My first love

Love will break the rules when you get fall in love, I myself became women hater during my grade school. But when love hit me, suddenly entire my perspective was changed. Through back from year 2017, this year I considered as my unforgettable moments, this is the year when I started to fall in love and also the year where I hurt the most. Let me bring you back from my past to recall and retail every single moments about my first love. I first saw her when the time that she visited in our hometown, but unfortunately they come home immediate, thus I did not met her. I regret those moment, but my hope to see her again still in and did not lost. What I said for myself "this is not our last meeting" I make a way just to seek information about her. I asked her name on my cousins then one of my cousin asked me "yieeee bakit crush mo ba?" of course I chose to refused to answer it, since I am ashamed to confess. I said its nothing, I solely need to know her name. After a while I opened my facebook account to search her name then luckily her name and gorgeous face appeared. I feel exaggerated my happiness undefined and it seems like I found a precious item when I saw her name on my facebook. After I found her name I did not hesitate to sent a friend request on her and as I'm not expected she immediately response it and my happiness intensified more and more. A days later we have our communication to each other, while our communication lasts she did not even know that I slowly fall for her, but I never told my hidden feelings. I keep it secret because I am scared to confess, since I have a serious question in my mind "what if I confess then she suddenly reject it and did not talk to me anymore?" Therefore I chose to hide it. Our communication to each other is rare that is why she did not notice that I have a crush one her.

Until one day she told me that she go back to our hometown to have her vacation together with my cousin, by the way she's my cousin's friend. At first I don't believes that she go back then, until I heard some rumor that she already in my cousin's home. I went with my cousin's home to ensure that she is already there, then I surprised when I saw her sitting while talking with my cousin, I back off unexpectedly and I did not demonstrated with her, because I cannot handle my shame, all I did I go back home immediately. During the time that she stayed in my cousin we don't have any communication, until one luminous night when I using my cellphone it suddenly sink in my mind to stalked her status on facebook. I scroll and scroll with her recent shared post and a couple of minutes while I am scrolling I saw her post about her crush, since I am demanding I thought that I am that person she determined on her post. One ventilated night we met on the road unexpectedly, those time she's came from mini store to buy junk foods and I sent her on the house where she stayed for, whether it is the first time I approached on her in person to secure her safety. When we arrive nearby the house where she stayed I shocked when she hold my hand, she thanked and said see you again. I quieted and dazed as I couldn't response her, I walk back smiling and a lot of excitement I felt. Since those moments we had together, my shame get lost everytime we meet. One day, while we having our communication she suddenly said that she go back to their hometown and I feel sad when I heard that. After two days before we have our communication again, she get my number and we talked virtually. I did not let the chance go through with nothing, I take the opportunity and I confess as I said "I have crush on you" and she answered "the feeling is mutual" I'm even feel more excitement when she said that, I ask permission to court her, then she laugh and said yes you can. But how? ask I ask her, since she likes me already she doesn't tortured me to do that, she accept me undoubtedly as we officially in relationship. I thanked because I finally got the first girl I want the most. I gave all the love she deserve.

We always talked virtually because we are in long distance relationship. Everyday and night we gave an update to each other and I do believe that one day we will meet again personally. Until one day she invited me on the birthday of her little cousin , I did not refuse her invitation. I went to them together with my friend, the time we arrive they entertain us very much together with her family members. Until me and my friend stayed on their house in one night and we have many memories together. I am so much lucky to have her in my life I always said that there is no words can define how much I love her. Since it is my first time in the world of love I didn't even think that we will be separated someday. All I did is to love and love and many promises being mentioned. Its so nice to love someone then seeing her that she's love you back more than that is such a blessing. I thought our love story were never end. Until one day my unexpected thought was happened. She wants to break up with me, at first as I thought that she was joking but she's not, I felt as though a bucket of hot water had been thrown in my whole body. I stop her not to leave me but I disappointed, I became martyr on her and beg her just to stay but nothing happened. She blocked me on her social media account and through the landline the reason I did not contact her anymore. Our sweet-bitter love story last. It takes a year before I totally moved on. But I didn't even regret that we met because I learned many things in our love story as I did not seen in others. I don't even put some hate on her because I know that she became part of my life before. Year 2020 its been 3 years before we have our communication again, I chatted her on her new facebook account and luckily she replied, we shares story about our past, until we became friends and now she is one of my girl best friend. A friendly advice, don't ever put whether a few hate to your former boyfriend/girlfriend always remember that he/she became the reason why you've your beautiful smile before. No to HATE just LOVE

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