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Fighting
A)n: Heyyyy... I'm back :)
Warning: none, angst, yelling, arguing
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Steven
He doesn’t yell
But it’s that exactly that makes it worse
He refuses to yell, but he’ll be a sarcastic little shit
“Oh really? How lovely.”
“Oh my dearest apologies, my liege, I didn’t realize I had to agree with everything you had to say.”
Steven won’t back down, he’ll keep this energy until he’s done talking about it and then he’ll ignore you
He won’t ask how your day's been, he won't hug you, he won't even look at you
And it’ll drive you crazy
The only reason this started was because Steven missed a date and didn’t acknowledge that he would be late or wanted to cancel
He was working late for Donna again, but this time it just set off something in his head
Normally you wouldn’t be too upset about him missing a date, seeing as he’s got other people to take care of and he’s got a shitty boss, but when you asked him about the date, he blew up
“God, it was one date, why do you have to nag me about it?”
“Excuse me? I wasn’t trying to nag you, Steven, I just wanted to know what happened.”
“You’re not my bloody parent, you don’t need to know!”
“Take that back.”
“No.”
And now you're in your room and Steven's sleeping on the couch
That night will give him time to realize he was in the wrong and he'll feel super guilty
When he wakes up with a stiff back and sore neck, he'll think he deserves it
He'll wait until you come out to get up
And then he's following you around like a lost puppy
He won't say anything, but he'll look so sad and just be following you everywhere you go
It would be cute if you weren't upset with him
You'll have to be the one to start a conversation, but as soon as you say a single word to him, Steven's apologizing faster than you can process
"Love, I'm so so sorry. I was an absolute knob, I was so stressed and upset yesterday and I know that's not a reason to treat you so terribly, but it was such a bad day. I promise I'll make it up with 3, no, 5 dates! We can do whatever you want today and tomorrow and all week! Please forgive me, darling. I know I don't deserve it, but please just give me another chance."
He looks like he's about to burst into tears and kneel for you
(Which would be hot in a different setting)
Depending on how passionate you feel about this, it might take some time to forgive him, but he's there every second of the day
Or if you want him to leave you alone, he'll respect that
You'll find little notes of lovey poems around the flat and your favorite snacks littered around the living room
He honestly feels like a terrible partner so when you do decide to forgive him, just give him a kiss and hug him
He'll cry and apologize a bunch more so just pet his head and tell him it's ok
He'll genuinely sit you down and ask if there's something he can do to get his 'anger issues' under control
Poor baby doesn't have anger issues, he just has a shitty boss <3
Marc
He yells
He yells loud and painful things
He doesn’t care, he can’t bother to care
He’s angry and that’s all he feels
He can’t think past it, it’s like he sees red
He’ll shout until his throat is raw, but he’ll get as many insults and sarcastic comments he can before that happens
He knows what he’s doing is wrong, he knows the only reason you’re arguing is because of him
But he’s not backing down
He wants to hurt you and he does
And it makes everything worse for at least a week
Marc came home absolutely wreaked from a fight and refused your help, preferring to drink and just sit there
If you weren’t so upset at the fact he refused your help and instead wanted the help of alcohol, you’d yell at him about staining the couch with his blood
You’ll either have to deal with Marc breaking out into an argument after the initial one, or leave to stay somewhere else
If you come back the next day, Marc will still be upset
He won’t start yelling at you again, but he’ll ignore you
And it really just stops there
It’s the silent treatment for a week
He'll make dinner for you and all that, but he won't talk to you
He'll stare at you, wondering if you'll be the one to apologize
Or he'll be staring at you to see if you're watching him
You're not
He'll stay silent for an entire week, festering in his anger and guilt until it overflows
And when you come back home from work or being out late, he's waiting for you
And he looks like a kicked puppy
It was no surprise Marc had no idea how to apologize and admit/accept his feelings but at this moment, none of that mattered
His guilt and the feeling of missing you outweighed his discomfort of voicing his feelings
He'll start with an apology, saying how sorry he was and how terrible he felt
He didn't give any excuse or reason for his anger, he just apologized and stood there
He expects you to yell at him, leave him, insult him
Just gently take him in your arms and kiss his cheek
You don't even have to tell him anything, he'll promise to never yell at you like that again
"If I do, you can hit me as hard as you want."
Marc will say, though if you did actually hit him, he'd probably cry
He'll be so genuine with his words and.the nail in the coffin was the fact that he promised
Marc never makes promises, even if he knows he can fulfill them
But he swears up and down that he will never yell at you again
And he does everything in his power to reverse or heal the damage his words did to you
Even going out of his comfort zone
He loves you so much and he doesn't understand why you're still with him, but he thanks every God and Goddess that you are
Jake
He’s dangerously silent
He’ll stand there completely blanked face, eyes set in a slight glare as you argue about something that was definitely his fault
Maybe he missed a date and didn’t bother to let you know he wasn’t coming or wrote off your worry about a few injuries and called you ‘clingy’ and ‘overbearing’
Either way, he doesn’t respond to your anger, just standing there like he didn’t care
And it hurt
Once you were done explaining how you felt or what Jake did wrong, he’ll roll his eyes, pull out a cigarette and sit in the couch
He’ll play the baseball game he may have missed or just watch the news to really set in that something that boring was more interesting than your feelings
“Do you seriously find the news more important than our relationship?”
He won’t look at you
“I can’t believe this. If you care so fucking little, then why are you still here?”
“This is my house.”
“Then maybe I should go if it’s just your house.”
“You should.”
And you do
You go to a friends house, or a hotel, somewhere that you can rest for the night because you’re obviously not going to get anywhere with Jake and you can’t stand his attitude
The second you’re out of the room, Jake curses and throws the tv remote at the wall
He throws everything that he can without any worry of breaking something or getting a noise complaint
He'll throw bottles, plates, pillows, books
Once he's run out of steam, he'll shamefully clean up everything, throwing glass away and putting pillows back
That's give him the time he needs to realize 'oh shit, I fucked up'
He won't come out and admit it instantly, no
He'll fester in his guilt and figure out what exactly he should say
He'll even plan out when he should breathe during his apology
And when you get home, no matter when that is, Jake it waiting patiently with breakfast, lunch, or dinner
He'll give a nervous smile and walk up to you, giving you a hesitant kiss on your cheek before pulling you to the living room couch
Your plate of food is already made and somehow still warm despite Jake no knowing when you'd be back
He'll give an awkward apology, explaining how he's still not used to being something more than a protector for Marc and Steven, how he's still learning to let people in, how he loves you with all his heart despite being such a monster
He might start crying, but he'll try not to show you
He doesn't want to show vulnerability, but he knows it's important in a relationship
So he'll just ask very quietly if he can hug you
Is you say no, he'll nod in understanding as tears fall into his lap
He'll quietly mutter another apology and just sit there, unsure as to what to do
If you say yes, however, he'll gently wrap his arms around your waist and bury his head in your neck
He'll silently cry, muttering 'i love you' over and over again until you say it back
Just rub his back and kiss his head, tell him you forgive him or need time to forgive him and he'll understand either way
He loves you with his entire being, almost like he lives off of loving you
#marc spector x reader#steven grant x reader#jake lockley x reader#marc spector#marvel#jake lockley#moon knight#steven grant#jake lockley x gn!reader#marc spector x gn!reader#steven grant x gn!reader#starlight writes
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Claustrophobic
A/n: credits go to @ivystoryweaver for giving me the idea from their Jake Lockley post ('Who probably isn't scared of anything but that sarcophagus scared him') Also, part 1 cause it's already super long
Warnings:
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Jake Lockley is many things
Violent, brave, fierce, flirty, determined, strong, loyal
But scared? Never
"Mi corazón, it's just a bug, nothing to be scared of."
