the desire to ruin myself completely and the desire to become fucking perfect is constantly at fight and it’s just so ugghzghzhhszhhhhhg

To the person reading this, I hope tonight treats you gently, and that tomorrow looks brighter. 

I wish they would just shut up

Stop yelling

Stop arguing

Just stop stop stop

Leave me alone

be careful with your words. once they are said, they can be only forgiven, not forgotten.

Walking healing vibrations

I🌸am okay!🌸

You🌺are🌺okay!🌺

We🌼will🌼be🌼okay!🌼

We’re gonna survive this, love, keep holding on💕

When you’re lonely and depressed but then your fp texts you an apology that they’ve just been busy and not ignoring you

BAM

Instant mood lift

i used to crave your attention so badly, but when i got it i realized it wasn’t worth anything coming from someone like you

one! one thing wrong with me. two! two thing wrong with me. three!

//TW//

I wish nobody cared about me so I wouldn’t feel bad if I offed myself

//TW//

I wish I could tear my thighs to shreds and get lost in the pain. I want to fucking scream and cry and say what’s I’m my mind, but I’ve been taught to shut up for so damn long that nobody can see through the poker face that I put on. I can’t even speak properly anymore because I’m trapped in this hell-house and rarely speak to anyone. I’m yelled at, called lazy, fat, selfish, disrespectful, emotionally manipulated on the daily. My depression is called “acting” and “moping” and “stupid”. I’m so fucking tired of it. I’m so god damn fucking sick and tired of it.. I don’t know how much longer I can keep doing this

I just want to be wanted… am i so hard to understand and love to have such a thing?