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hello mai! congrats on 500 againn you deserve each and every last one <33 i’m here for your event!!

chuuya, second chance, fluff

thank you, and take your time!!

about! chuuya comes to his ex’s apartment badly injured. his wounds aren’t the only thing that gets mended.

warnings! mentions of blood + injuries

memo! res res res!! thank you so so much for joining my event, i hope you enjoy <3 sending you a big hug 🫂

it was rare chuuya got so badly injured, but fuck, did it hurt when he did. it wasn't like him to get distracted during missions, but ever since the two of you broke up, he found it impossible to keep you out of his mind. no matter where he was, or what he was doing, his thoughts always strayed back to you.

his head aches thinking of the bright white walls of the mafia infirmary, with the itchy cots and the unfamiliar nurses. all he wants is you, with your soft hands and caring gaze as you treated his injuries. coincidentally, your apartment is closer than his, and he justifies that it only makes senseー that maybe it’s a sign.

by the time he's done overthinking it, he’s knocking on your door.

he hears your muffled “chuuya?” on the other side before you open the door. your hair messily frames your face, your eyes have a sheen of sleepiness, your cheeks are tinted pink…you’re just as pretty as he remembers. you’re wearing a shirt he recognizes; his mind wanders to the moments he’d come home to you cooking dinner wearing it, or on cloudy mornings when he’d embarrassingly drool on it as he slumbered on your chest.

“you’re bleeding.” he snaps out of it at your sigh, gently turning his cheek to assess the damage. he can’t lie to himself and say he hasn’t fantasized about moments like this, ones he thought he’d never get again; of course he wishes they were under different circumstances. he’d feel nicer if his head wasn’t bleeding, for one.

you lead him inside, pulling out a chair for him on your way to the bathroom closet. he sees your laptop open on the couch and holds back the urge to scold you for late night working when you were obviously tired. you come back with a first aid kit, and he parts his legs for you to stand closer; he can’t help but collapse into you, burying his face into your stomach with a sigh of relief.

“why did you come here, chuuya?” you try to pull away, but his arms stay heavy around your waist.

“you were close. and i knew you’d be awake.” he mumbles into you. “you need to take better care of yourself, y’know.”

he smiles at the sound of your airy laugh, hands coming up to card through his dirtied hair as he melts further into you. “aren't you the one bleeding right now?”

he shivers when you brush his bangs back, getting ready to clean the cut on his forehead. it's easy to ignore the sting of the peroxide when he’s breathing in that familiar, comforting scent of your perfume. he feels you tape down the gauze, mindful of his baby hairs as you smooth down the edges. you press a kiss to the bandage on instinct, freezing when you realize what you did. “oh my gosh— i didn’t—”

“don’t worry about it," his lips are tilted in a lopsided smile when he pulls away from your midsection just enough to look up at you. "it always hurt less when you would do that."

you stiffly nod, leaning down, coming nose to nose with him as you get ready to clean the wound above his lip. you dab the cut gently, eyebrows scrunching sympathetically when he winces. “sorry.”

he brushes your hair back when strands fall in your face. your movements stutter when his hand grazes your cheek. “sorry…” he repeats the word back to you, eyes falling down to your mouth.

you’re both so close, he can’t help but brush his lips against yours, barely containing the warmth that floods his entire being when you kiss him back. he brings his gloved hand up to cradle your face; you hold it in place with your own.

when you pull away, your heavy eyes are dilated.

“we should talk about this tomorrow. not now.” he nods at your words, kissing you again; he can feel your smile against his lips, but it’s gone by the time you separate.

you move to the cut on his cheek, cleaning it in silence as chuuya moves his hands to your hips. he rolls his thumbs in circles over the fabric of your shirt, watching you work diligently from the corner of his eye. when you place the butterfly bandage on his cheek with an "all done", his heart sinks as he loses the one reason he had to be close to you like this.

“you can stay here for the night,” at your mumble, he raises his eyebrows toward you. “i mean…you don’t want to run into any other bad guys, right?”

he doesn't know what to be happier about: the fact you wanted him to stay longer, or the fact you didn't see him as one of the bad guys. “what,” he looks at you through his bangs, head tilted with a cocky smirk. “you don’t think i could kick their asses too?”

you give him an exhausted look, one he didn't realize he had missed so much. “just rest, chuuya. please.”

he doesn't swat your hands away as you help him up from the chair, or when you don't let go as you lead him to your bedroom, as if he didn't know where it was. when he gets into bed, he doesn't even realize he climbs into what used to be his side.

your hand is limp in between the both of you as you get comfortable. he lightly slips his fingers in between yours in a loose hold, smiling at the sigh that leaves your parted lips.

"i lied before," you open your eyes sleepily as he avoids your gaze. "the real reason i came is because i missed you."

his heart flutters when you squeeze his hand. "tomorrow, okay?"

he can’t wait to wake up next to you, even if he does drool on your shirt again.

"yeah. tomorrow."

#🗒#chuuya x reader #nakahara chuuya x reader #chuuya x y/n #chuuya x you #bsd x reader #bsd scenarios #bsd imagines #chuuya imagines #chuuya fluff #bungou stray dogs x reader

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how they help you study

memo! i’m projecting again </3 i've seen a lot of ppl talk about having exams this week, please remember to take care of yourselves too! good luck on your exams!!

ft. dazai, chuuya, ranpo, fyodor, sigma, nikolai

dazai

ー keeps you company

he was allowed to sit next to you at your desk, but only after promising to not be a distraction. he plays footsie with you, lightly tapping his feet against yours before lacing your ankles together and swaying them under the desk. you don't know how much time has passed when you look back up from your laptop and notice him, head pillowed on one arm, drawing little versions of you and him in the corner of your notebook. you lean down to kiss his nose, smiling when he blinks up at you. “are you bored?” he lazily intertwines your hand with his own. “i miss you.” he looks up at you while he kisses the back of your hand. “i’m right here, osamu.” you run your fingers through his scalp, pushing his bangs back as he closes his eyes and leans against his forearm. “it's not enough.” his response is muddled against his squished cheek. you squint at your needy boyfriend before going back to your work; you make do typing with one hand, the other still laced with his own.

chuuya

ー reminds you to take breaks

when he gets home and sees you in the same spot you were in when he left for work, his heart squeezes. "you're still doing that?" you can only nod sleepily, attention focused on the screen in front of you. he peeks over your head to see what you’re working on, lips meeting your forehead in a gentle kiss. “don’t you think it’s time to give that pretty little head of yours a break?” his murmurs tickle the skin along your hairline. "i'll be done soon...i think." he can see the exhaustion in your face begin to melt as he starts rubbing circles along your shoulders, urging you to rest against him. after a moment, he looks down at you: eyes closed, breathing relaxed, cheek smushed against his chest. he lends over the best he can without disturbing you, saving your work, before he's lifting you up and carrying you to bed. he uses his ability to make his footsteps lighter, watching your face carefully to ensure you weren't disturbed from your much needed rest. he makes sure to tuck you into bed snuggly, kissing your forehead one last time, only thinking of you before he unwinds himself.

