My mom likes to do this thing where she pretends I'm not gay- talking about my future husband, asking which boy is more my type etc.- and it just ow.

The fuck is it with people and blackface?

It's such an obviously racist thing. I'm so genuinely shocked and disappointed at how many people dont know that. It is apparent from how many people are unaware, that our school systems have failed in properly teaching black history.

The failings of the American Education system do not surprise me, however. I am a highschooler almost graduated and as far black history my basically just said "slavery was a thing" and left it at that. In fact this year for M.L.K we were supposed to have an assembly, but it got cancelled. Instead it was replaced with unenthused homeroom teachers repeating a few sentences.

If I learned anything about black history, it was on my own.

"You're not born a gay, you're born again"

Hahahahhahahahhahahahahahaha

-From the movie 'Saved!'

I went through something similar and every day I have to work through the compulsory shame and panic/questioning that comes with being gay and raised in a heavily religious household.

Okay so, I was thinking about how confused I am about my sexuality today and I realized a major obstacle I’ve had in all of this. 

Growing up, I was always told that homosexuality is wrong, blah blah, but also that it’s a choice, which is why it’s wrong. 

So now that I’m actually in a place where I feel like I can be honest about my feelings for girls, I have to deal with this deeply internalized belief that I’m somehow choosing to go against God. It’s honestly part of the reason why when I thought I was bi I never explored my feelings for women, because that would be a choice when I could just keep dating guys like I’m supposed to.

It’s not that I’m particularly religious now. I mean, for a while in like, middle school, I was super church-y and believed being gay was wrong etc, but I eventually realized sometime in high school that people actually are born gay (not me per se, but some of my friends who I cared about). Like, I just spent four years at a social justice university, I guess you could say I’m down with gay rights now. I know unequivocally that being gay isn’t a choice.

But when it comes to looking at myself, I can’t seem to shake this feeling that I’m actively choosing this. I feel like if I’m going to be gay, I need to know that I have absolutely no choice. I need to know that it’s inevitable. But given that I didn’t really start putting all the pieces together until my twenties, it feels like that’s not true. When I dated guys, I wasn’t miserable. I mean, I really thought I was feeling the way I was supposed to when I was with them. Maybe I really could find a guy I could be happy with. Or maybe it’s the comp het talking?

I think this is why I wish I knew I was just completely gay, and not bi. If I know I can be with guys, liking girls just feels self-indulgent, like I’m choosing to like them, especially when I went so long without realizing my feelings for them. I still don’t know if all of my feelings for boys are entirely born of compulsory heterosexuality. The thought of actually falling for a guy scares me, but is that because of comp het? Or is that because I have this deeply internalized homophobic/biphobic belief that as long as I am able to be with a man, I should ignore all my feelings for women, no matter how pure and wonderful they are, and pursue him.

My cat has been weirdly clingy lately and I think it means I'm dying.

She's technically my mom's cat. She hates me. I'm always sick. They're doing tests. All of a sudden she's super clingy, following me around and shit. I think she's waiting for me to die, so she can eat my corpse.

I honestly think the reason that a lot of people are anti-feminist is a demonization in the media and a lack of education in schools.

But, that's just my oversimplified view.

"I dont need feminism"

Maybe you don't, but its selfish to take help away from others who might.

Today, I read about a 10 year-old girl forced to marry a 30 year old man.

Life isn't always about you.

Sometimes, I think modern day Americans forget that patriotism and nationalism are two different things.

Why sleep when I could suffer?

I agree with Trump, we do need to build a wall... between church and state.

Been a while since I've had a migraine this bad. I'd almost forgotten what it was like to be bitch-slapped by death.

"Arguing with someone whose argument is an insult is pointless"

Heard this today, thought I'd share.

Mental illness is all in the head. So, don't blame yourself if you didn't notice the signs, they're not always visable.

When your thighs hack your snapchat

Titanic was the ultimate 'expect the unexpected' tbh

‘Jesus’ comes from a shortening of the Hebrew version of the name Joshua, while ‘Christ’ simply means ‘the anointed one.’ To make this clearer to modern Christians, I propose a new Bible translation where Jesus is referred to only as “oily Josh”