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transboysokka · 4 months

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hey i just need to make this post so i can link to it as like an about me/faq

just so i can have some info about me that's not like all up in your face bc who cares honestly but also so that dummies can read about who i am before sending "dont post about autism if youre not autistic!!" messages, u feel?

not that i get them a lot but i would def get them a lot LESS if there was a post like this to refer to

okay hi lets see

i am gay

actually im on the ace spectrum if u must know, thank u so much antidepressants ive taken since i was 7 years old...

i am trans (ftm)

speaking of trans i am legally male but am not able to change my name and have not yet transitioned medically in any way despite having socially transitioned almost a decade ago

ive known i was a boy my whole life because thats another question people asked i just got Very Good at repressing it

i am white!

yes i am a whitey who lives in taiwan, that is because i am an immigrant!

i have lived in east asia since 2018 and plan to be in taiwan forever

i AM... originally... from the US.... ughhhh fuckkkk i know righttttt

i do not identify as american lolololol

actually i dont identify with american culture in general because i wasnt there for covid and life kind of carried on as normal over here during covid so there's like this huge cultural divide between me and other americans now

i mean i dont identify as taiwanese either lol bc that would be... wild...

ok anyway

i am autistic

what else have i been diagnosed with lol astigmatism i guess

i have clinical depression and anxiety lol love that for me

i am colorblind

i have fibromyalgia and occasionally use a cane

i have a bunch of other learning disabilities and a bleeding disorder but jesus christ you dont need my whole life story

ive had ARFID my whole life and it gets dangerously bad sometimes and im also recently "recovered" from anorexia lets hope it stays that way

i was raised evangelical christian but now i have Trauma about it

im still spiritual and am somewhat involved in buddhism

i have trauma about family issues like a shitty dad and fucked up siblings and parentification, all that jazz

i am fluent in english and spanish but my mandarin is actually not that good (like enough to get around obviously but i cant read and write like at all)

oh im a teacher and im trying to finish my masters #privilege

idk what else is interesting

i travel a lot ive been to 15 countries

i grew up between the US and guatemala, i lived for a bit in cuba as a student, and I lived a year in china before i came to Taiwan

ok bye have the day u deserve

#lmfao the fact that we have to do this shit on this site is just....#yeah feel free to ignore this lol

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lazulian-devil · 7 months

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For all the SP people:

Ive started Phase 2 (I wont spoil anything) and its genuinely... theres genuinely so much good there? Like. First of all. A dramatic increase in Queerness™. And I mean absolutely visible Queerness. Not anything implied, full on LGBTQ+ stuff, right there. I know people dislike Never but I fucking love Never. Is it weird that Savant and Melchior are technically the bad guys? Yup. But is it cool to have the "I did it for my spouse" trope in gay? Also yup.

I love Omen! Omen is cool. Omen is so akward and I love him for it.

Also, Militsa. Yas Queen. Get yourself a girlfriend.

But reading all these books in such close succesion, theres some real bullshit here as well. The Abyssinia reveal completely takes the energy from Skulduggerys struggle. Steals the gravitas. China is just... yeah. Its a little much. Tipstaff? Hm. I love Sturmun Drang for being vocal but I also know how it will end with him and its weird going into it all that China is just a dictator at this point. Full on magical dictator. There are so many semi-fascist government ideas existent in SP now? And I know thats kind of the point, but I dont know if I wanted Magical Fascism and the whole race debate from the 19th century just vibing in the books.

Then again, Im never a fan of that.

Anyways, just needed to share. Almost done with Book 11!

#skulduggery pleasant #Skulduggery Pleasant phase 2

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yoonyia · 3 months

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I'm reading the shadows series and I'm also learning about World War 1 in school and I'm gonna be so confused in class.

like yea I'm studying the past future and present wars, yea one is fictional I get it, but my brain is not gonna be able to differentiate them when I start doing rapid word association in the middle of a discussion and someone is gonna bring up the name Peter some how and I'm gonna go on a 2 minute explination of the hedgemon till I realize that I just started ranting about bullshit. I'm gonna be crying in the corner because I know I'm better then this, I studied a lot of history, especially political conflict (mostly korea but plenty of world conflict too) I spent 3 months on world War 2, I can deal with world War one, I can study this, I can talk while NOT confusing it with a litteral BOOK

but no im lying I cant

one time I was describing the history of my fictional world to my friend and my teacher (who dosent know history) thought I was describing real history and was impressed by it. SIR I WAS IN 6TH GRADE, WHY DO YOU THINK WE WOULD LEARN ABOUT THE DETAILS OF NUCLEAR WARFARE AND HOW UNDERGROUND MINES LEAD TO A NATIONAL LAND INSTABILITY ESPICIALLY SINCE TRAINS PLAYED A BIG ROLE IN TRANSPORT AND WAS THEREFORE HIGHLY AFFECTED WHEN SOMEONE SET OFF A BOMB IN THE UPPER MINES ALCOHOL PIPING SYSTEM. AND ALSO ABOUT POSSIBLE DEAD MAN ZONE CONSISTING OF NORTH KOREA AND THE BORDERING AREAS OF CHINA THAT WAS SOLD TO SOUTH KOREA BECAUSE THE LAND WAS NO LONGER USUABLE AND ALSO TO CREATE A PEACE TREATY SINCE THE CHINESE AND SOUTH KOREAN (united korea) GOVERNMENT HAD TO SHARE A BORDER NOW. WHY WOULD I LEARN THIS IN SCHOOL TEACHER, YOU GAVE ME ENDERS GAME TO READ YOU THINK THAT WOULDENT PERMANENTLY MESS WITH MY BRAIN, YOU THINK I WOULDENT GET GEOPOLITICAL AFTER THAT.

This is why I know I will combine all my knowledge of history in a jumble in my head. Last time I was at school I talked for 4 minutes untill someone realized that it wasent real and that I couldent lie in a class discussion, IM SORRY I DIDNT EVEN REALIZE

no one here wants to hear about my 9 year old selfs excessively detailed history and political system for a world about gay rocks and fire people.