ranpo

ー proofreads your work

when he sees you walk towards him, his head perks up. something about you coming to him for his opinion never fails to make him warm inside. “will you read this for me?” he pulls you onto his lap and rests his chin on your shoulder. he looks at the pages for a second before he’s throwing it on his desk, all attention going to pressing kisses to your cheeks, "it's perfect, y/n!" you squirm in his grasp, his arms holding you tight against his chest. “are you sure? did you really read it, or are you just saying that?” he gives you a quick kiss on the lips. “i don’t need to read it to know it’s amazing.” he has a confident grin that he knows won’t distract you. “ranpo, please read it!” he sighs, picking up the pages again. after a few minutes, he taps one of the paragraphs. "this point can be strengthened." you nod determined, moving to get up before his arms pull you back, lips turned into a pout. "you can fix it from here, can't you?"

fyodor

ー encourages you

"no, this is wrong..." fyodor had long since tuned out your mumbles as you worked on practice problems, but he turns his attention to you at the sound of your head hitting the table in defeat. "i can't do this." is muffled against your notebook. he pats your head in what's supposed to be comforting before snaking his hand underneath to lift your face towards him. "of course you can do it." you feel like he's looking through you and it makes you want to hide; all you can do is nod dumbly. he releases your jaw and taps his finger against the paper. “try again.” you work slowly, eyes straying to him every few moments just to see him smiling down at you with his chin in his palm. when you come to your solution, you smile, previous insecurity melting away. “see?" he presses a kiss against your temple, cold fingers smoothing down your hair. "when have i ever been wrong?”

sigma

ー brings you coffee

you don’t know how long you’ve been studying for, but you were in a zone; it was almost as if your brain was on autopilot. you don’t even notice sigma entering the room until a flash of purple catches the corner of your eye. he places a cup of coffee next to you, in your favorite cup, too. then, a small plate of cookies with a note. he just gives you a smile and a kiss on the head. "i won't distract you, i just wanted to drop these off." he's already walking away before you can thank him. the schoolwork you were so absorbed in is suddenly forgotten as you pick up the note: keep working hard, i love you :). you don't bother to contain your giddy smile, turning the attention to the warm drink. your heart flutters as you take a sip...it’s exactly how you like it. you appreciate him not wanting to distract you, but all you could think about now was finishing as fast as possible so you could smother you boyfriend in kisses.

nikolai

ー reviews with you

you've been on edge ever since you told nikolai you had an important exam coming up. “it’s time for a quiz!” would ring out as he pulls your index cards out of his coat at the most random times: while you're brushing your teeth, when you're putting away groceries, when you're laying on the couch. he rewards you with a “mhm!” and a kiss when you’re correct; a “hmm, not quite!” and a flick to your nose when you're not. when you finally get through all of them without a single incorrect answer, he dramatically gasps, throwing the cards into the air with no regard, twirling you around in a hug. you’re dizzy when he places you down, squishing your cheeks in his large hands. "my darling is so smart〜" he grins pressing a kiss to your puckered lips. “and cute, too!”

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hi can i request dazai with a fem!reader who has dimples and maybe he’s always playing with her cheeks? thank you!

memo! ANON OMG i wasn’t even going to post tonight !! but then i saw this :o i have dimples + a baby face too !! these headcanons pretty much wrote themselves </3

the first time he sees you smile, your dimples accentuated, he’s gone, arrow straight through his heart

he’ll tickle you until you can’t stop laughing, only stopping to kiss all over your face, paying special attention to your dimples before he’s blowing raspberries against your plump cheeks

one of his favorite things to do is trace over your features with his finger, lightly bouncing it against your cheek, especially when you’re resting your head on his chest

i know for a fact this man doesn’t know a thing about skincare, but he’ll watch you do your morning / night routine every day, absolutely enamored at how your cheeks glow

acts a little questionable sometimes 🤨 i wouldn’t put it past him to nibble on your cheeks

won’t miss an opportunity to tease you. he’ll push the ends of his chopsticks into his cheeks, “am i as cute as you now, y/n?”, or gently poke your face with them, saying he’s going to eat you up

he’ll squish your cheeks between both of his hands, cooing about how adorable you are before pressing a kiss to your puckered lips. he can’t help it, even if you get a little annoyed with him

loves holding your face. stroking his thumbs across your soft skin, skimming over your dimples, heart full when you kiss his fingertips

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#🗒#i think i said ‘cheeks’ too many times >:/#dazai osamu x reader #dazai x reader #bsd x reader #bungou stray dogs x reader #bsd hcs #bsd headcanons #bsd imagines #dazai imagines #dazai x y/n #dazai fluff #dazai x you

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can i request waking up and realizing their s/o isn’t next to them with fyodor? and anyone else you’d like

memo! i added dazai + tecchou hehe. i'm sorry if you wanted this to be angsty because it's absolutely not but tysm for the request <3 !!

dazai

on the rare occasion he's able to fall asleep, he can only rest peacefully with you next to him. so imagine his surprise when he wakes up without you

he can’t shake the dread he feels at the thought of being alone again; he’s imagined this scenario before, but never thought it would actually happen

he's half out of his futon, borderline frantic, when you come back in with a glass of water

he nearly whines at the sight of you. he holds you tightly, breathing you in and reminding himself you're there...then he's back to normal :')

he won't let go of you!! he's kissing every spot on your face, fake crying about his “one true love abandoning him”

when you lay back down, he's clingier then ever. one hand cradling your head against his chest, the other against your back, his legs shifting until they’re intertwined with yours and you’re both completely wrapped up in each other

he watches you fall back asleep carefully, hoping you didn't realize how scared he was of actually losing you

fyodor

half of the reason he bothers to go to bed in the first place is the feeling of waking up to your warm body against to his

so when he wakes up, freezing cold, with you, no where in sight, he immediately has a frown on his face

i don’t think he’d panic; no one is stupid enough to try to harm his s/o, especially when he’s laying right next to them

but what could possibly be more important than cuddling with him? he can't seem to think of anything (# > <) until he finds you in the kitchen, late night snacking

