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#2022 manifesting good vibes
sotc · 2 years
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It’s been a hot minute since I’ve really tried to make my birthday special for myself and I’m really, really glad I did. I went to the beach for the first time in over a decade and a half (and the first time really treating myself to go out like this esp during the pandemic). I enjoyed the waves, the sunshine on my skin and the tan I got, the good food and the time spent with my partner <3. My friends online and off, along with my family have spoiled me so much with their birthday wishes and kindness, I feel SO incredibly blessed and grateful for all of them. All of you!!!! Thank you guys for making me feel special on the one day of the year I can truly call my own. 💞
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parakeetpark · 2 years
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I'm super ill so I'm rewatching The Phantom of the Paradise in between sneezing and blowing my nose. Every so often I switch to a different film with William Finley in it that I'm watching purely because I need More of Anything Related to POTP Now or I will die
Also I'm considering trying out making video edits because of this film. There's not enough content to fuel the hyperfixation and I'm gonna do the "make the Content You wish to see in the world" thingy. I know they take a lot of work but I'm so hyperfixated and ready to dive in
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monzabee · 1 year
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fuck being underrated (social media au) - mv1
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Summary: The one where Max is dating his team principal's daughter, who happens to be the hottest model of the year.
Pairing: max verstappen x fem!reader (model used: bella hadid)
Warnings: lando slander (i love him tho), cursing, my first time attempting to make a social media au so bear with me.
Please also note that all of my works are protected under copyright, and not available for reposting on other platforms. 
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yn.horner: fuck being underrated i wanna have everything they did
elsahosk: THE stargirl omg
omgitsharry: NOT THE 90S MODELS MAAM YOU ARE ALSO A STAR!!!
lanaslocket: isn't promoting unhealthy standards so 2022?
ynhornerstann: leave her to breath for a second for fuck's sake liked by landonorris
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pierregasly: giving young kate moss vibes
yn.horner: nah more like naomi
landonorris: i'm calling your dad
yn.horner: great! say hi from me!! liked by maxverstappen1
yn.horner
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yn.horner: manifest that shit!!!👀🤍✨🧿🪐🪬⭐️
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landonorris: there's no way
yn.horner: shut up lando norizz
landonorris: rude
yn.horner: 🚜 this u?
pierregasly: ayo
maxverstappen1: ayo
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modelnewsla: y/n horner was seen attending a charity function last night in monte carlo. our sources confirm that she and her mystery date arrived at the function hand in hand, and left together as well. is love in the air?👀👀
ynstrueloveconfirmed: no, no, no, no
albonorge: how does it feel to LIVE MY DREAM?
harrysbirthmark: isn't that her boyfriend?
jokerpoker: what?
danielricciardo: what?
yn.horner: what?
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maxverstappen1
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maxverstappen1: Back from Bahrain, stopped by Paul Ricard to support @verstappendotcom Racing driver @v_thierry during his first test day💪
danielricciardo: looking good, mate!
supasupamaxmax: Does this guy ever take a break????
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yn.horner: omg you actually dressed up!!!
maxverstappen1: shut up
yn.horner: stop flirting with me
yn.horner: it makes me feel fluttery
landonorris: this is a family show
maxverstappen1: shut up lando norizz
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yn.horner: it's the overrated nepo babies for me
maxverstappen1: simply lovely
yn.horner: i take it back
pierregasly: what happened to soft launching?
pierregasly: also, what?
danielricciardo: but are we surprised though?
landonorris: nope
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christianhorner: Please call me right now.
yn.horner: my phone fell into the ocean and now its's gone.
danielricciado: yn, there are people that are dying.
christianhorner: Please also have Max call me.
maxverstappen1: simply lovely
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razzledazzle-pop · 4 months
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🌘✨Huevember Day 17: Logan Sanders✨!🌒 (2022)
Kicking off the blue section of huevember with space man my beloved!! Manifesting good vibes for him.
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cursedbyastro · 2 years
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.001 astro observations
cursedbyastro © 2022 | do not plagarize, translate, repost, and/or copy onto any other platform
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· * . ✦. hi there. I know that I have been gone for a while, but I am back now. I plan on being more consistent and also answering the asks that are in my letterbox currently so bare with me. i'll probably post every sunday but i haven't decided yet so idk. also reminder that these are not astrological facts, but insteasd astrological observations i have noticed in myself and others. please enjoy!
໑ moon in the 1st/cancer ascendant/moon-ascendant aspects or neptune in the 1st/cancer ascendant/moon-ascendant typically give doe eyes/bambi beauty. because of the innocent, watery and emotional nature of cancer & pisces, it gives this innocent, youthful, fragile, emotional, and bambi-like beauty to natives. sometimes, you can be said to look younger than your age or have a certain glow to your skin/body.
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(madonna, audrey hepburn, — moon in the 1h, marilyn monroe — neptune in the 1h)
໑ aquarius ascendant/uranus-ascendant/uranus in the 1st and/or scorpio ascendant/pluto in the 1st/pluto-ascendant aspects typically give siren eyes.. uranus and pluto influence can add coldness, mystery, and a sultry vibe that makes people want to be drawn near you and know more about you. (bonus points if you have a good mix) (kylie, scarlett – uranus | charlize theron – pluto)
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(scarlett johansson, kylie jenner — uranus 1h, charlize theron — pluto in 1h)
໑ i’ve noticed that harsh moon/mars aspects can bring random aggressive mood swings kinda like being irritated but not knowing why. it’s best that people leave you alone or that you seek solitude (whenever possible) when you feel this way to avoid hurting other people physically and emotionally.
໑ the asteroid nessus (258) conjunct mercury can show that your words cut other very deeply – and when I say deep I mean deep. (even enough to hurt or shock the most “emotionless” folk) however, this has probably come as a mechanism to combat things in your past. speaking your true feelings and maybe even seeking a therapist can help.
໑ parallels work almost exactly like a conjunction but only the positive effects mostly. some see parallels as lesser than a conjunction, but I see it to being as equal as a conjunction and contra-parallels like opposition at the same intensity.
venus parallel pluto causes the person to love extremely deeply and want the same in return. love is almost always transforming for you and you most likely don’t partake in relationships that you do not see lasting. you seem very intense, mysterious, and seductive. major sex appeal vibes. you give all or nothing energy into the things you love and are passionate about eve investigating them deeply. you try to find the beauty in most things.
໑ I’ve noticed that people with the 22nd degree doesn’t necessarily mean to be killed or kill, but it can mean success but at a cost.
for example, steve jobs has his ascendant at the 22nd degree and is known for his company Apple, hardworking nature, and technological advancements. however, the path for him to developing his company was a hard one and his recognition did not truly come until after death.
໑ looking for new ways to nurture yourself and practice self-care? look for ceres, vesta, and moon placements and/or the 12th and 2nd houses
໑ 11th house stelliums = having a lot of people around you, but nobody truly “seeing” you
໑ also side note, 11th house stelliums, a well-aspected 11th house, and/or 11th house placements have amazing manifestation powerof they just utilize them and have faith in them
໑ 3rd house ruler in the 4th most likely have an older sister/”mature” sister who help take care of them and raise them like a mother would
໑ god bless those individuals that fuck with someone with a venus-mars conjunction especially if in a water sign.
໑ scorpio 11th/pluto in the 11th are the types of people to have privacy screens on their devices or just generally keep dark screens on them. they also may be selfish with sharing their personal technology. many of your friends may think that you have something to hide, but sometimes you just like your privacy
໑ mercury/venus aspects can give some great love advice even if they have not been in an actual relationship
໑ people not being able to tell if you’re being sarcastic or serious = capricorn mercury  
໑ planets/asteroids aspect each other planets/asteroids if they are closer in degrees which determines the orb like if your venus is at 14 degrees and mars at 14 degrees in the same sign they will be conjunct at a 0-degree orb (I don’t know if this is commonly known or not lol)
໑ venus at hard aspects to ascendant can wear multiple masks to other people that they love or what to be loved by even to the point that it can cause identity crises or not truly embracing who you are out of fear of being rejected
໑ having the asteroid actor (12238) in the 3rd house/under mercury's influence can be great enough that other often use them as a means to teach acting to others, get along well with other actor's around their age, and/or amazing voice actors. (because it makes them expressive.)
໑ for people with moon/saturn and moon/pluto aspects I honestly want to give you the biggest hugs ever, you deserve and deserved more. please nurture your inner child…
໑ those with a scorpio venus/plutonian-influenced venus are the type to want their significant other's/loved ones location on. it gives them peace of mind.
໑ even if you have other aspects contradict, moon in harminous aspects to saturn can cause a person to be calm even in stressful situations and not allow their emotions to get ahold of them.
໑ having a 5th house stellium in the webb (3041) persona chart can show that you can be known on the internet for your talents, confidence, creativity, drama, childlike radiance, and/or causal romances. it could also mean that you find the internet entertaining or that you are known for your entertaining behaviors on the internet.
໑ having you sun in the 11th/aquarius in the apollo (1862) persona chart can show that when you are decisive in your apparent talent and acknowledge your independent uniqueness to the rest of the world, you can gain from these talents and inspire more people to do the same.
໑ the 5th degree is known as a "short-term fame degree". i've noticed that it can bring a kind of sexual/sensual fame related to your looks or sexual appeal that you bring to whatever planet/house it resides.
໑ even though chiron is where we are wounded and where we can heal others, when we begin to overcome the struggles of chiron, this can be the area of our greatest accomplishments as well once we overcome the insecurities of chiron.
໑ venus square neptune = cellophane by fka twigs/in my head by ariana grande
໑ the asteroid kilo (84) being prominent in the natal chart can show a love for history. the type of history depends on the sign, house placement, and aspects. for example, kilo in the 5h might like art history, or a kilo in cancer might enjoy women studies.