"Just a little thunder, don't be scared."
"No bad guys will ever get you, my love, not with me around. No need to be scared."
Jake takes pride in how brave he is
When he fights, he never hesitates to do what's needed
Steven refuses to hurt anyone more than necessary and Marc holds too much guilt for his actions
Not Jake
Merciless, cold, exact, scary, unwavering, dangerous, monster, to name a few others
When he was in the Duat in the sarcophagus, he thought it was some kind of joke
Who would lock up the most dangerous Moon Knight alter?
He might even chuckle if he didn't remember what just happened
Shot
Twice
One for Marc and one for Steven
But Jake's still here, in the shadows, ready to save everyone and protect the body
Against all odds, he will fight and live for this body, for Marc and Steven
He pounds on the door, ready to break it and get his body, get his brothers out of here
But it doesn't break
He hits and kicks, but it doesn't even budge
His breathing quickens
Something weird is washing over him
Like a cold chill
He continues to hit and scratch and kick and punch
Nothing
He screams
Nothing
When he hears Steven and Marc, he thinks he'll be saved
They'll help him, right?
But they walk on
"Wait, no, I'm still here! I'm still in here! ¡Déjame salir!"
It takes a few more minutes to realize what's happening to him
Fear
This paralyzing, heavy feeling is fear
That's hilarious, Jake Lockley laughs in the face of fear
But he feels it tainting every inch of his heart, his mind, his soul
He doesn't like the feeling, to put it short
So when months pass, Harrow has been taken care of, the alters have established trust in each other, and Jake's shoved down any resemblance of fear deep down
He meets you
Perfect, amazing, smart, incredibly attractive you
The way you look at him, the way you comfort him, the way you take care of him after rough patrols
You're perfect in Jake's eyes
And the only person that can make him nervous
But that's for another time
One day, he decides to take you on a date
It was a lovely date, really
Jake, ever the romantic, made sure everything was perfect
He just didn't take into account that new feeling
The new fear
The new phobia
The date went fine, perfect even
He had a great time, you had a great time, it was great
But then Jake felt... Weird
You both got into his car and started driving home
And Jake felt this... Creeping feeling inside his chest
Everything feels small
There was pressure against his chest, his lungs felt like they were being squeezed out of him
When did the car get so small?
And when did you get so far away?
#jake lockley x reader#jake lockley#marvel#moon knight#jake lockley x gn!reader#marc spector#steven grant
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Omg I'm literally freaking out I love your work so much- thank you!!!
Steven is such an angel and Marc needs reassurance and Jake needs consistency. They're all so broken, they just need a little bit of cuddles to piece themselves back together
And I'm ok, thank you!!! Idk what was going on but I'm just glad I didn't visit the wonderful world of Oz lol
How They Cuddle
A/n: Started this while I was stuck in traffic with a tornado warning going on. Later found out 4 touched down around me so basically God said I couldn't die until I posted this
Warnings: none, fluff, angst, semi serious? Talks of death, read with that in mind on Jake's part
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Steven
Tummy hugger
Doesn't matter the size, how hot it is inside, he will latch onto your waist and rest his head on your tummy
Prefers a bare tummy so he can feel your soft skin, but he's happy as long as he gets to hold you
And if you pet his head or play with his hair too? He's a goner
Those sleeping problems he has from time to time? Gone
Those night terrors that keep him up for hours? A thing of the past
He sleeps best when it's with you and when it's on your perfect, soft, warm tummy? He sleeps like a baby
There are, of course, nights where he's had a really bad day and he needs a bit more from you
Those are the nights where he'll ask you to lay on him
He wants to be surrounded by the thing he loves the most
And if you even try to say 'oh, I'll crush you!' he will forcibly pull you on top of him
"Yea right, you forget I was an avatar of Khonshu, love. I'm buff as fuck." He would mumble while burying his head in your hair or shoulder
It's not necessarily a lie, but it gets you to laugh
Pressure therapy is strong with this one
He has so many weighted blankets, it's ridiculous
And usually he doesn't use them now that he has you, but when there are days when you're not home or don't feel like cuddling, Steven will break out his massive pile of weighted blankets
It's honestly really cute seeing Steven all bundled up and only his head poking out of a mountain of blankets
Marc
Lays directly on top of you
Lowkey scared of crushing you so it takes a while for him to admit how he'd prefer to cuddle, but it happens eventually
Marc wants to protect you, you're the love of his life and he couldn't take it if he lost you
So he lays on you to be your shield
If anyone breaks into the apartment, which they probably wouldn't even make it past the front door before Marc absolutely destroys them, but if they do he's the first one they'll attack
And as long as you're safe, he's happy
It's a deeper reason than the others, but it's true
If he's had a bad day, it'll be different
He'll curl up into you, looking so small and vulnerable
He'll bury his face in your chest and hold onto you like you're his life line
Which you are
If you play with his hair and rub his back, maybe even hum to him, he'll pass out in no time
He feels safe in your arms and while he's not used to feeling so vulnerable, he feels like he can be with you
On the other hand, there are very rare nights where Marc will ask you to suffocate him
Not really, of course
He just needs the pressure of you laying on top of him to chase away his dark thoughts
Works every time
Not during nightmares though
Never try that during or after a nightmare
Marc will panic so hard, he might accidentally hurt you and he would rather die than do that to you
Jake
Jake is a little different than Steven and Marc
He doesn't have a preference of cuddles, as long as he can feel your skin somewhere on him, he's ok
It's not in a weird way though
If he can feel your skin, he can feel how warm you are and if he can feel how warm you are, he knows you're not dead
It's morbid, but he's seen so much and caused so much death so he's trying to reassure himself that you're not dead too
He'll have his hands under your shirt and resting on your hips, or hike your leg over his hip to feel your thighs, or sleep with his cheek pressed against your tummy
Anywhere is fair game to him as long as you're comfortable
But then there are nights where he would rather die than feel your skin
It's usually nights where he's had to kill quite a few people and while he usually handles death quite well, he has you now
He's learned to be something other than a tool for Khonshu and a shield for Marc and Steven
Those nights, he'll lay next to you and watch you breathe
The only part of you he touches is your wrist to feel your heart beat
Similar to Steven, he will ask you to occasionally lay on him, just so he can feel you pressed up against him
Not in a sexual way, though he's not ashamed to admit he would enjoy that, just in a way so he can feel a bit more of you than he normal would
And honestly, when as asks you to lay on him, it leads to some kind of make out session
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How They Cuddle
A/n: Started this while I was stuck in traffic with a tornado warning going on. Later found out 4 touched down around me so basically God said I couldn't die until I posted this
Warnings: none, fluff, angst, semi serious? Talks of death, read with that in mind on Jake's part
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Steven
Tummy hugger
Doesn't matter the size, how hot it is inside, he will latch onto your waist and rest his head on your tummy
Prefers a bare tummy so he can feel your soft skin, but he's happy as long as he gets to hold you
And if you pet his head or play with his hair too? He's a goner
Those sleeping problems he has from time to time? Gone
