i hope you all find the happiness that you thought didn’t exist in this life. and i hope your heart feels like a heart again when you swore it never would.
i know i’m the worst person to write something emotional or whatever, but i really hope you're taking care of yourself wherever you are, still dancing and singing. still making people happy.
we are still sad, but we always try to remember good happy times and not let the memory be just painful.
we're even taking care of your family and friends as much as possible.
im sorry and thank you. i won't explain, but i hope my thoughts are being delivered to where you are like a letter, just for you to read and understand why.
you’re going to love again, find a job again, create art again, do what you love again, feel powerful again. you’re going to be back on track. i don’t know when, but you are going to feel like yourself again, eventually. this isn’t the end. hang in there.
just noticed that on my tumblr bio im still 20 when im 21 since april 17 bc that day was my birthday obviously
but it's okay im still getting gifts from my friends so i consider it's still my birthday some days. i'm grateful to them that even though it's been months, they still care to give a gift. not that i need a gift, but it's nice to be considered a good friend that way and in other ways - good, healthy ways.
anyway, happy birthday to me. 2023 is being a good year and i'm looking forward to more fulfilling moments.