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gimmethatagustd · 2 years
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first for all, I’m so happy for u baby!!! u deserve every milestones and I’m happy to be witnessing it and more in future 🫶🏼
& for the drabble milestone uhm idk if you’ve watched nevertheless but I wanna request jk in that anatomy scene!!! where he’s teaching u abt human anatomy and its cute but things get heated 🫣 if u wanna add some body worship and putting his mouth everwhere while he’s teaching u stuff 🏃‍♀️ ily ilyyyy jsjckdjfjdkd byeee
DIVINE FEMININE | JJK
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No one can make you feel like a goddess better than Jeon Jungkook.
» pairing: jungkook x fem!reader
» genre: BTS | 18+ | fwbs | college au | smut | fluff
» wc/date: 2.6k | July 2022
» warnings: body worship | fingering | jungkook will eat pussy until he dies
» notes: i hadn't seen nevertheless, but i watched it cuz of your request and wow i loved it! i hope this fits the vibe you were looking for~ i also don’t know anything about human anatomy cuz i’m #dumb so pls just ignore anything that might be incorrect khkjds 
» masterlist | ao3 | send me ur thots 👅
» what was jai listening to? skin - mac miller
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“Are you listening to me?” Jungkook leaned back on your couch, legs spread and hands holding your dreaded anatomy textbook. 
You hadn’t been listening to him. Nope, you’d been staring at him with nothing but elevator music in your head. You were convinced your brain disappeared every time you were around him, unable to focus on anything but the way his lips pulled into a pout when he got to a concept he didn’t understand or when his eyebrows scrunched together when he disagreed with whatever answer you came up with for your homework. Who could blame you? The way he sat with his tattooed arm resting on the back of the couch behind you and his thick thigh pressed against yours was making your brain short circuit. 
“Yes!” You rushed to answer him, adjusting your position on the couch to face him, your legs drawn up. 
“You’re lying,” Jungkook said with a smirk. He snapped the textbook shut and placed it on the coffee table. You felt heat rush to your face when Jungkook lightly ran his fingers in gentle circles around your bare knee. “Should we take a break?”
It was impossible to stop your mind from reeling as you imagined what exactly you and Jungkook could do during your study break. You’d practically manifested his fingers creeping higher up your thigh with your dirty fantasies. 
“Um, I guess we could? But I know it’s late and I don’t want to keep you here too long,” you insisted. Jungkook had already been at your apartment for two hours. It seemed like a lot to expect him to stay even later, now that the sun had long disappeared into the night. 
“I don’t mind. I like studying with you.” Jungkook nodded, inching his fingers slightly further up your leg. His gentle traces made you shiver and you leaned forward slightly to scoot closer to him. 
“I like studying with you, too,” you whispered. Jungkook hummed in response, his fingers now skirting the hem of your shorts. 
“Pop quiz,” he announced as he gently pressed his fingers into your thigh to squeeze it. You let out a small gasp at the sudden action and Jungkook lifted his dark eyes to meet your gaze. They sparkled with mischief and something else you weren’t sure of. “What bone is this?” 
“F-femur.” 
“Good girl,” Jungkook praised you and you felt your stomach drop. He dragged his fingers back down the length of your leg. When he got to your calf he took a strong grip of it and pulled you towards him, drawing both of your legs to rest across his lap. His hands returned to your legs, gliding up to gently push your thighs apart. You let out a shaky exhale as you let him part your legs and watched his tattooed hand trace invisible patterns in the inside of your thigh. 
“And what is this muscle?” he asked, fingers pushing up your shorts to gain access to more of your smooth, sensitive skin. 
“The, the…” You inhaled with a sharp hiss when you felt Jungkook squeeze the inside of your thigh and begin to massage the muscle. 
“Yes?” He locked eyes with you while he used his free hand to run his fingers through his bangs. You’d never met someone who you knew could ruin your life like Jungkook.  
“The adductor…”
“The adductor what?” 
“L-longus.” You reached out to grab Jungkook’s forearm when you felt him press his fingers between your thighs. You were sure he could feel the heat of your pussy through your shorts, maybe even feel the dampness of the fabric now that you were soaking through your underwear. 
“You’re answering more questions correctly now,” Jungkook said with a light chuckle that shot straight to your thighs. He pulled his bottom lip between his teeth and you practically had your head rolling. “But we can stop.” 
You shook your head without an ounce of dignity and let Jungkook’s arm go. “My test is tomorrow.” 
“Should we start at the top and move down?” The way you were breathing heavily was merely one indicator that this was no longer about tests, but Jungkook was happy to play along. He slipped his hands beneath your t-shirt to push it up and off of you, tossing it onto the coffee table with your forgotten textbook. Leaning his body against yours, he forced you onto your back on the couch and hovered over you. 
“What’s this?” he whispered, his lips ghosting over yours. You closed your eyes and tilted your head upwards, just barely pressing your lips against his. He tutted in disapproval. “You have to tell me first, princess.” 
You let out a frustrated sigh and fluttered your eyes open to see Jungkook smirk. “Vermilion.” 
He cocked his head to the side to assess if he’d accept that answer. You silently begged for him to move, to do something. The longer he took, the more you felt pressure build inside of you. After an eternity, he brought his lips to yours and you let out a small moan into his mouth when he sucked on your bottom lip. Your arms shot up to wrap around his neck, but Jungkook pulled away. 
“We’re studying, beautiful,” he murmured, ducking out of your embrace. Before you could protest, he pressed a kiss against your neck, and then another at the middle of your throat. He traveled down until his lips whispered goosebumps down your chest and you felt your nipples grow erect beneath your lacy bralette just from his breath on your skin.  
“You remember this one, right? The sternum.” He pressed a kiss just below where your bralette rested between your cleavage. 
“Jungkook, ahh, stop it,” you whined, grabbing his head. You laced your fingers through his soft hair, lightly pulling at the strands that fell into his eyes. “It tickles. I’m going to hurt you if you don’t stop.” You were not liable for what your limbs would do once you started squirming under his touch. 
“The sternum,” he repeated, ignoring your threats, “and your ribs protect all the organs in your chest. Like your lungs.” Jungkook pressed a kiss against your ribs. “And your heart.” He adjusted his position to run his tongue along the ribs just below your left breast. “To keep my pretty girl safe.” 
“Jungkook.” 
He leaned back to stare at you with those doe eyes that pulled at your heartstrings. It was all a trap, though, and you both knew it. There was nothing innocent about those eyes. 
“Your test includes sex anatomy as well, right?” He slipped his hand beneath the waistband of your shorts. 
You nodded your head, knowing where this was going and having no desire to stop it. He ran his middle finger up and down your clothed slit with such light pressure you almost didn’t feel it at all. Yet you still wiggled beneath his touch, hips bucking upwards to encourage him to press against you harder. 
“The labia majora is what’s on the outside.” Jungkook slid his hand inside of your underwear and cupped your pussy. “Labia minora…” He pushed his fingers through your wet folds, swishing his fingers around your arousal. “Is on the inside.” 
“And I’d be remiss to not mention my favorite part…” Jungkook whispered against your neck, his breath tickling your ear. He gently pinched your clit between his fingers and your body jolted forward. You pressed your hand against his chest and felt his heart speed up beneath your fingers. 
“Your favorite part?” you whispered back. 
“I love all of you, but this is my favorite.” He stroked your clit, rolling his finger in smooth circles against it. On occasion he switched it up, dragging his nail against the side of your clit and pressing hard circles into it sideways, only to quickly flip to do it again on the other side. 
“Jungkook…” You focused on moaning his name and ignoring the four-letter word he’d never used towards you until now. 
“Hmm, baby?” 
You threw your head back against the couch and Jungkook took the opportunity to plant another kiss against your throat. He sucked on your skin hard enough to leave a mark and then roamed your body for a new spot to attack while his fingers rolled your clit. You panted and whined as your legs shook, unable to comprehend how Jungkook was already about to make you cum just by playing with your clit. Just as you felt like you were going to lose it, Jungkook pulled his hand from your shorts. You tilted your head to look at him, unaware of the pout that naturally formed on your lips. 
“You’re so cute,” Jungkook said with a grin. 
“No I’m not.” 
“Beautiful, then?” You lifted your hips as he slid your shorts down your legs, taking your underwear with them. “Gorgeous? Breathtaking? Stunning? Hot as fuck?”
The compliments made you squirm and you couldn’t look Jungkook in the eyes, so you missed the dazzling smile he flashed at you while he adjusted your position on the couch. He maneuvered you so you sat up on the couch, legs spread apart. Then he sank to his knees in front of you. 
“I’m just me,” you insisted, hesitantly taking a peek at the man between your legs. He held your gaze when he kissed the inside of your thigh, but the sight of his tongue slipping out to run along your skin made you shyly look away and swallow a moan. 
“Hmm, I know what you are,” he challenged, turning his head to lick at the inside of your other thigh. Your body seemed to spread your legs even further without your permission until Jungkook was able to slot your legs over his broad shoulders. “You’re perfect.” 
“You’re so corny.” 
Jungkook scoffed and his hot breath scattered goosebumps along your thighs. You desperately ached for him to bring his mouth to exactly where he knew you wanted it to go, but tonight he was taking his time. 
“Look at you.” He reached up to spread your lips, your arousal leaking onto his fingers as he did. “So pretty. My pretty girl.” 
Having him examine the most intimate parts of your body made you feel self-conscious, but Jungkook looked at you with nothing but admiration. He ran his finger down the length of your folds until he got to your entrance. A low chuckle rumbled from his chest when you squealed once he slid a finger inside of you, quickly pressing right where he needed to. 
“You act like I’ve never done this before,” Jungkook mused, but he loved how sweet and timid you were. He loved taking care of you. 