Those night terrors that keep him up for hours? A thing of the past
He sleeps best when it's with you and when it's on your perfect, soft, warm tummy? He sleeps like a baby
There are, of course, nights where he's had a really bad day and he needs a bit more from you
Those are the nights where he'll ask you to lay on him
He wants to be surrounded by the thing he loves the most
And if you even try to say 'oh, I'll crush you!' he will forcibly pull you on top of him
"Yea right, you forget I was an avatar of Khonshu, love. I'm buff as fuck." He would mumble while burying his head in your hair or shoulder
It's not necessarily a lie, but it gets you to laugh
Pressure therapy is strong with this one
He has so many weighted blankets, it's ridiculous
And usually he doesn't use them now that he has you, but when there are days when you're not home or don't feel like cuddling, Steven will break out his massive pile of weighted blankets
It's honestly really cute seeing Steven all bundled up and only his head poking out of a mountain of blankets
Marc
Lays directly on top of you
Lowkey scared of crushing you so it takes a while for him to admit how he'd prefer to cuddle, but it happens eventually
Marc wants to protect you, you're the love of his life and he couldn't take it if he lost you
So he lays on you to be your shield
If anyone breaks into the apartment, which they probably wouldn't even make it past the front door before Marc absolutely destroys them, but if they do he's the first one they'll attack
And as long as you're safe, he's happy
It's a deeper reason than the others, but it's true
If he's had a bad day, it'll be different
He'll curl up into you, looking so small and vulnerable
He'll bury his face in your chest and hold onto you like you're his life line
Which you are
If you play with his hair and rub his back, maybe even hum to him, he'll pass out in no time
He feels safe in your arms and while he's not used to feeling so vulnerable, he feels like he can be with you
On the other hand, there are very rare nights where Marc will ask you to suffocate him
Not really, of course
He just needs the pressure of you laying on top of him to chase away his dark thoughts
Works every time
Not during nightmares though
Never try that during or after a nightmare
Marc will panic so hard, he might accidentally hurt you and he would rather die than do that to you
Jake
Jake is a little different than Steven and Marc
He doesn't have a preference of cuddles, as long as he can feel your skin somewhere on him, he's ok
It's not in a weird way though
If he can feel your skin, he can feel how warm you are and if he can feel how warm you are, he knows you're not dead
It's morbid, but he's seen so much and caused so much death so he's trying to reassure himself that you're not dead too
He'll have his hands under your shirt and resting on your hips, or hike your leg over his hip to feel your thighs, or sleep with his cheek pressed against your tummy
Anywhere is fair game to him as long as you're comfortable
But then there are nights where he would rather die than feel your skin
It's usually nights where he's had to kill quite a few people and while he usually handles death quite well, he has you now
He's learned to be something other than a tool for Khonshu and a shield for Marc and Steven
Those nights, he'll lay next to you and watch you breathe
The only part of you he touches is your wrist to feel your heart beat
Similar to Steven, he will ask you to occasionally lay on him, just so he can feel you pressed up against him
Not in a sexual way, though he's not ashamed to admit he would enjoy that, just in a way so he can feel a bit more of you than he normal would
And honestly, when as asks you to lay on him, it leads to some kind of make out session
#marc spector x reader#steven grant x reader#jake lockley x reader#marc spector#marvel#jake lockley#moon knight#steven grant#jake lockley x gn!reader#marc spector x gn!reader#steven grant x gn!reader
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Randomly Cuddling Them
A/n: Hahaha hiiii (；^ω^）it's meeeee I'm baaaaack In all seriousness, I've been dealing with a shit ton of stuff and summer depression is kicking my ass. I'm sorry I haven't posted in ages even when I promised I would, I just haven't been able to motivate myself to write. I won't promise you guys a schedule or another fic anytime soon, but I will say that I have no intentions of deleting this blog or stopping writing all together. Just be patient with me and to those who have requested things, I'm sorry I haven't answered them. They'll all come in due time :) In the meantime, have some fluff to make you forget about your depression.
Warnings: none, fluff, slight angst(?)
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Steven
Welcomes the cuddle with open arms
He'll ask if you’re ok a few times, just wanting to make sure his darling is feeling well
He'll pet your hair and start talking about his day or a new book he's read to fill the silence
"You wouldn't believe the ending though! The main character has to sacrifice his "
Just sort of talks about anything to fill the comfortable silence, hoping it'll distract you from anything that's stressing you out
Definitely playfully brags to Jake and Marc in the headspace during and after the cuddles
"They wanted to cuddle with me :D"
Once you're ready to pull away, he'll give you a kiss on the forehead and continue reading or whatever it was before, but keeps an eye on you
He isn't sure what brought on the cuddles, and while he loves them, he wants to make sure you're ok
If you start looking upset or frustrated with a task, he'll gently pull you away from whatever you're doing and sit you on the couch
"Lovey, you can finish it later, just sit with me for a bit yeah?"
He'll pull you into his chest and read aloud from his book or ramble about something to distract you
He'll play with your fingers, interlacing them and kissing your finger tips before holding your hand to his face
"Love you, darling"
He'll say in the sweetest voice, you'll forget all about the stresses of the day or the stresses of tomorrow
Mission accomplished
Marc
He's a little caught off guard, but pulls you into his arms eagerly
He'll never turn down cuddles (cough touch starved cough)
He'll run his fingers through your hair or rub his hand up and down your back
He'll ask if you're ok, but won't push past that
He'll stay silent unless you ask him to talk
"Uh... I saw a lizard earlier today. It reminded me of you cause it was cute :)"
He's trying his best
If you stay in his arms for a long period of time, he'll start to think something might be wrong so he'll start making really really bad jokes
"I went to the deli earlier and the sausage they gave me was the wurst :D"
He won't stop until you laugh and he's not above tickling you until you pee your pants
It's like he unlocks a little box inside his head of terrible jokes and playfulness just for the purpose of seeing you smile
After the cuddles session, he'll watch over you carefully
If you start looking stressed or tired or anything but relaxed, he'll pop off with another joke
"Ya know, babe, I used to hate facial hair. But then it grew on me."
Is that a frown on your perfect lips? Not on his watch
"I don't think I told you this before, but I used to be able to play piano by ear. Now I have to play it with my hands."
Eventually, if you start looking too stressed, he'll just pull you into another cuddle session
"Can't have my baby getting stressed."
He'll explain, kissing you on the forehead and shushing you if you try to leave
He'll carry you to bed or the couch, locking you underneath him with his head on your chest
"So comfy, might just fall asleep here."
He snores loudly, trying to coax a giggle or two out of you
And when you fall asleep from the warmth he gives off, he'll watch you with love in his eyes
"Goodnight, babe. I love you."
Jake
There're two ways this could go depending on how he feels
He could be very smug about it, hold you tightly to his chest, mutter things like 'poor bebito/a, so needy for their Papi~' and make sexual or teasing jokes to lighten the mood
Or he could hold you securely in his arms, run his fingers across your back, occasionally kiss your head, and ask in a hushed voice 'what's wrong, mi amor?'
