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thatwasthenightthingschanged · 1 year

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BEJEWELED (2022): (some) easter eggs (template)

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talaok · 6 months

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Hey, I have this huge exam next week, it’s the biggest exam of my life so far and I’m stressed af. I consider myself a chill person but I’m feeling beyond anxious all the time and I have never felt this stressed in my life. It’s so hard to take care of myself rn like I don’t feel like eating but I have to because I’m nauseous and then I can’t find anything I’d like to eat and it makes me more anxious IT’S A VICIOUS CYCLE I SWEAR AND APPARENTLY I HAVE TO EAT EVERY FOUR HOURS EVERY DAY BC I’M A HUMAN??

anyway, sorry for oversharing. I was gonna ask if you could write sth with pedro taking care of stressed reader, making sure she eats and is hydrated, filing up her coffee, cuddling with her when she has crying sessions wiping her tears and telling her everything’s gonna be okay and he’s gonna be there for her with every step no matter what. I literally crave comfort right now, and I’d be so grateful if you could write something 🥹

I love how caring and kind you are with asks, thank you so so so much for being here. Love you 💕💕💕💕

pairing: Pedro pascal x reader

a/n: Im so so sorry love, im one hundred percent sure youll do great, but in the meantime, i hope this will make you feel a little bit better, love you💗💗 (this ask did skip the line bc if i posted it two weeks from now it wouldn't have made any sense)

He didn't know how or when, but all of a sudden, all you did was study.

And at first, he didn't really think anything of it, you'd told him about the exam and about how important it was, so he understood, but what he didn't expect, was just how much you'd be studying.

You raised your head only to answer him, and even when you did, it was monosyllabic.

"Have you eaten anything?"

"no"

"did you drink any water today?"

"not really"

And no matter how many times he'd tell you how bad for you that was, the next time he asked, the answers were always the same. And that's exactly why by the second day, he had stopped asking and instead, started doing.

He had conceived a whole plan of attack.

For the days when he, unfortunately, had to go to work, he left two full water bottles and a glass on your desk, and an already cooked lunch in the fridge, so that all you needed to do was heat it up in the microwave.

But on the days when he didn't have to go to work, he took it upon himself to become your personal assistant, and your worst nightmare altogether.

No matter how much you complained, he forced you to take a break at least every two hours, he made sure you were drinking the water he poured into your glass, he made you coffee every time you asked, (always only after having reminded you that you didn't need more coffee but more sleep) and finally, he cooked or ordered all of your favorite foods in the hopes that it would make you feel more like eating (which never seemed to work).

Today, thankfully, he got to stay home, so for the thousand time, he walked into the studio to check in on you.

"hey there" he smiled, watching you half-heartedly wave at him before returning your full attention to your book "I brought you a snack," he said, placing the apple slices on your desk and making a soft laugh flee your mouth.

He had turned into a soccer mom, but god it felt good to hear you laugh again.

He got behind you to start gently massaging what he was sure must have been sore shoulders.

"how's it going?"

"bad" you grumbled, relaxing the tiniest bit at his touch

"I'm sorry" he murmured, leaning down to kiss the crown of your head "you wanna take a break?"

"It's not been two hours yet"

"I know, but I think it would be good for you" he explained "We could take a walk maybe"

You sighed, closing your eyes "I can't"

"sweetheart" he cooed, crouching down to be at your level and turning your chair towards him "you're gonna burn yourself out if you continue like this"

"I know but..." you glanced back at your notes "I can't fail this exam"

"and you're not gonna" he immediately reassured you

He watched something happen behind your eyes,

"not if I keep taking breaks"

"baby-" he murmured, taking your hand in his and watching as your mouth curved downwards for the quickest moment

"I just-I'm so anxious," you said, your voice breaking "I-I can't fail- I just can't"

"hey hey hey" he cooed, his eyes looking for yours "Sweetheart, it's ok"

And that was the moment you couldn't hold it anymore, all the stress and fear you'd been bottling up for days started spilling from your eyes.

"n-no it's not, I-I... I don't even know, I just..." you sobbed, and when you looked at him, he swore he heard his heart break " I feel like shit"

"sugar..." he murmured, wasting no time wrapping his arms around you "I'm so sorry baby," he spoke gently to your ear as his hands stroked your hair and back

You hid your face in his chest as you cried all you had to cry.

"it's all gonna be alright sweetheart, I promise"

But at that, for some reason, you only started to cry harder.

"ok this is it, hold onto me"

And you had just the time to frown, before he had picked you up and walked out of the room and into the living room.

"w-what are you doing?"

"forcing you to take a break"

"I could have walked" A small smile appeared on your lips, and with it, a small wave of relief washed over Pedro's body.

"You've done enough today" he explained, sitting down on the couch with you, and in less than a moment, your whole body had clung to his.

Your left leg was draped over his, and your head was on his chest, as he held you close with both his arms.

"y/n, you're not gonna fail" he started gently "You're the smartest person I've ever met"

"That's not true" you muttered, your words muffled by his body

"yes it is" he insisted "And baby I promise you, that everything is gonna be alright" he swore, slowly running a hand through your hair "and that no matter what, I'm gonna be here for you, ok?"

It took a moment for you to respond, but after a few beats of silence, a muffled "ok" made its way to Pedro's ears.

"yeah?" he asked, again, encouraging you to meet his gaze.

"yeah" you sniffled, as you finally looked up

"Feeling better?"

"yes" you nodded "Thank you"

He tightened his hug, as he bent down, to ghost your mouth "I love you baby" he kissed you "Whatever you need, I'm always gonna be here for you"

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cashmere-caveman · 6 days

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read a post about there being next to no record abt the historic edward little again (we dont even know what he looked like!!!) and now im thinking a lot about how he died in uniform again.

hes far from the only character to die in uniform (the marines die in uniform! franklin dies in uniform!) and he isn't even the only lieutenant to do so (gore, under his slops, was in uniform; fairholme, too presumably; irving famously wore his coat that hickey steals later; george wore something that used to be his uniform when he got eaten but imo atp he did not wear it as A Uniform anymore that were just the clothes that he had on if that makes sense) but at the end, he is the only one where i still felt that it was an active choice to wear it.

almost everyone else sheds their layers along the way or turns into something else, but ned starts in uniform and he stays in uniform and that's it.

fitzjames famously sheds his vanity and dies in his shirtsleeves, without any of the pomp and pizzazz of his uniform.

jopson, another character who is to me really connected with a certain mindset of holding up appearances, dies in his shirtsleeves, believing himself abandoned by the very person that was his reason to even wear a uniform at all.