Finding a slow rhythm to glide in and out of you, Jungkook watched your lips part and your head press against the back of the couch. Each whimper that fell from your lips matched the way he thrusted his finger into you, curling where you needed him to. Right when you began to move your hips against his hand, Jungkook lowered his mouth to lick your clit in a way that was so painfully slow you cried out against him. 
“J-Jungkook, please,” you choked out, hands immediately reaching for his hair. He allowed you to control his movements, pulling him closer and rutting against his face as he flattened his tongue to accommodate the new rhythm you’d established. 
For as demure as you acted, you certainly knew what you wanted. Something about Jungkook pulled out a different side of you. Maybe it was how gentle and thoughtful he was. Even though the two of you weren’t exclusive and you had no idea if he was hooking up with anyone else, he made you feel like the most important person in the world. When you had his face in between your thighs, his chin and nose smeared with your arousal, his breath panting in hot bursts against your skin whenever he came up for air, when you had all of that, you didn’t care to think about who else he might be fucking. Instead you twisted your fingers in his soft locks and used him just how he wanted you to. 
“Getting tired, baby?” Jungkook laughed when he took a moment to breathe, noticing how you were letting your arms flop like jello next to you. “I’m gonna wear you out.”  
After a while you were beginning to lose your control, slowly relaxing your legs until Jungkook was taking over once again. He continued to thrust his finger against your g-spot, sliding a second inside you and pressing upward just to feel your legs shudder against his shoulders and hear you scream his name. With his tongue he alternated between swirling figure eights against your clit to licking in quick succession, sucking on your clit hard when he wanted you to jump. 
You watched him tilt his head to the side to open up your legs further and when his eyes fluttered shut you knew he’d become completely lost in working his tongue and fingers against you. If you were to sing him sweet praises just as he did to you, if you could shed your shyness around him, you would tell him he looked beautiful like that - eyelashes against his cheeks, jawline taunt, lips swollen and pink from his efforts to please you. 
“Oh my god, Jungkook, it feels so goooood,” you slurred, barely able to get a coherent sentence out. He moaned into your pussy when you dug your nails into his hair, gripping him tighter as you felt your muscles contract in your abdomen and thighs. “I’m gonna, ohh fuck.” 
Jungkook wrapped one arm around your waist to hold you down as he felt your walls clench around his fingers. Even as you squirmed in his arms and tried to clamp your thighs around his head, he kept up his movements until you were begging, practically sobbing, for him to stop. He let you go and you fell slack on the couch, your heart beating fast from your orgasm, and you felt like you might pass out from forgetting to breathe. 
“You are so fucking sexy.” Jungkook lifted the hem of his shirt to wipe his face on it and something about his black t-shirt being coated with your cum made you swell with something akin to pride. “Are you okay?” he asked when he saw you sitting limp. When you gave him a silent nod, eyes still closed, Jungkook stood up. He gently gathered you in his arms and carried you to your bed. 
“What are you doing?” you mumbled, never opening your eyes. 
“Taking care of you.” 
You heard the sound of your dresser drawers being opened and some quiet rustling before you felt Jungkook lift you up to pull a clean t-shirt on over your head. Then you felt his hands, calloused from hours of lifting weights at the gym, slide clean underwear up your legs to rest comfortably on your hips. 
“You didn’t have to do that,” you mumbled, slowly opening your eyes to see Jungkook sitting on the edge of your bed. You had no idea what time it was, but fuck you were exhausted. 
Jungkook shrugged. After a few moments of silence with the two of you listening to each other’s breathing relax in the dark room, Jungkook leaned down to press a kiss against your forehead. 
��I know I didn’t have to, but I wanted to,” he whispered against your hair. When he looked down, you were fast asleep, softly snoring in a way Jungkook could only find adorable. He gave you another kiss, this time on your cheek, and you sighed in your sleep. “I love you,” he whispered, standing up to gather his things and leave. 
Maybe one day he’d say it while you were awake. 
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Fanfiction Year in Review 2023
I fill this out every year. It’s become a bit of a tradition for me. Allows me to reflect on everything that I’ve written and kinda think about where I want to go next. And I like it better from the ask games because I don’t have to wait for asks to come in and can compare my answers from one year to the next. ^_^
1 List of fics completed this year in the order they were finished:
Displaced (Ladrien oneshot)
No Regrets (Ladynoir oneshot - smut)
You Don’t Have To Pretend With Me (Platonic Adrino oneshot)
Representation Reveal (S5 Adrinette oneshot)
Kisses in the Rain (S5 AU Love Square - technically multichapter, but it’s shorter than many of my one-shots)
Would Trust You With Everything (Adrino multichapter)
Just An Ordinary Girl (Marichat oneshot)
Love Remains (Ladynoir multichapter)
Spin the Bottle (OT4 with cour four - technically oneshot, but it’s longer than Kisses and has more kisses in it. Haha!)
2 Number of words written: 
Written: 166,114 words
Published: 151,018 words (more than twice 2022’s number!! Go me!!) 
Those numbers are incredibly close together because I haven’t been redrafting as much. Those numbers include six one shots, three completed multi chapters. And another four multi chapter WIPs saw at least one update.
And in another fun milestone! I broke a million words published on Ao3 just this last week!! (I've been writing fic since 2003 and everything I've ever written is on Ao3!)
3 Your most popular fic:
Not Part of the Plan - I suspect that this is mostly because being a teen pregnancy fic, it’s my most tropiest story this year. Haha! 
4 Your personal fav:
Aftermath - This story has usurped Right Behind You as my favorite. I’ve been able to connect to the raw hurt and grief in this story, and there’s something very raw and human about it that others seem to be able to connect to as well. I think it’s some of my best work, and that is also thanks to an amazing beta in @ladyofthenoodle who has lent her expertise in more than one way in making this one more true to lived experience. 
5 Your fav scene:
It’s so hard to pick a favorite!! I narrowed it down to my three favorites in no particular order. 
The last scene in Ch 5 Love Remains - Chat Noir give amnesiac Ladybug a geography lesson from space. It’s got Whole New World vibes, and I just loved the imagery of it.
Ch 4 of Aftermath - I’m particularly proud of Marinette’s panic attack when Adrien tells her she doesn’t have to keep coming over. Like it feels like it comes out of nowhere, but it just totally makes sense. And how it manifests and how she soothes herself (it’s not healthy, but it’s so GOOD!)
Ch 7 of Would Trust You With Everything - The scene where Chat Noir tries to tell Nino who he is, but inevitably doesn’t. And how Nino reassures him through all that. This scene feels so raw, but so heartwarming in light of Adrien’s fears. And I don’t know - it’s beautiful to me.
6 A fic or scene that challenged you:
I really struggled with Right Behind You this year, though it wasn’t for lack of trying! I had started out the year hoping to go back to an update a month here and I only updated it three times throughout 2023. 
This was incredibly frustrating because the initial drafts of scenes would come pretty easily, but I couldn’t seem to make them pop the way the earlier chapters did. The good news is I think I figured out what the issue was. Most of my writing this year has been speed writing. And a big part of that is just where I’ve been emotionally. I’m very very out of practice in editing and redrafting, which this story and Aftermath both definitely need. 
I’ve only been able to edit Aftermath because I’ve had a ton of help. (Thanks Noodles!) Sadly, it’s harder to find betas for rarepairs, but I have succeeded! (Thanks@coffeebanana!)
7 A line of writing you’re proud of: 
“She wanted to be there to see it. To see him.”
This line is way better in context, but I’ve made myself cry about three times with it. And I refuse to explain it because that would give its power away. Guess you’ll just have to go read Aftermath. 
8 A comment that touched you: 
I can never answer this question without mentioning several!! 
Would Trust You With Everything - this story had a ton of enthusiastic followers - way more than rarepair work usually gets, and I wrote this story right after my life fell apart and all the commenters here made throwing this story together just that much more joyful during a time when I REALLY needed it. (I'm looking at you, @bittersweetresilience, @bbutterflies @flightfoot @coffeebanana and so many others that I don't know your tumblr name!!!) Not Part of the Plan Comments - I added sex ed lessons to the end of each chapter here because there’s so much about fertility and pregnancy that people don’t know if typical pregnancy fics are anything to go by, and this seemed to inspire so many people to share their pregnancy stories!!! And these have been so cool because I’ve learned that these stories just don’t often have an opportunity to be shared. And it’s neat that this story with its accompanying lessons could create a space for that!! Aftermath comments - lots of people who have really struggled with moderate to severe depression have apparently felt very seen by this fic. And that a story that is essentially about two characters who feel very alone and like no one can understand can help people feel LESS alone and MORE understood is simply amazing!! I love this story so much!! AHH!! Here's one from @neurovascular-entrapta that meant a lot to me.
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9 Something that inspired your writing:
Grief and the need to feel things in a distant abstract-these-are-story-book-characters kind of way so I don’t have to feel my actual feelings as closely every moment of the day really kept me writing the whole year long.
10 Your proudest accomplishment (that one scene; finally finishing that one fic; posting your first fic; etc):
My writing has been really raw and messy this year, and I can’t keep tenses straight to save my life. But there’s something powerful about the rawness that I really like even as all the grammatical errors and the lack of effort on the technical side of most of my stories has driven me nuts. 
I am proud of myself for being able to get back into the big projects in these last few months after not being able to face them from April to October. And I’ve started participating in a few writing events here and there again in addition to working on my own pet projects. 
11 Do you have any writing goals for the next year?
Well, I wanted to finish Not Part of the Plan in 2023, which didn’t happen only barely! So hoping the last chapter and the epilogue make it out within the next month. Once that’s done I think I want to try and make Aftermath and Right Behind You my primary focus projects this year. And of course, I’m sure new plot bunnies and writing events will take over my brain on occasion. Last year, I said I wanted my writing to become a reliable mental health tool for me again, and I’m glad to say that it definitely was that for 2023. I hope I’m able to use my writing this year to continue my healing journey. 
