I think a lot of the meta about Orym forgets that Orym isn't just an adventurer, he is a former bodyguard. His self worth is tied up in how well he can protect people and especially his loved ones. Thats why he sold his future to a hag, because its all he had left to give in order to be able to help.

Thats also why he seems so angry after FCG's death.

Otohan has killed his husband and father. Then him. Then he is brought back and told she also killed Fearne and Laudna. She killed Eshteross. She almost kills Keyleth. Now FCG has to sacrifice himself to save them all and kill Otohan and Orym was knocked out for it.

His job is to protect people and even with the added power from Nana Morri, it's still not enough. 6 years later and his loved ones are still dying and he can do nothing but watch.

i've been so fucked up for months i haven't been able to go downtown to pick up my work from last spring from my school's textile studio and they always have a cutoff date like if you don't pick up your old work by x date they toss it and they're pretty strict about that unless you arrange with the studio tech beforehand, and the studio tech doesn't like most people she's pretty curt with most students. not rude but just keeps things professional and a bit distant, a very serious person. but i know she grew to like me over the past few years/warmed up to me a lot and we'd chat a lot about different textile things and she would say really kind things to me a lot which felt rare and special, and she let me have special treatment with some of the equipment because she trusted me to use it properly. and i haven't seen her in nearly a year and i expected her to have tossed my work out when i didn't come to pick it up last fall and emailed her to explain why and dropped off the face of the earth, i made my peace with losing that work and accepted it, it is what it is, i will survive, etc.

but she emailed me earlier this week and said she didn't have the heart to toss my work and has kept it safe in her office for me if i'm ever able to come pick it up and if not she's going to keep it as an example piece to show other students when teaching weaving because it's too lovely to get rid of and my heart swelled like 10 times its size bc she didn't have to do that and it meant so much to me that even a year from seeing her last she was still thinking about me and being kind to me. and i emailed her back and picked it up today and saw her and we chatted for a bit and it was so nice. I love her I miss my school's textile studio and weaving in there and talking craft with her... sigh

The way that the sun hits leaves and clouds. I feel like I could watch the colors change forever. If I could slow down for that long.

when people complain about getting like, a 98% grade on something because it was "so close to perfect" its like. i understand what you're saying on a technical level. but that is a line of thought so far away from my experiences and ways of thinking that i do feel like im from another planet. 100% isnt even a real number to me

my brain is desperately trying to mesh my hyperfixations rn so...

would anyone read a rwrb last of us au? 

alex is the dishearted smuggler who agrees to take the immune guy (henry) to the fireflies only to realize henry’s never been outside of the QZ before and has to rely on alex. first they’re tentative, hateful allies with a job until they spend more and more time alone together, surviving the apocalypse, and slowly the dynamic changes. 

enemies to lovers zombie apocalypse au anyone?

I mean can you imagine the: “Alex, what did you do?” “I saved him” 

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all my mutuals have some cool interest they know so many details on or have some compilation of info on i need to get a cool interest too.

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the thing about mightourge is that ive never seen a single piece of content for that ship that doesnt make one or both of them wildly out of character. its always making scourge into this like. uwu soft boy who just needs someone to love him and then he'll become good. even though hes evil he sucks the whole idea behind his creation was just sonic but if he was an asshole. and mighty is a nice guy who doesnt particularly like needless violence but they always make him go "i can fix him <3333" over scourge. even though he is Like That. if we're going by their canon personalities mighty probably wouldnt be romantically interested in scourge at all. it feels like a ship that was invented for people who never actually read archie sonic and just like the version of scourge that exists in their head that they got from fanart and fanfiction. idk how to explain my thoughts properly but hopefully people will understand

i think im gonna ask my therapist to get me an appointment with the private psychiatrist she suggested

woe. giant variants of creatures be upon ye.

as shown in order Giant Griffon->Giant Fae Dragons->giant bicorn->giant chimera

also getting a giant variant is a new creature, the stymphalian bird:

(regular stymphalian bird)

(giant stymphalian bird)

also gave the warg a new adult sprite, that fits 1 tile to better fit it's size. but it's old 64x64 sprite was repurposed as another giant variant

(new adult warg)

(slightly altered old warg sprite, for the giant warg)

i have a severe one-sided beef with this very very very big popular taylor blog on here

One of these days I'll simply lose what's left of my sanity and delete all my social media

ugh.

Ykno sometimes trauma is in the stupid little things no one thinks about being traumatic. The little things that take you back, make a funny little video remind you of one of the most painful nights of your life

And you can't fault anybody for that. Not even yourself for looking at it. So you're just like. Sitting here & contemplating this bitch we call life