goodsir as a doctor/assistant surgeon doesn't really have a uniform in quite the same sense as many others but when he dresses himself before his suicide it is not as an affirmation of his role, or at least not a positive one. he has sworn to do no harm, but he was forced to do it anyway and now he will add a final evil to his toll of sins in the hopes to balance the scales at least somewhat and for that to work, he must wear his outfit as always. he ends up with all pretenses stripped bare anyway.

tozer, a man so proud of his uniform in the beginning, again, dies in his shirtsleeves, no rank left, betrayed by someone who had convinced him to give up everything and yet! reduced to nothing but an ordinary man, he tries again where before he had given up. he cooperates, he coordinates, he even calls crozier captain again, he tries very hard to do the right thing in what looks like a no win scenario from the get go!! and he fails, of course, but he tried.

almost everyone else also ends up either dressed down (bridgens, armitage, dundy, des voeux etc) or somehow transformed (blanky, to some extend silna with her patched and bloody furs) or in hickeys case, both (iconic underwear & greatcoat combo). little never changes. he sometimes has a little scarf, theres the bandage for his headwound for a bit, he sometimes wears the full parade uniform with epaulettes and sometimes just the regular one, there are at least two different uniform hats and ofc you can tell that he loses weight by the way his shape chages under all that wool but he is always. in. uniform.

and maybe this is just my mind making up dots to connect but i think he might even be the last character that crozier ever gives an order to in his official function as a captain (in the tuunbaq seduction/boss fight scene he has been stripped of his rank, at least according to e.c.).

before his final scene, all we get is little arguing over the orders they are given, and how to interpret them. and he is still wearing his uniform!!! wait hold on im not gonna check but maybe he might only wear a jumper in the tent where dundy lauches his soft mutiny actually, so maybe this whole post is crumbling like a domino line but!!! ignoring this. moving on. (even if it is a jumper i remember him wearing sth dark blue aka Uniform Colour so im claiming it doesnt even matter bc spiritually that hypothetical jumper still is a uniform. im not going to let anything like "accuracy" and "real details" fuck up my post smh 🙄. im joking. however! Moving On as i said)

he doesnt even dress up for carnivale! the only other characters that are not in costume are jopson and crozier and they were literally too busy keeping crozier from dying to even begin thinking about joining the communal arts and crafts session! little is atp the acting no2 of the expedition so u might say he was busy but fitzjames has the overall command and still finds time to have a little gender moment in private and the imperialism-approved version of it for the Big Crowd!! (u could ofc argue that fitzy Always has time for a gender moment and who would i be to argue but my point is: i have no doubt that man was fucking busy preparing carnivale & beginning to prepare the walkout and there still was time to Express Some Character!! so how come ned didn't do anything?)

the one other scene we get where we can catch a small glimpse of characters out of their element before it all unravels (pre tuunbaq attack on the camp) is the scene at night when morfin gets shot. it shows lots of characters in various states of undress (silna big blanket burrito i love you) that allows us to see them differently, like their costumes at carnivale did, but in an entirely opposite direction. while carnivale was about putting on masks, this scene is about taking them off. and it drives me insane because i know that little must be there. he is somewhere in the crowd when morfin gets shot but so far i havent been able to make him out and i need to know what he is wearing so bad. it is actually for science (my own curiosity) ! i really need to know. and i cant help but feel that maybe it is intentional that he is just ~somewhere~ instead of In Front of the Fucking Camera because, well. that would be just ned little, wouldnt it? and we dont even know who that is.

#edward little #the terror #can u tell i got my brain fried by working on our research project paper all day until we finally turned it in at midnight #we met at 12 and didnt leave the library until it closed and then we went home to one of the members and continued working there #and now i am still sitting in the hallway from when i came in through the door even thought its past 3am bc im just so done #nothing left. no energy no braincells no filter. which is why u get this unstructured wordvomit #and i try to find the strength to get up from the floor so i dont fall asleep here. okay goodnight #cavetext

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gyarucoded · 6 months

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quick loki preview bc i have fallen down the rabbit hole since i have nothing else new to watch

the way loki used his magic was such a serve omg

i'm still in love with b-15 ♡

i appreciate the subtle humor, the jokes in other new mcu contents (minus the guardians of the galaxy) annoy me but here it's well balanced yet funny👍

when brad said "playing dress up" to loki idk what he fully meant but my mind wandered to teen loki switching fem presenting & borrowing [stealing] frigga's clothing to try them on for funsies n shit (i used to do that w my mom's wedding clothes as a child 2 lol)

when brad was messing w/ loki he had the opportunity to do the most suicidal thing ever and add sth like "who isn't even your real mother" after bringing up frigga (bro would have gotten ANNIHILATED Ijbol)

the slap was so funny & satisfying at the same time. i didn't saw it coming but i love this side of mobius

this ep's genuinely the most TERRIFYING loki has been in the mcu. in the chase scene and both of the interrogation. i absolutely support it idgaf !! he was more intimidating then he was in the first avengers movie which says a loooot

when loki mentioned the new york incident that was either lazy writing or babe got brain damage cuz i am pretty sure when he was mad at thor & odin that was in new mexico?? when he sent that metallic shit down or wtvt💀 to prevent thor from returning. but i forgive only because he mentioned tony lmfao

i love seeing sylvie finally being content. even if it was thru fuckass mcdonalds. i hope she won't be reduced to the "weird love interest" cuz her chara has potential and you can tell she's tired of this bs as well...

another episode of sylki being forced, toxic, keep disagreeing with & avoiding each other with rather tense chemistry instead of a romantic one they supposedly meant to have & being one sided as hell. their "romance" makes zero sense in this series' context & i could go off for longer regarding this topic but i'll save it for a seeperate post, later!

o.b & casey are so wholesome

bro i'm starting to ship lokius i think? (not in a fetishzing way i just like their dynamics and they just both happen to be dudes/male presenting) cuz i am sensing romantic & soulmate-ish undertones. sad that disney is a coward to make it canon...

overall i loved the 70s-90s vibes they seem to be going for. this show deffo has the best aesthetics we've seen in marvel phase 5 so far and i can't wait to see what's coming next.

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ilikerosesalot · 10 months

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So, akito's colorfes card has finally been released!! And alot of things have been said about it but I have noticed a little detail that has yet to be pointed out by anyone. So! after talking abt it a bit on my insta acc I decided to make a proper post on tumblr. This will have mild spoilers for his fes card story do if you haven't read it and don't want to be spoiled, this is your ticket to hop off!!