(also yes I have very strong opinions on my home country that most people over the age of 40 would blaze me for, even planned a story called "첫눈과 벛꽃" (first snow and cherry blossoms) that critiqued the countries attitude towards ending the war or at the bare minimum making relations with the neighboring country. I was going to write it this summer but then the jekyll and hyde hyperfixation consumed me and now i lost the motivation)

Anyways im hoping no one reads this cause I really just needed something to yell at before I went insane

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wubwubnparmaham · 1 month

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we, your ever devoted readers (not even a lie), tend to come to you with stories about what kind of real-like encounters we've had or moments where we put our historical knowledge to use that we got from your story. but i wanna know, has that ever happened to you? did you ever have a moment where love endless knowledge came in handy? tell the class heehehe

oh my GOD BEST QUESTION. BEST. QUESTION. wow. this is like a press conference dream type of question. i have one sparkling example, but it's likely there were a few along the way that didn't sink into my memory as deep. but i'll carry this one forever, cuz it's so funny to me

answer below

it was myyyy third? year? of college? maybe. sometime in college for sure, and i had an archaeology lab class i was taking and there was a guest speaker/professor who came on Zoom to basically advertise his OWN class, since it was new in the course catalog, and it was like this historic sort of etiology class that was all about studying the plagues of the past and how to study bones for proof of pathology and disease, and blahblah, and it was during the 2020 pandemic, so shit like that was in everyone's mind.

WeLL! *claps hands

There was a point where the black plague came into discussion, because of course it did, and he gave a bunch mumbo jumbo about it and i remember him mentioning that the spread of it originated in asia, which im not gonna lie, was a bit surprising to me. so i raised my lil stupid ass hand, and he called on me eagerly, and i said *cue hermione granger voice "But sir...isn't the black plague just another resurgence of the much earlier Justinian plague that wreaked its way through the Mediterranean and Europe?"

and he clapped his hands like i'd sung opera and was like yES it IS PLS TAKE MY CLASS. and i had no intention of doing that so i just giggled like a dame, but he was like floored that some rando knew anything about the justinian plague, even to name it, and he quite literally begged me to take his class multiple times because of that little blip of knowledge i had. and it was like no i'm not actually smart and this is not my special interest; it just so happens that my gay characters, they lived through that shit, that's all haha

he eventually explained exactly how both the justinian plague and black death outbreaks started in china and india / nepal area via genetic uhhh tracing of what is it, Y. pestis? and like where it traveled and stuff from there, and i learned a lot, but yeah.

there's me answer. i've had this ask for a quite a while, so i'm sorry, but it's the perfect time to answer it now because *drumroll my 2020 chapter is next in line

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fagsex · 7 months

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cléo is such a snitch... now all of china knows im gay

#emergency broadcast system #imaginine me scribbling over the mulan screenshot

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chim-chim1310 · 9 months

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Basically Jk was on live, and the live ended but all of a sudden, he came back on live and Jimin started commenting saying “I’m awake”. Ya’ll can’t convince that this wasn’t about the media coverage Jimin got in India and China about Hybe treatment over his album. A mutual of mine lives in India told me that media coverage were comparing Seven and Jimin’s album treatment and it’s like it was making Hybe look bad. I know ya’ll don’t want us to talk about this but I’m not buying any Jikook interactions. The last time Jimin commented on JK’s live, he told him to reduce the drinking on his live and Jk told him rudely to mind his business or something like that. Jimin just said okay, “Jk can do whatever he wants because he’s a grown man”. Jk then proceeded to make an instagram live with Tae and they started flirting. I remember Jimin receiving hate for that. A lot of Trashkookers started mocking him. And that was the last time Jimin had commented on his lives. Jimin likes Jk as his brother because he said Jk reminds him of his brother but I don’t think Jimin a very mature, smart guy can settle for someone so disrespectful and childish like Jk (that’s very disrespectful of people that think so low of him). Jk is very disrespectful that the members have also talked about it. Im glad his true colors are starting to show. We all know that Jimin is a very private guy that’s why to this day no one knows where he stays, He hasn’t been in any relationship scandal and yet Jk has been caught multiple times although the company denies (you can’t convince me that Jk didn’t have anything with the tattoo artist because those pictures of him back hugging her were so intimate but anyway that’ll be a conversation for another day). Jimin is very private that’s why he always does his lives from Hybe not his home. Why would a private and respectful guy like Jimin be flaunting his “gay” lover (Jk) everywhere. To the point of flirting with him when millions of their fans are watching. They know what the audience wants. I refused to be a shipper because I’m not easily manipulated. The way Jk is doing back to back lives lately trying to create a no boundary relationship between him and his fans is also a manipulative and calculated move. Now the whole fandom sees Jk as their best friend. I see some armies also saying that “This guy loves us so much that he even lets us see him almost naked in his bedroom”. I can’t stop but feel pity for them. Jk always said that they have to ask the company before doing lives because there has to be someone supervising, but he comes on lives like “rebel” telling us that what will the company do? Hybe knows that bts might not come back as a group and we all know that allegedly, three members haven’t signed the contract. Hybe wants Jk to be their pop boy and their next money making machine, what other way to do that if the fans and the Pop boy don’t have a Bff relationship? Now you can’t say nothing about Jk and don’t get death threats from armys. I saw someone making a whole ass video on TikTok wishing death to solos that attack Jk. Hybe also knows that this whole criticism Jk is getting is mainly because of LC, and to prove the fans wrong, we have to get Jikook interactions and many more are to come. Now whenever you try to criticize Hybe and Jk armies will say that but Jikook are besties they even flirt on live. Anyways these are all my opinions and thoughts. Ya’ll can celebrate Jikook interactions as you should but I’m not gonna do that. Jimin has always been happy, he’s been taking private trips and dinners with his friends. He was even in Jeju a few weeks back and Jk was busy chilling with Woonga. It’s not Jk that makes him happy. We all don’t know how truly he’s feeling because him being private, we’ll never know. No one in their right mind would be happy with all the things that have been going around. He worked days and nights for his album and a song that was just handed to Jk just comes all in the name of breaking all his records. I know he’s not happy about the situation and other members aren’t too.