And maybe go and proofread all of the fics I finished in 2023 to fix all the inconsistent tense issues to prepare them for being bound eventually!
12 Anyone you would like to thank?
SO MANY PEOPLE!
@jennagrinsoverml for being one of my oldest fandom friends! For becoming a real life friend for all that we haven't actually met in person. For all the times you vented to me and listened and sent me pictures of your family and gushed over pictures of mine. I'm lucky to know you!
@ladyofthenoodle - for showing up in my DMs, For being a most insightful beta, for dragging me into a larger community over and over again, for listening to both my real struggles and my first world problems, for being my friend!!
@thelibraryloser - I don't know how to put this into words. But I very much look up to you. For your resilience through difficult times - you are role-model for how to handle this world with grace and kindness. Thank you for your stories!
@coffeebanana - for being so enthusiastic in the creation process before and after! When I have a story that is getting no attention one comment from you makes it so it doesn't matter. You give me all I need.
@bittersweetresilience and @wackus-bonkus-maximus for just being so kind and enthusiastic and supportive of any idea I happen to be talking about in any given moment. I guess for enabling me. Haha!
@blur0se and @mila-beedoodling for sharing your ideas and inspiring me to create new things!!
@asukiess, @chocoluckchipz, @sariahsue, @miabrown007 for creating so many beautiful things and for being kind and engaging in so many conversations!
And now, I'm really nervous that I'm forgetting someone because this is the first time where I feel like I've had more than three fandom friends. Haha! It's a good problem to have I suppose. In general, thank you to the miraculous community for helping me to survive this year. <3 <3 <3
Happy New Year Everyone!!
I invite anyone who wants to, to fill this out! (Or something similar because I think it can be modified for artwork pretty easily). But if you do, please tag me, so I can be a cheerleader for all you've accomplished this year!
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athena-swords · 1 year
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Pick a pile reading
The main character energy you are coming in.what your friends think of you.what is your charm(intutive)
Disclaimer:It is the believer of the craft which knows what is to be taken and what to not so be mindful of it.
Here are the piles...
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Pile 1
Hey pile 1 hope so you all are doing good.ohh this pile definitely have got the vibes so we can see a very confident and firey person in this pile those who are the 'popular' person in high school.Takes stand for what feels right and is loud about their thoughts. Some of you can be migrants or just love traveling the person you look in the streets and be like wish it could me one day. Winning and lots of small victories.
What your friends think of you?
Most of them think you are above average in your craft.The friends which gives great advice they may think you very much like to live in your own fairytale and sometimes will have to remind you of that.A competition they have to keep up with in carrer or school take what fits. Someone who have a balance lifestyle and don't have to dwell on management of their finances much.
What is your charm(intuitive)
Could smell expensive, femme vibes ,intense eye contact,lol I heard taste so idk take how you want,mysterious understanding of things (I hope u understand what I mean).
Pile 2
Hiii  pile 2 hope so the winters are giving you not so much of trouble  maybe people is you as a helper or more of a saver I am  Getting such a BAD BITCH energy from you but not that bitchy kind its more like if you mess with me or my people you are gone. you are kind at the same time you and pile 1 are a bit similar so you can check out that too if you want. life of the party or just someone who lives the  moment .a competitive person who like to WIN like its gives them the kick,validation, self confidence  what ever you would like to take it as . if you are seeing number 9 repeatedly you need to do a self introspection -message from your guides.....
What your friends think of you?
okay right of the bet your friends  konw how much efforts you put on the things you desire for (maybe you dont get the results soon though) they see your cute bratty side and love it as many of ur friends dont mind pampering you.ur love language could be gifting or just being there comforting them.all of ur friends are glad that you just know that they feel and what to say.BTW one of your friends might be missing  now as you are busy these days and not get to connect much they would like to go on outings again.
ok see from the energies I am getting I can say that your friends group genuinely care for you like all of them but just be careful of those whom you dont trust
What is your charm(intuitive)
bad bitch ,warm hugs in winter ,tired ,not sassy but can be...  at times, manifesting clear skin,2022 taught you about____
Pile 3
heyy my babies I hope you have learned your lessons like life been so hard on you like sooo fucking hard you are like the warrior who becomes more strong after each wounds yaa like I was not getting the right words for you  all my love goes to you like you know the character who goes through every shit but comes victorious at the end you are that bitch and never let yourself think anything less than that  you have overcome the worst so just hold on a bit and you will see that there is a happy journey written for you too and people who made you feel like you are nothing are gonna get there fruits dont worry YOU DO YOU .see maybe you dont had those happy memories or teen life hack I would even say childhood life but belive me when I say everything you imagined yourself doing you will be soon pursuing it your guides are telling you to just wait for a little bit until then remember they are there for you.maybe something or someone who you thought as your saviour left you or were not what you thought they were but dont worry the universe sees what you dont they were not someone you needed in your life they would have done more bad than good 
What your friends think of you?
you hardly have friends dont you or whom you can truly call your friend so been betrayed by a friend haa they left you out or were keeping you in the dark but dont take the blame they are just a ill moral and maniplative person but there is surly a childhood friend or a friend who is romantically interested in you darling I am just so sorry that I am not getting what they think but more about the situation IG you need these messages more as your guides are strongly giving these messages as last this friend or lover  admires the strength you have shown and are happy that you are trying to move on and not repeat the patterns within 4 to 6 months you will be meeting people who not only match your vibes but will understand you and guide you there they all will be probably more mature or eolder than you.hoping the best for you.
What is your charm(intuitive)
lo lita, my bag -song, counting starts-song, pitch dark, ghilbi studio character vibes, grand launch, muffins.
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batmanisagatewaydrug · 5 months
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reading updates: october 2023
hi everybody!!! things (by which I mean everything) have been a little bit hectic lately (by which I mean it feels like everything is one fire 100% of the time), which I guess explains why I'm late posting this AND why I only finished four books in all of October.
I would be very sad about this if the number of books I read had any correlation to my value as a person, but luckily it doesn't! so I don't give a shit, I am literally just vibing and trying to have a good time reading my silly little stories. here's a book report about it.
what I've been reading:
The Goblin Emperor (Katherine Addison, 2014) - okay, so picture this: you're the fucking elf king's least favorite son. you're not a bastard, but he didn't love your mom and after she died he basically banished you to a miserable little estate in bumfuck nowhere with no one but your abusive older cousin for company. probably he was going to leave you out there forever and hope that you would die quietly so no one would ever have to remember you existed. (un)fortunately, your shitty dad and all of his male heirs just died in a blimp accident and now you're the emperor. GOOD LUCK. this book is political fantasy of the highest order, with loads of machinations and intrigue and chewy worldbuilding interspersed with genuinely sweet moments between characters as one very good boy befriends his way to power. blah blah empires are inherently evil, obviously yes but this is a made up empire with 0 real consequences and Maia is my little dude. the only way I could love him more would be if he'd just nutted up and kissed his boy secretary on the mouth.
Happy Hour (Marlowe Granados, 2020) - I kept seeing this book enthusiastically as kind of a light fizzy funtime celebrating being young and free and running around New York City with no plans, and man... that was not my experience! Isa and Gala are maybe the most stressful girls I've ever encountered in fiction: perpetually broke and hungry, absolutely lacking in direction or ambition, always ricocheting listlessly from one situation to another in search of a good time and mostly only discovering disappointment, I need these girlies to get their lives together for my sake as a reader. there's one scene in particular where Isa is crashing with some disgustingly wealthy friends at the beach and keeps getting callously dismissed while sweating profusely and trying to figure out how she's going to convince them to keep paying for her food and it was so visceral that I developed a second, worse anxiety disorder because of it. Granados' writing is stylish, to be sure, but drama was not worth it for me.
The Magpie Lord (KJ Charles, 2013) - this historical fantasy romance is quick, dynamic, and horny. I can't actually say that I'm particularly charmed by the quality of the writing, which is there to hurtle you at warp speed between scenes of homoeroticism and bald exposition about magic, but I do admire Charles' panache. the book opens on a rather gruesome scene of our protagonist, Lord Crane, attempting to slit his own wrist; it quickly becomes clear that this isn't because he's genuinely suicidal, but because he's been cursed by persons unknown in an attempt to drive him to ruin. enter Stephen Day, a magic practitioner who hated Crane's deceased father and brother but is determined to help him all the same. some plot happens, but also a lot of flirting and (spoilers) sex that comes with an actual power-up for Stephen due to the wonders of blood magic. a pulpy good-time all around, and short enough that it doesn't overstay its welcome.
The Fervor (Alma Katsu, 2022) - The Fervor is a historical horror with a tantalizing premise: in the 1940s, Japanese demons begin to manifest inside of an Idaho internment camp for Japanese-Americans, adding a swirl of the supernatural to a situation that's already rife with mundane horrors. the actual execution is... lacking. Katsu's prose is blunt at best; when I call it "unsubtle" I don't mean the way some racist might mean when they inevitably go on a ramble about how Katsu beats her readers over the head with how racism is bad. racism is bad, duh, and it's hardly unrealistic to emphasize the fear and hatred that dogged the lives of Japanese-Americans during WW2. when I say this book is unsubtle I mean Katsu approaches each chapter like her readers have maybe forgotten everything they read leading up to that moment; you will be reminded frequently of characters' names, relationships, and straightforward motivations. and yet, somehow, the actual plot is still pretty murky. much is hinted at in the protagonist's past in Japan, then never actually elucidated, a main POV character falls clean out of the plot without resolution just before the climax, I still don't know what was up with those goddamn demon spiders. disappointing!
there was also one very specific, GLARING thing in the ending of The Fervor that I did not care for in the slightest, but that's tucked away on my Patreon in the monthly hater post. pay me if you want to hear about some CRAZY copaganda!