Jumping right to it, this is what akitos framented sekai looks like: a dry, withered zone where plants can't grow

But, as the story progresses with akito and the kagamines exploring this area, this scene takes place:

A dandelion can be seen growing through the cracks on the dry land. A flower known for its ability to grow just about anywhere. The implications are ovious, and even if it didn't hit you at first, akito himself notes his feelings are akin to this flower sucessfuly blooming in the desert.

There's alot that can be said and analyzed about this card, but for now I want to look at sth else. Specifically, these lines ena sings from "Jackpot Sad Girl" and "Composing the Future" respectively:

Do you see it??? the place refered to in jackpot sad girl, the description ena specifically uses for that place, and how in composing the future, ena explains her feelings by comparing it to trying to make a flower bloom in an harsh environment. THAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT'S RIGHT!! Whether intentionally or not, akitos fragemented sekai perfectly matches the descriptors used in those two n25 songs. More importantly, lines specifically assigned to ena. This is yet another instance of the shinonome siblings paralleling one another. As someone who loves both of them dearly and has been brainrotting abt their parrarels for MONTHS, this makes me insanely happy. Idc if it's a stretch, I'm adding it to my shinonome parallels folder. Anyways, thank you for coming to my TED talk, I hope you have a wonderful rest of your day!! Have this meme before I dissapear to the darkness

#This is the first post i made thats this long i hope its good erhforf #anyways tags:#project sekai #prsk #prsk analysis #akito shinonome #shinonome akito #ena shinonome #shinonome ena #shinonome siblings #i love me a good dose of shinonome parallels #rosierambles #this time it rlly is a ramble lmao

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theyandereonmyoji · 1 year

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Myoji-san, I'm so happy you're writing for sth :D !!! thank you for your lovely works - the quill petting one was so adorable and nicely fleshed out. Still can't get over Shadow being low-key needy for pets and finishing work earlier for it... I also hope your day is going nicely. I was wondering if I could respectfully request a love triangle hoho ( Shadow -> MC -> Silver ) ? I'm wondering how you'd write these two competing for the time & affection of another. If this is not something you'd like to write I completely understand, though I do so look forward to any of your future posts :･ﾟ☆

Rivalry: Yandere Shadow the Hedgehog and Yandere Silver the Hedgehog

Awww thank you so much! Don’t worry, love triangles are totally allowed! Also, I have to say that a couple of people have been asking for Silver content, so I’ll probably write headcanons for him really soon. Anyways, hope you enjoy! CW: mentions of potential murder

These two couldn’t be any more different at first glance. Shadow is the overly stoic type that keeps you at arm’s length (or tries to anyways, doesn’t really work as well as he thinks it does) and Silver, a hedgehog who’s somewhat naive and wears his heart up his sleeve, especially when to come to how much he loves you. However, they do have something in common, and that’s they will do anything, and I mean anything to keep you safe. These two have just suffered too much, one watched his best friend get murdered in the past, and the other was born in a future that was ruined from the start, they just want to have someone they can hold on to in the present, and that someone happens to be you.

Shadow’s more closed-off nature makes him a bit jealous of just how openly Silver can express his feelings towards you. The fact that you two are able to share so much with each other, that he can get so close to you without a care in the world, it’s something that Shadow wishes he could do, and loathes about the time-traveling hedgehog. He has come to terms that your relationship with him could never be like that, and he’s willing to do anything to keep you safe, no matter the cost, yet seeing how Silver has the same resolve as him and can allow himself to stay close to you, he loathes it. If Silver knows any better, he should stay away from you, lest he wants to be considered a threat to your safety.

Silver is willing to admit that Shadow is the stronger one out of the two, and he can’t help but envy a bit how reliable Shadow can be towards you. It doesn’t matter how big or small the issue might be, he’s not only willing, but also able to help you with literally anything. It makes him think: If you have Shadow in your life, then how could you ever spare a single glance at him? He wants to be your hero, yet how could he ever be if you had no need for someone like him? One thing is for sure, those thoughts are not going to stop him trying his absolute best for your sake, and who knows? Shadow might be a lot more dangerous than you think, so why go to him when you got Silver? He will never leave your side, ever.

You know how there’s that stereotype that girls pretend to not hate each other in front of others while giving each other death glares in private? Yup, that’s them. It all seems so normal while you’re around, hell, they don’t seem to mind that the other is there. However, the moment you have to go to do something and leave the two, they’ll start confronting each other. Shadow will state how inexperienced he is and that how could he ever keep you safe if he can even beat Shadow in a fair fight. Silver would get angry easily and point out how dangerous Shadow can be towards you with his dubious moral compass and that out of the two, he was the one that tried to destroy the world.

Stuff would rarely get physical, and even if it did, you would never find out. Obsessed with you as they may be, they’ve silently agreed to never involve you directly into any disputes they might have, whether it is one-upping each other in their efforts to have you pick them over the other, or just throwing hands in a good-old fashioned brawl. You might notice the small signs of their rivalry, like Shadow giving off Silver a smug look when you ask him for help, or Silver giggling towards Shadow a bit when you let him hug you, but it’s rather subtle and when you try to question it, both of them will go out of their way to deny any of that, even covering for each other sometimes.

Honestly, I see this rivalry going one of two ways. Worst case scenario, things will escalate so badly that they will eventually fight each other to the death, with the winner being able to live out the rest of their days alongside you. On the other, and most likely scenario, these two might be able to set their differences aside, and focus on what is truly important: protecting you at all cost. Rivals as they might be, they both are man enough to recognize that the other hedgehog has something they need but severely lack. They both want what is best for you, and even if still argue about who’s doing they job better, at least it’s a scenario where no one dies…you will have two overly powerful, protective and possessive hedgehogs though so good luck with that.