Dude everything is not so black and white.

I understand your opinions but I think you don't wanna look at things in some other way than the narratives that you've created in your head.

There are so many things you've said that I don't agree on. You can have your opinion but I don't have to agree with it.

I heard about the article in India and China and honestly I was so happy. I hope this get more media coverage in other countries too. This bitch company, Hybe should be exposed.

Side note : Sorry but tkk insta live had chemistry?! Pffttt. What?! You call that chemistry?! Sorry I just had to laugh at that. That was the most bland live ever, Jk was more interested in bam, taehyung was just staring at the scene, they even talked about the weather at some point i think lol, the whole live, it was crickets.

I understand you don't wanna ship jikook, I don't anymore either but in order to not ship jikook you don't have to waste your brain cells into accepting that tkk ever had chemistry lol. I'm sorry i just had to say it. But it's ok it's your opinion what can I say.

Now back to the serious topic....

I agree with you about jk creating unhealthy para social relationship with fans. It's gonna backfire one day.

You're right hybe might try to show jikook agenda because of whole like crazy vs. seven thing. And I think that whatever they recorded in NY is the damage control you're talking about.

But I don't think this live is it.

It just seem very random and candid to me.

And if we go according to your damage control theory then why would jimin comment so enthusiastically? If hybe is doing something against jimin then why would jimin be an active participant in that? It doesn't make sense for jimin to comment if it's gonna harm him. You think jimin is that naive? Jimin was the one who commented and the comments didn't looked forced at all. He seemed cheeky, cute and flirty, he was having fun, I missed this jm so much. So no I don't think it was damage control. And if it was damage control then why would jimin cause harm to himself by actively participating in it?

To me it was just another one of jungkook's random lives at random times and jimin decided to comment on it because he felt like it. It's not that deep.

I know we are bitter towards jungkook but come on do we have to be so bitter about everything? I'm kinda tired of being so negative all the time. When jk or some other members say or do some stupid shit then we can call them out. Like we called out jk's recent interviews, yoongi's recent comment on jimin.

But I don't wanna make things up and then be negative about it. You can if you want to but please spare me from that. I'm kinda going for a positive vibe now. Let's please talk about good things until something big happens.

And for the last time anon, sometimes things are just not that deep.

Chill and learn to have fun.

Thank you.

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rakurairagnarok · 1 year

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1 (48 is the same lmao), 11, 12, 15, 31, 32, 43, 45, 57, 66, 69 (idk what it means tho), 79, 80

1: gay/asexual

11: Not really, but I do get pretty uncomfortable in the dark

12: not that I can recall

15 : infront of it. I really like taking gym progress pics and the random snapchat selfies (dm if interested (its nothing special or spicy, im just bored))

31: one of my nostrils is currently clogged so not much

32: definitely the mall I went to in China, it was so insanely crowded, I couldn't deal with that.

43: only pet name versions of my own name, but people usually just call me by my first nam, Bram

45: my kneecap got dislocated, it happend three times now, and due to the first time I'm pretty sure my knees will always stay a weak spot in my body. But we go to the gym to try and prevent it from happening again. (Never skip leg day babes)

57: 2 official relationships. One which was a month and one that was 2 and a half years. The latter ended last year april.

66: as far as I know, im 100% dutch, my parents and theirs were all dutch soo... yeah im a cheesehead

69: if they mean sucked myself off, then no, if they mean jerked myself of, yeah obviously hahaha

79: coming out. Its maybe cliche, but i was in a bad place before coming out and my life became so much better afterwards

80: 45-45 or for the Americans/other countries who use that format, around 12-13

Thanks for the questions, and Im gonna apologize it took so long (at least im assuming i took long, i have no clue when the ask came.) But thanks regardless and for any other questions feel free to ask or dive into my Dms.

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dnbrbrsh · 1 year

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Andrew Tate: A symptom not a problem, not his fault.

We need to apologize to Tate.

China is involved, Modern society is failing based on false promises from the past!

I've noticed more and more the concern that parents are starting to feel about Andrew Tate 'infiltrating' the minds of young impressionable boys and brainwashing.

The problem I think is not with him, because there are millions of 'him' s, and not just "mysogynist"s, "violent", but millions of very intelligent, very hard working, crazy people who also feel the way he does, if Anything we should thank him for both being so succesful and also so weak in his peronality that his ego must feed on attention whilst accomplishing his goals.

If Andrew can so easily infiltrate the mind's of boys, well if boys had role models, had real guidance, were listened to more, and talked to more, then the problem would not be so insanely acute as it is today, it even caught me by surprised cos I don't use tiktok, I'm living outside of that realm.

(but obviously all children in the u.k especially in school are being neglected, girls and boys, so probably a female andrew tate could swoop in too, cos theyre all neglected)

And by banning Andrew, there will just be someone else who will fill in the void, but it's not that simple because first of all what's done is done, but second of all, if someone doesn't fill it, or does, the reasons why boys, and men quite frankly, fall for this, the reasons are still there. They are real reasons, they make us uncomfortable, but they are here.

Furthermore, Andrew has been wealthy for a while, but he became rich only when he blew up, before that he was very wealthy, and then he became rich, and perhaps now very rich, but he lies, and pretends like he was already very rich , and now he is super rich. He is a scammer, he is not a psychopath.

He also has exposed the delusions of certain people as well, which is always interesting, for example to draw a comprable comparision, with milo yanakulas or howver you spell his name, people called him a racist, homophobic blabla whilst at that time he was flaming gay with a black boyfriend, and is half jewish... very strange

tate got the same treatment, he is half black.. and definitely he is not homophobic or any of these fabrications. but these people who fall into that category of delusion, it's set of things, not one thing and another maybe, it's all of them applied to any of the people who hit a nerve with them, a nerve in their brain that ought to be addressed.

