I think I need a break as I have some important work to do and I am dealing with a lot of things right now and I need to shut the outside world to focus on my inner world, to find my voice. I don't use any other social media and I consider Tumblr my safe place but, I think its time to leave Tumblr because there is no growth in comfort zone. I need to shift my whole focus on that one point where I am trying to reach as for now I am consistent but I lack focus. I need to build myself in order to get out the marsh I am living in, right now everything seems to be so blurry and I am all messed up mentally, emotionally, financially, and physically. I need to get back to life because I don't want to die without living. There is so much I need to work on. I wish to be my main character in my story. I wish to be that slay girl who has a positive mind. God, I don't know how am I going to achieve this but, I am going to give my 110%, I am going to put my heart and soul in rebuilding myself. I know, I will miss tumblr, It is tough, It feels like I am leaving my home to reach for stars and find the cosmos but I have no other choice because I will never find stars just by sitting in my room, in my comfort zone. There is so much mess that I need to organize. I am a mess and I need to organize myself. There is so much work to do guys, It is always lovely to be here. Tumblr has given me so many friends and I will miss you all. I love you all and I will be back once I feel I am back to life with a healthy mind, body and life. Thank you for reading this. ❤️

_ Sobia. ( @scribblersobia )

Hahaha true that!

Sometimes I think world would be so peaceful if there were no women. No sexual assault, no female feticide, no forced prostitution, no dowry deaths, no early marriages.

Thank you @soulwr1ter . And, yes I agree with you that there are so many issues and it's not always a woman aborting her baby. This issue is very complex and world should talk about it. Thank you once again for rebloging this. 🙂

"France makes abortion a constitutional right."

An abortion is a medical procedure to end a pregnancy.

Women are blessed with an ability to create life then, why do some women choose to end it? It is a woman who choose to terminate pregnancy or it's more than a woman's choice? Is an abortion a murder? Are abortions easy on women? Or women's bodies are just political grounds for governments? Would you call a woman selfish if she choose to abort her baby?

What I think about abortions (sharing my opinions) -

1. Its definitely not easy for a woman, mentally, emotionally and physically to abort a child.

During first trimester, abortion is usually a chemical abortion done by taking abortion pills which can lead to heavy bleeding and in some cases hospitalisation. If the first procedure doesn't work, a woman go through first trimester surgical abortion which involves risk and adverse effects.

Second trimester ( performed at 13- 24 weeks) abortion is surgical abortion dilation and evacuation which involves risk and adverse effects like uterine perforation, cervical laceration, infection, hemorrhage, maternal death, future pregnancy complications.

Third trimester induction procedure - injection and stillbirth, performed at 25 weeks. It involves risks like hemorrhage, lacerations, etc.

2. Why do women choose abortion if it involves risks and adverse effects on their health? Well, if we see it through the lense of morals and ethics then it is obvious to think that an abortion means killing a life. But, if we see it from a larger perspective then there can be many reasons other than "it's her choice" that she chooses an abortion. Following can be the reasons -

a. If she is raped and she doesn't want the child.

b. Teen pregnancies. I do not support teen pregnancies. They are not independent to afford a child.

c. Maybe her partner or family forced her to abort the child.

d. Unwanted pregnancies. I feel a child should be born into a functional family. Its better to give a life to a child when two people are responsible. No life is better than an abused and painful life.

e. Or they can't afford a child. Sometimes men leave their pregnant partners and there no one to support her or her child. You need money to raise a kid.

f. Health issues or risk to the baby.

g. Or simply because a woman don't want to have kids. Again, I never wish an ugly family for a baby. A baby is more than just a baby, he or she will be future of the society. And every child deserves a functional family.

3. If a woman is emotionally and mentally attached to the child in her Womb, that's her baby. But, if she is not then it's just a cluster of cells. It completely depends on the person how they see themselves, their lives and what they feel about their bodies and the child.

4. All women are not selfish when it comes to abortion. There are many parts of the world where women are forced to abort the child because the child is a girl child.

5. When a woman is pregnant. She is emotionally, mentally, psychologically involved in the process of becoming a mother. As a woman myself, I can say that it's not easy to abort a child.

7. And, governments choose to change the abortion laws as per their voter base. They do what is beneficial for them. It happens!

8. I feel abortion should be done in extreme cases in first trimester or as early as possible and if a woman is not mentally prepared and facing any issues in her life (it can be anything). There should be no ban on abortion but, proper awareness should be given to the people.

It is a very complex issue. I respect your opinions regarding abortions. I wrote what I feel about it... If you are reading this then thank you.

@scribblersobia

"France makes abortion a constitutional right."

An abortion is a medical procedure to end a pregnancy.

Women are blessed with an ability to create life then, why do some women choose to end it? It is a woman who choose to terminate pregnancy or it's more than a woman's choice? Is an abortion a murder? Are abortions easy on women? Or women's bodies are just political grounds for governments? Would you call a woman selfish if she choose to abort her baby?

What I think about abortions (sharing my opinions) -

1. Its definitely not easy for a woman, mentally, emotionally and physically to abort a child.

During first trimester, abortion is usually a chemical abortion done by taking abortion pills which can lead to heavy bleeding and in some cases hospitalisation. If the first procedure doesn't work, a woman go through first trimester surgical abortion which involves risk and adverse effects.