"i see my dearest prefers the company of the fridge over me?" he's only half joking

when you come back, he's waiting for you on his side of the bed. he'll stare you down until you cuddle back up to him, but he won't make the first move to touch you himself

he's suddenly very clingy; lithe arms tight around your waist, his cheek resting in your hair, softly brushing the ends with his fingers. just don't tease him about it or he'll stop </3

tecchou

if there's one thing he's gonna do, he’s gonna look for someone. when he wakes up and realizes that you're not by his side, he suddenly feels much more awake

his habit of not thinking things through paired with his sleepy brain + undying need to protect you...it's over

he's getting up immediately, grabbing his sword just in case, when he notices the bathroom light is on

he all but slams open the door, just to see a startled you, rinsing the soap off your hands

his mood shifts when he sees you’re safe. he's like "oh there you are :)" like he didn't just give you a heart attack

he'll wait patiently in the doorway until you're done, holding his hand out to you so the two of you can go back to bed

when you do, he'll curl himself around you, kissing your head, making sure you’ve fallen back asleep before he lets himself do the same

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#🗒#dazai x reader #fyodor x reader #tecchou x reader #bsd x reader #bungou stray dogs x reader #bsd imagines #bsd scenarios #bsd headcanons #dazai imagines #fyodor imagines #fyodor fluff #dazai fluff #dazai osamu x reader #dazai x you #fyodor x you #bsd hcs

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meeting dazai in the beast universe

warnings! angst, spoilers for the beast manga / light novel

memo! dazai anon thanks for convincing me to post this </3

when he saw you, you were waiting for your coffee.

he knew the order by heart, of course.

he’d seen you before; only in his flashbacks, never with his own two eyes. brushing his hair back and kissing his forehead, thumbs soothing the skin under his eyes. giggling with you late into the night, drunk off the same bottle of sake. waking up next to you, keeping him warm, a sleepy yet sated smile on your face as you drew shapes over his beating heart. it felt like a dream. your patience and love burned through his body, strong enough for him to feel, even in another lifetime.

“y/n?”

you turn to look at him, eyebrows raised in what must be surprise at hearing a stranger call your first name. “…yes?”

he doesn’t say anything, just forces his hands to stay at his sides instead of brushing that one piece of your hair out of your face. the action felt instinctual, but he knew it wasn't his place.

“i’m sorry, have we met before?” he looks at your confused expression carefully, searching for any sign of recognition. “sir? are you okay?”

there's an unbearable pressure starting to build in his chest. “no,” he feels like his throat is closing up. “we haven’t met.”

you nod slowly. he opens his mouth to say something else, but the barista calls out your name, and you turn away.

he didn’t know what he was expecting. did he really think you would recognize him, run into his arms as he brushed the tears of relief from your eyes that you had found him again? he wasn’t the same man you had loved. maybe he hoped it wouldn’t matter; that you could fall in love with this version of him too, simply because it was him.

he hears more than sees you walk away, gaze focused on his shoes. he couldn’t bear to watch you leave; he’d much rather have the memory of you staying, even if it wasn't his.

he stands there for a moment longer, hands fidgeting, trying not to think about the ghost your soft lips kissing his fingertips. he knew he’d have to go back; no one to soothe his tired eyes, a glass of sake to drink alone, and only the stray memories of you to keep him warm.

#🗒#dazai x reader #dazai osamu x reader #dazai x y/n #dazai x you #dazai fluff #bsd x you #bsd x reader #bungou stray dogs x reader #bsd imagines #bsd scenarios #beast dazai

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when you play with their hair

⤷ ft. dazai, chuuya, fyodor, atsushi, akutagawa, tecchou

dazai — getting injured on a mission had been the highlight of his week; he despised the pain, but loved the way you were so concerned about his wellbeing, doing everything you could to make him comfortable. with a full stomach and freshly changed bandages, he laid his head on your lap, letting out dreamy sighs at the feeling of your fingers rubbing his scalp just right, tugging the knots out of his waves. he can’t remember the last time he’s felt so taken care of, and he suppresses each shiver that makes it's way up his spine. you lean down and kiss his nose, going to sit up until he pulls the back of your head down to kiss you on the mouth, smiling against your lips. he whines when you pull away, raising himself to follow you. “you're supposed to be relaxing.” you scold him, squinting your eyes as his gaze strays. he barely makes out "but you're making me feel so much better,” before his lips are on yours again, unable to hold in all of the love he felt, guiding your hands back to his head.

chuuya — you were practically begging chuuya to let you brush out his hair when he comes back from taking a shower; taunting you with the way he pressed the water out of his hair with a towel, another low around his waist. he's barely sat in front of you when you begin to drag your fingers through his locks. "i'm starting to think you're only with me for my hair." he leans his head back to look at you, but you're quick to tilt it forward, shushing him and telling him to relax. you comb through it with the utmost care, paying close attention to the longer section. you knew he deserved to be pampered like this more often, always so busy taking care of everything else. pushing his hair to the side, you place a kiss on his exposed neck, relishing in the way his baby hairs stand up along his nape. you see his head falling more and more forward the more you brush, heart skipping a beat, each relaxed sigh from his lips music to your ears. “chuuya?” he lets out a little grunt in response. “do you want to go to bed?" he turns himself to rest his head on your thigh, pressing a lazy kiss against your knee. "i'm awake, i swear. don't stop."

fyodor — what started as you peeking over his shoulder as he explained what he was working on, led to you brushing your fingers through his hair as he typed away. it was rare for fyodor to let his emotions present themselves so physically, but you couldn’t ignore how he would pause and close his eyes when your nails grazed a certain spot on his scalp. “you’re quite the distraction today, dear.” he comments. "am i?" you gather his bangs in your hands, pulling them upward until he resembles an unamused daikon. you give him an apologetic smile, letting his hair gently fall back against his forehead. "sorry. keep working hard." you press a kiss to his temple, getting ready to leave him be, before cold fingers gently grab your arm. "i didn't say to stop."

atsushi — it was late, atsushi laying on your chest as you keep busy twirling the long piece of his bangs around your finger, dragging your hand back up to scratch at his scalp. at least one of us is able to sleep tonight. you try not to be jealous at how relaxed he was, he deserved the rest more than anyone else you knew. there’s a calm that surrounds the both of you as you stroke over his thin, black streak until you feel his chest vibrate lowly above you. you pause, checking if he’s awake; he’s not, one hand loosely gripping your shirt, breaths slowly puffing out of his parted lips. did he just purr? you run your fingers over the same spot, failing to hold in your giggles as he purrs again. the sight of his sleepy eyes blinking at you makes you freeze. "is everything okay?" you give him a sleepy smile. "more than okay," you kiss the top of his head as he closes his eyes again, "go back to sleep."

akutagawa — ever since you started dating akutagawa, you were determined to make up for all the love he’d been deprived of. “your hair is so soft, you know?” he doesn't respond, and you wonder how many people had the chance to touch him like this and get out unscathed. you wish he’d stop being so on guard: eyes locked straight ahead of him, shoulders stiff. “it’s ok, ryuu. you can relax.” you feel his body shake as he takes a deep breath, and you can tell he’s trying. it took a while to get up to this point, teaching him touch didn’t have to be associated with pain. you keep rubbing circles in his scalp, tangling and detangling the hair until his posture is somewhat relaxed. you kiss the crown of his head, pulling away when he snaps back up, looking at you rather betrayed. "what are you doing." you bite your lip to keep from smiling, knowing he'd only become despondent. "oh, did you want me to keep going?" he gives you a look from the corner of his eye, sitting back into his original position. "fine. only because i know you want to."