China, lastly, Andrew Tate got the Alex Jones/Milo treatment he was banned from everything, twitter got him back, but tiktok banned him too, yet he is still everywhere apparently, especially on tiktok which is where he got famous from, an app used mostly by kids, alot of kids, and owned by a chinese company under the wings of the CCP, now I have nothing against CHina, or even the CCP in many ways, so I am not actually making any political points at all in this whole thing, this is completely apolitical, I think they are loving the fact that Tate is doing this, I'm sure it would never work over there even if you removed the ccp and gave all of the chinese the freedom to surf the web uncontrolled (which i know it is debatable what we have), so they probably are still pushing the algorithms to promote his stuff.

Im convinced of it, but it's just a strong suspicion I have, facebook does similar stuff, and twitter did similar stuff, so again not making a case of it being deifferent, only that China is literaly our only competitor in the world who wants to one day be what america is today.

Anyway, I degress, thank you for reading if you made it this far :)

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abigail-nicole · 1 year

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tgcf live read, part 5

in which the author moves her live-tweet of Heaven Official's Blessing, Tian Guan Ci Fu, all-around perfect novel and joy to everyone who reads it, from twitter (beta, qi rong, ruined by cryptobros and billionaires) to tumblr (alpha, hua cheng, shitposting for 10+ years and chaotic neutral). please buy officially licensed Heaven Official's Blessing translations from Seven Seas, enjoy the beautiful official donghua while we can get any smidge of gay representation out of mainland China, and enjoy!

initially live-tweeted 3/29/2020:

oh my god there’s a pregnancy episode. You know I’ve never counseled any of my patients on the grudge that could be left by an aborted fetus

Xie Lian faking pregnancy Im here for this

Oh!!!!! This is great!!!!!

Xie Lian has a ghost baby who’s waiting for him to transition & get pregnant CLEARLY THE ONLY EXPLANATION

I DID NOT SEE THIS COMING

I cannot wait to see the art for this??? It’s gonna be Exquisite

UNEXPECTED!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHH SCREAMING SO LOUD I STARTLED THE CAT

Wasnt chapter 95 of mdzs ALSO A KISS CHAPTER

*incoherent noises* jgk fed gjbcgjkjfdhioollllojhghsadfsdff

(archivist note: my favorite fan cosplay photo art of this moment)

Oh my god xie lian REACTS SO POORLY WHAT A DUMBASS

The ghosts offering to help Hua Cheng rape someone is NOT funny but it made me laugh out loud

well now this is just

I’m gonna start counseling my pts on the spiritual strength of their fetuses. The strongest is clearly that lady who got shot in the uterus at 14 wks and made it to 28 weeks

Obstetric cultivation is my jam y’all

THEY'RE JUST HANGING OUT TOGETHER! BORROWING CLOTHES FROM EACH OTHER!! SOFT BOYFRIENDS!!!

Hua Cheng: i can cook for you

Xie Lian: no, let’s go out to eat

Hua Cheng: ......... you asked for this

oh to be Hua Cheng, smiling, watching your boyfriend eat

Xie “I JUST TELL THEM I’M IMPOTENT TO GET WOMEN TO LEAVE ME ALONE IM REALLY JUST GAY” Lian

Hua Cheng here like (smirking emoji x3)

Oh my god boyfriend calligraphy lessons SOFT...!!! SOFT!!!

I vehemently disagree with this “this father has to be included in the ghost fetus rights” case but that’s my own business

everyone: why the FUCK do you have this sword oh my god

The last time we saw e’ming it was shaking in sadness that it had hurt Xie Lian and I’ve cried in my heart every second from then until now

MY TWO FAVORITE WEAPONS ARE FIGHTING????? NO THEYRE BEST FRIENDS!! RUOYE & EMING OTP

YES PET THE SWORD ITS A GOOD SWORD GOOD SWORD

every time they hang out im just like......yes....pure oxygen, clean water, pollution disappearing from this earth....

Yes e’ming ruoye weapon pet otp

Oh my god this Which Weapon Pet Will Help More With Cooking is Exactly what my soul needs in these trying times.... I’m so blessed.....

Xie Lian - Wei Wuxian - being terrible at cooking

this is COMEDY GOLD

Hua Cheng: *doing dishes*

Shi Qingxuan: WHAT THE FUCK

Qi Rong: IM A FIERCE GHOST TOOOOOOOOO

Xie Lian: *hiding*

This is the best dinner party

This is the best fucking dinner party scene in any book I have ever read

Honestly the book could end right here. This scene is the Blessing in the title Heaven Official's Blessing

Shi Qingxuan is gonna go back & tell everyone they ate dinner with Hua Cheng and No One is gonna believe it

Poor Shi Qingxuan Lolololol

Awwwww theyre finally exchanging phone numbers!!!! also lol @ xie lian’s little joke here

can’t wait for the scene where they start flirting via communications array & shi qingxuan is staring back and forth at them & shouting at ming yi WHAT THE FUCK WE’RE RIGHT HERE WHAT ARE THEY DOING GET A GODDAMN ROOM

ugh I’m so happy to stop on this note & look forward to reading tomorrow & not having to pick up in the middle of Tragedy Book 2 (& apoarently also Tragedy Book 4). In conclusion Hualian is the Real Official Blessing We Made Along The Way

OMG I SAID THIS SCENE WOULD HAPPEN also i cant wait to find out hua cheng’s password (narrator voice: she would be disappointed)

Shi Qingxuan: i made them strip but oh god he just admitted he likes xie lian NOW its weird

Hahaha just wait till this is a sex thing (smirk emoji)

I also get bored and play dress up in the middle of hostage recovery

to be continued in part 6!

#tgcf #tgcf liveread

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solardick · 2 months

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Uh. The Vatican has its own country of 500 people.

India 1,4 billion. China 1.4 billion. Canada. 38 million.

