okay want to preface this that the new ancient breed I genuinely like so much more than the other recently released ones (the sandshark guys + the moth alien ones, edit: completely forgot about grass snakes bc they were so mid to me). The design feels very cohesive/strong to me AND weird in a way we haven't super had yet with the headshape (BALD!!!) + limbshape (those huge+few claws <3). like this isn't just Tundra2 but bigger or coatl2 but it's more snake-y.

HOWEVER............ they literally coulda been moderns. like pllllsssssss no more ancients with the 2-wing 4-leg format bc I'm just gonna look at them and wish they are moderns so I could dress them. Like design coulda been vastly improved IMO if they got isopoded-up and just slapped 4 more legs on that thing, imagine legs on the tail section that woulda be great. think they also coulda made it fatter bc we haven't got a fat breed in so damn long but that's also my bias.

love how with many divorced ships we dont actually see the divorce so we have to imagine how badly it went to get how they arrived to where they are (or leave the details to the void for the fun of it) but with feihua we actually see the divorce on screen, it’s literally the FIRST thing we see on screen and it’s a MESS of a divorce and then we see their first interaction post-divorce 10 years after and it would make no sense for any sane person to go from this point A to that point B, but they do. they do and that’s why im insane about feihua

Earthspark Shockwave, Earthspark Grimlock and Earthspark Optimus accidentally hurting their Cybertronian SO (very badly)while they're under Mandroid's control.

I couldn’t manage to think of anything for Shockwave, sorry. For anyone who doesn’t want to be spoiled, both have a bit of spoilers- so it’s up to you if you want to read.

(TFES) Optimus Prime & (TFES) Grimlock with a Cybertronian S/O that they hurt while under Mandroid’s control:

Optimus Prime

{After everyone was brought back, there was a long moment of relaxation and an explanation for the Prime and the others as to what happened- when Optimus realized that he hadn’t seen you yet.}

{He went searching, and it didn’t take him too long to find you- you were back at the Malto’s. While you did leave with the others after the whole badge thing, you ended up returning- not knowing that a controlled Optimus (or the others) were going to suddenly awaken and attack.}

{He’s... concerned- why wouldn’t he be? When he gets closer, he can actually see all of the damage, which includes some missing limbs. Although... you’re alive. (Well, you just got brought back along with the others, but he wants you to stay that way).}

{He’s immediately trying to help you (it’s an unfortunate time to not have an actual medic), while trying to keep you awake- which includes him asking what happened/who had done this.}

{When you manage to point at him, Optimus frowns, and his finials lower. He never wanted to hurt you, but he was under control, he knows that... but it’s still upsetting- your his lover, he’s not supposed to do that, to anybody.}

{When you’re in a much more stable condition (somehow, despite them not having a medic), he’s already been visiting you before and after you wake up, the others included every now and then.}

{While recovering, you two will sit and talk- about the recent events, and other things. You’re quick to tell him that you forgive him, trying your best to reassure him.}

{Cuddles every now and then while recovering.}

Grimlock

{When he wakes up again after all of them get saved... he immediately remembers what happens. He couldn’t control himself, but he could still hear and see everything that’d been happening- like your screams.}

{He’s always been terrified of hurting others for one reason or another without meaning to- including you- so he doesn’t really take it that well.}

{When you eventually wake up, you’re repaired well enough, and in the little medbay. Some of the others are with you, but you don’t see your Conjunx.}

{That changes, though, when you watch Elita 1 leave, and shortly return with Grimlock, who must’ve been off doing... something, he seems upset, but you don’t say anything, not yet, at least.}

{Even when you do start to say something the first couple of times, he simply brushes it off, telling you that “I’m fine”, or something along those lines, and changing the subject.}

{Eventually, you figure out that he’s... scared that he’s going to hurt you again- he may not be under that control anymore, but he could potentially still do it from another reason.}

{You sit there with him and have a gentle talk with the Dinobot, just trying to reassure him.}

she’s so incredibly real for this 😔

Ventrue don't fuck because we have higher priorities than pleasures of the flesh.

“Eternal. Infinite. Immortal.”

If you’re interested in the process video for Control Ending, it’s on my Patreon >.>

If you still wear a face mask in 2024 (in countries or regions where it is/was not a prevalence or norm before covid), what do you tell ppl when they ask you why you still do it? 😅 ngl I be having smartass remarks. Esp toward the ppl it irks unreasonably?

Waiting for Permission to Be Sick - Input Requested!

So, I got officially diagnosed with two chronic conditions last week. And the doctor explained to me the details of how these conditions affect my body, and what kinds of symptoms to look out for, and what I can expect life to look like going forward. And I got prescribed meds, and given detailed instructions for when to take them and any side effects I might experience and what to do to help myself feel better if I'm not feeling well, and all of that.