#yandere #yandere sonic the hedgehog #yandere sonic the hedgehog x reader #yandere x reader #sonic the hedgehog #sth #yandere headcanons #yandere shadow the hedgehog #yandere x y/n #shadow the hedgehog #silver the hedgehog #yandere silver #yandere silver the hedgehog #request #green tea

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lostacelonnie · 7 months

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how would honkai 3rd play out if otto was wearing cursed long shoes that gave him an ungodly urge to kick people on the ass and he had to fill a one kick per arc quota and he couldnt take the shoes off because he was cursed into liking them

FIRST OF ALL this is literally my favorite ask i've ever gotten so thank you. second of all i hope you dont mind how chaotic this is but i literally wrote everything down exactly as it came to mind, didnt proofread before posting, and also i barely remember half the older arcs. third of all this is a long post so readmore blast 💥

where dreams began + the end of destiny: im sorry but i genuinely dont know what he was even doing during this time. im just gonna say if any anti entropy personel was caught by schicksal they were just unfortunate enough to be the victim.

under the falling sky: you know that scene where he fucking shoots hua. when shes Not Quite Dead Yet he kicks her to add insult to injury

from the deep ocean: once again, i have zero recollection of what he was doing. does he even appear on screen? oh wait yeah in that one bubble universe where he has an orphanage or whatever. good lord i have no idea who that guy would kick. weren't theresa and children the only people there? oh i dont remember this part of the story At All. wait wasnt there a scene where joachim got mad at him or sth? for killing his father? well there you have it. out of character for that particular otto but it's time for a child to get punted

a shooting star streaking across the night: clueless. any suggestions welcome. perhaps void archives gets it, as it is the only one consistently around otto

elegy to yesterday: during world serpent's attack on the divine key testing site, otto Sees His Chance and disguises himself to infiltrate the battlefield for the sole purpose of kicking someone. all the valkyries present know its him bc of the ridiculous shoes but frankly they dont care bc hes a good distraction

here lies bellflower: yet another arc i dont remember. just like, In General. other than the parts bianka was in [yes i am a parody of myself] and the general gist of what happened. so idk </3

taixuan dream: he kicks senti in self defense. moments before being strangled

remaining flames: not really in this one is he. WAIT ACTUALLY NO wasnt his consciousness attached to some random HoD puppet to get the core???? then i guess he just kicked another one and nobody cared bc HoD puppets are just Like That

thus spoke apocalypse: as recompensation for all the confusion earlier, he gets to kick a lot in this one. first of all the false god otto boss fight is different, adding an attack. The Kick. second of all, while fighting in the space near the imaginary tree, he can finally kick as many of them as he can

following his death, afterlife-otto has to defend himself from the angry mob of all the people that died because of him Somehow. and so he gets to kick people until someone inevitably steals the shoes from him in order to reverse the roles. this goes on for eternity. The End

#asks #Do I Even Tag This.#yeah i will #honkai impact #otto apocalypse

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erosuguru · 10 months

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Desecrated sanctity

Headcanons, Priest student!Nagi studying under High priestess!Reader and becoming plagued with unholy thoughts, characters are 18+, brief Reo cameo, 700+ words little proof reading

CW: NSFW, Religious themes but no specifications, masturbation, sexual fantasies, Nagi is a creep (reader doesn’t know about Nagi’s affections)

Notes: finally wrote sth for Nagi after writing 4 fics and it’s a headcanons post I’m a fake fan sobs but enjoy

The monastery you had given your life to finally recognized your efforts and you’ve been blessed with the position you’ve yearned for the moment you were admitted in said monastery; High Priestess.

It was a difficult shift from student priestess to high priestess, but you’ve adapted to a schedule after a few weeks and established authority.

As a high priestess, it was your job to bestow your wisdom and guidance upon your students however there were a group of promising disciples who were given the honor of learning up close and personal, your requirement is to prepare them and give them an advantage in their teaching, all this in case harm would come to you and someone needed to step up.

There was one of your apprentices who you could not understand, no matter how much he slept in sessions or dozed off he always passed whatever test the monastery threw at him, you knew him as Nagi Seishiro.

He was always seen near your best student, Reo, although it seemed like Reo was the one attached to their odd friendship. You couldn’t understand their bond but as long as one doesn’t fall back due to the other you remained an onlooker and refused to interfere.

Nagi was second best and he was satisfied with that, he never even aimed to become a priest, his parents left him to his own devices at the monastery frequently which resulted in him being admitted into the student priest program.

He found himself growing an attachment to you, and not in an innocent admiration sort of way

Whenever Nagi would hear you command his colleagues or whenever he would be in a position where you expected obedience from him, he felt excited and he couldn’t understand why.

Until he had an eye-opening dream that made him realize why he feels this way toward you. It was Lust, fueled by a yearning love.

These dreams and thoughts plagued him more once he identified the festering emotions, he heard the same thing happen to people of his position before but the only difference they shared is that Nagi wasn’t disgusted by himself as they were.

He enjoyed the warm tug at his heart whenever you said his name when you looked in his direction

Sometimes when he passes by you in the halls, he has to keep his calm as he takes a long silent whiff of your scent. You abstained from wearing any perfumes as it would go against the extremity of purity taught in the monastery yet he still does it every time hoping to catch your natural scent.

If only Nagi followed your example and stayed close to those teachings, if you knew what he thought of you, you’d tell him how much of a terrible apprentice he is and reprimand him until the shame finally settled in him but you could never know.

The way he stares at you with those emotionless eyes, a lustful glare camouflaged by a listless gaze. Nagi knew that if you caught wind of these hints, this behavior, he would be punished severely.

The threat didn’t stop him from caressing himself in the silent privacy of his room at night as he thought of you in the most debauched ways his mind could conjure.

Nagi thinks of you in places, his bed, the altar, the confessional booth, your office, hidden behind the decorative structures in the garden away from prying eyes but never from holy eyes.

He think of how you would sound cooing his name so sweetly in his ear as opposed to the stern and powerful voice you used on a day-to-day basis, he imagined you’d squeak and stutter if he was ever blessed with the chance to have you on his dick.

He fists his cock in accordance with the speed of his pace in the fantasy in his mind, one hand trailing up his stomach to cover his mouth so he won't get carried away as he imagined you in any way he could. He imagined you riding him, and if you got tired he would gladly pin you down and fuck you until he was sure you were filled to the brim

When Nagi finally bursts from the self-given pleasure, his clarity is regained he doesn’t feel ashamed nor regret, he only cleans himself up lazily as he hopes tomorrow would come sooner so he can see you again.

#nagi seishiro x reader #nagi seishiro #nagi seishiro x you #bllk x reader #bllk x you #bllk x female reader #blue lock x you #blue lock x reader #blue lock nagi

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suguru-getos · 2 months

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Oh. INTRESTING. I just realised I should think about self ships more 😭 but okay here we go 😎

my self ship would be with Suguru. Definitely. Not the cult leader tho 😭 just a little rewind right there. You see the high school Suguru? Yeah cool. I only claim him.

>>> How would be better like when I'm off?

It'd definitely hurt him too with me. (because that's what I've seen with people around me, you know when that loud and bubbly one goes silent ?! Even though you know they'd be fine it's just so ouch. As if something's missing. Yeah, my personality is more or less like Satoru, he's ENTP I'm ENFP. which by the way, did you know? Fits INTJ in compatibility better hehe yeah I see him as a threat so what? 😤) and since his rationality is something I"d value, he'd have to do the tougher job of being my backbone rather than getting away with just sympathizing and giving me rational and "harsh truth" perspectives when I come to him with the problem that's bothering me. He knows if tries to be soft with me or bullshit me with sympathy I'd see it right away. So that.