So what came first, the chiken or the egg? It’s so odd. Create the image, influences then come to being. … how does that work?… at any rate, the card works. Works as a powerful transmuted christian image. Helpd to pull the carnivorous nature of reptiles, dinosaurs and monsters into a positive momentum. Bearing semblance to magestic creators. Fear in knowing the dangers of its rebuke. If thats not too harsh of a word. Not knowing the still pressence of what should be radiating light. Warm rays of sunshine on a cool departure. Intimidation. Engagement is perplexing.

This card placed ontop of the deck. Centerd between the two 5’s of ten. The pope raising its hand. Two fingers to the sun. Pointing up about to infinity. Save that it can replace the pope card. Breaking out a barrier. balancing the equation between sexes.

Adds definition to strength as harmony. Clashes horrendously with waites magician. Belittling the serpent as a belt to hold up his pants with. Is that its purpose? Well people back then were fucked. Thats the generation that started ww 1 and 2….

It becomes the center card of the deck layout. And the pope card doesnt lose any signicance as it is p’aced above on a spot on high. A throne. Which he is clear’y occupying.

Anyway the two infinity cards from the tarot become the parents to the serpent. Showing the emperor’s holy lineage. Ideally the devil card 15 from tarot modified to the likness of the serpent shows from what the empress is descended from.

Connected to my personalize oO death card numbering 15 connects it again to the sex. Symbolizing that wanting inrush of potency towards the creation of kin. Or to what id expect it to be in reality. Those glowing red cheeks. Mmmnn. Theres nothing more beautiful.

So i was watching some gay porn just the other day and, i felt bad for the bitch. Poor guy. So i went and jerked off to a hot russian getting banged in a sports bar toilet stall.

Well think im just going to start smoking whole cigarettes now and stop ripping them in half, so the girl has less reason to swoon over me. Hate being psychic like that. Since her nature is like that. She locks on to a small detail of something that isnt up to standard or whatever and goes obsessive. Seek and destroy based on her own delusional egotistic set. But. Everything i do is wrong and over agrandized. Its like they all pretend to be my mother. While others do the same. Its on’y a problem if its coming from me. Hows its always been. Time to eeupt. Hurt me some more. Whole other around do worse. Yup. Thats life.

Oh no i no i daid atupid. Time to start freaking the fuck out in bits of over energized destruction! « Hey mom can we” ehat! I said can we…? What?! I said can we? Ehat?! I dont understand you! Blag blah blah. Ok start beating in my face. Sorry i suggested soemthig helpful and posiitve. Oh well, guessnom never talking to you again even ifbit was a life of seath situation. You would listen anyway. Just beat on me some more. While playing to good christian. To all the girls and boys. Fuck off.

Not allowed to escape that reality by the maneuverings of other people. Im here for the sole purpose of being fucked. Laways was. There is no such thing as justice in life. Only punishment. Theres bothign to learn in life except not to try. “Shouldn’t we try to fix this family? Maybe go see a family therapist?” Oh yeah right. No one else cares. You wouldnt even send me to thearapy to save my life. Why did i try?

Your all fucken dead to me. The only differenve i dont go out of my way to fuck your lives. And gere i am 39 years later still being raped by existance. Its all its ever been. Nothing to learn. No wag to grow. Just the same bs from others. The way its alway been. I do t want to be alive anymore. All life does is fuck with me by criminal minds. Unyilnyou lose your sanity and then get fucked some more vause theres actually a good excuse this time. Hahahahahha the world Always sides with evil. There’s noyhing in life for me and theres nothing to do. Dint really have much choice in the matter, being abused into suicide.

While i spend my days serounded by the corrupt, the criminal, the degenerates, the effeminate, the violent and the brains washed gay’s. God forbid if i rather not spend soemtime with members the opposite sex or the proactive masculine.

Now excuse i have to go get high for breakfast and waste the day. Its ok. Im used to it. 25 years and counting. And excuse me if i have flair ups soemtimes. Its alot of pressure. While i wait for yhe first aid training and possibly the organization of health and saftey. After all i may need to save your fucken lives one day. Yay!

A wise serpent without a dove isn’t very gentel now is it?

What?! Sorry i capuld hear you you spoke at the same time as the crows. All i heard was “Caw! Caw! Caw!” Oh, we’re going to be partnering up? Awh…… no. Considering you’re relying on a drug dealer to drive you home everyday. And thats the guy i get paired with. Well either that of the “dipshit” as everyone calls them. Talking about gays and dildos, and sagitarian rape court case and a pimp civic under various trafgic violations whom doesnt take working seriously? Uhm. The gay guy, the criminal, or the combination of the two? Uhm, well, i lose. While i get sexually harassed by a “22” year old whith a similar sounding name as the lygbbq organization that continued suggestion i was a cocksucker after i repeatedly asked her to stop. Durring 2022… ok. Sure why not. What door number is that. The exit door number 22? What is that the fireextinguisher convineently olaced next to the males washroom? Exinguisher number what? 22? What? My ninimum credit payment is what? 22? At the same time as they pulled this shit? Ok.

Am i supposed to learn somethign here? Or is my spyche getting drastically raped by evil? What card is number 22? Nothing by the tarot. Maybe the fool. Maybe the world card. Maybe that magically missing number 22. In the typewritter its thr star card. A naked woman pooring out the spirit. The bestowment of a hope to meet the dream. Passivity to the reception from the collective.

Im not allowed to have a life free from captivity and malicious influences. Why try? I literally don’t know anything else. They’r eproba ly just framing me up to spend the second half of my life in prison.

Om now the small buzz in bottoming and i think my coffe is wearing out. Think i beed to go take a nap.

