"Oh, I was not made for heaven. No, I don’t want to go to heaven. Hell is much better. Think of all the interesting people you’re going to meet down there."
- Freddie Mercury
Duration: 11 minutes at 10:18 AM & 64 minutes at 10:31 PM
Depth:
The two meditations from yesterday are opposites of each other, in some ways. Although I felt wave like spinal vibrations in the morning session, the vibrations were mild and far apart. At night, in the second half of the hour plus long session, I experienced continuous spinal vibrations ending in strong distracting vibrational shakes.
The strong shakes seem to be coming due to energies dissipating from the back of the head. These days, it is either the upper neck or some part of the head where energies are getting blocked from moving even higher.
Every meditation that I conduct from here on will undo the temporary block. That’s the power of a good habit. The strong vibrational shakes that I experience these days isn’t about the spine any more. The energies are being lost higher up than the spine.
I have had The Big Sads today. Dog been anxious af and barking. Husband way over reacting to it and talking about rehoming. Having dark fantasies about leaving my husband and dog and responsibilities or even SHing in some way. But most importantly they are only thoughts not actions and there's no use hand wringing over thoughts alone. My mum is very ill right now, 10% chance of dying, so I've been worried about death etc a lot. Forced myself to eat healthy meals, walked the dog twice, went swimming, did my paid work. Once again paid work has come through to save me by distraction. I'm going easy on myself where I can. Probably need to get out and socialise a bit too at some point, even with this gloomy weather. Manifesting a better mood!
24.11.2022. Look at this gorgeous edition of the Dune trilogy my brother just bought! 😍
"I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain". - Dune by Frank Herbert.