>>> I HC our relationship to be such that it makes everyone jealous because he's definitely smiling and laughing around me more (not because he's smitten or sth, because I'm his personal clown ✨). That's what I am about most of the times. Hyped up over the smallest things. Hehe.

>>> Jealous. Huh. Interesting. I'm a women in stem, and you must know how the ratio is always so heavy on men"s side. So naturally I have a lot of them hitting on me at all the points of time. 😂

>>>And another thing is, I'm an extrovert socialising with people all the time so he might be annoyed on how to get my attention on him out of all the other people i hangout with (Again, not my words 😂😭) little does he know he has all of it since day 1. But that'd be only an issue before we get together, because he'd never know if I view him differently/romantically or not 😭 because "you're this energetic with everyone. How am I to know?"

>>> I and Satoru would definitely always be bickering over how he lets me get away with spam texting but not him. Hehe. Suguru's reasoning? "You're annoying, she's not *shrug*"

I say I don't think any self ships but then I go on full on spam mode (I hope you don't mind it, if you do please be honest about it and lmk like "I just asked for headcanons not a ONESHOT you idiot🔪) somehow wow😭 but yeah. That's how I see it, sunshine x grumpy (kind of?) Trope.

(Which made me think, neither of us actually like yapping about ourselves too much so we'd just be having hours and hours of discussions about different topics. The quality time discussion is a love language kinda couple. )

Now YOUR TURN. *hands over the pen*

lmfaoooo why not the cult leader sugu? he has such a dominant rizzly energy my self ship revolves around him and i’d bark like an animal for cult leader sugs 🙇🏻‍♀️🥹

-> also that’s so cute omg?? i am an intj/entj hybrid so i love myself enfps 🫵🏻 they bring such a lovely vibe around. (my irl best friend is an enfp) & i’d die for her. <33 suguru would love you so much, you’d be his breath of fresh air & when you go down, so does his existence. i hc him as super empathetic to people he cares about, so if you’re down, he’s rock bottom. :33 hello 👋 another stem major here’s your crown 👑 gorgeous ‼️ i’ve graduated in 2022 from stem so i know how the life’s like. 😉 suguru would be disgustingly jealous fr fr you attract everyone with your positivity.

-> suguru would definitely appreciate your bickering with satoru & blabbering. it would make him feel good that two of the people he loves the most are talking/being together 💋

grumpy x sunshine is my favorite troupe so this post made me intensely happy. 🪷🥰 also, that’s alright for the long post, only made fun of how people can see a character so similarly yet so differently!!

-> as of my own self ship headcanons, i’ll post them cus i’d yap more than you istg 😭 he’d love when i wear a saree tho ‼️🙇🏻‍♀️

#•share your selfship headcanons with me•#geto suguru #geto fluff #jjk #jjk fluff

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k-s-morgan · 11 months

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Hi Katrin, i hope you're safe and okay. do you have time and mood to read anything? if yes have you found anything good? your tomarry pinned post is from 2019 so i wondered if you have sth new to recommend!

2/2: also i wanted to again extend my invite - if you ever want to take a break from war and have possibility to travel (i remember that it was difficult before) feel free invited in Poland, i can host you:). might sound weird coming from stranger, but i'd like you to feel safer at least for some time, i cant imagine living in war all the time:(

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Hello! From the new-ish Tomarry stories, I read and loves these ones.

The Art of Falling: demon Tom and angel Harry. It’s so interesting, smart, and dark in places that I fell head over heels.

That Deathless Death universe is brilliant, too, and while it’s so long already, I lament that it’s not finished yet. This AU story has a very complex and detailed world-building, focuses on many characters at once, which is usually not my favorite thing but I enjoyed it here, and it has a fascinating dynamic between Harry and Voldemort. It also feels magical from start to finish, there is so much soul in it.

Holly & Yew is about Harry and Tom growing up together. I love this trope and this story ticks so many boxes! Dependency, possessiveness, love, plenty of interesting situations and events. I also really enjoy how the author treats Harry’s attitude to magic. His love for it is palpable and it gives everything such a special atmosphere.

Aurora Polaris is a captivating story that I was reluctant to read at first, but it's done by one of my beloved authors, so I gave it a try. I fell in love very quickly! It goes AU after Voldemort kills Harry in the forest. Harry instinctively wanted to take care of that ugly shard of soul, and he ended up nurturing it instead, which sparked the most deliciously obsessive bond between him and Voldemort.

Also, thank you so much for your sweet offer! It means more than I can express! I do plan to travel to Poland this year, just to have some rest during my vacation, and meeting with friends would be amazing!

#tomarry #fic recs #personal

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moneytrixxx · 1 year

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Hello! I was wondering if you can share your honest thoughts about Jack’s relationship with his girl Toriii. Imo, I find what they have confusing. It seems like a long situationship.

Hello :) So I've been getting messages for quite some time now about this so I hope I make myself very clear.

Me personally - I am very confused also. I had to get filled in on the whole situation because I had no idea what people were talking about. Umm..with that being said..at this point whatever they are or aren't having is just fucking embarrassing. For both of them. I am EMBARRASSED for them. Okay, yeah.

We don't have any information on anything. We are only guessing what happens behind closed doors.

And I've started to have very mixed feelings about Jack as a person. Because he gives these strong male vibes, he claims to be an alpha or whatever but when it comes to actual situations in my opinion he just seems insecure af. And very messy..like the fact that he ain't addressing shit is messed up in my eyes like really? you care SO much how people view you? you give THIS many fucks about what people think of you? if this really your "main chick" or whatever, the fact that you are so comfortable with her looking like a complete idiot in the eyes of so many of your fans and the public in general, is very concerning to me and it shows a lot about you and who you really are as a person.

As far as this girl..she a mess.

I've always said that women are their worst enemy. This is one of the very reasons why.

Who in their right mind would willingly be somebody's booty call? Who would let another person have that much effect and control over them? Like girl go and take care of you children wtf? In what world are we living in guys? How can you (a grown ass woman; 30 sth years old) ditch your children somewhere and go have fun with some rapper in a hotel? This shit crazy.

What's even crazier is that none of that can be happening. And she just post all this random shit trying to start shit, trying to keep his fans busy or like engaged in some way. And once again this shit weird af. She be pulling some real desperate shit. Like the most recent one - posting on her story that she was wearing that one shirt with lil nas x's face that Jack wore to some red carpet in 2022. What are you trynna do? And who are you doing it for? You are putting yourself in a such a shitty position, pulling some shit that even the teenagers don't pull nowadays. I can't imagine how Jack has to feel if that is the situation. But yet again if I am uncomfortable with someone being in my space - they are not in my space.

