#(which is impossible. but still you'll have to threaten to sue before they'll accept that a neurodiverse person can be trans) | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

bowithoutadaemon · 1 year

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Just sat down to do the thing I've been putting off, call the place about a thing.

They do not have a phone number. They have a form were you can tell them your phone number and the 4 hour chunk of time you want them to call you back. .... I hate this.

Guess I am picking the 3 hour chunk I'll be most likely to be awake all days next week and have a shitty, anxious, exhausting week next week until they call me on a random day at a near random time.

And today instead I'll buy groceries and meal prep over the weekend. Or I know I'll not eat until the phone call happened. Because my ability to prepare and remember to eat meals while extremely anxious is non existent...

#like for some stuff i like this because even if you don't have money you can still get om a call with the service center #and also you don't have to listen to hold music #but.... for things i am anxious about? mentally preparing for a thing that MIGHT happen in a 3 hour chunk SOME day of the week?#that's so much harder to prepare for than a maybe 10 minute happening when i choose to call #and this is why i need to get my mastek done. then i can get more diagnoses and maybe anxiety meds #but rn my insurance will take literally any reason to question if i am actually trans and if they actually need to provide medical care #(like i can not even talk to my therapist about adhd/autism because my insuranc has a history of wanting those things cured)#(which is impossible. but still you'll have to threaten to sue before they'll accept that a neurodiverse person can be trans)#(3 month or more of being abroad or in hospital also makes them reset the 2 year wait time they have)#(a wait time that officially has been abolishes btw but individual insurance can try and make people do it #(ok rant about my insurance sucking is over on this only mildy related post about being anxious xD )

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