He thrives on physical affection, so either way he's incredibly happy to give it to you
Whether it be a quick kiss, setting his hand on the small of your back as he walks by, resting his hand on your thigh as he drives, or just touching your knee with his in a crowded space, he loves all of it
And depending on why you suddenly held onto him, he'll be very attentive
If he's making jokes when you just want to be held, he'll pick up in it right away and mutter a small apology with a kiss
He'll hum a song he heard on the radio, he'll keep his breathing long and slow to help calm you down if needed, he'll even read you one of Steven's 'boring' books
He's like Marc in a way, they'll both do absolutely everything in their power to make you smile or laugh if the situation calls for it
If you've gotten your fill of cuddles and start to pull away, he'll pout and pull you back down, muttering something about feeling cold without you on top of him
Which is a lie, they run extremely hot which has cancelled many cuddle sessions in the summer because 'It's too hot, Jake! And don't give me those puppy eyes!'
He refuses to let you go until you explicitly tell him you want him to
He'll act all sad, but he lets you go after a passionate kiss
Openly watches you closely afterwards, determined to see any slip of annoyance or frustration so he can whisk you away to your shared room and cuddle the stress away
And the second your brow twitches in frustration, he's coming up behind you and hugging you
"Bebito/a, dance with me."
He'll say, already swaying to the music playing in his head
He'll spin you around and subtly drag you away from the chore or work you were doing with a charming smile and his swaying hips
When you've rested your head on his chest and sigh softly, following the shuffling of his feet and sway of his hips, he knows he's succeeded in calming you down
#marc spector x reader#steven grant x reader#jake lockley x reader#marc spector#marvel#jake lockley#moon knight#steven grant#jake lockley x gn!reader#marc spector x gn!reader#steven grant x gn!reader#starlight writes
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I'm gonna be real, I forgot this account existed??? I've been taking care of my baby brother and absorbing character ai content so I probably won't be posting again until the 5th of next month when I'm off baby duty??? I'm so sorry :'
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FIRST OF ALL: SHIT THAT HURT. why do I do this to myself
Are you happy? Are you proud??? CONGRATULATIONS I GUESS, YOU DID IT AGAIN. this fic hit close to home in its own sadistic way, and I couldn't thank you enough for taking my request. it was perfect, angsty and heartbreaking, no sugarcoating. perfect
On another note, I just wanted to add to something you mentioned about a second part. if it's alright, and sorry in advance since I'm kind of shit at explaining myself clearly as seen in my last ask, I wanted to correct what I really meant by "reader protecting them", as in they are maybe in a similar situation as Marc, Steven and Jake. Perhaps they're also a vigilante caught up in some deep shit and feel the boys deserve better than dealing with them
It's good either way though, just wanted to clarify that. Reader protecting themselves from the moon knight business is a good prompt too, so whatever you chose to go with is great
Once again, thank you
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Divorce pt. 3
A/n: Thank you for clarifying! I'll be happy to write reader as a mercenary/physically dangerous person! Also IM SO FUCKING SORRY I TOOK SO LONG TO ANSWER THIS PLEASE FORGIVE ME I LOVE YOUR ASKS BUT TIME JUST GOT AWAY FROM ME SO FAST ;-; (p.p.s I hope this isn't too short and I hope this is what you wanted, you deserve so much compensation :'))
Warnings: talk of violence, talk of depression, talk of guilt, angst, no chance of a happy ending
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Steven
He's more likely to believe you as soon as you explain why you left
Only because this isn't something he could see someone lying about
Being a mercenary or someone that lives in violence? That's not something you should lie about
Especially when Marc is seething in the corner of his mind, just begging for a reason to front and yell at you
So he hears you out, makes you a cup of tea
(He'll never admit it, but he still catches himself making an extra cuppa for you late at night)
Steven will end up crying for you
He's mad, of course, but he suddenly feels guilty
Did he make you feel like you couldn't talk to him about this kind of stuff?
Did something he do make you think he would hate you for this?
Steven didn't know, but offered you the utmost comfort
He couldn't stop himself, he just fell back into his old ways and hadn't even realized until Marc yelled at him for it
He kinda pulls away really awkwardly before asking you every single question he could about why you left
And he understands
He doesn't want to, he wants to be mad, he wants to yell and scream and throw things
But he doesn't
And he knows he shouldn't
So he sits patiently and lets you speak
Afterwards, he asks you to leave with a promise of keeping in contact
He's thought of the possibility of your presence getting him in trouble or danger, but he doesn't really care
He's used to danger, at this point he doesn't even mind it
And it's worth it for you
Everything is worth it for you
Marc
Believes you 100%
Not
He thinks you're just trying to save yourself and get rid of any guilt you might have
He doesn't believe for a millisecond, but he lets you explain
You peaked his interest
Really he just wanted to see how far you would take this 'lie'
After that, he starts believing you more and more
Because he knows what life is like being in constant danger and only people who have experienced it can really explain it in such detail
He's the one to be more forgiving about the situation since he did the same thing to Layla
Actually the only one to let you stay at the apartment to fully explain
He's still hurt and feels somewhat responsible, but understands and is more willing to talk with you more about the entire situation
Which surprised Steven and Jake
But they didn't really have room to speak, Marc was the host and it was his decision to hear you out
No matter how angry they were, Steven and Jake still somewhat respected the schedule they were given to front
So by proxy, they heard your explanation and Marc's input on the situation
Marc understood the stress you were under and he wanted to help
He couldn't marry you again, not right now
He couldn't even think about dating you sgain
But he was willing to talk and help you out of the dangerous life you lived
He still loved you no matter what and he'd do anything for you
Even after all the pain he's been in that you, whether you meant to or not, caused
Jake
He doesn't believe you
Not just because he's upset at you, but because how could you hide something like that from him?
He's the protector of the system, the one that sees everything
He's been behind the scenes watching everything constantly and you managed to hide something this big from him?
He feels like a failure
He feels like he shouldn't be a protector anymore
He feels hurt and betrayed and inferior
He will forcibly remove you from the apartment or leave the street he bumped into you on
It takes him days, weeks, months to be able to look at himself again
For a while, he doesn't blame you for the pain you caused, he blames himself
He should've seen this coming
He should've known
He should've seen it
But he didn't and he got Steven, Marc, and himself hurt because of it
After a while, Jake realizes everything you were saying sounded a whole lot like his life before he started fronting more
And now he feels guilty
Gives you a call (because he never deleted your number, he just couldn't) and makes you explain everything in full detail
And then he's silently crying as he realizes you divorced him for him
He still didn't forgive you, but he was coming around
He never stopped loving you and he wanted desperately for some reason to get back together
Because whether or not he'd admit it, he was dying without you
Probably the first one to fully forgive you and ask to be in a relationship again
He needs you like he needs air and he's not above admitting that he's sort of possessive of you
(They all are)
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Little bit of an update
I'm on the road with my dad! My dad's a truck driver and I'm on the road with him!
I'm also kinda sick. I've been sick for about a week and I'm getting better, but I've still got a weird cough and stuffy nose.
Depending on the trip and if my body decides not to give me car sickness, I'll work on some stories and maybe post something.
Thank you to those who are waiting for your fics, I know I'm terrible at posting and doing shit on time, but I promise your requests will be posted some day ;-;
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So I'm a big brother now 🎉 hooray! 🎉
I'll try to post something soon, but I had to take a week off to help take care of the baby and there will be less updates each week because of the little gremlin (affectionate).
