omggg!! i like never request anything but you responded to my last one ab tan and it made my dayyyyyy 😭💗. btw, that's literally my bf i'm never getting tired of him so here's another one if you have a chance
hear me out *again*…perhaps tangerine is stressed out about some stuff that’s causing him to be distant. reader noticed this and obviously she comforts him!! maybe a little lemon cameo too!! this isn’t super detailed but i hope you get it🥰.
your writing is keeping me alive stink🤭🫡!
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hii!! ahhh that’s literally so sweet!? me too, will never get tired of him. I love it, such a cute idea! stop it🥹 thank you! your lovely comments do the same for me. thank you for requesting, hope you like it💌 and sorry this took longer than planned, been ill last couple days
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tangerine x fem reader
wc || 749
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Tangerine is naturally a very closed-off guy. He isn't exactly the type that can talk about his feelings and share what's on his mind or what's bothering him. He often felt like a burden for sharing his thoughts and doubts, so he preferred to keep them to himself, usually by distancing himself.
He hated the vulnerability of it all, how intimate it felt to share his genuine feelings and concerns. But ever since he started dating you, he's been trying to correct his way of thinking. He wanted to change for you, be a better man for you, but he also wanted to change for himself. He knew you'd never judge him for his thoughts, though he couldn't help but resort to his old habits of projection and isolation. He wanted to be honest with you, but it was much harder than he thought.
Sometimes you knew him better than he knew himself, so when you noticed him avert from your company and distance himself, you knew something was bothering him. You had to be careful when approaching the topic, as you didn't want to pressurise or distress him any further. You thought softly easing him in would lead to the best outcome, so you make your way to the kitchen and make him a tea to his exact taste in his favourite mug, then collect a pack of biscuits from your secret stash.
You slowly walk into the living room with tea and biscuits in hand, where you see him lying on the sofa, staring aimlessly at the tv.
"Hey," you say quietly, not wanting to startle him. "Thought you might want this," you smile, extending the mug towards him.
He takes it from you with a soft nod, sitting up, a wry smile lining his lips. "Cheers,"
"What you uh— what you watching?" you ask.
"I dunno," he lightly chuckles, searching for the controller. "rugby, I don't know— can't remember,"
"Mind if I join?" you sweetly ask, nodding to the space beside him.
"Go on," he softly grins.
You sit next to him, subtly scooting over, cuddling into his side as you drape a blanket over both of you. You look up at him, your features soft and understanding as you cup his cheek, angling his face to yours, bringing him back to you when you notice him divert from your gaze.
"Everything okay?" you ask, entangling your hand in his.
"Yeah," he nods, his words unconvincing.
"What's going on? You don't seem like yourself," you sweetly press, your thumb stroking over the back of his hand. "You can tell me,"
"I know," he softly sighs, glancing at the tv, trying to avoid your questioning. "Just—“ he starts, shaking his head. "We got updates for our mission in a couple weeks, and it's stressing me out. It's-- it ain't a good country, that's all. And it just—" he pinches the bridge of his nose, shaking his head as if to get rid of an uneasy thought. "I don't want something happening, you know," he exhales, kissing the crown of your head. "I don't want to leave you alone... if something happens," he frowns, hugging you tighter as if the action was to reassure him.
"Aw honey," you whisper, squeezing his hand. "Why didn't you tell me sooner? That couldn't have been an easy thing to keep to yourself," you softly smile, your eyebrows knitting together as you analyse him. You didn't want to lie or tell him what you thought he wanted to hear, so you didn't say anything else. You choose to snuggle into him, holding him close as if to comfort his thoughts. "Okay, here's an idea," you start, watching his eyes soften with intrigue. "We order a fuck tonne of food; pizza, pasta, noodles, kebab— whatever you want. And we invite Lem over, and we can just pig out on the sofa and— and watch shitty tv and drink beer? That sound good?" you smile.
A genuine grin creeps on his lips as he looks down at you on his chest. "I like it. Sounds good," he kisses your forehead, brushing a few strands of hair behind your ear. "Only if we can get curry. I've been fucking dying for one," chuckling.
Even though it was such a simple thing to say, you could tell he was starting to feel better about the situation.
"We can order as much curry as you want," you smile and reach up to kiss his cheek. "Anything you want."
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what if we do that transcribing system conversations thing again
jonah if you do that I will actually fucking kill you it was so goddamn awkard
and you're typing
yeppp ^_^
OOH OOH LEMME SAY SOMETHING
ass
that was not funny
ok
you're not funny so I don't see why you get to talk -
hey I'm funny!
no you're not . Being blunt does not count
listen in certain circumstances blunt is the funniest thing you can be
this is really going nowhere
Stop pointing out we're typing out a conversation it's going nowhere
I don't think we've talked this much collectively in ages
Yeah it's usually just like. Quick internal communications. We don't differentiate or worry about whose saying what much
Donna is a bitch (name edited for don's sake)
You can't call Don, ****** remember cause they hate it when non headmates do that (we try not to call Don by this name externally because it implies other people can, when they cannot)
oh right sorry don
it's ok angie
I feel like we're gonna forget who said what as we're writing this since we didn't color code it immediately
eh it'll be fine
I think that is the first time I have ever heard you say that
yeah it's because you take so damn long to type I forgot what I said before
ssshhhhut up
a few minutes later:
(replying to what elle said before) you say that like you're ever in front
hey I'm in front all the time!
those 2 days a week ago do not count
i'm near front all the time i just don't talk as much as you guys. Because I don't have to
mmmkay
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donna (purple), angie (orange), jonah (pink), leo (blue), elle (red)
OK EXPLANATION AT THE END. This is a "transcript" of an internal conversation between me n my headmates. We did one of these a looong time ago, but it was very stilted and awkward since we were trying to color code the dialogue as we went along. Luckily we're now more familiar with our speech patterns and are able to guess whose who now without having to initially label it. That's why this might flow more naturally and is longer.
Jonah's giving me full reigns of the explanation to further display how speech patterns can differentiate between alters, which is why this is so long-winded. Anyway, the explanation of what this is for non-systems: a form of inner-system communication is when two alters have a conversation with each other. What you see here is internal-system communication during co-consciousness - when multiple alters are near front at the same time.
For us, this is usually someone having full-control of the body, and another person having partial to no control of the body, while commentating on what the other person is doing. Or, y'know, just chatting with them. Here, the four of us each had partial control of the body to type what we were saying.
Jonah is cutting me off there before I double the length of this post
- Donna 🧬
WOO. ok. But yeah Donna basically explained it LOL. This is just a conversation we wrote down between me n headmates. I wanted to try it again since it's been so long
- Jonah🍓
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