Second trimester ( performed at 13- 24 weeks) abortion is surgical abortion dilation and evacuation which involves risk and adverse effects like uterine perforation, cervical laceration, infection, hemorrhage, maternal death, future pregnancy complications.

Third trimester induction procedure - injection and stillbirth, performed at 25 weeks. It involves risks like hemorrhage, lacerations, etc.

2. Why do women choose abortion if it involves risks and adverse effects on their health? Well, if we see it through the lense of morals and ethics then it is obvious to think that an abortion means killing a life. But, if we see it from a larger perspective then there can be many reasons other than "it's her choice" that she chooses an abortion. Following can be the reasons -

a. If she is raped and she doesn't want the child.

b. Teen pregnancies. I do not support teen pregnancies. They are not independent to afford a child.

c. Maybe her partner or family forced her to abort the child.

d. Unwanted pregnancies. I feel a child should be born into a functional family. Its better to give a life to a child when two people are responsible. No life is better than an abused and painful life.

e. Or they can't afford a child. Sometimes men leave their pregnant partners and there no one to support her or her child. You need money to raise a kid.

f. Health issues or risk to the baby.

g. Or simply because a woman don't want to have kids. Again, I never wish an ugly family for a baby. A baby is more than just a baby, he or she will be future of the society. And every child deserves a functional family.

3. If a woman is emotionally and mentally attached to the child in her Womb, that's her baby. But, if she is not then it's just a cluster of cells. It completely depends on the person how they see themselves, their lives and what they feel about their bodies and the child.

4. All women are not selfish when it comes to abortion. There are many parts of the world where women are forced to abort the child because the child is a girl child.

5. When a woman is pregnant. She is emotionally, mentally, psychologically involved in the process of becoming a mother. As a woman myself, I can say that it's not easy to abort a child.

7. And, governments choose to change the abortion laws as per their voter base. They do what is beneficial for them. It happens!

8. I feel abortion should be done in extreme cases in first trimester or as early as possible and if a woman is not mentally prepared and facing any issues in her life (it can be anything). There should be no ban on abortion but, proper awareness should be given to the people.

It is a very complex issue. I respect your opinions regarding abortions. I wrote what I feel about it... If you are reading this then thank you.

@scribblersobia

My dark circles are darker than the mysteries of night.

@scribblersobia

I live in a world where there are rains, rainbows, mountains, deserts, oceans, stars, shooting stars, plateaus, hail, snow, northern lights, southern lights, rivers, lakes, marine life, islands, glaciers, flowers, fragrances, alpine trees, plants, sky, clouds, wind, moon, moonlight, night, sunsets, winters, birds, butterflies, cats, puppies, and what am I doing? I am studying and hunting for a job so that I can buy myself food and pay taxes!

@scribblersobia

Sometimes I think world would be so peaceful if there were no women. No sexual assault, no female feticide, no forced prostitution, no dowry deaths, no early marriages.

Guys slept with multiple partners and were lauded for being players; girls did the same and were decried as whores. It was a double standard as old as time, and I was fucking sick of it. –Jules Ambrose.

ngl but if i were a boy i would have been the best boyfriend

I DO NOT WANT TO DIE BEFORE DEATH.

I WANT TO LIVE WELL BEFORE I DIE.

@scribblersobia

Why conversations with parents are always emotional? You just sit there and listen to their endless stories about life and broken dreams. You can see the love they have for you in their eyes when they talk about you. Those conversations change your perspective about so many things and yes, the time spent with parents is beyond comfortable.

@scribblersobia

I love winters because of the foggy nights, cold mornings, cozy evenings, comfy pajamas, warm blankets, oversized sweaters, hot mug of coffee, warm socks, boots, books, and hot meals taste so much better in winters. Winters make this world look so beautiful. I love winters. 🩵

Gajar ka halwa 🤤

Time is not refundable, use it with intention.

i love opening tumblr. hello mentally ill people

Venting!

I went to a family function yesterday. And, every single person was telling me how I should get married because I am eligible to get married (according to them), they told me I should marry to ward off burden from my parents ( Idk why those educated motherfuckers think daughters are burden), they told me that I can study after marriage (cuz of my aunt did it so I can do it too), they told me I can work and find job after marriage, nobody really asked me how am I, how do I feel and how I look at world. They all are so sure that I have no ambitions and I do not want a career. I was so annoyed that I literally started crying.

Why don't people think before opening their mouths? Why can't they just shut up? You meet me once in a year and you give me advices like you know everything about me, no idiots! You have no idea what is going on in my life and what all I am dealing with. You expect me to respect your boundaries but you don't want to respect my feelings? I told them that I have plans and goals, and I don't want to get married now, but nobody was ready understand this! They said, we will ask you again and again to get married ( so that means those questions were intentionally asked and I was intentionally hurt!) People are so rude, I never ask you such personal questions then why do you ask me such annoying questions? This is the reason I don't meet people anymore. And, now I am so frustrated by this ''shaadi, shaadi'' ''(marriage, marriage)'' that I don't want marriage anymore. I don't feel love anymore, this society has ruined my perspective regarding marriage. I hate it now. I feel peace when I am alone. I hate meeting people especially my relatives. They all are snakes. Just because I am polite and don't answer you back that does not mean that I am dumb and my dreams, my life and my whole existence doesn't matter and you can say whatever you want to! I do matter, I am important so stop it people. Stop hurting me!