This is for someone who is pressured in life.

Hi, I know you've been pressured lately. You’re on your room, stuck in a dark shadow while thinking the future, including how it will would seem, function, and frequently compare yourself to others and ask yourself questions such, "Napag-iiwanan na nga ba talaga ako?."

First and foremost, I want you to realize how rare and fortunate you are. I want you to know, even there's only five persons rooting for you, keep going! You have individuals in your life who are more than willing to reach out and support you; some of them may even be persons you didn't expect. I see you, okay?

I might tell you that things will get better in a matter of hours, days, weeks, months, or even years. Relax by taking a few deep breaths. One day, you will reflect on this time in your life and be grateful that you successfully made it. I also want you to know that every step you take forward, no matter how small and slow, it matters.

Small progress is still a progress so keep striving, keep believing in yourself, and keep going because one day your efforts will be rewarded. You matter to this world, and you have so much ability and wisdom to share. So, hang in there. I believe in you.

Here’s my warm virtual hug with consent.

_rocel

an open letter to my future lover

I wrote this last year, May 24, 2020, to be exact and I already posted it on my Twitter account back on May 27 2020 if I'm not mistaken aaaaand I also decided to post it here on my Tumblr account 'cause why not?! yay! sksksks , let's go!

(feel free to read and correct whenever you see an error)

I wrote this because I want you not to expect too much from me ( in the future hehe) and hey I'm not expecting too much from you too :) I'm comfortable expressing my thoughts and feelings through writing so I hope you will value it. I don't know where you are right now, what are you doin', and how's your day but my heart knows you will find me someday, we will find each other someday. I know I'm a difficult person to love. I have trust issues. My parents are conservative. But I hope you will stay and still want to continue our story than end it just because of those reasons

I don't need a rich, super majestic man that has an IQ like Albert Einstein. Having someone mature to understand everything is enough. Someone who will respect me. Someone hardworking. Someone who makes me feel I'm the most beautiful woman. Someone who will remind me that all my imperfections are no big deal, that I'm worthy. A person who will support me in everything especially in my fangirl life hehe.

I'm wondering if you like pop music too. If you're also a fan of those Hollywood artists/singers. Whats' your favorite movie? Do you drink coffee 3x a day? 'cause I don't.

I'm not good at cooking but for you, I will haha. I will sing for you in my terrible voice. We will be having a concert every weekend, yaaaaaay! so much excitement HAHAHAHA

I'm not expecting you out of a Nicholas Sparks novel nor holding a box of engagement ring kneeling to the ground in front of me at Taylor Swift's concert while singing her iconic song 'love story. Yeah I dreamed and loved it but please do remember that it's okay if you can't.

I'm not expecting those fancy things. If it happens then great, if not it's okay. Having your sincerity, faithfulness and 99.9% love is the kind of achievement I will treasure for the rest of my life.

If you or I ever mess this up, know that we can still work this out. I know we can. Just choose to fix and understand the situation million times than held your pride.

No matter what happens just hold on. Just hold on and be there. Not sure when we will meet ( or we already met each other?) but trust me once I know you're the one, I will never let you go. I hope you do, too. If Philip and Anne can rewrite the stars. I know together we also can.

Don't forget to pray, Keep doing your best today. Let's find each other soon.

love, rocel :)

hi, mag re-revise ako asap hehe

MANIFESTING! <3

Hi, kumustaaaaaaaa? Kumusta ang 2021 mo? Ilang oras nalang bye 2021 naaaaa, na i-let go mo na ba? HAHAHA kung naghahanap ka ng sign, eto na ‘yon sis! sksksks, kung para naman sa ikabubuti mo, kung pakiramdam mo ay siya na mismo nagbibigay ng dahilan para ikaw ang bumitaw, let him/her go. Sabi nga, “what’s meant to be will always find a way.” Anywaaaaaays, gusto ko ulit ikuwento highlights ng 2021 ko. Pinili ko sa tagalong nalang isulat para dama hahaha pero may konting words pa rin na english.

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Ramdam ko na napakabilis nang takbo ng oras , araw, panahon. Kasi parang kahapon lang naganap yung debut ko, parang kahapon lang pinaplano ko paano uumpisahan narrative report ng vlog namin, at parang kahapon lang iniisip ko na kung sakaling hindi na ako magising kinabukasan ay ayos lang, dahil pagod na rin ako. Sobrang dami nanamang nangyari at nagbago. May mga hiling ako na hindi natupad, pero mas maraming ibinigay si Lord sa akin na hindi ko hiniling. Isa na nga yung naging valedictorian ako.

