i’m 23 years old today….. gosh i remember celebrating my 20th birthday on tumblr

i am on a ROLL! you posted ~5 minutes after i randomly thought about you T_T

- legacy-passer-on-er

I WANTED TO REPLY SOONER AGGHHG BUT THAT ASK WAS SO CUTE🥹 YOURE SO CUTE…. thank you for thinking of me!!!!!

sprawling in front of u kicking my feet and batting my lashes while i wait for my delta 9 to kick in so tell me more about wirothesley cock (ALSO JUJU HELLO BELOVED I HAVE MISSED U GREATLY I HOPE U R WELL!!!!!!!!! KISSY FOR U, MWAH)

lowkey i used to fear uncircumcised penice but (1) that was when i was a teenager as if my opinion on sex mattered at all at 15 lol (2) i was a virgin so lol anyways ive been recently enjoying it as a delicious addition to brutish/barbarian/super masculine hairy men… something about uncircumcised penis is so rugged and masculine does that makes sense..

hi there lovely. I've been thinking about you a lot lately. I hope you're doing okay. I'm so happy to see you pop on here.

miss you and happy valentines day <3

HONEY… WORLD’S CUTEST NAME LITERALLY EVER 🥺🥺🥺🩷🩷 I HOPE YOUVE BEEN SUPER GOD I MISS YOU TOO!!!!! 😭😭

i hope you had a lovely valentine’s day and if u didn’t.. lemme make it up to you 😏

“20 likes and i write another rinne fic” i have NEVER liked so fast in my life before

rinne fanfic is like my only true claim to fame GDJSHAJDHSJ i feel like enstars yume content in general is far and few between bc the fandom is just like, mostly fujo content so i’d like to think i owe the world another rinne…… eventually…….

GOD, I MISS YOU SO MUCH 😭😭😭😭

were always together no matter what 🩷

Everyone…… I took 200 mg of delta 9 and 10 mg of THC and i had to tell everyone about wriothesley uncircumcised and. unshaved cock…….

hi jujuu <3 i'm glad you're doing well! i mentioned you in a convo recently actually, a friend blamed me for getting him into pregnancy, but you began it all~ your legacy lives on

If pregnancy has 1,000,000 fans then I am one of them.

If pregnancy has 1,000 fans then I am one of them.

If pregnancy has 100 fans then I am one of them.

If pregnancy has 1 fan then that fan is me.

If pregnancy has 0 fans then I have died and left the earth

REPOST IF YOURE A TRUE PREGNANCY FAN

hi miss juju 🥰 kisses you back, the fact that it’s one of your Rinne fics too. Hope you’re doing well!!

(we kiss passionately) things are really really good for me actually 🤔i love my new job (i started last month), i just started a new DND campaign with my friends, and valentine’s day is soon….. how are u🥺

i miss rinne all the time…. i thought about making an ita bag for him not too long ago actually LOL 😭 everybody who was here for the rinne days has seen some wild shit

Mother i’m in a tweet

Hi everyone— I didn’t have any plans to ever post here again because I’m enjoying my retirement, but I still receive email notifications for comments from ao3 and the like so I was made aware of this this morning.

All of the content you see on both my ao3 and my tumblr is completely mine. I tagged inspirations where necessary— for instance, I reference the hentai doujin mangaka ankoman as partial inspiration for my Venti fanfic in the ending author’s notes of that fic on ao3, but all fics and posts themselves are completely mine. Any reposts you see of my content are simply that— reposts. No need to link me or tag me in any reposts you find, as I’m retired and none of it really affects me anymore, but I did want to log in to say I’m aware that this is sadly happening and to re-clarify that my content is my content.

Thank you so much again for all your love and support over the past few years, and thank you to the anon commenter on ao3 for letting me know about this problem. It’s embarrassing that people felt my retirement was grounds to reupload my work, but whatever. You’re always allowed to save, screenshot, make google drive copies of etc my work (I know that google drive reuploads of my deleted enstars works were discussed somewhere once) for personal use or to share with friends, but please don’t post them publicly and certainly don’t act like they’re yours. I think everybody knows that bbw pregnancy big belly breeding mating press porn has long been my brand so I doubt you’ll be able to pass any of my stuff off as your own that effectively lol

I’ve been writing for about ten years privately and publicly and across multiple different websites, fandoms, and eras of favorite characters. I first started writing fanfiction physically in notebooks I stashed under my bed since I didn’t own my own laptop until I was 18, lol. I had originally started writing as a means to cope with feeling like The Ugly Kid because I never had a serious relationship in my pre-teen and teenage years. I was always on the chubby side and, given fanfiction’s tendency to depict readers as extremely thin and physically much smaller than the character in question, I sought to make my own stuff that would, hopefully, alleviate some insecurities and give a place to people who felt similarly to me as a kid. Well, I also started writing because I was horny and hormonal and just wanted to fuck pixels, but that much goes without saying. 

I don’t think writing has much of a place in my current life for a variety of reasons and, despite what I said the other day, I don’t see it being a part of my future and I’m okay with that! It’s a hobby that has served me very, very well for nearly ten years (roughly half of my life now since I’m 22)— I’ve learned to like myself so much more than I ever thought I would have as a teenager, I’ve opened myself up to different ways to express myself and my sexuality, I’ve met a lot of really cool people, and I think I’ve been able to help other people out quite a bit, too. I always worry about coming off as overly pretentious or self-righteous when I talk about helping people through the power of porn fanfiction, but when I’ve received so many messages over the years about how I’ve helped other plus size people learn to feel a little more secure or how I’ve helped people feel less guilty about masturbating and enjoying sex, I think it’s a fair statement to make. I’ve had tons and tons and tons of good times as a writer, but I think reading these messages about helping other people are absolutely my favorite times to look back on. It makes me feel really good. 