At the end of the day in my eyes she is not a worthy woman and a mother. Period. Girl has no fucking self respect for herself. Jack has no respect for her and apparently for himself if he really be fucking everything that moves near him.

If I ever am treated by my man like that, girl he ain't my man. He ain't even a men. Nobody deserves to be treated that way. And nobody should settle down and be fine with that. But she clearly don't give a fuck if she keeps coming back.

And that is across the board.

#anon

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borom1r · 25 days

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I'll be honest, I don't know much abt lotr, but!!! for the text game you're putting together, what has been your favourite date and/or route you've written so far? + as an addition, if you'd like, what are things you admire/love abt any character of your choosing? (I hope you're doing okay bestie, I'm sorry you're having a rough night 💖)

haugh thank you dude i am. feeling more grounded now (and my hand stopped hurting so i Didn't actually burn it, yayyy) but gods that was bad for a hot minute

ummmm my favorite thing ive written is probs tied between Éomer's 2B date (go to a celebratory bonfire w/ him) because there's a lot of silliness, it's just very lighthearted + cute!! or Faramir's first date?? it's actually hard to pick a specific date bc Faramir is just very fun to write. I adore him so much lol — his first date's a little library meetcute and you get to give him a kiss on the nose and listen to him be So autistic about Really Old Texts (it's what he deserves)

uuuuuuuuuuu well u know as a Boromir Guy. a certified Boromir Enjoyer. Enjoyer of Boromir. there's just. oagh theres so much. I was rewatching th Osgiliath scene again for reasons (quotin it for sth i think) and the way he behaves with Faramir vs how he behaves with Denethor is so. im DERANGED i need to sit down w/ Sean Bean and talk abt Boromir for fucking hours. the way he prepares himself to have to speak w/ his father, the disbelieving shake of his head at Denethor's "I know his uses and they are few" line about Faramir. the "one more moment of peace can he not give us that" line. "the victory is Faramir's as well" and he's grinning, his nod of encouragement, motioning Faramir over because he's RIGHT and Faramir's achievements deserve to be recognized and they're fighting fucking FORCES OF MORDOR so how could he possibly blame his brother for Osgiliath falling? they reclaimed it and they're alive and that's cause for celebration! im so.

Boromir son of Denethor seeing the best in people. when he could so easily and so understandably be completely fucking pessimistic. He is ON THE FRONTLINES he would have every excuse to be a bitter jaded asshole having grown up with the sole purpose of being a soldier. he lives only to serve!!! and he lives watching the people he is supposed to safeguard suffering and dying, watching the darkness of Mordor spread with little hope of vanquishing it, only keeping it at bay for a time. it has been long since he had any hope!!!!!! and yet the victory is Faramir's too! his baby brother who he is so proud of, who he sees the absolute best in, who he longs for Denethor to see the good in too because Faramir is trying his absolute fucking best and Boromir sees that!! Boromir, who sees Merry and Pippin's determination and takes the time to coach them in swordplay when others would have made them stay behind. they're only hobbits, after all. what could they do? (quite a lot, naturally, but it was Boromir at first who empowered them to be more than just tagalongs. who thought they should be more prepared and took the time and energy to make sure they were.)

there is frailty in men but there is goodness too. the world is cruel and awful and he is surrounded by violence and death. and even a wizard like Gandalf can die. but there is goodness in men. goodness in the world!! Minas Tirith is on the brink of disaster but it is beautiful and he longs to return. even diminished, she is beautiful!! and he wants to share that. he wants to share Faramir's victories. he knows firsthand how horrifically cruel the world can be but he sees the best in the people around him and he wants others to see it too. ARGH!!!!!!!!

ALSO. ive talked abt it in another post floating around somewhere but while i do love book!Faramir i think he is. kind of a nightmare person. in that he has some Deepset Prejudices that he Needs To Unpack. smacking the shit out of him with a cardboard tube.

and while i thnk there are valid criticisms to make abt movie!Faramir i do actually GENUINELY adore that he is tempted by the ring. because on one side of it, his temptation mirrors Boromir's in that it is done out of love (desire for his father's love and approval vs Boromir's love for his people) and that he overcomes it. because that is Boromir's Baby Brother and isnt the goal of it all for the younger generations to surpass the older? isn't the hope that Faramir would learn from Boromir's failures and be better? not repeat them? and he doesn't. he is flawed and he is tempted by much the same thing and yet he does not fall!! and that's not to say there's any Legitimate moral failing on either of their parts because its the fucking One Ring, but i think its just. very poignant. I genuinely prefer it way more than the book where hes all "I would NEVER take the ring!!!"

but he also has his whole "boromir died well, achieving some good, and was even more beautiful in death than in life" thing and that gets into the spirituality of middle earth and the layers of Weirdness there which im not abt to unpack on this ask. not a fan of it in the slightest. shaking Boromir's hand for being rebellious against god tho i would be too if i was living in that whole fucking sitch. if the only thing my brother could say was "idfk if he fucked up or not but he was more beautiful in death than ever so ik he died a holy death, which is preferrable" my ghost would start throwing bricks.

also, having movie!Faramir fall prey to the ring when book!Faramir is like this. paragon of grace and goodness and holiness who Cannot be tempted. idk i think especially with Aragorn grappling with his humanity and frailty as a man, having Faramir Also be tempted is sooooo. like. augh!!! it is not a failure to be tempted. you can still be Good and Gracious and Lordly and a Paragon Of Men. he is Still Faramir even though he fell prey to the call of the ring. he resisted. he let Frodo go, putting his own life at risk in the process, because he is still a Good Man even though he is flawed. even though he almost didn't. movie!Faramir my beloved!!!!!!!

LASTLY ik ive talked abt this a couple times but it is fucking DERANGED to me that Éomer is only twenty-eight in TA 3019. HE SHOULD'VE BEEN IN THE TAVEEEEEERRRNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#kept doing dishes after and it hurttttttt so the whole time i was like 'shit i hope i didnt Actually burn it'#still kinda tender but Not Burnt #im insane abt Éomer he lost his parents he lost his cousin/adoptive brother he lost his uncle/adoptive father. he gets EXILED and is forced #to leave his sister with a man he knows only has ill intent for her. who has been corrupting his uncle's mind.#AND HES ONLY FUCKING TWENTY EIGHT????????????????#Éowyn shouldve been at the club too dgmw like she is not exempt from this im just a faggot and Éomer is hot so uh. yknow #like faramir was in his mid 30s and boromir was in his early 40s. theodred was the same age as boromir #and aragorn's in his LATE EIGHTIES.#Éomer King. the fucking BABY of the group

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I think i will post sth just to tell people that this account isn’t die (yet) 👍

This year I watched a lot of stages and every stage made me feel like i can see myself when i was young. That personality had long lost from my memories but watching butais… i came to remember why i’ve always love “the stage”.