If one used the wheel. Thinking astrologically. As the twelve seasons. Then thr minor arcana would all occupy a quarter season. The four A-1’s place in the center of the circle facing out. On yhe wheel. One is traveling up. While the current is pulling down faster then one can move. Is consistent the lunar/solar cross sections with that of a serpent. While one swims agaisnt the current, one will only slow the final destination. Until one circles around the circle to the last quarter of fears and dreads, now helplessly trying to swim away from it. Creating this complex based upon repression of lies and delusions as the explanation. To the coming fate. I hate astrology. A fear. And the will to not accept whats (not really) inevitable. Give in to the lie. For when one passes that descendant point the half way. One tries to swim for that balance. Towards the 6th card of the lovers. But, its a lost cause. While one is helplessly being pulled away from it.

… the right side of the circle is comprised of the wands to swords. The left side coins to cups. The angles are A’s and each zodiac house is assigned three cards. The semi-square angle holds a conflict card. The left side of the circle is the individual. Number one. He is surrounded by life affirming cards and accomplishments hard work and discipline. And the bounty of a happy home life is where it ends. One can rise to career or descend to the self and family. Resources ideals, dreams accomplished. On the right side of the chart is all the bad. A relationship to bs. Starts with a desire to leave home. See the world have fun with friends. And where one has to pay the penalty for being alive. It’s pretty depressing. As all things tarot. Which is here shown by the split natures of white and black both cancer and Capricorn share.

Maybe since there’s already an arian plan in opperation all future arians are forced down and oppressed from any divergence. Which isnt set and bound for them to attend. Mostly its just a trophy. Good’lad heres a loolly pop. There’s only death and sorrow if you go any further. Better save it for the militant going on and beyond the capricorn point. To death and war.

So when doing a reading with the minor. Its best to see where in the zodiac it is placed and see what planets are aspecting those degrees. The self then has an added layer of information that isnt neccesarly allocated to “fate”. One then takes the major arcana and plug in the proper card to the appropriete number based on cyclic repetition. Thats what a circle is. The only problem here is that circles are only found in nature in the form of pulses. A ripple in water. The ring of a tree. Its never singular. Beyond that of the sun and the moon. Or a bubble. Circles are never still. Always in motion. Growing outward until it fades. Relying on that drop in its center.

Now the minor arcana is paired to a planet and to a major arcana. Precision grows more clear. Complexity adds reaction. And the star card always fallows the threat, and violence. Which may lead into a world of metal illnesses. As the child tries to distract it’s attention into something else, for the violence goes counter to its well being. Creating a world of delusions and retractions from the world. Adopting a passivity to action. And further reception to something more pleasing. It being a dream. These conditioned dreams based from the collective reception of information, all gets poured into the same cup. There’s no segregation, no separation. One becomes what it is being fed. A desire to do good. And a motivation to be receptive. Like i said. Theres nothign to learn in life. There’s just punishment. Fromoutsode violebce while it being twisted as an echo to be villainized by. Where the origin of the destructive acts take a place of innocence. On and on. From time memorial. Do now the next moon card comes in and the one is screaming at the world. Causing a ruckus. Howling at the moon. To be futher punished by the “good”. Or to praying to god for salvation, or getting shitfaced drunk or using other intoxicants. Which are made abundant and always is easy reach. From time memorial. Cant even be int he seclusion of solitude. Without it. Sorry mom i’m smoking my brothers pot i found hidden behind my poster. In the same room im forces to share with him. Eith this dominant pluto opposition aspect. Fun fun. And well the world as shown me profusly that im just a bitch. Nothigs changed.

What i got an attitude problem needing correction?! No thats ok. Ill a nother beating after they just jumpednon my face. Ok. Sire why not.

Hey! Ho. Stop tellign at your daughter! Your other one detaching from reality right noe becaus eof it. No! I font want to sleep woth you. You have a boyfriend. Fuck off. Stop insisting.

God dames women stop being sexually suggestive! Im trying to socialize jesus! If i wanted to see you naked id just go watch some poor they’re way hotter than you. And if that was the case. I aint no single stand. Cant sleep eoth you even if i wanted to if i don’tt know what im dicking. Kind of hard to enjoy. Maybe the lesson here , Is that i should. Hey stranger. You got a pretty mouth. Wanna fuck? Why you making it sexual for. Now im turned off.

It’s fun to play with power words like this.

God

The son the father and the Holy Ghost.

Draw out the chariot! Move!

Careful what you eat.

-I expect there to be a top qualité Asian movie involving a dove and a dragon coming out. Hopefully it won’t be toO fif.

And thé on l’y appropriate letter to assign to infinity is temperance. Letter R. Not of it directly. But as the minusculed r. Becoming EFr. But this is a new area for me. So I don’ know. The minuscule R serves quite well as temperance’s white dove wings.

DEF as mother, son and father. As the 0-5 card speaks for itself. Def., equals absolute. A definite act. From nothign. O. If one extends on this the holy ghost as the emperors foundation is balances by the empresses dragon/devil card.

As E moves into F. F moves into the equalavent of a capitalized minuscule sembling letter r. Above and beyond that, one finds a straight line. Resembling the capital i as the sun and the minusculed L of the hermit. Or as the number 1 and another journey.

I cleaned her up, coloured her in and her prettier her’d up while, she did the laundry. 14-18

Though it becomes curious when one stops and writes. BRP and again it shows symbolism in motion.

- Doesn't this card just say R. The mirrored angle for the water is neat.

Chicken and the egg and all that. Temperance. On the study of letters.