tecchou ー you don’t know how long you’ve been sitting on tecchou’s lap, endlessly entertained at how his hair popped up in all directions no matter how many times you ran your fingers through the strands. his eyes are closed, expression neutral as always, but you could tell he’s relaxed, cheeks rosy. you grab one of the longer strands, tickling his cheek with it until he opens his eyes to look at you. “keep going, please.” a giddy smile grows on your face, satisfied he's enjoying this as much as you are. you gather his bangs through your fingers, running your nails against his scalp and gently pushing them back before kissing his forehead. his entire body is lax except for his hands, gripping the back of your shirt, pulling you closer until your chests touch. your smile stays, even as you kiss against the little markings under his eyes. “can we do this more often?”

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Hello, hello! I was wondering if I could request a scenario with Dazai with a gn s/o who has general anxiety disorder. Like, there are times where their anxiety is extremely high even if they don’t know why. And this leads them to not being capable of doing things like dishes or getting out of bed. I hope you have a marvelous day/night!!

memo! ahh this one hit a little too close to home :( i hope you're okay anon, sending you lots and lots of love

it was going to be one of those days. all you had done was open your eyes, yet your instincts seemed convinced you were in some type of danger. there was a lurking dread that sat heavy under your skin, weighing your limbs down onto the futon. dazai's arm was lazily thrown across your hip, sunlight warming both of your bodies in the comfort of his dorm; it was such a peaceful moment, so why were you on the verge of a panic attack?

ever so perceptive, even in his sleep, dazai starts to shift, sleepily whining as he gets used to consciousness again. “y/n?” he peeks one eye open, greeted by your panicked face and heavy breaths. he knows this routine all too well, and moves so the both of you can sit up. “you're okay.” you nod a little too fast, not able to look him in the eye, desperate to get your breathing under control.

“just keep talking, please.”

he tries to think as quickly as possible, if only so your discomfort didn't grow out of control.

“did you know,” he pauses for a moment, hand hovering over your back, observing your reaction to see if it was okay for him to touch you. when you don’t move away, he rubs his hand in soothing circles. “i once lost eighteen games of poker in a row to odasaku?”

he smiles when you finally look at him. “you? losing in poker? no way.”

“it’s true!” he brushes some of the hair away from your face, knotted from sleep. “he was a very skilled card player.”

he places his hand gently in your lap, knowing you loved to fidget with his fingers in moments of distress.

“do you have any other stories?” your fingers wrap around his own, bending them gently.

“of course i do.” he kisses a line down your temple, then your cheek, until he hits the corner of your lips, pulling back to rest his head against your own. “my favorite is about the world’s most beautiful person. they’re so strong, even when their own mind is fighting against them.”

“what happens at the end?” you ask quietly, heart racing for an entirely different reason.

he smiles against your hair. “they overcome it, of course...and get out of bed with me to make breakfast.”

he just smiles at the pleading look you give him, much to your dismay. you knew the first step was to leave his futon, but it felt like an impossible task, even in your somewhat-calmer state. “i don’t know if i can, osamu.”

his eyes soften at his name, so gentle coming from you. “you’ll be safe, i promise.” he presses a kiss to your nose for good measure, unable to hold back his grin at how you cling to his shirt. there was nothing he hated more than seeing you so scared, but he couldn’t help but love how you sought him out for comfort. “will you try? if you feel bad, we’ll come back here.” he rubs his hand along your spine, encouraging you to melt into him. "i'll be with you the entire time."

you nod hesitantly against his neck. he pulls away to stand up, offering you his hand and a gentle smile. "i'm so proud of you for trying." he presses his lips against your forehead, as if your anxiety was a wound he could make feel better with a kiss. you'd never pushed yourself like this when you were alone, so used to succumbing to the confines of your sheets.

as he grips your hand, leading you towards his small kitchen, that familiar dread still lurks beneath your skin. you would be silly to think a few kisses would make everything better, but with dazai supporting you in more ways than one, you felt like it was something smaller; a hurdle you could jump instead of a brick wall you couldn’t climb.

#🗒#dazai osamu x reader #dazai x reader #bsd x reader #bungou stray dogs x reader #bsd imagines #bsd headcanons #bsd scenarios #dazai fluff #dazai imagines #dazai x you

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the things they do when they love you

⤷ ft. dazai, chuuya, ranpo, fyodor, sigma, tecchou, jouno

dazai always needs to be touching you. he starts his day with his forehead against yours in the comfort of his futon, legs tangled together. he barely makes it through work by playing footsie with you under his desk, resisting the urge to shower you with love under kunikida’s watchful eye. on the walk home, his hand lingers on the small of your back as he guides you through the crowded street, careful to not let anyone bump into you. and when it’s time to rest again, you strip him of his bandages and trace your fingertips along his forearms and wrists, trailing kisses down skin that haven’t felt human touch in who knows how long, making up for all the little touches he gave you through the day.

chuuya spoils you rotten. he has money to spare, and has no problems adding your needs into his monthly budget, but he spoils you in other, non-financial ways too. he notices the bags under your eyes, and turns off your alarm so you can get an extra few minutes of sleep, keeping track of the time so you aren’t late. he warms up your towels in the dryer while you’re in the shower so you won’t be cold when you get out. he’ll watch that one show you like, as corny as it may be, because he wouldn’t miss you laughing so prettily at the stupid jokes for the world.

ranpo compares everyone else to you. for someone who thought he was the greatest, he really loved to talk about how great you were. “y/n’s coffee tastes better.” he comments with a shrug to the waitress, who has no idea who you are. “that would look so cute on y/n!” when yosano is showing him the new shirt she bought, much to her disdain. “you’re so boring! why can’t y/n be here instead.” he pouts in front of the witness he’s interviewing. there may or may not be a group of people in yokohama who unintentionally hate you.

fyodor asks what you think — not just about his work, about everything. he wants to pick your brain apart and analyze everything about you, from how you like your tea to your opinion on how greek philosophy influenced modern christianity. he wants to be the only one who knows you so well; it only seems fair when he feels so annoyingly vulnerable around you, knowing you’ve captured his heart.

sigma lets his guard down around you. you never have an ulterior motive or try to read him. you ask questions about himself out of pure curiosity, and in return he tries to memorize everything he can about you. there’s so much he doesn’t know, and you teach him as much as you can; not so you can use him, but because you want him to experience life to the fullest. when you wrap your arms around him, letting him rest his head on top of yours, he can’t help but think about how long he’s dreamed of this, and now he finally has it: his home.

tecchou looks at you, almost always. you can’t ignore the tingly feeling of his eyes on you as you’re folding laundry or brushing your hair. when you ask him, you half expect him to blink and snap out of it, but he never does. “i like looking at you. you’re pretty.” is what he always says, gaze never straying from behind his messy bangs.

jouno listens to every part of you. while the extra noise that comes with his ability is bothersome, your sounds calm him. any irregularity in your heartbeat or your breathing makes a nervousness he isn’t used to surge through his body. he can’t help but feel prideful at the way your heartbeat is so calm when your fingers, so much softer than any fabric, brush against his own. he can’t see you, but he can hear the blood rush to your cheeks and the smile in your voice when you talk to him about your day.