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My thoughts on Episode 5
I have a bad feeling about this
Sylvie is so pretty I wanna kiss her
Bea is so pretty I wanna kiss her
JETSKIS!!!
Slippy dippy
SON
UH OH
as the world caves in~
Why is there no music
LIGHT
heavy breathing boi
Where is he
Loki? Where?
Wait is he just still there
Where is everyone else?!
Welp
Why?
Call out for the hubby, that’ll solve everything.
TIMESLIPPING
haha NO NO NO
the noises 
Slutty Tom
Slutty hair flip
This is confusing 
I don’t like the quiet
WHY IS HE SEEING HIMSELF
h e l l o
OH FUCK ITS ALL SPAGHETTI
NGEH-
oh this is bad
Prison? Why?
Casey?!
CASEY!!!
What crimes have you committed 
Alcatraz!!! 
Dude the bay waters will give you hypothermia
This is literally common sense
WHATS A FISH
oh great
Frank…?
Why is Casey so mean?
Mickey D’s
Oh no
The time theater
LOKIUS VIBES
BEA!!!
She’s so sweet I wanna marry her
OH JEEZ
JETSKI MOBIUS!!!
DON?
SON!!!
2022?! 
EHEHE WHOOOOOO
SINGLE DAD I KNEW IT
TWO SONS?!
son…?
SON!!!
oh sweetie
Sweetheart… I’ll read your book!
I like sci-fi!
Oh… it’s beautiful!
SHIT-
Oh shit
AWWW SWEETHEART
I would read the hell out of those books
HES A WRITER LIKE ME!
DOOMED
I love him so much
He’s so smart
Evolving…
With science, it’s all what and how. with fiction, it’s why. I’ll remember that.
Same, Loki
He’s trying
S c i e n c e
WHYD HE SCREAM LIKE THAT IM GONNA CRY
HE IS SO RELATABLE
Smartie pants
Handbook?
Oohoho
He’s so real
THATS SUCH A PROBLEM
where are we now?
MOBIUS!
His kids are so cute
Lokius Lokius Lokius Lokius Lokius 
This is adorable I want Mobius as a dad
Form and function!
Not the real name babe
AHAHA
WIFE LEFT YOU-
aww he’s so gentle
Eeeeee-
OB IS TRYING
your boys will be okay, baby.
HES ABOUT TO CRY
OH SWEETHEART
oh Loki just help your husband
Casey is clinically insane but alrighty
The way the camera shifted… 
Manifesting canon Lokius up in this bitch
BEA!
Oh shit Sylvie 
OH SHIT SPAGHETTI
WHAT
SHE KNOWS
OH SHIT
get in the car
TANK TOP SYLVIE
oh god I’m going to- I’m not gonna say that
Loki focusing on Mobius is absolutely bi
Oh she said “bitch yeah I’m selfish what of it” 
SHES SPITTING FACTS
what does he really want
WHAT DO YOU WANT
AND???
OH MY GOD LONELINESS
HELP ME 
Oh Loki sweetheart
Stay with Mobius!
Oh fuck
Mobius talking about his passion is so fucking cute
Bea! What’s your name!
Oh no this is hurting me
Whatcha got for us, Lyle?
That’s what music does honey.
Oh this is making me very… how do I say this without sounding like an absolute freak
Oh Sylvie I can’t even
I’m adding this to my playlist
Spaghetti!!!
Oh no
She’s just so chill about this how-
SHE HAS A TEMPORAL RING!!!
Oh sad boi
We have all the pens! The mug!
…FRANK!
oh he didn’t?
Oh whoops
IF I HAVE TO WATCH MOBIUS BECOME SPAGHETTI I WILL-
No no no
NO-!
BEA!!
SYLVIE!!!
MY WIVES! MY DAD! MY SON! THEYRE GONE!
oh good I’m going to cry
Oh thank god
You controlled the timeslipping!!!
It’s about.. how?
ITS ABOUT WHO
EPIC MUSIC
OH MY GOD WERE BACK
WAIT WHAT
WHY DID IT END SO FAST?!
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**SPOILERS** SO THE NEW EXPANSION ANNOUNCEMENT HUH
HI IVE ALREADY PRETTY MUCH PREDICTED ALL OF THIS BACK IN LIKE, 2022. SO HELLO THIS IS WHAT I ANTICIPATE TO BE THE PLOT ELEMENT IN THE NEW EXPANSION
HEAVY SPOILERS 
so, the tower! isgarren! 
the evidence is very clear to me now. the tower that has been in kessex hills has been the tower of courage from the fissure of woe. 
the tower of courage was a hotly contested section of land in the FoW that balthazar and menzies competed over relentlessly. why it was taken out of the FoW before the realm fell is news to me. not unless somebody, with their power, was able to withdraw an entire section of the mists and draw it somewhere else. and, given that somebody as minor as king oswald thorn could do this, yeah. i think its pretty likely that isgarren has been menzies in disguise for centuries and pulled this off. when balthazar assumed control of this tower, rastigan the eternal said these fun lines.
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“Hearken to me, O tower of courage. I have come to challenge the false master of this place. Shelter not the coward from my righteous wrath. In balthazars name, I command you; Open the gate!”
nightmares and demons aren’t the same thing- theyre an entirely different species. nightmares have always served under menzies in his army. demons and nightmares are very similar- nightmares are a naturally occurring species that have manifested themselves in all sorts of ways. nightmares live in the mists, where they’ve taken on various different forms. in all of these forms, they, like demons, are entirely malicious towards mortal beings. demons on the other hand are created using pure hatred and just... negative vibes. some things can be forcefully turned into demons using domination from greater magical beings. demons feed off of souls and bad vibes, where nightmares want to kill you. oni are nightmares, and the big boss of gyala delve was a demon. if you died, you were likely recruited into shadow or if you were devout you were enlisted in the eternals (balthazar)
with balths imprisonment/subsequent release and death, the FoW has been untouched by anyone except menzies. we took the forest of the burning lord during the fight with kralkatorrik, stunting any of his building and fuel sources i believe. but he might have the burning lord as a prisoner somewhere or in some way? potentially. the burning forest was a place that remained neutral territory in the battle between the brother gods. when you would go to the fissure of woe in gw1, there was a quest where you had to take out the spirits but not hurt the lord in any way. which, typing that out, sounds like a hilarious catholic fantasy.
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(the eye seems to be an obvious reference to sauron who’s the queen bitch of darkness and evil. and who’s the god of horrible shit? menzies. that’s the most grasping at straws bit here gahsdlgkdf)
ANYWAY
whats shown above MAY VERY WELL BE one of the three lords that were released after abbadons fall. the grasp of insanity, the sight of chaos, and the darkness
the wizards and the astral realm are both elements that are coming into play here! now we’ve had one wizard that has been a servant of a fallen god in the past. khilbron was corruped/manipulated by abbadon to kill everyone and everything in orr. so fun! wow! there are direct connections between wizards and gods!
i think this new breed of magical users, the council of wizards, is the key to finding out what happened to menzies. 
hilariously? ive written an oc that is based on this entire premise! and i’ve been playing around with them for years! i think im just writing the game at this point. this is gonna sound conceited but i seem to be real real good at predicting this games plot lmaooo FOLLOW FOR MORE PREDICTIONS and hell i might have been hit with apollo again
(for blockers in case nobody has a tag filter: gw2 spoilers, gw2 soto spoilers)
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hikennosabo · 5 months
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trigun multiple bullets random thoughts
if you thought you saw the last of me in the tag... think again!!!
let's fucking goooooo... it's been a little while, so i feel like i'm rusty LMAO...
showdown with the dodongo brothers at honeycomb village (parts 1 & 2):
wow that's a mouthful of a chapter title. anyway.
seeing manga vash with fully blonde hair is... a little strange, now.
OH, SAME WITH SEEING WOLFWOOD... y'know... alive... i fucking MISSED HIMMMMMMM (<- i literally just saw him, i've been rewatching 98 again)
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this is so fun i love it so much
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oh there are SO many good expressions but if i post them all i'm sure i'll hit the image limit
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vash's pout is so cute and funny but i NEED to draw attention to meryl in the corner... i love her sm
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vash is twiddling his thumbs... he's so cute...
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well these sure are names
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even in the black-and-white manga... even though her hair was brown on the color page... we STILL get a blonde milly jumpscare?!?! really?!?!?
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AAHHHH... HIS SMILE.... TOO BRIGHT......!!!!!!
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they're so silly :( i missed this... waaaah...
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oh my goodness, i am in LOVE with this page.
i love wolfwood scolding vash too, lol. it's a conversation they've had many times before, but it feels... idk, lighter than usual?
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i love this page soooo much... their expressions are cute. i'm getting "he's an idiot, but he's MY idiot" vibes from wolfwood, lol :') they're in love your honor
and the cliffhanger reveal... i don't have that much to say about the plot tbh... hmmmm, i'm not separating these chapters in this post anyway.
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they :)
it wouldn't be a nightow action scene if it was easy to follow, but i'm glad i examined this page in detail instead of letting my eyes just pass over it because
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i LOVE this panel... the one in the middle of the spread is great too but i LOVE the angle of this... vash reaching over wolfwood to shoot, while wolfwood shields him... ugh... thank GOD for vashwood
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oh my god...... he's so cute.......
