM), angsty Reggie fics, and artist extraordinaire. It has been an utter delight becoming your friend, reading your stories, and honestly just talking to you over the past year. Sorry not sorry for making you ship Carrie/Reggie and for making you cry with half my stories. Love you sweetie!

@daintyduck99 Ash, what more can I say than thank you? For always being there to beta my works, or to chat, or just trade cat pics with (please give Smokey a pet for me!). For being an amazing writer, mood board maker, person, and most importantly, friend to me. I treasure every interaction we've had and hope to add to that collection as the years pass us by. Love you so much honey!

@bananakarenina Katie- well I think you know how I feel about you. I think everyone does, honestly. But just in case it bears repeating-I utterly adore you. You are my best friend, my confidante, my sounding board, my fic enabler, my muse, and as always, the Julie to my Reggie. I am determined that sometime this year there will be Katie and Bethany hugs along with many baked goods. I dunno how, but I wanna make it happen! I am still in envy of your brain, your creativity, and most of all, your kindness. I don't know where I would be without you. Te amo, Je t'adore, Mahal kita. No matter the language (And if I got the Filipino wrong I am sorry), the message stays the same-I love you, I love you, I love you.