please I'm praying to God I don't fall asleep crying I feel so broken

they just yell at me that I'm dumb and have no brain they're insults arenonky getting worse they hate me and I hate myself too

I don't want to keep fighting

today just keep getting worse

my only friend that’s close by doesn’t want my friendship anymore and i can’t breathe, no one wants to be there for me when i was there for everyone; why do i always end up alone

I've lost everything and I'm only losing more lol 💀

but at least I can change my hair

my makeup

my style

she'd my old skin and los myself more in an identity I don't know

MY AUTISM IS TO BLAME FOR EVERYTHING, I AM A BURDEN, I AM TOO MUCH FOR PEOPLE, I AM SO NOT WORTHY OF LOVE OH MY GOD WHY WAS I BURN CURSED EVERYTHING IS MY FAULT NO ONE GETS HOW SUFFOCATED I FEEL. I'M AUTISTIC AND I SEE HOW THE WORL REACTS TO ME AND I JUST WANT TO DIE. PLEASE PLEASE, I'M SO STUCK IN MY OWN SKIN.

I hope you enjoy talking shit about me with my ex best friend

it's just me myself and I, I'm losing more and more friends because they don't really know who I am. I'm left almost all on my own; ik being purged from pain though it hurts to go through this transition and I thought these friends were me coming into my own but they don't value me.

no one and NOTHING IS REAL.

do you feel better an yourself? how could you talk down to me, degrade me and make sure i blamed myself, how could you leave me with this family that only seems to be getting worse with the abuse. i cant do it anymore, you left me stranded all because i was having major questions about my identity; you act like your so much better than me cause you know who like, most people when they start questioning themselves when their young go through an identity crisis afterwards, FUCK YOU FOR NOT SEEING THAT I WAS GOING THROUGH THAT, FUCK YOU FOR MAKING IT EVEN HARDER BY SLUT SHAMING ME. all this time i thought i was genuinely the bad person but i could NEVER utter the sentence “you at your worst is hard to love”. FUCK YOU YOU NEVER EVEN LOVED ME, YOU JUST WANTED TO FEEL NEEDED. you broke me and broke my perception of love, you made me just as broken with love as you are; your exes abused and genuinely hurt you and you would tell me IM THE ONE RUINING YOU? you are so toxic and you made me feel like a monster because you knew deep down i felt like one and would believe you. YOU LEFT ME STRANDED AND HURT AND EMPTY AND CONFUSED AND ALONE.

god i miss you so much i need to drown u out

I can't believe that I let you see every part of me, all the gross and insecure parts of me, you only used it against me

I'm trying so hard to forget you but you still visit me in my dreams, how am I supposed to go through my phone, I don't want to fully lose you