Thank you for your patience and not swarming me with questions 😅
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Due to unforeseen circumstances (loosely translated to : whatthefuckwhatthefuckwhatthefuck) I can't post the fics tonight but I will try to post them tomorrow or at least work on them and give you updates
I am so so sorry, I know I said I'd post them, but shit came up and I can't focus on writing with something so important happening
(for personal reasons I won't be disclosing what happened, it's my business and it's personal)
Thank you for putting up with my terrible schedule and random posting ;-:
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The last two fics are gonna be posted really late, so I deeply apologize ;-;
I was not expecting to be sp busy today, but it happened so I'm rollin with it
Expect fics before midnight/morning/afternoon (hopefully)
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Okay thanks and sincerely, fuck you (affectionate). I hardly ever get genuinely pained reading something online but congradulations ig. THE ANGST. JUST 🤌🤌🤌
but wait hear me out, what if, ikik crazy, but like it turns out reader was playing the Marc Card™ and "protecting" our beloved' from either the reader themselves, or also maybe more the situation they're in (equivalent to idk, perhaps the extreme and less than uh, pleasant circumstances dear marc, steven and jake have tied to their lives. superhero shit, family trauma, anything) OR they're just as fucked up in the head and emotionally constipated and such, and is under the impression they're, again, saving the guys from "having to deal with" the reader's shit instead of using communication like a sane fucking person in a relationship. But hey, couples goals amarite 🥰
Or both. Both can be good
Happy ending or not (bittersweet too, that counts), I am in no way suggesting this is healthy and reader shouldn't be sorry and recieve forgiveness, or not. especially knowing and reading abt how much it affected the whole system. call this self indulgent af man; and please don't write, respond or keep reading if this makes you uncomfortable in any way
In hindsight, I really should have placed that warning before the ask started truly getting into it. additionally, since I'm especially off with memory today, this is all in reference to your divorce drabble/headcanons btw
Thanks 2(x) for reading this far into my ramblings, and for sharing your bomb ass writing. again, it's hard for me to feel connected with the whole y/n shebang fandoms have going on, and, despite all odds, you pulled it off
Don't know how to end these things so yayy parting thumbs up👍
Divorce Pt. 2
A/n: CRYING, ROLLING ON THE FLOOR, SCREAMING, POUNDING MY FISTS Thank you so much for this!! I am literally so excited about this!! (Also sorry for taking so long to write this, I'm a little behind on requests lol)
((I will make a part three for if reader left to protect themselves from the Moon Knight side of things so this part is if reader left due to person issues so double the content!))
Warnings: yelling, anger, talk of depression, talk of panic attacks, talks of trauma, this ain't gonna be a fun ride
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Steven
Steven is the most calm out of Jake and Marc, but that's more like being the smartest guy on the football team
It's a really low bar to meet
Steven tries to be understanding in every situation he's in, truly
His mindset is 'you never know what someone's going through' and he takes it to heart
But this?
He finds it very hard to be understanding
He doesn't even want you here, but he let you through the front door, so it must mean something right?
After explaining in full enough detail as to why you did what you did, Steven is silent
Eerily silent
It feels like the silence in a horror movie before a monster jumps out
This is the part where I could say 'and one did, Jake starts yelling at you' but that's not what happens
Steven starts yelling at you
He starts yelling at you in a way you've only ever seen Marc or Jake do
And it was never directed at you before
It scares you
Steven is so irate, he doesn't notice you shrinking in on yourself
But if he did, I don't think he'd care
Not anymore
"You led us on, you led me on, for years! You made me think I deserved kindness, happiness, love, just to drop me and make me feel like I was worth nothing! I'm sorry you went through so much and I'm sorry you're still dealing with it, but Gods! That doesn't give you the right to completely toy with us and leave when you feel trapped! You're supposed to talk to us about it! Or at least text me if you didn't want to say anything!"
"We could've worked it out. We could've... We were married. That means you at least cared about us a little, right?"
Steven's anger eventually dies and fades into depression and heartbreak
At this moment he wishes you never showed up, never tried to fix anything
He was content with walking through life, blaming himself and thinking you were an angel that got stuck with an annoying gremlin
Cause how could you do any wrong?
Steven asks you to leave, barely above a whisper
If you don't move, he will
He'll lock himself in his room until you do
You may have thought you were helping, that you were easing his confusion and pain
You were wrong
All you did was set in motion another depressive episode and make Steven feel like the worst husband
He thinks, just for a second, that he must've been so terrible at comforting you and letting you know that he was there for you
And a second is all it takes for Steven to believe it
Marc
He starts laughing
Like, maniacal laughing
"You think you can just walk in here and give me some sorry ass excuse?"
"You married us, knowing you couldn't handle it, you married us! You stood at the alter, said vows you took the time to write, said yes after having the chance of leaving, and waited months after to say you didn't want this anymore?"
"Are you fucking kidding me?!"
Unlike Steven, Marc's rage doesn't settle into depression
It sits and festers until the moment you leave
He doesn't turn violent like Jake, but he looks seconds away from destroying the apartment
Even if you manage to explain further through Marc's yelling, it doesn't register that you were in pain or suffering
It doesn't even register that your slinking away in fear at the growing redness of Marc's face
"Why'd you even come here?! To make shit worse?!"
"Of course not! I thought-"
"You've already practically killed Steven! Did you come back to finish us off?"
"No! I was trying to-"
"I can't believe I trusted you! I-"
Marc cuts himself off, digging his palms into his eyes and sniffling
He's crying
Whether in anger, frustration, sadness, or all three, it doesn't matter
He's breaking down right in front of you and you know he must truly be broken to show such vulnerability in front of someone he hates
He yells at you to leave, to leave and never come back
Don't look at him, don't breathe next to him, don't even think about him
And don't ever, ever, try to call Steven
Marc will not hesitate to visit you in his suit
That's a lie, he'd never do that
Even now, after all the pain you caused him, he could never hurt you
Once you finally leave with Marc in tears, he finally falls to the floor and cries
He cries for hours and hours, unable to move or stop
He yells into his hands in agony and frustration
Why did nothing go right for him?
Was he cursed?
Doomed to never have a happy ending?
Your visit didn't help anyone or anything
You should've stayed home
Jake
Absolutely furious
Nothing can calm him down, Steven and Marc have no chance of forcing him into the head space if they tried (though it's not like they want to)
He doesn't let you in, but he walks around the apartment, yelling at you
No, not yelling
Screaming
He can't step back and think about your explanation, what is means and how it ties into your relationship
Lord help his neighbors because he will definitely throw something
Not at you, never at you
He may think he's a monster, willing to cross almost any line to fulfill his mission, but hurting you is one of the few strict lines he will never cross
He will throw things around you, slamming a lamp into the wall, throwing glass onto the floor
And while he is enraged, he's not blind
He sees his effect on you, how scared you look at him
And he thinks 'finally. finally I see how you really feel about me'
Tears remain in his eyes, not willing to fall and give you the satisfaction
He continues yelling and throwing things, hoping to scare you away
And it works
And when he's finally alone, he dissolves into sobs
He doesn't care who might walk past the open door and see him
He just cries and cries
He can't maintain the energy of being mad as much as he wants to
He may be able to do that in front of Steven and Marc, but the second he saw your face
All he wanted to do was bury his face in your neck and hold you
Apologize for his wrong doings and pray you would at least talk to him
But seeing how Steven and Marc dealt with your absence
And seeing how much you managed to wiggle into his heart before destroying it
He couldn't allow his feelings to control his mind
His top priority has always been, and will continue to be Steven and Marc
And he's willing to sacrifice everything to ensure they're safe
They're happy
And you took away their happiness
You will never be allowed in their apartment again, let alone their hearts
Jake will make sure of it
You will regret visiting
One day, everything is going to come full circle
And Jake isn't afraid of the man he might become to get the closure his brothers deserve
(beta reader note : ouchie two electric boogaloo.)
