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lotus-dly · 2 years
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TITLE TRACK: NOWHERE I’D RATHER BE
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i. chan x reader x changbin
ii. poly relationship, no member x member moments, mentions of sex but nothing explicit, angst with a happy ending, chan and changbin are angels, cuddling, fluffy
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Hours spent working. Hours spent studying. Hours spent traveling to and from campus. To say you were tired was an understatement. No semester had been as stressful or anxiety inducing as this one had been. You woke up, went to work, spent time studying or finishing assignments, went to class, came back home—maybe ate somewhere in between there you had no idea—showered and then went to bed. The process would repeat again the next day, the day after that, and the day after that.
You felt like you didn’t have time for anything. No time to nap, no time to go on a walk, you didn’t even have time to go see Chan and Changbin. It was when you realized this that you had finally hit your breaking point. It really hit you in the midst of another all nighter you had pulled to finish an assignment the day before. You had thought about how much effort they had put into your relationship and what little you had in return. You missed them in every sense of the word. You missed going to the gym with them and opting to watch them work out rather than doing your own sets. You missed hanging out at their respective studios, attending events with them and going on weekend getaways, even spending the night at their shared apartment.
God you missed them. You missed them so much.
That’s how you found yourself on a train into the city. Your laptop and assignments had been left behind at your dorm, determined to spend time with the two men that you had been neglecting recently. Your head rested against the cool glass of the window as you watched the cityscape speed by. You had been a terrible partner to them—too consumed in a routine that you weren’t even happy with and ended up neglecting them. The guys tried with you but you hadn’t with them. It wasn’t purposeful by any means. You loved them, they made you happy. So why had you unknowingly started pushing them away?
Neither of them had said anything to you about your recent change in behavior. They were still sending happy emojis in their messages to you, still dropping by every now and then to bring you food, they still kissed you and made love to you like nothing had changed—like you hadn’t been apart for as long as you had. When they called you their voices were still cheerful, they still asked you if you were taking care of yourself. They still cared about you despite their packed schedules. When did you stop doing the same?
The things you were occupied with weren’t as near as important as the things they did and yet they still managed to let you know that they cared about you–that they loved you. Why hadn’t you done the same? Why did you put so much distance between you and them?
You didn’t tell them you were coming over today. There was a high chance that they would be busy and this trip to see them would be for nothing. You find yourself standing in front of their apartment only an hour after you had boarded the train, hands tucked into your pockets as you hesitated on whether or not you should go inside. Would they even want to see you? Finally, you reached out—punching in the code you still knew all too well before pushing the door open.
The apartment was quiet as you shut the door before kicking off your shoes. Your heart sank as you took in the darkness of the room. Of course they wouldn’t be there.
You were pulled from your thoughts at the sound of shuffling coming from down the hall. Only moments later were you greeted with the sight of your boyfriend, clad in a tight black shirt and sweatpants—rubbing sleepily at his eyes as he stood in the doorway.
“Hyung you’re back ear—.”
The words died on his tongue as his eyes landed on you. The sleepiness that had once clouded his gaze was now replaced with shock.
“Y/n?”
You don’t know why but the sound of your name falling from his lips had tears prickling at your eyes.
“Binnie,” at the crack in your voice, Changbin’s making his way across the room and gathering you into his arms.
His touch causes the dam to break, the tears you had been holding back for weeks now finally beginning to fall at the warmth of his body against yours. You missed him, you missed them so fucking much.
Changbin held you as you cried, trying his best to soothe your sobs.
“Please don’t cry baby, I'm here.”
He’s here. You’re here with him and that’s all that mattered.
“You want to tell me what’s going on bun?”
The two of you were curled up in his bed, legs tangled together as Changbin wipes the remaining tears from your face.
“Just miss you both.”
Changbin smiles down at you, fingertips gently caressing the skin of your cheek. Your eyes flutter at the soft touch, relishing the feeling of his skin against yours.
“We miss you too baby. You have no idea.”
His arm that is tucked beneath your body pulls you closer to him, his left hand still tracing your features softly as he holds you against him.
“I realized how much I have been neglecting the two of you. You both reach out to me all the time, take a train just to drop food off to me, call me between schedules and I–I haven’t been—I’ve been so busy that I didn’t even realize I’m so—.”
Before you can utter your next words Changbin’s lips are on yours. He kisses you for a few moments, thumb caressing your cheek as he does so. You lean into his touch, sighing at the feeling of his lips against yours after so long. Changbin pulls back after a few more pecks, resting his forehead against yours.
“You aren’t neglecting us bun. We know that you are stressed and busy. I hate that we can’t be there for you more.”
His voice is sad and your heart aches.
“Binnie, the two of you have been more than perfect. You’re both busier than I am and yet you still find time to take care of me. I hate that I haven’t been doing the same. I feel like I don’t—I don’t deserve—.”
“Stop.”
Your eyes flicker up to Changbin’s as he pulls back to look down at you.
“Don’t think like that. You deserve us baby. We miss you, yes, but you’ve been busy and you talk to us when you can. You still make an effort for us. I know that it’s not as much as you would like for it to be but it’s enough—you’re enough. So please stop beating yourself up over this. Chan and I aren’t upset with you bun.”
You feel another tear slip from your eye, but before Changbin can brush it away you're pushing your face into his chest, grasping onto his shirt as you let more tears fall. You didn’t vocalize it explicitly but a part of you was afraid that the two of them were upset with you. That they were growing tired of this—tired of you.
“We aren’t going anywhere baby. You’ll always be ours and we’ll always be yours—even when we get busy, you’re the one thing that’s always on our mind. No amount of time that passes will ever change the way we feel about you.”