#🗒#dazai x reader #chuuya x reader #ranpo x reader #fyodor x reader #sigma x reader #tecchou x reader #jouno x reader #bsd x reader #bungou stray dogs x reader #bsd imagines #dazai osamu x reader #nakahara chuuya x reader #edogawa ranpo x reader #bsd tecchou #bsd jouno #bsd sigma #bsd scenarios #bsd headcanons

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Can I request sitting in their lap hcs with Dazai Ranpo and Fyodor

memo! if this is the same anon who sent the first kiss hcs request, you really have the cutest ideas!! ty for the request <3 !!

dazai

if he had it his way, you’d always be on his lap

nothing calms his mind more than getting to nuzzle into your neck and know you’re safe in his arms

plus! very easy access for him to give you kisses <3

now that you’re level with his height, please brush his bangs back and kiss his forehead

it’s not enough to be on his lap; he’s all over you until you can’t tell where he ends and you begin

even if you face away from him, trying to work on something else, he'll poke your cheeks or brush your hair back and kiss along your shoulders until you pay attention to him again

ranpo

if he’s not on your lap, you’re definitely on his

legs thrown across his thighs and arms around his neck while you discuss a case file with him. he’ll tease you and try to see how fast you can solve it

lots and lots of cheek kisses!! how can he help it when they’re right there in front of him…

might make you feed him snacks :| at the very least, you’re holding the bag open. he’ll share with you at least

lets you wear his hat while you’re on his lap. not only does it boost his ego + make you look cute, it’s the perfect opportunity for you to play with his hair

fyodor

he works on his computer often, so sitting on his lap, limbs wrapped around his body, and face tucked against his neck is the perfect way to spend time with him

he touches your back when he pauses to think, trailing his fingers up your spine and down again

he’ll ask your opinion on things every now and then, looking at you fondly when you point something out or agree with him

you can't help but notice how his grip around you tightens when nikolai or sigma come by

the perfect place to nap!! between the keyboard clicks, classical music, and faint scent of tea, there’s always a calmness that’s perfect to fall asleep to

#🗒#dazai x reader #ranpo x reader #fyodor x reader #dazai osamu x reader #edogawa ranpo x reader #dazai x you #fyodor x you #ranpo x you #dazai fluff #fyodor fluff #ranpo fluff #bsd x reader #bungou stray dogs x reader #bsd headcanons #bsd hcs #bsd imagines

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haiiiii i love your blog and your writing style its so cute ^___^ can i rq hcs for chuuya dazai and ranpo with a crush who avoids their advances cause they think the boys are just pranking/teasing them and that the feelings aren't genuine? thank you !!!

memo! thank you so much for being so kind + for the super cute request <3 !!

dazai

he’ll flirt with anyone who breathes in his direction, so it’s hard to take him seriously when he turns his affection towards you

he stops flirting with the waitress downstairs in favor of pestering you on his breaks, he starts asking you out to dinner instead of a double suicide, he’ll wax poetic about your beauty (until kunikida smacks him)

so when you snap at him “i’m not in the mood today, dazai.” he gets nervous. you’ve never treated him like this before, brushing him aside like everyone else did

he hates how you lean away from him when he kneels next to your chair, trying to brush your hair from your face so he can see what’s wrong

when you crack under his concerned gaze and start telling him everything, how it hurts your feelings that he teases you when you like him, he can’t help but laugh

and you’re just kinda like :| watching him giggle when you just poured your heart out to him

“you really are adorable. i mean every word, darling. please believe me.”

chuuya

he tries so hard to impress you and he doesn’t understand what he’s doing wrong

he buys you coffee every morning, he’ll stay back at hq and eat takeout with you while you finish paperwork late into the night, he spoils you rotten

he’s so extra about it too. he would do stuff like send you a huge bouquet of roses with a love poem on the card before you even start dating

when you show up to his office saying “chuuya…isn’t this taking it a little too far? this isn’t funny anymore.” he’s so confused

he wants to sweep you off your feet, what part of that was funny? you better explain quick before his pride gets hurt

so you tell him everything, how you wished he truly liked you, and the confusion on his face fades into relief

he’ll pick you up and hug you tight, pulling back with a big smile

“i’m taking you out to dinner tonight. wear something nice, we have a lot to catch up on.”

ranpo

i think ranpo gets shy around his crush, so when you’re blatantly rejecting him, it hurts all the more

he goes back and forth between “i’m the greatest detective! how could they not like me!” and “i’m the greatest detective…how could they not like me… :(”

he picks up your favorite snacks, he requests you be his assistant on cases, he’ll even let you hold his hand while you guide him through yokohama

he knows you have a crush on him too, but he wants you to do the hard work of confessing

so when you pull him aside, telling him “you don’t have to keep pretending to like me, ranpo, it’s ok.” he gets even more frustrated

he can’t help but be childish, stomping his foot. he can't believe he has to explain this to you, wasn't he obvious?

“what are you even talking about? of course i like you! i’d be stupid not to!”