#starlight writes#marc spector x reader#marc spector#marc spector x gn!reader#steven grant x gn!reader#steven grant#steven grant x reader#jake lockley x gn!reader#jake lockley x reader#jake lockley#moon knight system#moon knight#marvel#angst
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Seems I completely forgot about Valentine's day so in honor of doing absolutely nothing, I'll be posting three or four fics today!
Two will be Moon Knight fics and one or two will be CoD fics!
(I'm so sorry, the holiday completely slipped my mind but of course I remember at 2 am so I promise to give you guys content!)
((Also thank you to everyone who's sent me requests, it means so much to me that you enjoy my writing enough to trust me with your ideas. Love you guys <3))
#starlight talks#valentine#valentines day#i forgot#I'm sorry#marc spector x reader#steven grant x reader#jake lockley x reader#ghost x reader#soap x reader#konig x reader#alejandro x reader
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Proposal
Warnings: none, fluff
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Steven
If you beat him to the proposal, he'd be so ecstatic
He had been planning on proposing to you, but to see you on one knee, offering him a ring, he could feel his heart beat a million miles an hour
It was an odd feeling at first, he was happy but also extremely nervous
Were you absolutely sure you wanted to marry him?
The gift-shopist?
The mythology nerd?
The crazy man with two people living in his head and a God controlling his life?
Reassure him by taking his hand and kissing it
He'll melt
He'll kneel in front of you and grab your face, kissing you passionately
He'll try to pour every ounce of love he has for you into that single kiss
He'd be the happiest man alive and proudly tell everyone he works that your his fiance
"Sorry Donna, can't piss me off this week, I have a fiance."
He tells the silver statue guy on his lunch break at least twice, showing off his ring with such a bright smile
If he proposed to you, he's a mess
He plans everything to the smallest detail
And he definitely drops the ring a few times
You see him drop it twice
He proposed to you at a small park, not wanting to have too much attention put on him and too much pressure put on you
He didn't want you to think you had to say yes because it was in front of a bunch of people
Mostly because he had zero confidence you would say yes in general so limiting the amount of people that could see that is preferred
He knew you loved him, he was just so scared and so nervous
Calm him down by looping your arm with his or leaning into his side as you walk
It'll give him enough courage to awkwardly stop you and stumble through a declaration of love
And it'll morph into him holding the ring in his hand, smiling while talking about the moment he knew he was in love with you
He’ll be so wrapped up in his happy recollections that he won’t even notice he’s been fiddling with the ring right in front of you
Take the ring from his hand and put in on your finger and he’ll pause
He won’t take his eyes off of your hand, even after you smile and tell him to continue
He’ll pull up close and kiss you until you’re seeing stars, mumbling ‘I love you’ nonstop
He’s so happy
Like properly happy
Like when you agreed to go on that first date kind of happy
Like the first time you said 'i love you' kind of happy
Marc
If you propose to Marc, get ready to be laughed at
He doesn't mean to be rude, but he honestly thinks you're joking
But then he sees your nervous smile fall
Oh shit
He's immediately apologizing and asking if you were sure, if you were serious, if you really wanted him of all people
Get up and hold his face in your hands
Reassure him that, yes, you would want to spend the rest of your life with him 'of all people'
He'll start to cry and shake his head, still unsure of your decision
Give him a kiss, a long and sweet kiss
Tell him that you've never been happier than when you're with him, tell him he's the only person that's ever made you feel this way
Tell him you'd wait until every star burned out for him
He'll continue to cry, but he won't be shaking his head anymore
He'd be nodding
Ask him what he means and he'll give you the brightest smile
"I'd want nothing more than to marry you, baby."
He'll kiss you with such passion, such love, such fire
If Marc, proposes it's on accident
He had the full intention of proposing to you, of course, just not right now
He had just finished weeks of planning out a perfect date when you came home crying
He'll instantly be at your side asking worried questions
are you ok, are you hurt, what happened, did someone hurt you, stuff like that
You reassure him that you're not in danger, but your boss had yelled at you in front of everyone for a mistake you didn't make
And Marc hugs you while mentally cursing your boss
He's not above visiting your boss in his suit to set him in his place, but he'd never do it without your consent
Marc will lead you to your shared bedroom and comfort you the best he can
"It's ok baby, I'm here."
"It's ok, it's gonna be ok."
"Your boss is a dick."
That would get a small laugh out of you and Marc relaxes as you calm down
He'll continue to make you laugh in any way he can until your tears stop
And in that moment, you look up at him and his breath is sucked out of his lungs
The shine in your eyes is back, your smiling warmly at him, and you're happy
How could he not be absolutely awestruck by you?
He's so taken aback by his love for you he doesn't realize he's talking
"Marry me."
You freeze and look at him in shock and Marc's confused
Where did your perfect smile go?
It takes him a good minute to realize what he just said
And he panics, stumbling over an apology and pulling away from you
He tries to backtrack and write off his words, he was just joke he swears!
But he's just digging himself a deeper hole, the blush on his face and the shake of his hands are a dead give away
So you sit up and say yes
And he freezes for a solid 5 minutes
"Really? You want to... Marry me?"
Absolutely gets dizzy with how excited he gets
He'll tackle you in a hug, kissing every part of you face he can reach
He definitely starts crying and laughing
Cup his cheeks and look into his eyes
Say 'I love you' and he'll become putty in your hands
He doesn't stop saying 'I love you' for the rest of the night
He'll wake up the next morning with the biggest smile on his face
He hasn't been happy to wake up in years, but today, nothing can bring him down
He'll spend all morning holding you and kissing you, still in disbelief
And you better believe he brags to Khonshu
"Sorry, can't patrol tonight, I have a date with my fiance."
"My fiance made me lunch today, they're so amazing."
"Well I can't help it if my fiance wants me home tonight. You'll just have to wait for your 'fist of vengeance'."
He's honestly just so high on life
When you fall asleep next to him, he'll stay a wake for a bit longer, crying
He's not sad or upset, he's just so fucking happy
And he finally feels like he deserves this happiness
Jake
Your proposal and his intertwined
He'll propose to you first after a mission
A bad one
Jake will come home, practically dragging his feet and closing the door by resting his back on it
He'd look absolutely exhausted, almost to the point that he looks sick
Before you can even ask him if he was ok or check for injuries, Jake's burying his head in your neck and wrapping his arms around you
He doesn't say anything, even when you ask him if he's ok
He'll start to sway slightly and you'll have to lightly push Jake off of you
He'd give you the saddest pout, his brows slightly down turned and his lips pulled down in a frown
Lead him to your shared room and have him change into comfortable clothes
Lay him down on your chest and massage his scalp
Instantly, any tension held in his shoulders or pounding in his head stops
He'll sigh in content and lean into your touch
Give him a few kisses on the crown of his head to really get him relaxed
In his state of bliss and sleep deprivation, he'll start talking without having really any idea what he's saying or what it means
He's saying he loves you, he's sorry, he's hungry, he wants to marry you, he can't feel his feet
Jake continues to ramble, unaware you've stopped messaging his head
He wants to marry you?