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GIRLLLLSSSS I LOVE YOUUUUU
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OH YEAH, VASHWOOD, BABEY!!!!!!!!!! vash holding on to the punisher... :D
is vash shooting the rockets so they change trajectory... that's so fucking insane. i love it
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THE SILLIES
man this was a fun one. i loved seeing vashwood being a battle couple again and just having a relatively low-stakes/light-hearted romp was a really nice thing to read after the horrors. which i am now a few weeks removed from, but they still haunt me...
trigun: the lost plant:
as someone who had (has!! i still love it!) an enduring dr stone obsession in 2021-2022, i am IMMUNE to boichi's art!!! this is significantly hornier than dcst though, not that i'm surprised in the slightest, dcst does have its own horny designs/moments unfortunately... this is the difference between shonen and seinen i suppose--hold on, that's not what this post is about!! *deletes entire other paragraph talking about dr stone*
60 years post-canon... vash's lifespan has been significantly shortened, but i do wonder how much he has left in him. he lived 150 years without any visible black appearing in his hair, so even if he has just a few strands of blonde left, they might last him a long time... well i don't think any of these stories are canon anyway so it doesn't matter LOL
as far as the plot goes...
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the explanation for how plants produce matter is interesting but why did it manifest as a child and why is it a black hole and why this specific plant and how did vash even--oh, WHATEVER!! i suppose there is a reason boichi was the artist for dr stone and not the writer.
very cool to see vash drawn in boichi's style though! it's pretty similar to the early dr stone manga, even though dcst came 5+ years later... and the art style of dcst changed over time, although--wait, no, that's NOT what this post is about!!!
the denizens of the sand planet:
okay, this one is by... *googles* wait, this is the guy who did lucifer and the biscuit hammer?? and planet with??? HUHHH... i've only watched planet with, but i've heard VERY good things about biscuit hammer (manga)... anyway
this is a cute story. the found family is cute.
okay sorry this doesn't matter but it is bugging me (ha) a bit. these post-canon stories don't like... actually show us how the world changed after the battle. because it's something i've been wondering about... like, they show a guy cleaning a plant bulb, but would there even be any plants left in bulbs at this point?
and like, this...
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wouldn't the exploitation end. like i suppose plants would still get "worn out" eventually, but i would expect more of a symbiotic relationship at this point. so what's with this imagery?
I'M OVERTHINKING IT!!!!! OKAY!!!! JUST ENJOY THE CUTE FOUND FAMILY STORY!!!!
les enfants:
i. am. in. LOVE!!!! WITH THIS ART STYLE!!!!!!
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THEY ARE SO FUCKING SHAPED!!!!!!
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legato?!?!?! :D :D :D :D :D
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ohhh i love this redraw!!!!!! oghhhhhh!!!!!! oooooooogh!!!!!
i love this art!!!!! i love this art!!!!!!
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EVERYBODY SHUT THE FUCK UP HE'S SLEEPING!!!!!! ohhh i love this. i like the wording too. "decided to slumber"... he's fucking eepy. he's cozy.
ALSOOOOO
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RAZLO (i'm assuming)!!! HE'S SO FUCKING. SHAPED. his GRIN!!! IS SO FUNNY. i'm in tears... i love him...
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WAAAHHHH COUCH JUMPSCARE... I DONT NEED THIS WHEN I'M EXPERIENCING SUCH JOY GUSHING OVER THE ART...
the art outside the storybook is also lovely, it's very detailed and delicate...
i would like to believe merylmilly got married and grew old together... yeah...
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DUDE, I'M GONNA CRY...... vashwood image... this is a really lovely story. definitely my favorite of all of them.
milly/meryl satellite tv:
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so they chase him around for 24 hours straight once a week... poor vash LOL
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hey hey hey hey hey this is supposed to be a silly goofy fun time why are you showing me this. i'm so sad. i'm glad the family is being fed at least.
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i always assumed that "eriks" was a name vash chose for himself but this is way funnier
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there is so much going on here
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LIVIO LMAO......
yeah that was very silly
raijin: rising:
incredibly jarring tone shift from the previous story lol... i really enjoy the rai-dei focus though. he's cool but he didn't get a backstory in the manga so i appreciate this a lot. i wouldn't mind more stories like this focusing exclusively on side characters tbh.
it gets pretty brutal... i don't know what to say about this story besides that. it's an interesting look at what could've made rai-dei the way he is.
cutting is fighting:
we're ending this not with a bang but with a whimper... swapping meryl in for the haircut scene is... blegh. whatever. and they exaggerate her crush on vash too much. like yeah she's kind of tsundere in canon (moreso in the anime imo) but she's not a teenager yknow? the satellite tv story did that too but that one was supposed to be goofy and exaggerated so it was whatever.
the most interesting thing here is the lack of dialogue. that's a fun creative choice. and i like the gag with vash's hair being too nasty to comb LOL... and the haircut options. that's all...
overall i'd give this a... 6.5/10? 'les enfants' was definitely my favorite by far and nightow's story was a lot of fun too. the others ranged from "meh at best" to "sure, it was good" lol. i liked seeing the different art styles... i don't have much else to say.
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detransraichu · 4 months
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why did i think i was trans? how did i delude myself? it's complicated.
hiya. i'm a butch lesbian woman who was confused since i was 12 year old ish and thought i was transgender -- mostly nonbinary though with some periods where i thought i was a trans guy -- up until 2022. many factors played in that whole mess that went on in my brain and my life. i'm going to be putting it ic because it's ridiculously long :') but feel free to reply etc. i hope stories like mine can make people feel less alone in these experiences and maybe help pain like mine be prevented. i want trans people to be respected while also doing what is best for society and women's rights too.
anyway. here's my story.
to preface, my feelings about transness in general -- i do love many trans people, i saw all the good parts their community has. i still think i do believe in gender dysphoria and sometimes surgeries/hrt being required to help people be safe and happy, but i think alternate routes need to be explored and we need to push for people to unpack their internalized misogyny and homophobia BEFORE they label themselves. the mix of LGB and TQ has created a lot of infighting. with homosexuality it's behavior-driven, attraction-driven, but with being trans it's an identity thing and a disconnect in the brain, it pushes you to change your body or presentation in some way, or ask others to alter how they naturally would treat you with different terms or pronouns. i think there will be more and more detransition stories like mine, the numbers will grow bigger and bigger unless something urgently happens. bc the trans community does NOT or at least VERY RARELY tells someone to slow down the questioning of their gender identity, they do NOT ever question anything, they don't look for internalized sexism in how people describe their gender, they don't do the work to unpack that stuff in their community. and that's just straight up dangerous.
so yeah. how did i get here? honestly i think part of why i thought i was trans was bc i wanted to fit in and i saw the gender euphoria in other ppl and was like wow i want a feeling like that. and honestly in my personal case it was just me having fun doing drag and lowkey cosplaying as male characters i was obsessed with in media. and my DID added to it too bc i would sometimes dissociate and feel that part of me was male or genderless and that's not bc those parts of me were trans that's bc they are a manifestation of my traumas!!! on top of my eating disorder, dysmorphia and psychosis. i really wish ppl i talked to as a teen on tumblr hadn't jumped to "omg you hate your body? you wish you were a boy under patriarchy? you have suuuch trans vibes bestie you'll make the perfect lil softboy uwu" bc then i was extremely lonely at school and at home and just felt soooo excited at the attention i felt happy to fit in, and honestly even my "dysphoria" after that was that i looked like other trans ppl and i thought they were the coolest, i just felt deep admiration. and then i'd show pics online and ppl would hype me up just bc i identified as trans. so then it snowballed into me feeling terrified to go out bc i was scared i'd get misgendered since i was visibly afab and all my friends were trans and very toxic sjw stereotype so i saw cis people as toxic and untrustworthy and i got to write angsty posts about it that got somewhat popular which i loved bc i'm a writer and i loved to fantasize and imagine a sense of justice alongside other warriors... not unlike how i felt joining into the trans community. when deep down i knew i was being the annoying little sister trying to gain older kids's approval and trailing behind lol. the first trans person i met online was this awesome trans guy who did photography and he was a good bit older and i just wanted to look like him so bad so that he would like me. he ended up ghosting me. but i was still obsessed w him so i looked up trans stuff and fell in head first without even a questioning phase :/ which is 100% on me of course! i was just a very impulsive kid and the trans ppl around me lived in this big colorful world full of identities and drama and unconditional support... but i do wish someone had slowed me down and showed me alternate paths, the path of just being gnc.
i was also like. okay i know i'm queer but idk how, but i want to be in this community bc i'm so lonely (as a baby dyke). so i looked at the most opposite identity ever and gay trans man was the furthest away i could go from myself & my gay attraction & my body & my female masculinity. i was constantly dissociated, constantly. i was living in my yaoi fantasies lol like the "perfect" romance bc it wasn't hetero stuff which had scary power dynamics, and it also wasn't lesbian bc that hit too close to home and i'd start to have panic attacks. so i avoided those, tho sometimes i'd read fanfics w a side lesbian relationship.... but pretended to hate them and not care at all. that was actually part of me accepting my attraction to women, like moving slowly over to lesbian ships in fanfics and finally seeing what it would be like. it felt too good. so then i repressed it again or only showed my lesbian attraction when flirting with men online lol. bc of course there needed to be a voyeur, otherwise it's too real and gross and bad. tfw trauma and internalized lesbophobia.