#tarot #qwerty #tarotblr

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1/2 And we are at 4x10, i should probably say that he did threaten with a lawsuit if the episode doesnt have Britin being cute/happy, he is literally one of us. HE SAW THE BEGINNING WHERE IT SHOWS A TINY PART OF BRIANS BED AND HEARD MOANS AND HE IMMEDIATELY WENT ‘it’s Brian! okaaaay, look at them having sexy time again. I am so fucking glad that Justin’s hair is growing back. (That surgery flashback happens) What just happened? Why did we go from soft to rough? Is he having surgery flashbacks? What’s going on? Did he lose his hard on? See, if the fucking Doctor didn’t get mad at me, i would’ve had ALL my questions answered but noooo, now I’m in the dark about my Bri Bri’s health. Oh i feel bad for Brian, this has to suck. But its okay Bri Bri. Things happen. If this was season 2, hed yell at Justin by now.’ And we are now at Emmett and Drew in the motel ‘what the fuck? How did we get here? DUDE…i think he’s not straight..(drew has his little internalized homophobia moment) um dude.. what the fuck? *deep manly voice* i throw ball far! I catch ball! I no gay, me straight! SPORTS *hits his chest* hetero bro!…dude, i think you need to look up the word straight. EMMETT YOU DESERVE BETTER CAUSE THIS IS BULLSHIT’ we are at Lindsay and Sam now ‘full offense but his art is not worth acting all *waves his hand at lindsay* whatever the hell that is. IS SHE JEALOUS THAT HE FLIRTED WITH A DIFFERENT WOMAN? Lindsay? What?’ And we are back at Brian ‘i missed this cute motherfucker *he is watching Brian at work like it’s the best thing ever* i need more of this. He is a beast at his work. No wonder he thinks he’s the shit. (Brian says that line about juggling balls and ted looks ready to tell jokes) THIS IS WHAT I WANTED! THIS! THEM! BEING BESTIES! *looks at me all worried* thats what the youth say nowadays right? Besties? I’m right, right? BRIAN LIKES TEDS SUIT! AND CONFIDENCE! Okay so brian and ted? New favorite duo! But also brian, ted and Cynthia? New favorite trio!’ Mikey and Justin are now on the screen and he is all excited ‘THIS IS ALSO NICE! Justin and Mike being best friends! FUCKING FINALLY! I knew Mike had some good in him. Finally he is done pissing me off. THEY HAVENT FUCKED SINCE THE SURGERY?! Theyre going to get HERBS?! FOR BRIAN? FOR SEX? not what i thought of when i said besties but okay?’ And now we are at Ben and his student scene ‘what the fuck is going on over here. Ben had potential in the beginning! What the fuck happened with him since then and what the fuck is this shit? OH THE GUY IS HITTING ON HIM! BEN WHAT THE FUCK’ and the Brian/Deb scene is about to happen ‘IS DEBBIE IGNORING BRIAN? Wait have they not even talked since vic died? DEB WHAT THE FUCK? Did you see how he looked after deb? He is SAD! Someone fix this because i cant handle him being sad (brian runs after deb) oh i guess Brian is gonna fix this. This is new. Deb he needs you. He needs a mom! Shit does jen know yet?! Look at him fixing his messes. MY BABY IS GROWING UP! (Brian tells deb) HOLY FUCKING SHIT. *he literally teared up at Deb being all mom to brian and when she like buttons up his jacket* I hate that the only time he has a mom is when horrible shit happens. He needs someone to look after him as much as he looks after them. Also why is this literally me if i was around Brian? WHY ARE WE ASKING ABOUT HIS MOTHER? FUCK HIS MOM. She doesnt deserve to know! (Deb hugs brian and he once again tears up) yes he will be okay! Finally someone is hugging him!’ ‘Wait Emmett is going to get Drew a job? He was all im hetero not gay and being a bitch about it and he’s helping him? Emmett, no. You deserve better’ mikey and justin scene is up!! ‘Look at the new besties! If you told season 1 Michael that he’d be HELPING Justin fuck Brian, he’d have a stroke. *he is absolutely dying out of laughter at the china store scene* what are they saying? Remember when that one time, i accidentally put Chinese subtitles and thought i spoke Chinese?’ ‘BRIAN! Dont you worry! Blondie is on his way with boner herbs!’

I should probably say that he did threaten with a lawsuit if the episode doesnt have Britin being cute/happy, he is literally one of us. HE IS ONE OF US. I seriously love the idea of bringing a lawsuit against CowLip for emotional pain and suffering.

I am so fucking glad that Justin’s hair is growing back. <- One of us!

If this was season 2, hed yell at Justin by now. GROWTH! (only to have it ripped away in S5)

OUR BABY IS GROWING UP

Joan doesn’t deserve to know.

And Emmett does deserve better. (Sorry Drew)

OH MY GOD even I remember when he put on Chinese subtitles and thought he spoke Chinese. I’m one of your family now. And yes, if you had told Justin and Mikey they would be collaborating to help Justin fuck Brian in s1 or s3… strokes would be had.

#ask winderlylandchime #dear sweet anon #queer as folk #a straight man watches qaf us 2000 in the year of our lord 2023

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realhankmccoy · 2 years

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huh well in the case of my sanity vs my insanity, i do have to say the emails i send myself do pretty much read like insanity to the untrained eye and maybe even to my eye. there's so many of them. here's one of 'em:

Bitki / Makarna Zerde / Asir / Mumbar

Erna Kiedis imagine lifr as rockstars others all others Sexieat ernna and kiedis pics

Sanliurfa Mersin Tarsus Alanya Antalya Pammukale Ephesus Izmir Bursa Prishtina Peja Gjakova Prizren Skopje Ohrid Tirana

Zerde-Sutlaç Dovme çorbasi Dut Suyu Boza / Melahabiya

April 13 14 - May 31 China June 1 - Spain July 1 -- Andorra July 4 - Uk Aug 15 -- Albania Aug 25 - Kosovo Sep 4 - North Macedonia Sep 11 -- Armenia Sep 19 -- Georgia Oct 19 -- Azerbaijan Oct 27 -- Cyprus Nov 10 -- Israel Nov 22 -- Egypt Dec 1 -- Jordan Dec 8 -- Saudi Arabia Jan 12 -- Qatar Jan 20 -- UAE Jan 28 -- Oman Feb 8 -- Uzbekistan March 10 -- Tajikistan March 19 -- Kyrgzstan March 29 -- Kazakhstan April 10 -- The Netherlands May 8 -- Norway June 6 -- Sweden June 10 -- Iceland July 10 -- Montreal July 25 -- Toronto Aug 10 -- Marshall Mongolia Japan

Yogurtlu Tavuk Tantuni Somun Damla Sakizli Antep Katmer Kiedis / Pitt Yale course Norway / mom back Alternate persona / alter ego

Ocabast Mosyo

Toyga, Tutmac, Dugun, Tarhana, Yayla, Yuvarlama, Isirgan, Badem, Lebiniye Beyti Sarma

Kuzu, Pirzola, Kuşbaşi, Fistik

Spain? Izgara? Paça. Işkembe Food list Osmaniye / Malatia / Adana Turkish -- hello, tasty, yes, no, goodbye Cyprus to Cairo or.