It was like Changbin was reading your mind and you were grateful for it. His words brought a comfort to you that you hadn’t felt in a long time.
“I love you Bin,” you sniffle against him, raising your lips to press a soft kiss to his throat.
“I love you too Y/n, more than anything.”
It’s at that moment that the two of you hear the front door open. You hear Chan’s voice calling out to the other and Changbin yells back that he’s in his bedroom.
You hear his footsteps getting closer and closer causing your heart to flutter at the thought of seeing him again.
The sight of his tousled hair and red nose had your chest clenching. Chan wears the same shocked expression Changbin had earlier as his eyes land on your form curled up against the other.
“Y/n? What are you doing here little one?”
“Our baby isn’t feeling the best,” Changbin speaks up, hand rubbing soothingly up your side.
Chan’s eyebrows furrowed at that, a pout kissing his lips as he made his way to the side of the bed. You feel the bed dip next to you and you turn to face Chan completely. Chan scoots closer to you, intertwining his legs with yours and Changbins before wrapping his arms around you as well. Changbin’s body presses into your backside, not wanting to detach himself from you either.
“What happened pretty?”
The two of you catch Chan up on how you have been feeling—Changbin taking over when you begin to cry again.
“Awe little one please don’t cry. It hurts me to see you this upset.”
You feel Chan wiping softly at your cheeks while Changbin presses a soft kiss to the top of your head.
“You know we love you right? You’re the best thing that’s ever happened to us.”
You lean into the warmth of Chan’s palm, turning to press a kiss against it.
“I want to hear you say it baby.”
You sniffle as Chan leans forward to pepper kisses against your cheek.
“Y-You both love me.”
“And,” Changbin pipes up from behind you as he bends to press a kiss to your shoulder, then your neck and finally your cheek.
“I’m—I’m the best thing that’s ever happened to you.”
Chan hums as he pulls away, nose nudging softly against yours—eyes filled with so much love as he cups your cheek once more.
“That’s right. Don’t ever forget it.”
And then he’s kissing you.
His lips glide against your own, kissing you as if it’s the last thing he’ll ever do. You feel Changbin stir behind you, pressing soft kisses anywhere he can to let you know that he’s there—that they're both there.
Chan pecks your lips, your nose and your cheek before he pulls back to look at you.
“You look exhausted my love.”
You couldn’t argue with him there. It had taken your last bit of energy to get you here after pulling another all-nighter.
“What do you say you rest little one? Then later we'll order from that place down the street that you like, hm?”
You settle back against Changbin, fingers interlocking with his where they rest over your stomach and the other reaching out to tug Chan closer to you.
“As long as you both stay with me.”
The two men giggled as they snuggled against you, pressing soft kisses anywhere they could reach. Their eyes mirrored the same emotion you were sure was present in your gaze as you looked between the two of them.
“We aren’t going anywhere bun.”
“There’s nowhere we’d rather be than by your side little one.”
With your legs tangled together, an exchange of sleepy kisses and soft ‘I love yous’ being whispered between the three of you, you knew that it was the same for you—that there was nowhere else you would rather be.
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roomsofangel · 3 months
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ⓘ ◛ ໋𓈒 🪷 MASTERLIST . . . ! 🧋𖥔 ݁ ˖
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lotus-dly · 2 years
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MULTI-MEMBER FIC RECOMMENDATIONS . ˳○ ˎ- 🌿
#NOTE!! — remember to read the warnings on fics because some themes may not be for everyone 🌱
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skz pack universe by @leviackermanscleaningbuddy
when they feel insecure by @kim-seung-mo
wolfgang by @mostlycompetentwriter
realizing you’ve fallen for them by @hwangsify
fool me twice ft. hyunlix by @taeyongdoyoung
even a fool knows ft. hyunho by taeyongdoyoung
you’re insecure about your hip dips by @seungly
first i love yous by @starlostseungmin
finding a curvy/chubby woman hot by @lustfuldevils
when you tug their shirt for attention by @yedammi
when you hold their face by yedammi
you get hurt at isac by @mementoskz
asking to hold hands during oral by @dreamescapeswriting
the way i loved you by dreamescapeswriting
the zone by @cb97percent
collegesluts.com (ongoing) by @hyuneater
jealousy is… by @whatsk-poppinhomies
he calls you clingy by dreamescapeswriting
more and more ft. 3racha by @lavenderbexlatte
2am ft. 3racha by @my-favorite-bangchan
what you heard ft. changjin by @binniesthighs
i am who? ft. binchan by mostlycompetentwriter
all in ft. binchan by mostlycompetentwriter
take care by multifandomfantasies
daechwita ft.hyunchan by cb97percent
storm clouds at midnight ft.ot8 by sunmoonjune
more than us ft.minsung by leviackermanscleaningbuddy
they call you clingy by yangfleurs
stray hybrids by horatiok (ao3)
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lotus-dly · 2 years
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﹒◌﹒┄﹒🎮 — list of skz mtls + other skz asks
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#:MTLS
big spoon vs little spoon
comfort you after a long day
squish your cheeks randomly
freak out when you get your period
get matching tattoos
act cute in front of you
get distant when they don’t feel well
pamper you during your pms/period
#:MISC
favorite places to kiss
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lotus-dly · 2 years
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₊˙ ◌ ⁎˚ NAVI ☕️
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ON HIATUS
▒⋮一ABOUT — lotus | early 20’s | she/her
other blogs: All future works will be posted to @ppiri-bahng + @linosnoot + ao3 ♡
▒⋮二MASTERLIST
▒⋮三FIC RECOMMENDATIONS
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