And I just. Haven't done it. I've started taking some of the meds, but not all of them, and like. There's no real reason for me not to? I'm just. Not doing it. Like I've looked up some products on Etsy to have like. Emergency medical info with me so that if I randomly black out or faint again in public, someone could see me and have info know what to do. And I've been looking at pins that say "I have an invisible disability" and aaaaaaaall sorts of stuff. Basically just window shopping for my chronic illness starter kit. But it's been over a week now and I haven't bought anything, and I seem to have convinced myself that I can't start taking my meds until I have all of my Items sorted out and prepared. And like -- there are some actual reasons for this, such as my schedule has been all over the place and my meds need to be taken at multiple times a day at certain intervals, and some with food and some without food, so I need to be able to have that stuff ready to go even when I'm out and about.

But I'm not. Actually doing the work to get everything sorted out and ready? I'm just window shopping. And today, I have been very tired all day because of the rain and because I did too much yesterday, and my head has been hurting because I'm still not over my concussion and I also probably did too much today, even though honestly all I did was go to one class and observe the whole time, and read a couple of emails. And I thought to myself, "well I guess I should take tylenol for my head, and I guess I can give myself permission to do that since my boyfriend is busy and can't tell me to take care of myself --- oh."

I have been waiting for someone to give me permission to identify as chronically ill! Even today I was like "I feel like I've managed to convince myself that I feel worse than I actually do, and I'm actually fine." Even though there would be no real reason for me to be doing that. And like. My head actually hurts! I really did and still do feel tired! And I've seen my test results, and I know that I have a chronic condition. It's been medically confirmed by a bunch of different tests, and multiple medical professionals have been like "yep you've got something wrong with you" (though using more professional and kind words, of course). All of this to say -- I have been waiting for someone to tell me that I am ill and it is chronic and that it is okay to spend money on taking care of myself and things that will make me feel better, even if it is only temporary like the excitement of buying a new pouch that says "This Bag Is Full of Drugs" specifically to keep my medical supplies in, or something to help keep me safe going forward like a medical alert key chain. The only question now is -- what do I do about this? How do I give myself permission to need help or extra accommodations or even just some medication when I never want to admit that I need or want help? I'm so used to being self-sufficient and doing everything by myself that I don't know how to be okay with more problems.

Has anyone else experienced something like this? What do you do? How do you learn to be okay with the fact that your body is not going to go back to the way it was before? I am only 22 and it's hard to accept that my life is not going to look the way I pictured it when I was 18.

going to the barbie movie tonight to see luke mullens singular line <333

Some relatives are moving across the country and as a goodbye dinner we’re going to a seafood place and I am so not looking forward to it

the thing about the cruciatus is that it's just PAIN. we have this general idea from canon that if you're under for too long, you lose your mind, but we don't know how long 'too long' is, or whether it's cumulative or if you can recover and have a blank slate, or if there are ANY long-term effects from going under once. it doesn't leave scars. it won't kill you. it's just pain for the sake of pain. i think it's much more impactful, both for a story and for a character, to use torture methods that the character can never, ever forget experiencing

The English language desperately needs a commonly used pet name like “my treasure”. So we can translate my favorite aria more effectively

That nice feeling when you're stuck between a show that wants to be progressive and its fans that are ready to call you racist or homophobe for any criticism to it and its vocal detractors who only really care about making a scene about "wokeness" being the bane of civilization, couldn't really give any less of a shit about Castlevania, and are often ACTUALLY racist and homophobic

bro i just wanted to play the funny games about kicking a vampire's ass i never asked for this :(

part of the root issue I have with romance BookTok (there are actually 67 parts of the root issue) is that so many people seem to be reading romance novels strictly for very literally hero-worshipped heroes

--they either don't want them to be flawed or ignore their flaws entirely

--heroines can (and should) be pure cardboard, because she's not supposed to be dimensional, she's supposed to be a self-insert for the reader

--there is no VALUING the cringe hero moments, the "I'M A MONSTERRRRR" histrionics of a scarred hero, the over the top ghoulishness of a PNR hero, the pure unadulterated "woof" of moments like a hero being left for good~ while he vibrates with pathetic fur or otherwise completely fails in a grovel maneuver or whatever

I feel like heroes in many of these BookTok faves are devolving into figures that are less distinct characters than they are amorphous blobs who show up to say things like "babe" (the "Y/N" of BookTok) and deploy the goods in mid sex scenes

Warriors: Go. To. Bed.

Me: No.

Sky: Sleep is good for you!

Me: I know.

Time:…..Insomnia or anxiety?

Four, raising an eyebrow: More like stubbornness.

Me: IF I DON’T GO TO BED TOMORROW WON’T START OK??

Four: Knew it.

In other shows for Mabel and Theo to ‘want to be tied to each other’ it would be dark and twisty and done at least in part to reflect the heroine descending into her more violent nature. It would be so easy to do that!

Instead, they bond over shared pain, and the smiler situations with Zoe and Bunny, but not before they bond over coffee and arcade games and solving a mystery. The trauma is there, it’s a part of them, but their lives are more then the worst parts of it.

It means so much to me that, despite everything, their relationship is centered in fun.