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oxpumpkinxo · 7 months
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Sometimes life does not go the way you expected it to.
The only person you loved and thought you was going to spend the rest of your life with suddenly walks away from all the hopes and dreams created between the both of you.
How do I feel? Heartbroken would be an understatement but does my feelings matter? No completely not. From having a best friend to then growing into a relationship to then being engaged and wanting to spend the rest of your life with one another to have it come falling down on you all of a sudden, I mean I’m lost for words,
Chocked up whilst I write this with tears as big as thunder spots on a car window.
I guess he just fell out of love with me - was 3 years too long? Am I always going to be the problem?
The pain hurts the equivalent to a family member dying. I’ve lost everything and everyone I love.
I’m blocked - so it just shows that I didn’t mean that much in the first place to instantly block me - when you love someone you don’t put them through that or make them feel that way.
At this point in my life I have no future to be excited about, no one to love or to be loved by and I’ve lost my will for anything - what is there to be excited about anymore? NOTHING.
I just don’t want to feel this pain, I don’t want to be broken, I just want him and only him.
I guess everything that gets thrown at me in life is my fault. What a complete waste of breath air I am, what a complete waste of space. What am I even living for anymore? Seriously?
Anyway it was nice knowing you. Please know that I will cherish all the memories we have together, all of our future plans, all of the love and laughs shared between one another.
All of our fun time we had spent together playing Fortnite with you and your son, all of the learning for cod, I’ll cherish it all.
Goodnight.
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oxpumpkinxo · 1 year
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It’s nearly 2023 and I’m still In love with him like the day I first knew I loved him ❤️ I’m so glad I’m going to marry him soon and so proud to call him my fiancé ❤️
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oxpumpkinxo · 1 year
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Your soul knows when something is real, authentic and true. No matter what anyone try’s to tell you, the truth will always feel different. Your heart knows when something resonates. Trust your intuition.
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oxpumpkinxo · 2 years
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“Finding someone you can really connect with is like winning the lottery — It happens basically never, but if it does, you really shouldn’t blow it.”
— Jessica Verdi, What You Left Behind
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oxpumpkinxo · 3 years
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So I’ve not posted in a while, but my long distance came to an end in April.. for 3 months, but now he’s gone back home. He went the start of July. I feel so lost.
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oxpumpkinxo · 3 years
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oxpumpkinxo · 3 years
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“I laughed and said, ‘Life is easy.’ What I meant was, ‘Life is easy with you here, and when you leave, it will be hard again.’”
— Miranda July
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oxpumpkinxo · 3 years
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oxpumpkinxo · 3 years
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oxpumpkinxo · 3 years
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oxpumpkinxo · 3 years
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If I could explain and tell you the love I have for you, why I love you, I’d be here forever, I truly couldn’t explain to you in words my love for you. It’s too much. But I can give you a few,
You’re very accepting, you accept me for my flaws, my bad past, you reassure me everyday you want me for the rest of your life. You have a pure and true soul, we are literally the same person, just different genders lol. You understand me, how I work, how my mentality works, and you never give up even when times get hard. You’re my best friend, my soulmate, my ONE AND ONLY true love. If I knew how to write a love song I’d have an album fully dedicated to you, my love for you.
I hope you never find anyone else, ever get bored of me or this long distance (which won’t last forever) or ever fall out of love with me, I want you, forever. I want to be the mother to your son, to your future children, your wife, your companion and I want to be your everything like you are to me. Losing you would break me, I’d take a bullet for you. If i lost you; I’d lose my self, I couldn’t do this shit without you, just from the way you are with me you’ve brought me out this Great Depression I had been suffering with since a young age; I mean, some part is still there but I’m not half as bad as I used to be. Your my saviour, my knight in shining armour; and I love you, with my everything ❤️
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oxpumpkinxo · 3 years
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You make me so fucking happy
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oxpumpkinxo · 3 years
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oxpumpkinxo · 3 years
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oxpumpkinxo · 3 years
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I found love and friendship in one person.
-takethisride
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oxpumpkinxo · 3 years
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