here we are again. (my highly specific interpretation of) durgetash as peep show momence!!

now featuring Orin!

was rewatching the pilot again yesterday for fic reasons and thinking again about the sherlock-style screen annotations they had when barry was doing CSI work that they literally only did in the first ep and then never revisited again, presumably because they realized it'd be far too much effort to work out the details on such a precise level

and thinking about like. that barry allen with the hyper-precise exact measurements that he did by eye (with joe shaking his head in awe so you know that he's a CSI supergenius) vs. the leonard snart who timed his heists to the exact nanosecond (which again, presuming they ditched because it's a logistical nightmare to write dialogue that nitpicky and obsessive, and would be such a fucking pain to do on a week-to-week basis). like. yet another reason they are soulmates tbh. is audhd4autistic a thing the same way t4t is a thing? if it isn't then i'm making it a thing

Friday the 13th tattoo plans? 👀😈

no! im good for now 😌 unrelated but the friday 13th walk-ins make me nervous because i always think things must feel a bit rushed? i’ve never been to a flash day but i do vaguely worry that id feel pressured about placements and sizes and the artist might feel pressured to work quickly because people are hanging around waiting. might be a bad assumption but it’s a little fear i have i guess! am always admiring friday 13th flash sheets though. v good v superstitious 10/10

first of all i've been an overzealous feminist since i was 10 years old

sometimes to avoid running into a murder hattori decides to book a place thats already had murders. 30/70 chance of actually working

which was more culturally significant, the renaissance or hermitgang

we're so back

I think also acknowledging that the hate Kate got eased down when Meghan came. There was retroactive amnesia by critics. And that ties into racism: the English Rose vs the half Black woman. There’s a lot of layers there that they can explore.

100000000000%.

no but the chiang rai trip 😭 i'm thinking of that giant ass bathtub in which New allegedly fell asleep.

thank you for sending me an ask because boy did i need the flimsiest of excuses to talk about that Chiang Rai trip because it lives rent free in my head.

The fact that P'Aof was there on the first day so there had to have been some official intent to release a vlog about it (like TutorYim Phuket trip) but there isn't one. For the longest time I thought this video was the official vlog but it isn't. My hypothesis is that they didn't realize just what they had unleashed upon the world until after the trip happened and then just....decided not to poke the beast any further.

The lack of cameras. Yes there were multiple lives and we were fed very well but the fact remains that these dates are WORK and I have no doubt that they got some sort of compensation for the first two. But both Zee and New repeated multiple times how Zee paid for the trip AND the hotel. They've IG lived their ENTIRE dates before this but suddenly they're gone for 4 days and what footage did we actually get of it? Very little. This was a holiday first and foremost and just quickly hurtled into like DATE date category and I don't think ANYONE was prepared - LEAST of all Zee.

Yes of course the bath tub. Of course the bathtub!!! But also I will bet money that New spent the entire trip hardcore seducing Zee and the bathtub was likely one of those attempts. Jury's out on whether New succeeded overall but the bathtub attempt had definitely failed. They talked about how Zee booked it out of there when New got into the tub which will never not be funny to me. Why so reluctant to chill - the sofa doesn't face the tub - while your Nong soaks my dude?

Have you seen the room? I will fall in love with my arch nemesis in this room (and I mean racist Jen when I say this). WHO LET THEM GO THERE UNSUPERVISED??? It is bonkers to me that this was allowed in this extremely public manner.

The sister saying Zee loves Nunew in the local dialect during the live. As a sibling myself I say I would never do or say anything to interfere with my sister's work. Embarrassing her in front of her lover is like my god given duty.

The extended family. Its one thing to bring New to his family home. But the fact that they drove out to meet like Zee's great aunt and stuff????????? On Songkran??? No words. I'm Asian and I just idk I just cant imagine doing this with a casual friend. Like I would leave my adult friend at the very expensive hotel I already paid for while I did this stuff on my own.

