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CA: TWS Anniversary Ficlets

Daily ficlets for the CA: TWS 10th Anniversary Event @catws-anniversary. With Huge thanks to @sparkagrace and @cable-knit-sweater for running this wonderful event! 💞

In his bed, in the middle of the night, and all alone, Steve wakes up to visions of Bucky falling. Over and over. A recurring nightmare.

(A memory.)

Inside the walls of a museum, during dedicated daytime hours, surrounded by dozens of people, Steve watches Bucky smile. Over and over. A looped bit of film.

(A memory.)

On a lotta days, seeing those forever persevered few seconds of his life helps. There are days it's soothing — a concrete reminder he can hold on to. There are times he uses the bit of film to prove to himself that happy moments and better times were real.

But.

But on other days, watching that smile take shape is somehow more painful than waking up alone in his too-big bedroom with visions of Bucky falling behind his eyes. There are days when Steve watches and all he can think is about those happy moments being long gone. Times when all he can think is that'll he never see, or cause, that expression ever again.

There are days when it's like a repetitive stab to his heart.

But then, sometimes.

Sometimes, he stares at the looped footage, and he lets himself recall a hundred other smiles. Sometimes, his brain draws up images of mornings in Brooklyn and the way Bucky's smiling mouth had looked only inches from Steve's own face, and —

And that hurts, too.

But Steve replays it in his mind, anyway. Over and over again. A moment from long ago.

(A memory.)

(Ficlets Tumblr-exclusive until all are complete.)

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