#🗒#bsd x reader #bungou stray dogs x reader #dazai x reader #chuuya x reader #ranpo x reader #dazai osamu x reader #dazai fluff #dazai x you #nakahara chuuya x reader #chuuya fluff #chuuya x you #edogawa ranpo x reader #ranpo x you #ranpo fluff #bsd hcs #bsd headcanons #bsd imagines #bsd scenarios

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Can I request first kiss hcs with fyodor ranpo and dazai 💖💖

memo! ahh this one is so cute, ty for the request <3 !!

dazai

dazai wouldn’t wait very long to kiss you

you expect a dramatic, passionate kiss on par with his personality, only for him to lightly press his lips to yours

when he pulls away, he has a teasing smile

very satisfied when you lean back in for more :)

tastes like coffee (ignoring the fact he lives off of sake and crab. lets just go with coffee for my peace of mind 😵‍💫)

king of gestures that make you melt, like brushing his thumb over your bottom lip or tangling his fingers through your hair to hold the back of your head

ranpo

he’d wait to kiss you. he wants to so bad, he just has to hype himself up a little bit. give him some time!!

when he does kiss you, it’s out of nowhere, like when you’re in the middle of talking

it’s so sweet, literally. there’s always leftover sugar on his lips from all the candy he eats

ranpo isn’t very experienced, so it’s just a quick peck, but it’s all he’ll think about for the rest of the week

kiss him once, and he won’t stop. he demands kisses for everything, especially after solving cases (even random stuff like finding that pen you lost a few months ago)

fyodor

it’s hard to not to look at his lips, with his habit of biting his fingers and all

he absolutely notices you looking too. he’d use it to tease you until you finally give in

he’s not going to make the first move, but he’ll do subtle things to nudge you along, like sitting closer to you, or brushing an invisible fuzz off your face

when you finally kiss him, his lips are chapped and taste like black tea

i think he’s more of a cheek / forehead kiss person, but he’ll indulge you every now and then!! it feeds his ego, after all

#🗒#dazai x reader #ranpo x reader #fyodor x reader #bsd x reader #bungou stray dogs x reader #dazai osamu x reader #dazai x you #fyodor x you #edogawa ranpo x reader #ranpo x you #bsd imagines #bsd headcanons #bsd hcs #bsd scenarios #dazai fluff #ranpo fluff #fyodor fluff

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can i request dazai or fyodor with a sleepy girlfriend

memo! i did both!! ty for the request <3 !!

dazai was sitting on the sofa, thumbing through his guide book for the nth time. he hated how dependent he felt on you; when you were gone, he really had no idea what to do, even when you were just in the other room taking a nap. nothing was able to capture his attention the way you did and he felt immensely bored.

he brightens when he hears your soft footsteps come towards him, all messy hair and heavy eyes, body swimming in one of his shirts as you yawn and rub at your eyes. he wastes no time opening his arms and letting you get comfortable in his lap.

“my sleepy girl,” he rests one hand on your thigh, the other on the back of your head as he holds you close to him. “are you still tired?”

“mhm,” he relishes the sigh you let out when he starts to detangle your hair with his fingers, your warm breaths against the exposed part of his neck were the biggest comfort he could ask for. “i sleep better with you.”

he turns his head, pressing a kiss to whatever spot on your face he can reach when you’re nuzzled against his shoulder. even with you cradled against his body, he still wanted to be closer to you. “don’t worry, belladonna. i’m here as long as you need me.”

when fyodor comes back from his mission and sees you curled in his chair, head resting on your folded arms, he indulges in the rare warmth that spreads throughout his body.

“are you awake, my dear?”

you let out a hum, lifting your head to lazily smile at him, eyes barely open. “how’d it go? you’re not hurt, are you?”

he shushes you, brushing a stray strand of hair out of your face and gently pushing your head back down onto your makeshift pillow. “of course i’m fine. go back to sleep.”

“but i missed you.”

he ignores your pout, humming a song you’ve heard him play on his cello before. he rubs your back with cold hands, the coolness of his skin seeping through the fabric of your shirt, encouraging your eyelids to fall shut once more. he lets a satisfied smile spread on his face at how your breathing evens out. it never failed to fascinate him how comfortable you were around him.

“i’ll be here when you wake up.” he wraps his cloak around your body, kissing the top of your head lightly once he’s sure you’re tucked in. “sleep well, dear.”

#🗒#dazai x reader #fyodor x reader #bsd x reader #bungou stray dogs x reader #bungou stray dogs imagines #bsd scenarios #bsd imagines #bsd headcanons #fyodor x you #dazai x you #dazai osamu x reader #dazai fluff #fyodor fluff

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when you bake for them

⤷ ft. dazai, chuuya, ranpo, fyodor, akutagawa, sigma

dazai ー when you arrive at the agency, he has his forehead pressed against his desk, not even bothering to pretend to work. he'd been off, more so than usual. you couldn’t help but notice the dull look in his eyes the past few days, and the urge to give him the comfort he’d been deprived of was strong. the first thing that came to mind was a warm, gooey, cinnamon roll. "osamu," you rub the crown of his head and he perks up at the touch; even more so when he catches sight of the cinnamon roll you place on his desk. your heart beats a little faster at the way he brightens as he tastes the pastry. “mm, it's almost as sweet as you are! what’s the occasion?” he gives you a smile as he chews. “i just felt like spoiling you a little.” “…spoiling me?” he asks quietly. “mhm!” you press a kiss to his flushed cheek. before you can get too far, he grabs your face, kissing you hard before pulling away to look at you. “thank you,” his smile reaches his eyes as he kisses you again, tasting like cinnamon sugar. “be careful, i might get used to this〜”

chuuya ー when he came home from a mission in france, pretty blue eyes sparkling as he raved about the macarons, you knew you wanted to see that look again and again. after weeks of practicing in secret, you had finally gotten a batch of perfect, pink, heart shaped macarons. he comes home as you’re finishing up, piping the buttercream filling onto the shells. “what are you up to?” he wraps his arms around your waist. “this!" you turn in his hold, proudly showing him your creation. "they’re for you.” you could hardly contain yourself when you see him beam at you, practically shoving the macaron into his mouth before he could say anything. he starts to chew and you relish in the way he lights up as he tastes them. not being able to help it, you lean forward and press your lips to the corner of his mouth. “sorry, you had some filling there.” you smile at how his cheeks have gotten progressively pinker since he arrived home. “oh, yeah?” he reaches behind you, dipping his finger in the buttercream and smearing it across your bottom lip as you whine at him. he kisses you quiet, licking his lips as he pulls back. “you had some there, too.”

ranpo ー his heart fills every time you cook for him, but when you bake him sweets, he feels as if it's going to overflow. so when he heard you pull out the mixer, he was quick to run into the kitchen, taking his rightful place on the counter, swinging his feet as you prepared to make chocolate chip cookies. baking always took longer with ranpo around; you had to keep an eye on him, smacking his hand away as he tried to sneak some dough. now he was sitting in front of the oven, leaning his head against your leg and eating the extra chocolate chips as he whined “y/nー! how much longer?” every few minutes. when the timer finally goes off, he hops up in delight. he peeks over your shoulder as you pull the cookies out of the oven, grabbing your sleeve in excitement. not even waiting for you to put the tray down, he immediately takes one, shoving it into his mouth in one bite. "ranpo! what are youー you're going to burn yourself." he pauses chewing at your startled tone, seeming to realize something. "oh, you're right." he swallows, green eyes crinkling as he grins. "kiss it better?"

