can we go back to having like hundreds of small story driven ask blogs.

I miss waiting week by week to see what “random OC Mcgee” is gonna do.

whelp.

Fallout 4 finally gave up the goat on my main save, so thats gone.  fuck....

whelp, another year hath passed.

i am older now, only 25-30 more to go.

how do you people find the confidence to comission art.

seriously i get stress sickness just thinking about it.

i still don’t trust twitter

had to make one since most artists are comissioned through it. but i still feel like uneasy using it. perhaps i’m just biased against it but it feels to idk cold and untrustworthy.

feels like everything is winding down.

i fear i’m running out of stuff, my once favorite passtimes now fail to illicit the same excited and enthralled responses from me and day by day it feels like i’m just doing stuff to fill the time, not because i want to, i feel like everything is just “i have an hour or three to kill, lets browse this or play that” seems like theres very little to engage with anymore.

lacking motivation.

in everything.

do ya’ll ever just feel idle

like not stationary or such but just like, you’re not doing anything of purpose or practical use, you’re just kinda doing stuff to do stuff until you no longer need to.

not sure what this is but it showed up on my farm today. 

First giant crop. was only growing these for the new special order board but a pleasant surprise none the less.

as a drawn to life fan i can indeed confirm that two realms is indeed meh, your assessment was correct

to be honest i’m not to superseded to hear that. however i am just glad that the DTL IP is still a thing, i was worried after i think i heard 5th cell shut down and sold off the IP to some other company or something that DTL was dead, and while without wanting to spoil the end of DTL:TNC kinda was a neat little bow on the story i did kinda wanna see more of it in some sense. maybe some day i will in a more fitting game play style.

you ever get like tone whiplash?

Cause i was watching something last night, i can’t really recall what it was but i just remember being really like dis-interested by it, like i was winding down and getting tired and then an Ad started playing. In my head i was like, “alright i’ll get ready to skip this Ad and then goto bed” then the trailer starts and i see and hear two things, one i see the distinct style and sillouettes of the raposa, then i hear that all to familier chime of music from my fave game series and i remember just feeling like so befuddled like my heart started racing and i was in a cold sweat,, i’ve done research and the game looks “meh” itself but the fact that the DTL name is still around gave me such a shock.

first harvest of aged cheese.

do you ever get that feeling where you wonder if your life is actually real or if its all some big experiment because of how coincidental events are. 

you ever just feel void of purpose.

Like you’ve been doing a task for so long and now that the task is concluded you just don’t know what to do anymore.

whelp, finally died in my hardcore MC world

All that progress gone. all because an illiger with an axe got punched into me by an iron golem. 

today the 8th of october 2020 has been the most bullshit day so far.

ABSOLUTELY NOTHING HAS WORKED AS INTENDED. AN ANACONDA BLEW ME UP IN ELITE COSTING ME 20 MILLION CREDITS BECAUSE SOMEHOW ITS FLAK GUNS ATE THROUGH AN A CLASS SHIELD GEN ON A KRAIT MK2 IN UNDER A SECOND AND FALLOUT 76 HAS CRASHED SIX TIME MY PC HAS ALSO RANDOMLY DECIDED TO REBOOT ATLEAST ONCE TODAY AND I FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE HAVE AN ACTUAL STRESS HEADACHE! FUCK TODAY ITS FUCKING AWFUL