It can’t be changed that i lose desire to stand as a performer. I ran away from my past but i knew one thing: i never hate “stages” and i’d never be.

I love lightings, bgm, decorations, and every single movement of stages. I just… love them so much. I’m more than 100000% sure that i no longer suitable to perform but… you can’t deny your inner thoughts, right? I love stages and i still do. Butais proved me that.

I wonder what im gonna do in the future. I do have plan but it’s not like sth that i can do now so maybe i need more time. I asked myself every morning whether im doing fine or not. Everyone around me seems to be happy since they got to do what they wanted. They’re tired but fulfilled. They got their own “thoughts” while i’ve always acted according to what my parents wanted me to do. I didn’t think about my heart much since i didn’t have another choice other than obeyed my parents.

I’m tired of everything, but not the stages i’ve always being told to forget it.

So… i wrote this because i’m happy to know that at least i’ve my <own> thought. If Shu wanted Mika to live as a doll like my parents told me to do what i must do, my life back then should be considered as a doll as well. I did tell myself that it’s okay to abandon my feelings as long as my parents still love me, but in fact it wasn’t. I realized later that my heart has been broken into countless pieces which i can’t even fix them. I just gathered them together and continue my daily life because my parents told me i must not abandon my responsibilities.

In enstars, Shu wants Mika to become human while Mika starts to learn how to love a human-side of himself. I can related to that. I mean, my friends want me to stay true to my feelings and my life is my life. I can do whatever i want that it won’t trouble others. Somehow… watching these butais made me understand myself more than before. I threw away my imagination and dream to satisfy my parents, but i know now how much those fantasy precious to me.

I just want to say that i’m happy to see a lot of people start to love watching butai or stage play. There are soooo many of us who have lost our ways but you might found sth laying deep within your heart by watching stage plays. No matter how much i want to say thank you, it won’t be enough.

I hope lots and lots will open their hearts and watch stage plays. Its magic can turn your whole life though! 🤣

I’m mumbling nonsense once again but i guess no one read my blog so maybe it’s fine(?) hahahaha

If any of you want to talk to me, no need to feel scare and send me a private message! I don’t think i’d get notification fast enough to reply instantly but i promise i will answer every single thing you asked.

Truly, my pastel little world right? ;D

P.s. EVERYONE PLEASE LISTEN TO HAJIME AND SHUN NEWEST DUET BECAUSE ITS AMAZING

Ryouhei-san is just… (　˙-˙　)(、._. )、(´；_；)ノ♡ haaaaaaahhhhhhh T T

P.s.2 You need to use VPN to login into Spotify and stay connect until you decided to stop listen! If you live outside JP and your account is premium, you can’t use that account since they knew that we’re being an outsider. It’s fine to use some of your leftover-email to login though. Just don’t forget that your VPN must stay CONNECTED!! 😂

Now go and listen!!! IT’S A MUST!!!

Light & Dark (Hajime + Shun duet)

When I got a chance to watch TsukiSta 14 rabbits kingdom, i promise that im gonna be crazier than today 🧐🙏

#pastel mumblings #tsukiuta #tsukista

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anime-grimmy-art · 2 years

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In one of your recent posts, you mentioned a “tinkerbell au” what’s all that about?

Oh, yeah, Sunny, Fae and me talked about a fairy/tinkerbell AU, in which we made our gals into certain fairies. I think we made up, like, 3-4 different "movies" so Imma just ramble bout what I remember XD

Just so you know, I literally have zero knowledge about the Tinkerbell universe, so if some ideas sound inconsistent with the fairy lore, then just know that this is me retelling bits of a convo I only understood the context minimally. XD The idea was along the lines of the fairies living on an island and the twins shipwrecking onto that island. I dont remember if we added the Ingo amnesia bit too, but the bulk of the story is the twins discovering the fairy world while the gals help each twin find the other.

I don't remember if this was part of the same story or after this part, but basically Volo is the stand in for Captain Hook, and he's in search of some fairy artifact that lets him get close to Arceus or sth. Instead of threatening them, however, he plays nice and tries to win them over to willingly show him everything. Daki, being kind of discontent with her life, springs at the opportunity for things to just change and helps him out even though she knows he's suspicious. But she double crosses him in the end when she's convinced about the importance of family. Lani freaking sinks his ship and Volo vanishes into the jungle that is the island.

The last story I remember is a natural catastrophe happening and the island losing its magic due to some natural force dying/wilting. The fam goes on an adventure to find some magical artifacts/cures based on legends, but kind of hit a dead end. When all seems lost, they seek out Volo who's still somewhere in the jungle, as he has the knowledge needed to find a solution. Kind of a redemption arc for the man, ya know. By the end he hadnt joined the group yet but the animosity vanished and the're definitely on speaking terms. (daki definitely visits him a lot lol)

some other context stuff i remember Isla is a garden/flower fairy that is heavily involved with the community and knows most of the fairy lore. So in the stories she'd probably be the one to talk to if it was about legends/infos about the island. Lani is a water fairy that is way too strong for her own good, she can literally sink ships with her powers. Def the muscle of the group. Daki is a tinker fairy that desperately wants to be an animal(/pokemon) fairy, so next to her normal inventions she builts armor for the pokemon. You know, make a rideable set for Joltiks so she can ride on Toothpick, that kinda stuff. We also joked about her making the HMs and TMs for the pokemon to learn. Ingo and Emmet are exploreres who get shipwrecked on the island. They're really good with map reading and directions, so they'd always be the guides/leaders of the group that bring them from point A to B. I think we also did keep them as good pokemon trainers, so they can interact well with the pokemon of the pokemon fairies. Volo, as said, is the stand in for Captain Hook / a pirate. He's on the search for magical artifact so he can potentially open a door to Arceus. So, like in pla, he's very knowledgable about myths, legends and runes. He'd be able to give more context to the fairy legends that Isla know about. Yeaaah, I think that's all. Just a lot of ideas thrown around, nothing concrete, but hope these ideas were still interesting to read!