fyodor ー it was rare for fyodor to show genuine emotion, let alone open up to someone, so the last thing you expected him to tell you was that he missed his home country. you couldn’t get the rare, sad glint in his eyes as he described his favorite dessert out of your head. “fyodor? are you busy?”“always,” he lets out a little sigh before turning away from his monitors to give you his attention. trying to ignore the flutters in your stomach, you place a slice of cake onto his desk and he raises his eyebrows. “it’s a piece of, um, mi-da-vik?” “Медовик, you mean?” he asks, amused as he looks carefully at the cake. “and you made this?” you fidget with your fingers. “well, you mentioned how homesick you were, so i thought maybe this would make you feel better. it seemed close to what you told me you used to eat.” fyodor blinked up at you. he had to admit, you caught him by surprise; he couldn’t remember the last time someone had done something genuinely kind for him. you didn’t gain anything from this, really, and that's what made it so special. “thank you, my dear. it’s perfect.”

akutagawa ー you and your boyfriend had a tradition of drinking tea together after particularly rough missions, and this time you wanted to surprise him with a snack. you had never seen akutagawa eat sweets before, so you decided on something neutral, shortbread cookies. you tried to be as nonchalant as possible when you placed the plate of cookies on the table next to the tea. “what is that?” you’re not sure if you’ll ever get used to his blunt tone. "they're shortbread cookies! i thought they'd go well with the tea." you feel the cold sweat of embarrassment creep up your neck when he’s looking at you so skeptically. he cautiously takes a bite of one, only for his eyes to sparkle in a way you only saw when you kissed him for the first time. “do you like them?” he looks up at you with wide eyes and full cheeks, nodding quickly. he swallows and immediately puts another cookie into his mouth. you giggle at how uncharacteristically excited akutagawa seems and he narrows his eyes at you, but it’s hard to take him seriously when he looks so cute with stray crumbs on his lips. “what are you laughing at?”

sigma ー he was working on paperwork at his desk, one hand gripping his hair as the other scribbled messy kanji. this had to be one of the most problematic days the casino had ever seen, and to say he was anxious would be an understatement. at the sound of a knock on his office door, he grips his pen harder. “yes?” he feels a wave of relief at the sight of your face; it was like you knew he needed you. you place a plate of checkerboard cookies on his desk before coming around to give him a hug, smiling at him apologetically. “sorry for interrupting. i made these for you and i just wanted to drop them off,” he looks at the sweets in surprise, trying not to get too excited before he heard the catch. “was there something you needed from me?” he fidgets nervously with the end of your shirt. “usually when people do things like this for me, it’s because they want something,” you feel your heart crack at his confession, pushing the paperwork away in favor of pulling the plate of cookies closer to him. “they’re all yours, i promise.” it’s the first time all day he’s smiled, and he hugs you tight. “get used to being spoiled by me,” you boop his nose as you pull away. “i think i’ll be able to do that.”

#🗒#bungou stray dogs x reader #bsd x reader #dazai osamu x reader #dazai x reader #chuuya x reader #nakahara chuuya x reader #ranpo x reader #fyodor x reader #akutagawa x reader #bsd scenarios #bsd imagines #bsd headcanons #sigma x reader #bsd sigma #dazai x you #chuuya x you

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mai mai mai i have a request!! 🤭💞 i just read the headcanons for adopting a cat with them but what abt adopting a dog? 👀 you’re free to pick the character ☺️

memo! i really wanted to do the same characters but i can’t imagine fyodor with a dog no matter how hard i try :( so i subbed in ranpo!!

dazai

dazai loves you so much!! you’re the light of his life, and he would do anything for you

…except get you a dog

if you somehow manage to convince him, don’t expect him to be happy about it

when you’re gushing over how cute he is, cooing about your “pretty boy”, dazai is seething in jealousy

he’s your pretty boy!! not this stupid dog >:(

absolutely not allowed on his futon. he gets a sick satisfaction when you’re snuggled into his side and the dog is on the floor

he’ll pretend to throw a toy and then laugh as the dog chases nothing

he’ll baby talk the dog but be an ass about it. “who’s a little idiot? is it you? yes it is” and the dog is just like :D wagging his tail

i think maybe his attitude would change if he saw the dog truly cared for you, like if you were upset and he came over to comfort you

dazai still wouldn’t like the dog, but he would tolerate him for you

chuuya

looks forward to coming home to his baby everyday <3 no, not you, y/n

the dog absolutely adores him. he cries and whines when chuuya leaves for work, perking his ears every time he hears a noise outside the door

when he gets home, the dog jumps into his lap and smothers him with kisses. he follows him around the house for the rest of the night too

gets the most emotional when he’s drunk. holding onto the dog, crying that he’ll “take care of him for life” until he passes out

definitely lets him sleep with you two in bed. nothing makes his heart fuller than cuddling with the two loves of his life

remember in wan when he said he’d feed his dog steak everyday? keep an eye on him because he absolutely would

tries to train the dog to work out with him like this

obsessed with drinking wine with you in front of the fireplace, the dog curled up in between the both of you

ranpo

he wouldn’t mind having a dog around, just as long as he’s still the center of your attention

i can’t promise he wouldn’t try to ride him

ranpo would absolutely use him as a pillow. the dog is indifferent at this point :’)

he has no interest in doing the hard stuff, like bathing him. he wouldn’t mind walking him with you as long as he doesn’t have to pick anything up

doesn’t care if the dog sleeps in bed with you two, as long as you’re still cuddling him, of course

gets jealous when you praise the dog for doing something simple, like rolling over

“y/nー! i can do that too! where’s my treat?”

karl & your dog always hang out together when poe comes over. it’s the cutest thing in the world when you see karl curled up under the dogs fur, happily napping together

#🗒#bsd x reader #bungou stray dogs x reader #dazai x reader #chuuya x reader #dazai osamu x reader #nakahara chuuya x reader #ranpo x reader #edogawa ranpo x reader #bsd imagines #bsd hcs #bsd headcanons #ranpo #dazai #chuuya

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dazai opened the door to his shipping container, moonlight peeking in from behind his figure in the doorway. it illuminates the inside of the small room and he sees you, laying on your side, tucked into his sheets.

he was always surprised that you were still here when he came back. he couldn’t help but feel like he was holding you back from something by being with you. sometimes he wonders what it would be like to live a normal life with you, in a real house, where he could wake up to the sunlight illuminating your features instead of having to squint to make them out in the darkness of a shipping container with no windows.

he steps inside and begins to shed his outfit: untying his shoes, shrugging off his overcoat, unbuttoning his suit jacket, pulling off his tie. he throws everything somewhere in the corner of the room and joins you in bed, curling his body around yours.

