ok but it’s like. my delusions feel good because they give me a greater sense of purpose in life beyond [insert everything about my real life that’s killing me here]. but they feel bad because they’re often about scary and awful things. they feel good because they give me something to believe in/look forward to. and they feel bad because the more real they seem to me the further away everything else feels. I want them gone cause they mess with my ability to function the way I strive to, but I want them to stay cause without them I’d be functioning even Worse.
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