but yeah anyway me obsessing over yaoi really made me think of boys very fondly -- always boys, never men -- and feel this deep warm happy feeling in my stomach. thinking of two boys together was total equality bc there was no woman involved, so no misogyny or weird "too real" feelings. if it had a woman i'd eventually have a total freakout bc i would keep pretending i was the guy in that scenario, which was BAD bc it made me sound like a DYKE. and boys had an actual personality (bc there very few genuine complex female characters at the time so they were all dumb or mean or bland) and they could do sooo much more than girls could so they were Better somehow. but of course if u say boys are better you're a misogynist, so i wanted to BE a boy so i could talk about how much i loved boys. and i loved boys bc i admired them. i wished i could be a "more male" version of a girl. i wanted to embody maleness so that i could create myself a better girlhood. and not even call it girlhood, so it was even cooler. i didn't want to be like the other girls, who were all loser straight boy crazy bullies. or even if there were cool girls with me, they would just annoy me (bc i was always depressed and exhausted from mental illness and untreated disabilities and it made me irritable). so yeah. boys were it. specifically boys bc men sounded almost triggering from my misogyny trauma. like men are the kind that hurt you. but boys are soft and sweet and special and harmless. they're the right kind of male person. the good ones. and they have such vivid relationships with one another and are such complex beings, unlike girls. and now that i'm a boy i'm gonna be the boy with the best morals and no toxic masculinity whatsoever, just a soft little uwu bean with a soft beautiful very typically girly flat chest, like an afab person before puberty, and no facial hair of course except for maybe a slightly lower voice and less fat (i thought it was good riddance at the time bc i was anorexic lol so that just reinforced it). i had this perfect image of myself. but it was always wavering, so i would never feel fully secure in my gender identity but i also couldn't lose my grip and question that i'm not nonbinary/trans bc then i'll have to accept that i'm an afab lesbian with a boring ass female gender. and i would have to disappoint everybody, and worst of all make them look bad for detransitioning. 
but yeah.... i actually am feeling less bad abt just being a bland woman. like i don't need to be special, i can blend in and people won't hurt me bc i'm a loser like in highschool. normality and domesticity are blissful actually, like i'm Just A Girl and i'm basic af or whatever. but there's other boring, gnc girls, and they're cool but they're also in the highschool situation of being "not the kind of girl that gets asked out and family is kinda broke and not noticeably pretty and has failing grades and untreated disorders so therefore an even bigger loser." so yeah i wanted to be different. to be noticed and thought about, and go against the grain. ie, cishet normative things. usually secretly, but then at some point i came out to my family and they got transphobic but also just said gross things to me that made it so that even if i had been wobbly on my identity i now didn't trust them to talk about it so i just repressed feelings and held onto a trans identity even harder. but then i started thinking of girls a LOT and envying lesbian women. who didn't have to worry about gender stuff, and also got to be gay in a way that... suddenly i noticed could be cool too. i had never allowed myself to notice it. but then i did. and i freaked out bc i was dating someone who wasn't a woman kgdkjgk and it felt transphobic af so i just resolved myself that i MUST be trans.
i was deep in the closet lesbian-wise and my brain tricked itself bc i just wasn't ready to accept being a lesbian. i just wasn't. i've only become ready this year!! and that's around the time that my ex broke up w me (or well we both came to the conclusion that i'm a lesbian so being w them would be wrong, and that it turns out they're only into men/enbies). and then i tried to be nonbinary again bc i wanted to get back w them so bad but then i realized it just wasn't me, and i started getting comfy w gay womanhood. and i came to terms with being a single butch lesbian!!! i'm so much better now that i'm radically accepting myself. it was a LOOONG stressful upsetting journey bc i wasn't being myself. but now i am being myself. and i'm clumsy af and kinda dumb and SUUUUPER inexperienced as both a girl loving girls and also just an adult woman in general. like being an adult woman is HARD and idk what i'm doing and i'm barely scraping by and i'm so behind everyone else. but now i gotta deal with it, actually deal with my issues :/ no more internalized lesbophobia & misogyny!! society often defeminizes girls like me and takes womanhood away from marginalized women but no!!! i'm still a woman. i'm weird but i'm just a weird woman and that's fine. some girls are freaks and weirdos and something different but not the differences that were considered "cool" on leftist tumblr as whichever community is most oppressed and has the most funky flags and ultra-microlabels. and i'm sorry to say, it's embarrassing as hell. but i did fetishize transness. i did think of trans people as unironically cooler than regular non-bigoted close-minded cis people, more interesting, better morality, cooler, smarter, etc. and i wanted to make friends and trans/enby online communities were super vibrant in fandom spaces that i was in. so yup. there it is. i'm a trans faker actually, though i was super out of it during it all, i wasn't doing it consciously. i just was ignoring my true identity, being a butch lesbian woman. it's so sad that i felt the need to repress myself like this, it breaks my own heart to think about it. but i did repress myself. i was soooo cruel to myself and was bigoted towards myself. but never again. never again!!! nope sir!!!
another thing -- i think i also used having a trans/nonbinary identity as a way to have an excuse to go no-contact with my abusive family. i was told they were bigots for being vaguely supportive but confused about trans stuff and struggling with the vocabulary and sudden identity discourse, asking embarrassing questions (that i had no answers for bc i wasn’t actually trans but ofc real trans people would) when i told them i was a boy so i get to use that as a reason not to talk to them. bc otherwise they just would never leave me alone. at least that’s how i rationalized it lol. so yeah. here i am. a complete doofus, with very little bit of stubble coming out of my chin that i have to shave daily. and a slightly transmasc-typical voice. i completely blew it, i repressed being a lesbian soooo deeply even though my family wasn't even that homophobic, all things considered, so i definitely could've lived as my true self. i was just ashamed and stubborn and believed all the things in the media and from homophobes. and thought ppl would be scared of me bc the only other lesbian in school was a creep. idk. it's all so embarrassing. but there ya go.
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I wanna hear about "Noir!"
Okay. *rolls up sleeves* I hope you're comfortable, because this is a journey of epic ambition that goes through the deepest, darkest forms of denial and procrastination. For now it's contained and just passes for doable, but oh man. Like a parasite in my head it can transform into a monster at the drop of a hat.
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In its first, baby incarnation, this was going to be an FE3H fic. I had just finished playing Supergiant Games' Transistor and I was absolutely in love with the look and feel and art of it all. I had this image of Dorothea as Red, a singer who'd lost her voice and was looking for someone (Byleth). She joins a private detective (Yuri) initially following a lead on an unsolved murder (Jeralt's death) and the big sprawling city of Fodlan unfolds before them.
The Empire was an 'old money' business empire. The Alliance was an alliance of 'new money'-types with questionable and shady reasons for their success. The Kingdom was 'old money' former mafia that had renounced its former ways and was now, with the blessing of the region's church, struggling to do good but was constantly being dragged back down by its past. -- Anyway, at this point, it became a monster and I just. Cried and couldn't. Not by myself. I entertained the idea of recruiting other authors to help me world-build this, create a collection of stories that could co-habit this AU and eventually merge into a climactic showdown (Byleth is found and we decide which route the ending will take). But, again, the ambition was too great and my commitment plus activity in the fandom not strong enough. So it languished.
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But god the aesthetics! I couldn't just walk away from it. I wanted it. I needed to create something with it. And if I couldn't wrangle it into something feasible within FE3H, well, maybe I just needed to change the fandom?
So it entered it's second incarnation in a second fandom with a narrower scope. I call it: Kakashi x Sakura (Spy/Assassin Secret Society) Noir.
Prelude to the storm was my pilot run using the 2022 Wumptober prompt 'Lost Voice' and kksk event prompt 'Swapped'.
This. This was doable. This... could manifest into a real fic!
But as I tried to flesh out an outline, ambition once more got the better of me. Inclusion of any kind of Uchiha clan-related plot just explodes the story arc, you know? And anything that looks like it'll be more than +50K is daunting to even think about. I had recently lost the luxury of all-night binge writing (it isn't good for my health or sanity). So I had to shelf the idea for a year.
I'm now in a more stable and confident (accepting) frame of mind and... so what if it might end up over 50K? Or, worse, end up perpetually unfinished? It's a concept and theme I seem to keep coming back to. So one of my 2024 resolutions is to finally start writing this.
I still haven't quite pinned down the vibe of the story, but I'm leaning heavily into this cut scene from Transistor and Halsey's If I can't have love I want power album. Specifically, these lyrics:
But what's worse? / Tellin' you my feelings / Or to die without revealing / That you crawled inside my head / And set a fire there instead? / Letting all my insecurity / Devour me with certainty / That love is just a currency
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So. Yeah. Noir.
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emnemz · 2 years
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❀April pick a card tarot reading prediction❀
Hello guys! I know I am a little late with the April predictions but I thought I would make a pick a card reading on this anyway. I really hope you'll enjoy it.
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Without further due let's get right into it! Just choose the picture you resonate with the most and enjoy your reading. Happy April ♡
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Pile 1
If you chose the first picture, your 2022 April will be pretty exciting. You've got 2 aces and 2 knights, the lovers and the strength card. I think this will be the month you are going to put things into action and get some physical results. You are becoming more ambitious and responsible than ever. You will be highly motivated and things will finally feel balanced and cool. I see you have been through a real emotional storm here. You felt like people were doing you wrong and you didn't find comfort in anything. This month will make you feel self sufficient. It's time to show the world your skills and independence. You are finally accepting your true self and realize your worth. I am seeing people will have more interest in you but even though you will still stay focused on your goals. This will be a very practical month for you - and quite transformative. Good things are awaiting you - job opportunities, teachers, courses, you might be getting some sort of training that you always needed to do in order to achieve your goals. The strength card is telling me you are taking new leaps of faith and you are activating your courage. Go big this month. Be bold, dream as big as you can, it's time to be in full alignment with who you are and what your destiny is. I also see an exciting new beginning in love. I feel that the Universe is rewarding you with a new perspective on love, this will be something you never felt before. You are becoming more optimistic about your chances to win in every area of your life. Now it's the perfect time to manifest those long term goals.
There will be some challenges coming with this month. Don't be afraid, you will be handling them well. You just need to focus on your initial intention and it will lead you to your truth. I am seeing a reunion with someone from the past, I don't think it's a romantic interest but rather a friend or a relative you have been missing. This month will also be about clarity, you will finally understand why some things from the past happened, you will find the answers and it will give you comfort and meaning. Whatever you do just go forward with your life and enjoy the abundance. You know you are destined for big things. The vibe that I get from your reading is really sweet and strong, it's like a super kind warrior's energy if that makes sense. It's about someone that has been through a lot but they found themselves and they remained gentle. You transformed into a beautiful butterfly.
