the boy i’m in love with pissed me off so i took a bl4d3 to the hickey he left on my chest. that’s fucked up right?

it felt good at the moment but now that i think about it i’m like damn. who does that

there was a shooting at my school today. 5 hours of confusion, fear, and texting friends and family that i love them.

new motivation to lose weight: to actually fuckin fit in thigh highs 😭😭 these bitches are squeezing the fat out like play dough

what they think i mean when I say I wanna look like a model vs what I actually mean:

when ur wide hips give you an hourglass figure but also make u look fat and have thick thighs :(

If it's not money then I NEED LOWER FUCKING NUMBERS !

not that anyone cares but i havent updated my weight on my profile since may bc i gained all my weight back during my barista job and ive been too ashamed to update it, but today im gonna do it. im gonna own up to my mistakes and start over fresh. again :/

Why take drugs when you have the feeling of losing weight?😌 Skinny is my drug.

good news: im 18 now so I can officially post bodychecks without feeling illegal

bad news: im too fucking fat 🤠

anyone else go through periods of like... normalness and then suddenly things get dramatically worse for a few weeks and then go back to normal-ish? it makes me feel rlly invalidated and like im faking this whole thing smh

hey guys today is my 18th birthday :') never thought id make it here

good news guys :) my 44 hour fast (so far) and laxative use has paid off, i look so fucking hot in this dress. the only thing that sucks is how fat my thighs are, but thick thighs save lives right? plus there's nothing i can do in the short term to make them smaller but oh well, i look great !

long vent thing:

ive been fasting for almost 36 hours bc homecoming is tonight and since my dress is form fitting i dont want to look extra fat. last night before bed i drank some tea that is supposed to make you shit and i woke up at 5am with horrible cramps, i ended up sitting on the toilet for an hour. ive only done a 24+ hour fast twice in my life so im really not used to it, i feel so weak and tired and last night when i was shitting it felt like i was going to die. i was genuinely afraid that i would die on the fucking toilet. my stomach hurt so bad because it was so full of shit but i didn't have any energy at all to try and push it out so i sat there in agony and fear. eventually it all came out and i went back to bed, and im still not dead i guess. today i have ice skating which is going to be hard with no energy, but my friends and i are going to a restaurant before the dance and i dont want to eat more than i absolutely have to. im planning on just getting an appetizer or a salad. they already think im fat. they said i was built like a pixar mom, and one of them called me thunder thighs yesterday, so there's no way im going to be eating a lot tonight. i just have to hope that my mom won't force me to eat something this morning or after skating.

i wish i would've just done it when i was 13 so that i wouldn't have to be dealing with life now

i know im fucking fat but ngl i look decent in this dress.... like fr wouldn't i have an hourglass figure if i were skinny???