You wanted to ask him to rewind, go back, what do you mean, did you mean it
But Jake's far too gone to follow any form of conversation, especially not with such a serious topic
He'll twist around and hold your waist, his head laying on your lower stomach
He'll mutter out a 'Te quiero' before passing out
You'd follow him into dream land if you could get your mind to stop racing
In the morning, Jake wakes up to the smell of breakfast
He'll practically float out of bed, drawn to the kitchen like a cartoon character
Still rubbing the sleep out of his eyes, he'll miss the blush on your face and nervous glances
"Good morning, mi corazon."
Jake will give you a kiss, still unaware of your odd behavior
It isn't until he's getting dressed for work that he realizes you haven't said a word to him
He'll ask you if you're ok, if he did something to upset you
But you just shake you're head
How do you explain that Jake proposed to you while half asleep and you spent all night thinking about it?
Jake refused to leave the house without an answer from you
If he didn't give a shit about his job before, he definitely didn't now when his love was obviously upset
He sits you down and has you explain what's going on
And he's more than shocked at your rushed, frantic explanation
He sat there for a minute, soaking in that he let his strongest desire slip through his walls
You quickly tried to explain that it was ok, but Jake wasn't having it
How could he be so stupid? He didn't have the right to ask you such a thing
You were Marc and Steven's, not his
He didn't deserve you
He didn't deserve your love
He was a killer, a monster
How could you love a beast like him?
He was walking to the front door, either to leave to clear his head or to drown it in alcohol when you call out his name
He pauses, unsure if he should turn around
He's so glad he did
You're down on one knee, looking at Jake in desperation
And you're holding his hat
His favorite hat
The one you bought him when you first started dating
"Jake Lockley, you are one of the best things that's ever happened to me. I can't imagine a life without you anymore, it's wrong and it would be the saddest life I could live. Please, will you marry me?"
Jake doesn't know what to say
He couldn't speak, couldn't think
But yet his mind was screaming at him to say yes
Screaming at him to take you in his arms, kiss you, put a ring on your finger, watch you walk down the aisle, call you his spouse
"Please."
Your pleading voice cut Jake from his thoughts
Then he's walking to you, face unreadable
He leans down and placed his hands over yours before grabbing his hat and putting it on
He'll whisper "Of course I'll marry you, mi alma" and kiss you sweetly
He'll gently hold you face in his hands, caressing your cheeks with his thumbs
He'll only pull away to rest his forehead in yours and call into work
"I'm not working today."
He'll pull you onto his lap, hugging you and burying his head into your neck, whispering words of love in Spanish
He didn't know what he did to score such a perfect partner, but God, is he glad he did
Jake will refuse to let you do anything for at least a week, always doing the dishes or cooking or cleaning
"My fiance is an angel and angels don't do dishes or mop the floors."
He brags to everyone that gets into his cab that he's getting married, but subtly
"My fiance told me about that shop, they love it."
"My fiance would love that."
"My fiance has the same pair of shoes."
In all seriousness though, he would need a lot of reassurance that you want him
I can't stress enough how important your relationship is to him
It's the only relationship he's ever known
And he's head over heels for you
He's so in love it hurts
And he doesn't know what to do with it
It scares him sometimes how willing he is to do anything for you
So before getting married, and during the ceremony, make sure to tell him every chance you get that you asked him
You asked him to marry you
You didn't have to, Jake didn't remember his proposal so if you just didn't say anything, it would be fine
But you told him and you asked him for his hand in marriage
He'll be a little more at ease after that
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HOW‼️ how is it I've never seen any of your masterpieces before on my recommended page or under certain-tags-that-shall-not-be-named (this mf has a thing against admitting they read x reader fics lmaoo loser (it's me. I'm mfs))⁉️❗️❗️
I am inadvertently saying I'm pretty much borderline obsessed with your writing from this point on. sorry, I don't make the rules. it'll get annoying on your end seeing my asks and such real quick, just wait
Omg thank you so so much!!! This means so much <3
(I also get embarrassed admitting I read a few certain fics so it's understandable, but you're welcomed here, anon <3)
I promise you won't get annoying, I'll love any request you send and I welcome pretty much everything!
If you wanna be discerned from other anon's, give yourself a nickname in the next ask if you decide to request something!
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Divorce
Warnings: none, pure angst, no happy ending, talk of depression, panic attacks
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Steven
He swears he hears his heart shatter
He can feel his soul die and his breathing stop
Divorce? You want a divorce?
Why? Did he do something wrong? Did he miss too many dates? Was he talking too much? Did he get too annoying? Was his cologne too strong?
Tell him, please, tell him what he did wrong, he'll fix it! He promises to fix it!
Or do you... Do you not love him anymore?
Steven would not stop talking, rambling about what he must've done wrong, his apology, and how he can make it up to you
"Just please... Please don't leave."
He'll try to get you to talk with him, explain why you want a divorce and how he can prevent that outcome as much as possible
But there's nothing he can do to change your mind
You're done
And you leave
And Steven swears, swears by all of Egypt's gods and goddesses, that he died in that moment
He doesn't move for a while
He doesn't breathe for a while
Then suddenly, he's gasping as collapsing on the floor, clutching his chest and sobbing
He cries so hard and for so long, he passes out on the floor
He doesn't have the energy to go into work, he doesn't even have the energy to move his hand
He stays in his flat for days, never leaving unless Jake take over to make sure he doesn't lose his job
Jake's the only one that can continue working and existing as a person after your divorce
While Jake tries to make sure the body stays healthy and alive, Steven doesn't talk or acknowledge anyone
Eventually, he starts blaming Marc for driving you away
"It was the stupid pigeon and the sneaking out at night and coming home covered in blood! It was your fault, you scared them away! I hate you!"
Eventually, Steven realizes that while Marc may be at fault for a few things, it was ultimately his own fault you left
He realizes he must've driven you away, somehow
He can remember times where you seemed less interested in his ramblings and blames those specific moments
He refuses to talk or even think about his interests now, too pained, too angry, too heartbroken to think he deserve anything but pain and heartbreak
It takes a good few months, maybe even a year, for Steven to start regularly fronting again
It takes so much energy and effort, but he's stopped feeling pain
He's stopped feeling
He doesn't correct Donna when she says his name wrong, he doesn't give any snarky come backs when she teases him about being late, he doesn't say anything
Donna makes the mistake of commenting on the disappearance of Steven's ring one day and all hell breaks loose
Let's just say, after the exchange, Steven isn't allowed back in the museum for... a while
It takes months for Steven to coexist with other people and it takes him years to be able to feel again
But he's never the same
He doesn't smile anymore
Marc
"What?"
Any anger, any annoyance, any frustration he felt during your argument is gone
Unbridled fear is the only thing he can feel and it hurts
It tightens his throat, makes it hard to breathe, to think, to see
He has to physically shake his head to be able to think
"Are you serious?"
"Are you sure this is what you want?"
"Ok."
Unlike Steven and Jake he didn't beg you to stay
He wanted to, god he wanted to
He wanted to get on his hands and knees and beg for you to stay
He would if you asked
He would do anything you asked
But that's besides the point
He wouldn't beg you to stay unless you asked, and you didn't
He wouldn't beg because he wants you happy and if you're not happy with him then...
He should let you go
Right?
