Weekend photo dump.
Balance means:
Active lifestyle - kayaking and workout 2 of c25k
Lots of veggies- ordered zoodles at restaurant.
Shared appetizers.
Cold.stone ice cream treat- tried the silk almond ice cream.
A delicious watermelon 🍉
My thought was: every choice matters.
Enjoyment matters too.... every choice, every day will make a difference.
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lost like ten pounds for no reason and im wondering if its testosterone or metformin. i know thats a not a lot considering my weight (250) but i have literally never lost that much weight in my entire life lmao, i basically constantly gained weight for no reason until i started treating my pcos. i started metformin a few months earlier, but it would make more sense since it initially halted my constant weight gain, maybe it just took a while for my blood sugar to get fully under control? when i last had bloodwork done, it'd been a few months on metformin and my blood sugar was better but my lipids were mostly the same. curious to see what my results will be when i get more bloodwork done in a couple weeks.
i also don't look/feel like ive lost any weight? ive put on a little fat on my upper abdomen, before T i had some fat on the lower stomach but my fat distribution was mostly butt, thighs, boobs, and hips, and my stomach was far from flat but relative to the rest of my body, not a lot of fat went there. if that's weight transferring from somewhere else on my body, can't really tell which part it's from cause my butt and thighs look and feel the same. think my face looks a bit slimmer, i was starting to form a little bit of a double chin before (my face was basically the last place for weight to start showing) and now the bit of fat under my chin is kinda still there but it feels like, tighter? and my face is looking a bit different, more masculine and older, but that could just be because i'm 18 and i'm still growing a bit.
anyway, whatever it is, i'm liking what t is doing for me appearance wise and it'd be nice to keep losing weight without doing anything. once i stopped constantly gaining weight and could just exist in my body and get used to it, i stopped caring so much and ive made peace with it. i still don't have the best body image, always hated seeing full body pictures of myself at every size i've been, but i'm not like, actively fighting off an eating disorder anymore. id basically just decided that every attempt to lose weight had failed and was miserable, and being fat was better than being slightly less fat and way unhealthier, so fuck it, let's learn how to be okay with what we've got. if i lose weight from T, cool, if i don't, this size is fine. probably always going to be medically "morbidly obese".
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Hi. How do I lose 100 really fast? Pls help
I already eat barely anything. It's been 48 hrs since my last food. I need it to go away. I want my boyfriend to look at me and think "wow, my gf is so hot" and right now he doesn't. Pls pls help me.
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8/1/23 in review
222 Weigh in
Meals, short lunch workout
Went to Classic Car cruise night with my friend, which was really kinda fun, got me out of the house.
Opened my eyes to the amount of gay hate in my state.
That part was sad. Really fucking sad. 😒
He got me a iced green tea from a new coffee shop, which was ah-mazing.
I also had made a peach ginger tea from home but that was gone by the time I got to his house.
When I got home, We had a long night of thunderstorms.
I cuddled with my dogs in hope to ease their stress. Poor babies. Thunder and lightening was loooong. If I didn't have them, I would have thrown open the windows, stayed up & watched.
All in all, a great day.
Losing weight is partly distracting yourself from food. It has been hard sometimes, as dieting causes people to be extremely food focused. There has to be times when you aren't eating and your mind is not on food.
That is the hard part.
Consistency
DISCIPLINE
GRIND TIME
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I need to make a more comprehensive post about this later, but I feel like we need to talk about the general feminist attitude towards losing weight and the assertion that going on a diet is the main reason someone would ever develop and eating disorder.
In my experience, as someone with an ED who has been both obese and underweight, disordered eating habits (and, in general, an unhealthily relationship with food) developed while fat is often the reason why "weight loss journeys" turn into full-blown eating disorders. The physical consequences are just harsher and more easily spotted when losing weight (compared to gaining weight) but there's a reason why EDNOS and binge-eating disorders are a thing; and why they often shift into bulimia or (atypical) anorexia as people go on restrictive diets.
This is not saying that every fat person has an eating disorder or an unhealthy relationship with food. It's also not saying that disorder eating habits and full-blown eating disorders are the same thing, or that occasionally using food as comfort cannot be healthy. But if you find yourself turning to food everytime something upsets you; to the point where it's the only coping mechanism you've developed to dealing with stress, you should carefully consider your attitude towards food and eating in general.
Are you truly hungry, or are you devouring that >5k calorie meal at 3am because it creates a big surge or dopamine in your brain? Is occasional thing, or do you find yourself doing this any time you feel emotional distress? Just, think about it.
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it's kinda weird that when you look at health recommendations for various medical conditions associated with fatness it's always 'just lose 10% of your body weight to see a risk reduction' (so like 20-30 pounds for the average overweight or obese person according to the bmi) but then in day to day medicine there's not really a way of like, removing obesity as a diagnosis on your insurance paperwork for example, even if by a certain standard you've lost enough weight to reduce the risk of health conditions that insurance would be concerned about. if you're an average height weighing 300 pounds and lose 30 pounds, which seems to be the amount that's considered reasonable to lose and maintain if you want to like, reduce your cholesterol, you've gone from morbidly obese to morbidly obese.
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I am officially 100.6 pounds down! I can’t believe I lost over 100 pounds 🥺❤️
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