Day 4 coffee date Zee saying "I wonder if this was too much." NO SHIT ZEE THIS IS OCCURRING TO YOU NOW? After FOUR DAYS of extended honeymoon with your coworker - the hotel staff offered them ROSE PETALS FFS like please spare me - and like 38 different boundaries of work place etiquette crossed and Zee is like 'did I do too much?' and New obviously being the insatiable love beast he is was like 'No~~this was just right'

Sometimes I think about P'Aof and I'm like how does he stand it? Knowing that this entire maddening situation is a beast of his own making.

My dream Magic 8 Ball songs would have to be "The (Shipped) Gold Standard" and "Heaven's Gate"! They are two of my faves, and I would love to hear them just once! Oh, and "So Much(For) Stardust", of course!

omg excellent choices for sure!!! heaven's gate live would be soooo beautiful <3 THO im especially partial to smfs :( i can't believe the tour is called so much for tourdust and they have the audacity to not even include the title track for the album for which the tour is named :((((

if you wanna send me your dream magic 8 ball songs wink wonk

Dumb as hell to show Caroline the vision of the letter after she's already burnt the letter

The aku x reader x chuuya smut was so delicious the combination of them perfect ily you write so well

HEHEHEHEHE aw thank you so much anon bb!!! i really appreciate u and ur words and you taking a moment to send me this (´∀｀)♡ and i’m super happy that u enjoyed it!!! i just think that they’re a very interesting dynamic you know??? because (as far as i’ve seen) aku seems to respect chuuya in a way that feels both honourable and nonchalant. and i think if chuuya were with a girlie aku wanted/was attracted to, he’d feel this back and forth tug between feeling jealous and feeling almost proud, in a way, of his superior; almost like he looks up to him while also wishing he was in his place. he can both respect him and feel that desire to want to be him.

also that uhhhhhhh drama cd of chuuya giving him a bath????? yeah, that. (*/ω＼*)

all the advice on how to start waking up early and going to the gym is like don’t forget to start gradually! set your alarm five minutes earlier every day! don’t worry if you can’t do a full workout, you can build up to it! but my very specific problem is that if i half-ass something my brain will put it in the “waste of time” column and i’ll be like well that was shitty and boring and i didn’t even do a full workout. so there’s no point making a habit out of it. so now i’m experimenting with what i’m calling the “cold turkey brrr” approach which is that i go to sleep in my gym shorts i set my sunrise alarm for 6:30 (so the light starts coming on at 6) (there is no natural light in my apartment at the moment because of construction work and scaffolding) (which is why i got the sunrise alarm) and then i go outside in the cold in my shorts and i’m like brrrr and i walk to the gym (10 minutes) (part of the workout) and i do three different weight things (one is the pull-up machine which is soooo fun) for three sets of 10 reps each (it ain’t much but it’s honest work) then i get back home and it’s just about 7:30 and i eat breakfast and then i get to work at a reasonable time. anyway i’ve done this Once (this morning) and i intend to just keep doing it every morning wish me luck :\

this may be the first time ive felt genuine excitement at being out to my family

things causing me anxiety rn:

really need dad to understand that him getting a job basically to have something to do since he's retired means he should be the one taking time off work to get mom to/from her appointments and not me or my aunt, and he can absolutely tell his employer he needs an afternoon in April and a morning in May off for "medical appointments" like that's NBD, no employer is going to fire you on the spot for that (I think his anxiety comes from just Never having to take time off when he was working before, but he has to get used to it now!) Anyway me and my aunt informed him of this today (kindly) but I'm worried he won't take the time off even though we all agree it's unlikely mom will actually go to her appointments if she has to call a cab for herself (mentally we just don't think she's capable of getting around by herself very much anymore, like finding dr's offices in the hospital, and her anxiety would probably make her just Not go anyway).

also been having unsettling and gross dreams all this week and idk if it's a lingering period symptom or what but I'm really tired of waking up feeling gross and wondering what the fuck my brain is doing