That's all I'm seeing for you pile number 1, thank you for reading this, I wish you blessed days ☘
Pile 2
If you chose picture number 2, this will be your reading. The Universe is indicating strongly here that there is something that you need to let go before you experience something new. The energy from your pile is giving me some nostalgia and sadness, there is something you are disappointed about, maybe something you feel like you can't talk out. It's like you are feeling trapped or stuck in quicksand and you do not see a way out. Well, first of all, this is your mind playing tricks on you. Your mind is your enemy right now but you can change that and make it work in your favor. Let go of the anxiety, look at the bigger picture and activate your hope back. Spirit is insisting here that you realize you are safe and things are alright, you just need to put it all together and start new. Don't be afraid of change. I see here you are scared of people, you are terrified of being judged or taken for granted. These are valid feelings, but focusing so much on them will only make you restless. I see a lot of draining here, insomnia, intrusive thoughts. You need to find your safe place. Somewhere you can go and rest your mind for a bit. Maybe you need to avoid some certain people to find your inner peace. I suggest you do anything that makes you feel more serene. Once you accomplish a calm state of mind things will come to you easily. You need to let go of the chaos, do embrace it but cut it out of your life gently. It's time for you to be happy and content about life. Even if you feel alone at the moment, think about all the things you have and are grateful for. Start from there, start from whatever you have right now and build from there. Make your life heaven from the small things you are happy for now. It will get easier in time.
Your advice here is to empty your head of malicious thoughts and stop thinking about the future in a worried way. Let the Universe do the work from now, is time for you to breathe and enjoy. You have done more than enough by now. You don't even see how proud some people are of you. Stop being harsh on yourself. Embrace yourself, love yourself and focus on you. Let the good things start from there. I see here someone has disappointed you, might be an ex lover or a sibling, a friend or a parent, no matter of who is that, forgive them from your heart and try to gently move on. You have your own life to focus on and enjoy. Let the worries and regrets vanish, they are no longer attached to you. I advice you do a cleansing bath or some sort of small ritual to imagine cutting all the negativity that you feel like it's attached to you, it will help you detach a lot. Forget it all now and start a new exciting beautiful life that is about you. I know it might hurt a little at first because you've been used to these feelings but it's in your benefit. Also, you don't need anyone to feel complete, you are already all you need. So, please love yourself from the depth of your heart and you have my word that once you do that, your perspective on life will be more optimistic and you will feel renewed.
Thank you so much for reading this and I wish you an amazing spring *sending happy thoughts to you*❀
Pile 3
Alright, if you chose the picture with the number 3 this month will definitely be big for you because you have got 5 major arcana cards, this is fascinating! I am seeing a huge renewal in your life. In your past I can see some sorrow and insecurities, but this will not be your reality anymore. Something tangible will change about your life, for some of you I can see you are moving houses, for others you are finding yourselves a new life partner and for others this can be a big job opportunity or career turn. Nevertheless you are making a big step in your life. You are breaking a pattern here, you are putting a stop to the toxicity in your life. I keep hearing ``moving on``. I think you are letting go of some sort of past experience that was hurting you. You are getting more open minded about life. It's a great time now to start a new hobby or do something ``crazy`` that you always wanted to. You are going to experience a lighter and easier side to life, this new life chapter for you will be about joy and relaxation. I can see here you are a very responsible, serious person. It's time to feel free again. You are not taking bs from people anymore. You've truly leveled up. People look at you with more respect and admiration.
I think that when it comes to goals and plans you are already on the good path, manifesting the right things for your soul. Now it's time to wait and enjoy the process. For some of you, you'll be getting a new car soon. Others will earn a prize or receive a random gift. Your guides are proud of you. If you are stressing over a future situation, Spirit is saying you should let go and trust the process, everything is slowly coming into balance. Let the Universe do It's work and relax for a bit. You sometimes feel the urge to control everything on your life and this is a huge stress factor. Learn to trust. Some of you are going through a spiritual awakening.
Number 2 is represented in this reading a lot, so I see a new partnership coming into your life, this can be a lover or a business partner, even a friend, but there is some sort of unification with another soul. Your intuition will be of help these days and it's going to be stronger than usual. Prepare yourself for some good news. A very specific message I am hearing for some of you is that someone in your family is pregnant. Spirit is saying that it would be a good idea to sit with yourself this month and reflect. It will help you gain more clarity about who you are and what is your true purpose. Look forward for messages from the Universe this month because you will receive a ton.
I hope you enjoyed your reading, thank you for reading and have a happy spring ꧂
Pile 4
For people that chose picture number 4, this will be your reading. First of all I am seeing that you have a tendency to ``fix`` your pain with material things. If something goes wrong and you're in a bad mood you`ll often compensate the bad feeling with shopping of some sort. I can see you are still sad over some past situation and you feel like you can't get out of it. You have isolated yourself from the world, you might sleep a lot, etc. You are very soft and gentle like the knight of cups. It's time to experience something new and break the ice. You need to feel alive again. This month you will be taking the initiative and do something for yourself. This is a self improvement month for you. I see that you were looking for answers for your problems. You've been feeling misunderstood and you experienced communication issues with other people. People find it hard to understand you because you are different. You are an artist. It's normal to be more sensitive than the average. If you look at it a different way this can be an advantage. Your deep experiences are inspiring for people to hear. Whatever your talent is, you will be known for it. If recognition of your art is something you have been desiring then this is your sign that is coming to you real soon. You've been struggling with shyness and social an*iety. Maybe that was the reason you wanted to hide from the world for a while, it might've been draining for you to be exposed. You've got the tower card, and I know it usually indicated an uncomfortable situation but this might be your chance to purge your insecurities and become your ideal self. No matter what, don't be harsh on yourself, if you don't "win" from your first try don't make it a tragedy. Things take time and that's okay, you need your time to process things your way.
For a starter, stop worrying about what other people think of you, they most likely think you're amazing and they would like to know more about you. I know it's hard to believe that but my reading is telling me you're special and you deserve to share this with the world. You have a very pleasant vibe and personality, you're kind, gentle and considerate. People admire you for your beliefs and intelligence, some people even envy you. This is random but you smell great. Be proud of who you are and people will follow you for it. Keep following your dreams and stick to the people that inspire you and are healthy for you. Always put yourself first. After this month you will be shedding your old skin and you will have become the person you always wanted to be.
Thank you for reading, I hope it resonated with you, have a great life journey ✺
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Thank you and have a magical April everybody !ꕥ
!none of the pictures used in this post are mine, they are all taken from pinterest!
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2022 BL ROUNDUP PART 2
Hey y'all, I've seen everyone doing their top 22, 20, 15, 10, and 5 BLs of the year and I didn't want to do a ranking! I just want to do a quick rundown of everything I watched and how I feel about it now! This is gonna be multiple posts! But I'll post them all at the same time.
BL Series I've watched from South Korea in 2022
Kissable Lips. I loved the series. Yea it had a sad ending, but it was the only Vampire BL I've ever seen. I think it suffered from the curse of S. Korea's standard BL runtime. If it were longer I think it would've been better and more fleshed out. Jiwoong and Seobin had excellent chemistry and even though the ending was sad, I enjoyed the overall tone of the series. True love turned out to be very selfless and partially self destructing.
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Semantic Error. Came out at the beginning of the year and still one of the highest ranking Korean BLs of 2022. It was the standard opposites-attract-enemies-to-lovers trope main pairing but it didn't feel cliche. The digital components added to the aesthetics made it feel almost interactive and I loved all the characters. Male kpop idols play both leads and their chemistry was INSANE! They've been winning awards for the series all year.
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First Love Again. It was an interesting take on soulmates and reincarnation. 300 years of waiting for your girl to return only for her to be born male and also let's throw in a sister that has the same face of the woman from the past. I think overall I enjoyed the series, the mains did have great chemistry, but one of them was ridiculously mean to the other while he figured out his crisis of suddenly being in love with a man.
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Blueming. 10/10. The best Korean BL I've watched all year. It was a coming of age type of story. It was one of the few series I've seen that actually highlights the major the kids were studying in uni. The mains had superb chemistry and the communication between them felt refreshing. It wasn't over the top, it was just a very lowkey and laid back romance.
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Cherry Blossoms After Winter. It was really interesting. The bullying in the series was insane and made me feel very violent towards high school kids. There was also the hint of a step-brother sort of vibe but it was clear that the mains never felt like "brothers" even though they were raised together in the same household. It was just a very interesting take on how childhood trauma can manifest into adulthood and also how bad bullying can get for people and also how to approach being in love with someone you've known your entire life.
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Ocean Likes Me. It was cute. Not the best and not the worst. Holland made his debut with the series and I really loved his snappy and flamboyant character. I think he and Gi Chan had great chemistry, but the plot was a little 'meh'. I think if the series were longer it would've been better and more memorable.
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To My Star 2. The reviews have been mixed for this series and I get it, but I personally enjoyed it. The angst was very angsty. They had me crying. It was a great depiction of how people act after they breakup but are still very much in love with each other. One likes to put distance between them and the other refuses to go away without a real explanation. I think people thought Ji Woo's character was ruined, but I think the way he acted was very much in character. I think people were expecting honeymoon but we got heartbreak lol. I heard a s3 has been discussed.
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Roommates of Poongduck 304. Jiwoong and Seobin's 2nd chance at main leads together. It was completely different from their first series. The chemistry was still amazing, but this series was more comedy and conflict than anything else. Highkey didn't even care about the plot (it was a good plot though), I was vibing on chemistry alone with this series. Jiwoong and Seobin are just magical together.
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