#ask #pokemon legends arceus #submas #au #tinkerbell au #fairy au #rambling

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one-hell-of-otaku-is-here · 7 months

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Link Click and SG connected? part 2 - spoilers + I rant a lot

Ok, so now that I have finally watched the last episode, I can return to my previous post and elaborate more after getting all that info. Ok so now I know that CHX is ok but we know that LQ somehow saw LG watching CHX die which ofc shed find weird because he made out it- But nono you see I think we fans can agree on that Li Tianxis ability was accurate and she was able to see LG basically time travelling to save his bff. Yet we actually still dont know how many times LG travelled to that moment and if he ever did it before events of S2 and possibly s1 BECAUSE LG WOULD HAVE BEEN ONLY ONE TO KNOW... that is until this time because LT saw, but she died, and idk how she gave that info (among others) to LQ. But we also dont know what LQ knows now. So my theory is that yes it wasn't just this time with QJ (thank god he's in jail btw that fight was intense). So either way, everything I said in my previous post makes sense. Now I just know LQ knows, too, and even more than us prob. Is this gonna get tackled in next season? well idk but i dont think shes gonna say anything - shes still shaken with that info dump (kinda reminds me of how Sigma got infor on Fyo in BSD AHAHHAHAHA fucking pararells are insane).

One more thing, there's one more evidence that LG travelled multiple times. HIS EYES LOOK SOO DEAD LIKE THOSE ARE EYES OF DEAD MAN OR MAN WHO HAVE SEEN A LOT - mainly his bestie to die so many times. I really, really wonder how he's able to reverse, but Ig that comes with knowledge of events... Btw if you think why my connection with SG still holds - remember Link click is still not over. We got a new hat guy who's brother of that awful blonde guy from s1 and now brother LT joined him. He also has some weird tattoo so he's part of some organization - prob people with abilities who can influence time or sth and he wants to change time. Our gang aka phot studio dont anf they are certainly gonna come face to face to this guy WHICH MEANS THAT LG IS GONNA HAVE HIS MOMENT WHERE HED HAVE TO MAKE SOME CHOICE -and that choice may be either to save CHX or not but either way hed loose just like Okabe at the end of SG. Still, I trust devs and I know that CHX is our MC obv and CHX is gonna have to learn about time travel and would also have to choose to do sth. AAA I really cant wait for the next season(s) and hopefully we get flashbacks on how these two boys met (and i hope for that aborad trip they took in the past like STH HAPPENED THERE).

Anyway... its been a while since I ranted about sth like this but time travel stories are my passion and they are so fun to talk about. If you have any insights or noticed sth I missed (Im only human I could overlook sth because a lot happened there) pls dont be shy to comment. I'd like to get corrected lol. Peace out for now lol

#link click #shi guang dai li ren #i have this season 10/10 on mal idc this was the best and most emptional season after BSD and im glad i found it #cheng xiaoshi #lu guang

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May I request some Armin x reader angst based from your old Mafia au post? I just love it sm :D

what we were once. [a. arlert]

sypnosis: a sad look into what has become of the once fearful mafia commander after he allegedly killed his one love.

warnings: fem!reader, severe depression, getting drunk, mentions of killing, graves, cemetry, crying, suicidal thoughts, poison, memories and?? lmk if i missed sth

notes: to the anon who requested this, im so sorry and thank you for waiting so long :( hope you like it bby

w.count: 815

Tick tock, tick tock.

The time goes on as he lays in his bed. His shirt shriveled. Hair out of place. A wine bottle he had emptied out lying at the foot of his bed. If anyone had to see him right now, they would’ve refused to believe this was the same commander who had shot down 13 men in under three minutes with ease.

It's another one of his depressive episodes. And who can blame him?

After all, he had killed the one and only woman he had loved. Or would ever love.

It was just supposed to be an act. A façade, so he could bring your family down. So he could bag another win to give him some short-lived contentment in his corrupt life. Only to lose and never recover from it again.

But you were so pretty. So delicate. Yet so strong. He should’ve known he would never deserve someone like you. You would bring him hand picked berries, straight from your favorite farm.

He would sit in his office chair and eat the berries as you talked about your day with a smile carved straight from the depths of heavens. Now, the feel of that same chair and sight of berries make him want to tear down his skin with his own nails.

He was never good with hand to hand combat. And when you offered to teach him your own moves, he had never been happier to be such a loser in that field. You didn’t hesitate to put such a powerful commander to shame with your fights, and it made him go giddy with emotion.

His head is filled with you, you and you. You are everywhere and nowhere at the same time. He just wants this to be over. Maybe he should’ve licked that same poisoned glass you drank from and succumbed to doom along with you. But, it wouldn’t really be his doom. He would gladly follow you to the graves if you asked. His ruination, his doom is only when you’re not with him.

Sometimes he wants to laugh. At what has become of his life, of him after that cursed day. He remembers the look on the perpetrator's face. I had to. I am sorry.

The one who had poisoned your wine glass. He could almost hear her say it, imagine it. Only that it was only in his mind that she ever apologized. Armin hopes the cry that left him that morning when he held remnants of his love in his arms, haunts Mikasa every night. Just as the image of your pale skin and lifeless eyes haunt him.

They never spoke after that day. He wouldn’t ever leave his office except for emergencies and she wouldn’t make any efforts to meet up with her commander either. Any eye contact made in hallways would be disregarded and her mouth would go shut anytime he would appear.

Armin and Mikasa’s friendship now exists only in memories and tell-tales. Just like your and his story.

The only people to attend your funeral along with Armin were Eren and Levi. They hadn't said a word and he doubts they knew what to even say.

Armin blames himself equally in this. He knew what would happen to you. He knew it all and still promised to give you all he could.

He promised you of huge, never ending salvia gardens because you loved salvias. And he has loved salvias too since then. He promised you of an intimate wedding in Italy’s lovely Lake Como and a happier life.

Now, he just laughs thinking back on those times. He had successfully managed to bring you and your family down. And himself too.

Armin blinks up at the Murano chandelier hanging above his bed. You used to love the design of that. He also remembers that his window overlooks your grave in the family cemetery. And he also has your favorite red dress still stored in your closet. And an album of your childhood pictures which he collected after the raid at your family mansion. Oh, and he has the ring he wanted to propose to you with still stored away in his safe. Perhaps, he should consider shifting rooms. He can’t bear this anymore.

All of this makes him cry. A choked sob leaves the man. Then another one. And one more until he is wailing. He buries his face in his shaking arms and cries more. More until his head hurts and his mind shuts down for the night.

Outside his door, a certain black haired woman stands guard and listens. Listens and doesn’t realize her own eyes are wet in mourning. She misses you too. You don’t know and will never know that she loved you too.

That night, all the walls and people of the mansion stay haunted by these cries.

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