Pasabagi Pasabag Euro trans currency bus routes, book dec 10 Soup, salep, hellim peyniri, lamb pottery kebab, dibek trad coffee Trigger finger

262-737-4236

Pogaça Pismaniye Sekeri Kellepaça Carrot Liquor Yayik Ayrani

Sulu Yemet, Pinokyo, Karisik, Katmer, Kumpir, Makarlanar, Açma, Kurabiye, Fistikli, Kaymakli, Cevizli, Kadayifcisii

Angel Cucked Virgin to somwone else

So they might want to suck your morals And slurp your blood until its free But there is nothing like tomorrow And the runaround tree

Kamil Kos

Y4 counteries Eu countries

I did nothing wrong Use your words if youre a parent You canr just attacj people ane say youre beother is betyet, he is nlw you you are now him You know what i love my dad really want to be arojnd him

Turkey / Turkish galleries

Bolyarski skewer An Askant Slimeroll Bearnese

Katak

Kaskamaska

Burgas 63 Mekitsa Sujukakia Tarator Kamenitsa

Religions of cpuntries ice been ti

The virgin ho deghetria, eleoussa, gorgoepikoos Christ pantocrator

Stepbros nver reached out no good

Promise me yiu can keeo quiet about it R3gret not doing this wi5h grabdma

Almost blind without my glasses, short, gay

Put on a stolid face... but Career and deeply unequal, and 8 years... and isnt nathan thus and that...i cry about ir

Did respect you and it was still no, wait three more years at 37 Didnt and milk you like grandma

Devils dont turn into angels overnight Morql bankrupcy

I'm a leftist approaching a poor peeson and im here to help I"m a marcist and im here to help You look to me, worm. Scriptire, amd scriptire is debatable

Anecdote when person is complaining?

2:45pm on monday

Scott abusive

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koinvyokan · 2 years

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living under a dictatorship is fucking tiring. its hard to describe. it just drains all the will you have to fight out of you. when the people you love and your community and your best friends and you so brazenly have your rights violated every day.

you really want things to change. you really do because theres so many good people who deserve to have their voices heard or to even have a chance to speak without fear. but how can you make change happen when you cant even write a school paper about the government for fear of your parents safety and jobs? every so often you see protests break out because people cant take it anymore and those people get arrested. and beaten. and killed. so no wonder protests only happen rarely. and then another journalist gets arrested or just disappears. youve lost count of how many it is this year (the UN hasn't, its the most of any country in the world. lovely). and then one day a university student is killed in a hit and run. but the perpetrator is the daughter of the opposition leader so instead of that student's death getting any sort of resolution, its used as blackmail to get the opposition leader to live in exile. you knew the perpetrator, she went to your school before she chose exile over life in prison. its almost unbelievable.

the police don't give a shit when you get robbed because you cant bribe them enough. oh and wikipedia is banned now, they published something (too truthful) against the president. another historical landmark has been renamed or destroyed because it suggests that anyone other than the current government has ever been in power. rainbows and unicorns are now banned from clothing because of the terrifying gay agenda. im not joking.

and oh look. its election time again. guess who wins? theres some military parades and talk of new policies and then a week passes and its the same as its been for the past 30 years. and no one outside the country cares because this has been the norm for so long. and the human rights absuses are excusable for another few years because these are cooperative dictators. theyre quiet about their genocide.

once, you see tanks rolling through the streets that you drive every weekend to go to the mall. past the building that your best friend's father works at, that hes in right now. helicopters fly overhead through the night and all of a sudden your home is a war zone for a bit. a military coup they say on tv. does it amount to anything? no. its just an excuse for the big man to tighten his grip, crack down. there's rumours it was staged. its been a few years and you still dont know what the truth is. does the government really hate when bridges get bombed by terrorists or does it get excited at a chance to tighten its chokehold on the nation?

after you leave, you want to go back and at least try because you love this place and it deserves it but you know how much the government cares about prosecuting murders who kill people like you which is to say not at all. encouraging hatred of queers is just another tool in their propoganda arsenal. there would be no justice. youre mostly just scared for the people you left behind because there wouldn't be justice for them either. it just takes a step out of line. no one is safe. no one will care. you will be a statistic.

youre so angry. bursting at the fucking seams. at the government for their greed and corruption and violence. at how they build another seaside palace while more people starve under their policies. at how they whore out your home for more money from their best friend china. at yourself because you feel defeated and that means they have won.

i dont have a pretty resolution to this. im just sad and scared and angry. more people need to care and they dont. other governments are supposed to be bastions of democracy and free speech but still keep their mouths shut like theyre scared theyll get disappeared. cowards compared to the people who actually have been.

fucking cherish your freedom of speech, your freedom to vote and have it actually make a difference. if you see that being threatened (which it IS right now, slowly but surely) then be afraid and fight for it because once its gone its Gone.

and if you support the governments of china or russia or the US get the fuck off my blog. unfollow and block me. now. the people and places i love have been put through too much by dictators that have support of those imperialist powers for me to want to interact with you.

finally, learn to seperate the people of a country from their head of state. you think they chose this? they didnt and they dont deserve you conflating them with a dictatorship.

feel free to rb

#this is about turkey and cambodia #two places i love very dearly but have caused me + my loved ones a lot of pain #how do you love a place when it will never love or respect you? its difficult #all things mentioned are from mine and friends real experiences #sorry this is just me ranting something set me off #long post

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