He silently watches you pack your things, occasionally helping, but otherwise he's just standing there
He doesn't say anything, which isn't a problem, you don't either
He signs the divorce papers without any argument and he goes home like normal
It doesn't officially hit Marc that this is real for a while
A couple weeks at least
It's when he's making dinner and goes into your office to tell you it's ready when he realizes
Your stuff isn't there
You aren't there
And he collapses
He lays in your office sobbing
All night
Dinner is easily forgotten and left to get cold
Dishes are left in the sink to attract flies
Laundry is left to mildew in the washer
Mail is left to overflow
He doesn't move to do anything
He can't
He feels like a failure
He ruined your marriage somehow, he's sure of it
And he ruined the only happiness he, Steven, and Jake had
He doesn't front for a while, leaving Jake to pick up the pieces of himself and his life
On the rare chance he does, he only does it to be Moon Knight
He regresses into a violent, unfeeling vigilante and he doesn't care
Steven doesn't care enough to stop him either
Jake eventually yells at him for endangering the body, his, and Steven's life and that kind of kick Marc into gear
He starts taking better care of the body, purely for Steven
But he doesn't do anything more than the bare minimum
He can't
He's lost without you
He feels like an asteroid in the darkest spot in space and he doesn't think he'll ever find a way out
Jake
He laughs
He laughs
"Very funny, cariño, you're just upset I forgot to buy you flowers."
He doesn't believe you until your scream and/or crying at him that you 'can't handle it anymore and want a divorce'
He gets very quiet, very still, very fast
He doesn't say a word
But then you're moving to the bedroom with a suitcase and he cries
Instantly, he's running after you, asking a million and one questions
Jake doesn't consider himself someone who would beg for anything
Not for food, not for help, not for his life
Nothing
But in that moment, he got on his hands and knees and begged and wept for you
"Mi amor, mi corazón, mi luz, mi vida, mi amor, mi ángel, please, tell me what I did wrong, yell at me, hit me, but please, please don't leave me. Don't leave us. What would Steven do without you? Marc? You can hate me for however long you want, but please don't leave!"
He's never been with someone for so long, he's never been with someone period
He loves you so deeply and strongly, it controls his every action
Every time you put something in a box or suitcase, he takes it out and puts it right back 'where it belongs'
It causes you to leave to give Jake time to cool off
But all it does is make him grow more restless
What if you leave your stuff to haunt him?
Is that your plan?
To torture him for the rest of his life?
To make him regret every choice he's ever made?
By leaving your stuff behind, are you making sure he never forgets what he did?
Of course, eventually you do come back
With a moving crew
And Jake has to bite his cheek to stop from yelling at the random people taking away your stuff from it's home
It's rightful home
He spends every second of the move making comments, insulting the moving crew in hopes they would get fed up and leave
It didn't work
And to make things worse, you didn't talk to him at all
If you did, it was only to tell him you would be sending him the divorce papers soon
That made him walk away
He didn't want to talk about it, think about it, nothing
He outright refuses to sign the papers when they arrive
It takes you coming over to talk to him that he blows up, practically screaming at you that 'this is wrong, you should be with him, he can make you happy, he can be better'
You still tell him to sign and in a fit of rage, he does
He instantly regrets it as soon as you're gone
As soon as you walk away, it's like his breath is being taken right from his lungs
It's like you're taking it as you walk away
Along with his heart
He slowly falls to the floor, his eyes clouded with tears
And he cries
And cries
And cries
He throws himself into helping Steven and Marc, never giving himself time to think too long on anything but work
Eat breakfast, clean, go to work, eat lunch, go home, clean, eat dinner, sleep, repeat
It's when Steven starts fronting again that Jake finally starts to think
About you, about your marriage, about everything
And he finally goes through the 5 stages of grief
Well, the two stages of grief
He grows to hate you
That's what he tell Marc and Steven, at least
Every time they think about calling you or walking by your apartment in hopes of seeing you, he takes over
"They're a terrible, horrible person."
"They were just using us."
"They don't deserve to see us."
"I protected you, they didn't do shit."
"I will fix you."
"I will keep you safe."
He plays off his hate for you, your existence
But in actuality, he hates what you did to him
He hates that you tore down his walls and made a home in his heart
He hates that you made him care about anyone other than Marc and Steven
He hates that you made him feel safe and wanted
He hates that you did all of that just to leave
But he could never hate you
He still loves you more than anything
And as much as he wants to go crawling to your door and beg you to come back, he can't
You hurt Steven and Marc too and that's something he can't forgive
He's spent his entire existence taking care of them and he'll be damned if he stops now to chase his feelings
Jake goes back to hiding his feelings, prioritizing Steven and Marc over himself
He gets the body up, eats, showers, and goes to work
He makes sure Steven doesn't lose his job, he makes sure Marc doesn't die while fighting
He goes back to the shadows of the head space, only taking over when needed
And he's so unhappy
He's so sad
He's so broken
You broke him, just like you broke Steven and Marc
And he'll never forget it
( beta reader note : OUCHIE. :((( )
#moon knight system#moon knight#marc spector x gn!reader#marc spector x reader#marc spector#steven grant x gn!reader#steven grant x reader#steven grant#jake lockley x gn!reader#jake lockley x reader#jake lockley#marvel#angst#no comfort
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Okay so
Sorry if this is out of line!! And sorry if requests arent open lol but i just need to know…….
How would the moon knight boys react if u just yk… honka honkad them
Just grabbed a handfull of middie out of nowhere?
Honk
A/n: Anon, this is the funniest shit ever and I love you
Warnings: none
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Steven
Steven was so relaxed
It was his day off and he finally had time to finish a book he had found in a small bookstore down the street
It was warm and quiet
Perfect
But then you kneel in front of poor, sweet, Steven
"Yes, love?"
"Honk."
"...Honk?"
He think it's a game, honestly
He'll squish your cheeks and smile
"Honk!"
He's so confused, he can't find himself to blush or get embarrassed at the fact you squeezed his pecs
He'll probably keep squishing your cheeks together out of nowhere with the brightest smile
Marc
Everything was right with the world
Well, as right as it could be
Marc was happy
Jake was happy
Steven was happy
Khonshu’s squawking was down to a minimum
You were happy
Everything was ok
And then you squeezed his pecs and said “honk” with the most serious face he’s ever seen on you
Now he has no idea what to think
“Why?” Was his first thought
But then you looked up at him with a goofy smile, trying to hold back laughter
He has to sigh and walk away before you can see he’s blushing madly
Not before ruffling your hair or lightly pushing your head away
But seriously, don’t do that again, he might explode and he really doesn’t feel like explaining to Steven or Jake that he couldn’t front because he was so flustered and embarrassed
Jake
Lord help you
The minute you walk up to him, he knows somethings cooking in that head of yours
If you’re really determined to catch him off guard, act like everything’s normal,give him a kiss, ask what he wants for dinner
But as soon as his guard is down
“Honk”
He will squint at your beaming face, seemingly upset when in actuality he has no idea what to think
He’ll find it kinda funny until he realizes you also have a chest
And then he’s running after you yelling “come here, cariño!”
He’ll pin you in the kitchen against the oven, leaning down really close to you before squeezing your chest
“Honk :D”
He’ll kiss the side of your head before walking away, pretending he didn’t just chase you around the entire flat and hop over furniture to get to you
#starlight writes#marc spector#marc spector x reader#steven grant#steven grant x reader#jake lockley#jake lockley x reader#marc spector x gn!reader#steven grant x gn!reader#jake lockley x gn!reader#moon knight system#moon knight#marvel
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