I’m in a completely different stage of my life now compared to when I first started writing and I don’t think the hobby appeals to me much anymore. I do think the tumblr game of notes and numbers and interactions has stressed me out some, but it’s by no means my main motivation to hang up my hat and move on to a new era of my life. I don’t care about getting a bazillion notes or a million followers, I just like to be a slut online and help other people feel good about themselves in the process, but any person who makes content will be the first to tell you that it does hurt at least a little when you make something you’re insanely proud of and it gets an amount of likes/reblogs/kudos/comments/etc you find disproportionate to your follower count or subscriber count. Nevertheless, I try not to focus on numbers too much and, while I’m somewhat successful at that, I and many other writers and artists do feel that tumblr has a major problem with interaction, reblogs vs likes, and engagement and tumblr staff’s own decisions to introduce things like community labels certainly don’t help. 

As I said, numbers are not my main inspiration to quit. I’ve experienced near endless burnout since about January of this year where none of my ideas feel unique and original, none of them excite me, and nearly all of them make me worry that other people won’t enjoy them. It’s hard to want to write when you don’t feel like you’re making anything good, and, as I’m sure you all have noticed, I’ve taken a lot of breaks this year to hopefully get myself back in the swing of things, but I never return feeling refreshed and excited by new ideas, so that was the biggest indication to me that I’ve simply grown out of another hobby and I’m a changing person with changing interests and desires, and that’s okay! I’m emerging into a new stage of adulthood after graduating college and beginning to move out of my parents’ house, and so a shift in my hobbies and likes is to be expected. I had a conversation with another writing friend of mine who gave up writing publicly about six months ago, and my feelings sounded a lot like his, so that also suggested to me that I’m just ready to be done. 

I’m infinitely thankful to everyone who’s ever been a part of my writing journey, whether you reblogged a fic once or were a regular emoji anon who stopped in frequently. I really cherish the memories I’ve made and I was always insanely excited to see people claim new emojis, see regulars in my inbox talking to me, and read nice comments and messages. When I say that writing has been a pivotal part of my life for a decade now, I mean that in so many ways, especially in the way that it has brought so many cool and nice people to me. I’ve made mistakes and I’ve said and done things that hurt other people, and I’m grateful for the forgiveness and reconciliation others have given me just as I am thankful for all the people who have supported me throughout my online presence. 

I do feel guilty about leaving, but you guys deserve a proper goodbye instead of me putting my blog on hiatus again and just leaving it there to sit. I’d like to formally leave instead of just going dormant or disappearing, and this is that formal departure. I’ve had thoughts of quitting in the past, but those were when I was already feeling upset with other things in my life so I knew they weren’t real, but I’ve been thinking about this consistently for about four months now in clear mindsets and headspaces so I know it’s a little more real. I put myself on hiatus this last month to really think about it and, while it’s natural to go back and forth on such a decision and try to talk myself out of it, I really am ready and I don’t feel like I need to convince myself to stay when I’m not happy with my content. I owe you guys regularity and consistency, and I’ve failed to be a consistent writer or poster these past few months or so, and I’m sorry for that. I’ve talked about it a lot with my boyfriend and my close friends, and I feel it’s best for me to move on now and try some new things! I’m excited for this next stage of my life as I seek out a new career, look to move in with my boyfriend and get out of my parents’ place, and maybe get engaged too ☺️ 

My tumblr and AO3 will remain up with the same usernames and whatnot. I can’t even thank you guys enough for everything you’ve given me in the past years. I’m happy to call you guys friends and the “parasocial BAD!!!!!” debate that pops up in fandom circles needs to stfu because building a friendship with your audience and allowing yourself to be human with human feelings instead of some blank figure behind a screen is literally normal, lol. When people say nice things to you, it’s normal for it to feel good. When people say rude things to you, it’s normal for it to feel bad. 

Thank you for 10 years of love and thank you for reading! 

💛💛 Juju

ps think of me whenever you see pregnancy

IM PUTTING TOGETHER A TEAM

i didn't mean it to pressure you to write D: i just missed your sillyposting hehe, i hope you're doing well!

- plane anon (?)

NOOOOO IT WASNT PRESSURING AT ALL PLS DW i just wanted to explain why i’ve been so scarce these past few months :] my life has been changing a lot since about december last year!

things could always be better but they could also always be worse too; i’m doing pretty alright ☺️ i wish i could be here posting content more frequently but it’s just not on the table for me rn. life’s ebbs and flows are normal i suppose…. i hope you had a great trip!!! i’ll be flying to arizona on the 6th and ofc i’m excited to be on a plane again (it’s a 737-800) ☺️

jobs and moving out are temporary, seakicker is forever 😊

on a plane rn, get out of my head!!! (i miss you)

do not miss me anon, i’m always in ur heart… no matter where i go or what i do, we’ll always be friends… 🤗

ginger³ huh -🏈

i also have a sylvain pillowcase i have hanging up on the wall like a poster (alongside one of the childes) so it’s like ginger^4… ginger quadrupled?

Juju, make room for me on the bed please

i would shove all 3 childes to the floor for you baby😏