Walang gabi na hindi ko kinuwestiyon sarili at kakayahan ko simula noong natanggap ko ang award na iyan. Dahil plano ko pagkatapos sa senior high school ay mag-patuloy sa college at manahimik nalang sa buhay. Pero hindi eh, iba talaga ang plano ko sa plano ni Lord. Hindi ko alam kung nakabuti ba ito sa akin o mas dinagdagan lang ang pressure sa sarili ko. Ayoko kasi na mataas ang tingin ng mga tao sakin,gusto ko lang ng tahimik na buhay hehe.Sa ngayon kasi, wala na akong pakealam sa mga awards, gusto ko lang mag-aral, pero ang hirap talaga kapag ang taas ng tingin sa’yo ng ibang tao. At sigurado ako, kapag nabigo mo sila ng kahit isang beses lang, mas mababa pa sa mababa ang tingin sa iyo.

Dati excited ako mag college, pero ngayon hindi na nakakatuwa haha. Totoo na sa college dapat masipag ka, matapang at madali kang mag move on dahil sa sunod-sunod na activities,quizzes at exams. Higit isang buwan din kaya bago ako nakapag-adjust, bago ko natanggap na college na talaga ako. Nandito na talaga ang totoong pressure! Hindi madali ang mga subjects at ang taas ng expectation ng mga professors. Pero ganoon talaga. Ngayong taon ko naramdaman na sobra akong naghina. Lagi akong kinakabahan kung ano bang mangyayari, nahihirapan ako huminga minsan, at kahit magpahinga ako, pagod parin ang nangingibabaw.

Buti nalang hindi ako prinessure ng mga magulang ko pagdating sa grades, ang mahalaga raw ay makapasa. Siguro nga sarili ko lang pinipressure ko, nasanay kasi ako na mataas lagi ang nakukuha. Buti nalang din may mga tao akong nakakapitan, may mga iilan akong napagsasabihan, at may professor akong may mga konsiderasyon. Sa tuwing naaalala ko yung mga araw at gabi na nahihirapan ako, naaawa ako sa sarili kooo pero sa kabilang banda eh nakakaproud isipin na nakayanan ko, nakayanan ko nanaman at sana sa susunod makayanan ko ulit.

Noon pa man naniniwala na akong may plano si Lord para sa akin. Nakahanap ako ng bagong mga kaibigan ngayong taon, at pamilya na napakatatag ng paniniwala sa panginoon. May mga desisyon akong alam ko na hindi nagustuhan ng iba, may mga taong malapit sa akin pero bakit ramdam kong iba yung pagtingin. Ang labo, siguro pakiramdam ko lang ito haha kaya ayoko nang isipin. Ang mahalaga ay ang mental health ko, opo, mental health.

Lord, alam kong hindi mo ito mababasa sa tumblr pero alam kong naririnig mo ang lahat ng mga panalangin ko. Maraming salamat sa isang taon na puno ng mga hindi inaasahang pangyayari. Salamat sa patuloy na pagpapalakas sa akin at sa buong pamilya ko. Alam mo kung gaano ako kalapit sa mga inang ko, mahal na mahal ko po sila kahit na minsan lang kami mag sama-sama. Matatanda na po sila, gusto ko pa po silang makasama nang matagal. Sana ay pagpalain mo rin po ang mga taong totoo sa akin.

Siguro nga pinagbigyan lang ako ng panahon kaya ko natanggap ang award na ‘yon , sana sa susunod umayon ulit ang panahon. :)

hey mom! @taylorswift happy birthday! love youuuuu! reputation (taylor’s version) next pls!!!!!

ps. better late than never hehe

 As far as i remember, July 5 2021, 8pm nag message sa akin si Juanitooooo sabi niya “ CONGRATZESSSS ROCEL VALEDICTORIAN” syempre hindi ako naniwala HAHAHA. Baka kasi prank e ang galing pa naman niya don. Sumunod na nag message si Isiah na ganon rin yung chat kino-congrats na ako, next si Hannalie pero ako, hindi pa rin naniniwala not until Sir Jomel mentioned me in our groupchat. Grabe yon! Wag kayong mag-alala kasi pati ako hindi makapaniwala. Sa totoo lang okay na sa akin yung dati lang, pero siguro ito yung plano sa akin ni lord. Hindi ko alam. Hindi ko ito hiniling pero ibinigay sa akin. At sobra akong nagpapasalamat kahit na nadagdagan yung pressure plus expectation nanaman nila sa akin. Basta, go with the flow na lang ako hehe. At dahil ako nga huhu, ayan gusto ko lang ishare speech ko :) (dedma nalang sa kilay ko na hindi pantay hahahaha)

High School is said to be the most memorable and most precious phase of someone’s life, and my vivid memories of the past 6 years of being a student of Galvan High School seem to rush back today. It feels like only yesterday when I entered Galvan High School as a grade 7 student, found my name on the list, and felt nervous whenever I introduce myself In front of my new classmates and teachers, and now I'm about to close the chapter of my Senior High School journey. Having this very important recognition feels like a dream for me.