“i’m home,” he whispers, kissing between your shoulder blades before resting his forehead against your back. he covers your arm with his own, lacing his fingers with yours.

it was easy to forget himself when he was with you. he wasn’t dazai, the demon prodigy of the mafia, he was just dazai, the person. you giggled at his jokes, you got drunk with him, you called him osamu. it was hard to resist the urge to push you away sometimes, but when you clean him up after he comes back with new wounds, pressing kisses to his bandages; when you brought him homemade kani salad after he told you his favorite food was crab; when you didn’t run away in fear after you saw his darker side, if anything you doubled down, holding him close and telling him he’s okay; those moments made it easy for him to hold onto you. he knew he didn’t deserve your kindness, but he would take it as long as you would give it to him.

he thinks he’ll take you to meet odasaku. you seemed like the kind of person he’d get along with.

he lifts up his head as he feels you turn in his hold, facing him with half open eyes and a sleepy smile. he kisses you before he even realizes he’s doing it.

“welcome home,” you whisper against his lips. you thumb at the edge of the bandages covering his eye, dragging your thumb over a cut on his face. “is this new?”

he hums vaguely, pushing himself closer into you, resting his head against your collarbone. “do you have plans for tomorrow night?” his voice is soft and you shiver when you feel his breath against your neck.

“i don’t think so,” you run your fingers along the overlap of bandages on his arms, your other hand playing with the hair at the nape of his neck. “did you want to do something?”

“yeah,” he lets his eyes fall shut at the feeling of your nails grazing his scalp. “there’s someone i want to introduce you to.”

#🗒#dazai x reader #dazai osamu x reader #bungou stray dogs x reader #bsd x reader #pm!dazai #bsd x you #dazai x you #bsd imagines #bsd scenarios #bsd headcanons #mafia dazai

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chuuya & dazai when you’re depressed

⤷ warnings: descriptions of depression and suicidal thoughts

chuuya furrows his brow when he gets home, seeing you in the same spot you were in when he left for work nearly twelve hours ago.

“y/n?” his heart breaks as you move away from his hand when he tries to brush the hair out of your face.

“you don’t want to touch me, chuuya. i’m gross right now,”

he sighs, and you can tell he’s annoyed. “i don’t know what i’m supposed to do anymore.”

you feel your eyes start to well up as guilt churns your stomach in the worst way. “i’m sorry,” your voice breaks as you start to cry, tears absorbed by the pillow you shoved half of your face into. it was the first time in nearly a week you’d felt anything, and you’d much rather feel numb than the heaviness of chuuya being mad at you.

“that’s not what i—” you hear him sigh, this time sounding more exhausted than anything else. “fuck, just come here? please?” he sits on the edge of the bed and opens his arms up to you.

you give him a look. “c’mon,” he grabs your hands, helping you up to your feet. “just think about how much better you’ll feel when you’re done.”

he warms up the towels in the dryer as you get undressed. you’re about to step in when you see him lingering in the doorway with an uneasy look on his face.

“are you sure you’re okay on your own?”

you give him what you hope is a convincing smile. “i’m good, promise.”

you feel immediate relief at the hot water loosening up your muscles, sore from laying in bed for so long. when you got like this, it felt like you had to exert every ounce of strength you had to do something basic like bathe. when you turn off the water, replacing the warmth of the shower with a toasty towel, you think you feel a little more like a person.

when you finish in the bathroom, chuuya is spooning a serving of oyakodon into a bowl.

“there’s my baby,” he brightens. he places the bowl at your spot at the table, pulling the seat out for you as you sit down. you poke at a piece of chicken with your chopsticks, trying to find your appetite.

“you don’t have to eat all of it, just do your best, yeah?” he grabs your hand across the table, kissing your knuckles as you nod at him.

you slowly eat your food, sitting in a comfortable silence as chuuya rubs his thumb against the back of your hand. when you’re able to get down half the bowl, he smiles at you. “i know it’s hard right now,” he grips your hand harder. “but you’re so strongーthe strongest person i know.”

he gets up from his seat to come over to you at the sight of your watery eyes, kneeling in front of you as you sniffle.

“no more of that tonight, ok?” you nod as he brushes the stray tears under your eyes.

“i’m so tired, chuuya,” you whisper. he doesn’t say anything, just kisses your the top of your head before picking you up smoothly, abandoning the rest of your food and bringing you to the couch.

“you’re probably sick of being in bed so often, huh? let’s sleep out here tonight.”

he tucks you in with one of his expensive blankets, letting you lay between his legs, head on his chest as he combs through your damp hair with his fingers. the feeling of his hands against your skin and the sound of his heartbeat are enough to soothe your mind for the night, and for the first time in a week, you fall asleep feeling a little warmer.

dazai knew something was wrong, he just didn’t realize it had gotten this bad. when he got back from work and saw you crying, only sobbing harder when you realized he was home, he was officially at a loss.

it took a while to calm you down, but you finally managed to get your breathing back to normal. “y/n,” he started, but froze when he saw the look in your eye. he knew that look ー he’d seen it every time he looked in the mirror. the thought of you feeling the same emptiness he did made him feel sick to his stomach.

when you wrap your arms around him, burying your face into his shoulder, he doesn’t wait a second before embracing you back, one hand cradling the back of your head and the other wrapped around your waist. he holds you so close, like he was trying to squeeze the feeling out of you. he tries to think back; what did he need at his lowest — when he was alone with no one to comfort him? what could he give you that was never given to him?

“dazai,” you keep yourself anchored to him as he hums for you to keep going. “will this feeling ever go away?”

you feel him take a deep breath against your head, like he's gathering his thoughts. “i don’t know. i’ve felt like this for as long as i can remember. but i’m here, and i won’t let anything happen to you,” he pulls away to kiss your forehead, trailing his lips down your nose before settling on your mouth.

“i don’t know how much longer i can do this,” you say as you pull away, and it’s the words dazai was fearing you’d say the most. “i just feel like it’d be easier if i didn’t exist.”

“y/n,” he grabs both your hands, bringing them up to his chest. “i know it’s difficult, especially coming from me, but please believe me when i tell you there are things worth living for.”

“it’s just so hard,” your voice breaks as your eyes start to water up again.

“i know, darling, i know better than anyone. listen to me, you have so much ahead of you. you deserve to live. please, promise me you won’t do anything.”

you look up at him through your damp eyelashes and see how scared he looks; you can’t remember the last timeーif everーyou had seen an emotion so obvious on dazai’s face.

after a moment, you nod. “i promise.”

that seems to be enough to convince him for now, because he nods back, pressing kisses on both of your hands.

you don’t comment how he holds you closer than usual when you lay down next to him that night, or how his eyes never stray from your face, even as yours close.

when you’re halfway asleep, you feel him press his forehead to yours. “i love you,” he takes a deep breath. “so much. i would take all of it away if i could.”

you sleepily open your eyes. “the same goes for you, you know. not just that, everything you said to me earlier. you deserve to live, too.”

he gives you a tiny smile. “go back to sleep, y/n.”

when you close your eyes again, you hold him closer, too.

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