COVID-19 made unusual behaviors the new normal, and our old practices have faded into distant memory. It has fundamentally changed how we live, work and learn. I know that it has been a tough year and challenging for all the teachers especially all the students like me to adapt to the new normal education in the form of modular and online learning. To be honest, as a senior high school student in the new normal education, it is not easy, especially at the beginning of the school year. It took me a lot of adjustments since we need to be independent learners where self-learning is required. I'm also aware that online learning is very difficult for certain personality types. Loss of connection, not having enough data also technical problems. However, I still find ways to keep moving forward. I set goals and learned how to manage and value time. 

When the school year began, my goal is to finish at least 3 modules and 2 learning activity sheets every day. Once the modules were received, I begin to read and study them immediately to meet my goal. I don’t eat on time sometimes and I stay up until 2 am just to finish my tasks. I worked hard and sacrificed much in meeting all that is required and now is the time to reap the fruits of success that I planted.

As I celebrate this milestone, allow me to express my gratitude and appreciation to all the people who supported, believed, and helped me throughout this journey. 

To my dearest classmates, 12-HUMSS Galupe former 11- Locke, being your Class President is such an honor. Thank you so much for trusting and believing in me. I will surely miss our chikahan and jamming during my free time. The tawanan and banatan moments also gala after school before the pandemic and the open communication for doing performance tasks that need to be accomplished during the pandemic. 

To my Grade 11 and 12 advisers, Ma’am Arlene M. Lazatin and Ma’am Janice A. Galupe who influenced me a lot to strive harder in my studies. Because of you, I have developed my self-confidence. Thank you Ma’am for imparting your knowledge, and for the guidance and sacrifices. I would also like to give due recognition to my previous advisers and teachers. Thank you for being an inspiration, for the immeasurable love and support also for the wisdom and life lessons that will serve for me as a weapon whatever obstacles life may bring. As well as to my Junior High families, 7-Zaide, 8- Pythagoras, 9-Newton and of course 10- Banzon I will never forget you. Furthermore, to my Galvan Supreme Student Government Family, G-Files Editorial Board of Staff, my coaches in Journalism, and my co-journalists, I owe you a lot.

To my best friends and friends who know exactly who you all are, warmest thank you for being genuine and for all the encouragement and sincere support.

Also, I am eternally grateful and blessed to have been gifted with such hard-working and kind-hearted parents. To Mama and Papa who have been with me every step of the way, the love, care, and support you’ve shown me are one of a kind. Thank you for all your efforts and sacrifices. I will continue to be humble in every situation, be fearless and strive harder to pursue my dreams just like what you both taught me when I was a kid.

I also would like to extend my greetings to all of you my fellow graduates, batch 2020- 2021. This year may not have been easy and the best for all of us but we are indeed lucky to have this far. We proved that despite the crisis that we currently facing and the struggles that we experienced and encountered to cope with the new normal in education, we survived and still fighting and striving to become better.

It is not yet the end of our journey. After this program, we will part ways and lead in hundred of directions. And as I end this message, I would like to share this quotation from one of my biggest inspirations in life for all of you to ponder. 

Dearest students, “There are going to be people along the way who will try to undercut your success or take credit for your accomplishments or your fame. But if you just focus on the work and you don’t let those people sidetrack you, someday when you get where you’re going, you will look around and know it was you and the people who love you who put you there and that will be the greatest feeling in the world.” Hope this quote be also your inspiration as you go through your journey. Remember that whatever you become and achieved in life is because of your perseverance and diligence, along with this are the people who believed, supported, and genuinely loved you no matter how difficult the situation.

Above all, I give my deepest gratitude to the Lord who gave me wisdom and strength in my everyday life to face all the hardships.

Fellow graduates, get up and be strong as we conquer a new journey. May we continue to keep the faith, keep aiming higher, be more patient, and keep reaching our goals. Count me as one of the people who are rooting for you.

Again, congratulations to all the Completers and Graduates of Batch 2020- 2021, and also to all the Teachers and Parents.

Thank you and to God be always the highest glory.

a letter for my papa.

Today is June 20, 2021, a day of honoring fatherhood and paternal bonds, as well as the influence of fathers in society. And I decided to write a letter to my excellent, hardworking, and gorgeous papa,naks! sksksk Hi Pa! Hope you’re fine and doing great, this letter is for you. Eighteen years of existence, living in this temporary world and I am beyond grateful ‘cause God gave me a father like you. you gave me strength and showed me your full support from the moment I opened my eyes and started to walk, talk and now that I'm finishing my senior high school journey and about to start my college life which I think is the most challenging part for me as a student, for you of course and mama. I still remember and will never forget my first day at school. I'm only 6 years old when you sent me to pre-school and I don't know how to draw some objects, you were at the door and keep on smiling at me and waiting for me to finish my work. You brought me lots of books, coloring materials, dictionaries, and different kinds of learning tools. Time moved too fast, your daughter is now finishing her shs with high honors. Thank you, Pa! Thank you for being my kakampi and for believing in me when mama (sometimes) doesn’t. Thank you for showing me what a kind-hearted, hardworking, and humble man looks like. Thank you for all your efforts and sacrifices. Thank you, Pa, for giving me the freedom to decide on my own, for letting me enjoy my teenage life, and for respecting what I feel. Trust me, I know my limitations. You’ve raised a smart, wise, strong (and pretty) daughter so don’t worry haha. Thank you for choosing us :) Looking forward to more memories, and pictures with you and mama on my recognition days, birthdays, etc. You’re going to walk beside me with mama on my wedding day (in the future) pa haha. I will strive harder to pursue all my dreams, note that. Thank you for always making me feel like your little princess no matter how old I get. Wherever life takes me, I’ll never forget you. I Love you Pa, God knows how proud I am that you were created.

love, 

rocel

and what makes you happy.

my heart is filled with deep gratitude. thank you may! 🥺♥️♥️♥️ https://www.instagram.com/p/CPirUpaH--l-vpH4lDrvVwqrxVbbh3-7wKlsXw0/?utm_medium=tumblr

I'm turning 18 tomorrow!!! 🥺

Wait. Let me breath first. asdfghjkl So eto na ngaaaaaa, 18 years old na ako bukas!!! Hindi ako readyyyy, dati kasi 3days or 1week bago birthday ko nakapagsulat na ako ng mga gusto kong sabihin haha. Dapat nga tinutulungan ko sila ngayon or nagpapahinga na ako, pero siningit ko talaga itooooo. Okay whoo haha. Thank you Lord for gaving me a chance to live in this temporary world. Thank you so much for gaving me a supportive , sympathetic parents and guardians. Sobrang swerte ko sa kanila sa totoo lang. Pati na rin po sa pagbigay ng mga kaibigan. Ang dami kong nakilalaaaaaaa, from childhood friends, classmates, co-journalist, to internet friends, also co-fans, kahit na yung iba e panandalian lang thank you padin kasi madami akong natutunan. Ayoko na ng hateeeee,pls lang. sksksksk Sa loob ng 18 years, sobrang nakakaproud lang. Proud ako sa sarili ko, Proud ako kasi hanggang ngayon nandito padin ako. Akalain mo yun! HAHAHAHA

Gustooooooo ko lang maging malakaaaaaas pa, kasi bes ang dami kong pangarap sksksks. Gusto ko matupad mga yoooooon. Gusto ko, bago man lang ako mawala dito sa mundo e nakaattend ako ng concert, nakapunta sa italy (or kahit sa parang italy nalang okie na hahaha), financially stable tapos patravel travel nalang with fam. huhu Matutupad lahat yan! (law of attraction) uy hahahaha. At sana naman sa susunod may kasama na ako sa mga picture taking. Hindi yung ako parin mag-isa. HAHAHAHA. Okay na. Yung iba sa prayers ko na. Ready na ako! (tinamad na ako magkalkal ng mga pics e ,ayan nalang haahhaaha)

oh god! i love being called "cel, shel, chel" 🥺 sksksks

"as we grow up, we realize it becomes less important to have ton of friends and more important to have real ones." -TS. sobrang totoooo! ok na, tanggap ko na, kaya ko! 🥰 PS: FAVE KO ITONG PICTURE KO NA ITO PANG DRAMA HAHASKSKSKS BYE.

TBH HINDI AKO EXCITED, EWAN KO DIN BAKIT GANTO. PERO NUNG NALAMAN KO NA ANDAMI PALANG EXCITED LIKE "ATE BINIBILANG KO ARAW, 5DAYS NALANG BIRTHDAY MO NA" " ATE SANA WALA KANG MARAMING MODULE PARA NAMAN MAKAPAG CELEBRATE KA NG WALANG GAANONG INIISIP" "BEEEEEEE LAPIT NA, MISS U!" "NAKAUWI NAKOOOO BASTA PILITIN KONG PUMUNTA" "UY LAPIT NA BIRTHDAY NIYA", HYS NAEEXCITE NA RIN AKO! 🥺

sorry na @taylorswift 😁🥰🥰🥰

mr look me in the eye and tell me you would never go away 🥺 @taylorswift @taylornation