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So, about Mello and NPD.
All of it comes down to how he handles his inferiority complex. Not to the sole fact of him having it, and not to the sole fact of him being an ego-boosting bastard - but to the fact that he feels inferior to someone else and handles it by trying to prove to them that he is impossibly better; unattainably better than them.
One could say the catalyst of Mello and Near's conflict is Mello's narcissistic crash.
He has a strong idea of social hierarchy: knows that L comes above it all, knows that he belongs in L's place - and knows that Near does not belong there with him. To share power is to be weak, dependent, reliant on others; to be vulnerable and affected. To trust, for a narcissist, is a task.
It's also a common narcissistic trait to be subconsciously splitting people into equals, competitors, undeserving of one's attention, and such. Mello knows his place in his inner hierarchy, and in his mind Near's trying to one-up him. He's competitive for the sake of competitiveness, his reactions are a near book-accurate example of a narcissistic person experiencing a clash with someone they nearly-admire and hate to admire. It's not a "normal" example of rivalry between two people, it's a disordered and obsessive reaction of someone whose ego is cycling around the idea of another's perception.
It's extremely typical of us narcissists to wish for admiration, appreciation, and respect of other people or that one person - the favorite person. You could say Near is Mello's favorite one: he goes out of his way to affect Near, to get under his skin, to make him notice how much more grandiose he is. He needs Near to admit his defeat.
Whether by accident or not, but Mello was written off with typical traits of NPD, and I'm glad to see it.
P. S. Anti-NPD stigma not welcome.
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Your hair looks so bouncy :D
I will be taking that as a compliment, thank you. It gets bouncier when I approach bodies of water, there is no point in attempting to straighten it.
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My ophthalmologist explaining to me that I have a weak optic nerve and I am more prone to retinal detachment so if I start seeing sudden eye floaters or a dark curtain over my eyes that I have to come into the eye clinic immediately. Except, I DO have many eye floaters in my eyes that I have been concerned about, though, I didn't say anything because… I don't know.
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oculocutaneous · 2 months
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Please, look at my very big Bumblebee hoodie, please.
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AS REQUESTED!!! they took nearie shoppibg.
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Little Prince Lifted high on the tidal wave of our pleading hands Save us We said Little Island Little Archduke Archipelago Weather the weather that we cannot Break you down to pieces, Keep those most convenient Frail, pale Little Shield Stop the storm that bites our heels Part the red wine sea of blood Deliver us Little One
Near character rant and detail shot below the cut:
I think a lot about what Near's life was like after Mello left Wammy's. Near starts investigating Kira from square one at 13 years old. I feel like it's often acknowledged that Mello becomes acquainted with violence at a young age, but so does Near. I imagine what it would have been like for him, being asked to do want his idol couldn't while still a child, pouring over endless documents of death and violence. It's one of the reasons I find his calm demeanor to be so compelling. Near just takes everything is stride, even though the fate of the world has been put on his shoulders.
Of course everyone is entitled to their opinions but Near as a character deserves so much more love.
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I often feel unsure about myself; when my chest is aching as much as it does, when I have as many unanswered questions as I do. Though, recently, I have found myself deeply appreciative for those that have wanted to be part of my life.
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✈️ Starscream Vintage 1984 G1 Transformers Takara. Hasbro (x) ✈️ Transformers G1 Starscream 3D Metal Puzzle Model Kit. Mu Model (x)
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oculocutaneous · 2 months
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With everything that I had gone through, I no longer settle for somebodies care that only exists because they feel obligated to give it to me.
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oculocutaneous · 3 months
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there is no physical disability, no chronic illness, no injury, no deformity, no terminal illness, no prognosis, no bodily condition that makes someone inherently unlovable. love is much more complex and powerful than that. friendship, romance, sex - - love is more complicated than anything your body is or will be. it can be wonderful and scary, how many people are out there ready to accept you for who you are in this massive world
to love you and your medicine, oxygen tank, prosthetic, wheelchair, cane, walker, brace, cast, appointments, IV, pacemaker, colostomy bag
your flare ups, your pain, your surgeries, your joy
one condition, one dozen conditions, invisible, visible, common, rare
at your lowest, at your most isolated, at your most unsexy
you are still there, and you are still here, in a world of so many unpredictable people, unpredictable emotions, unpredictable encounters, and unpredictable relationships just waiting to become part of your life, just as you are
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I found your blog some time ago and I like your opinionated posts a lot. You bring attention to issues I don’t see covered very often, and I’m glad someone like you is around. Thx 🥰
Thank you very much for taking the time to send me this very nice ask, that was so nice of you to do, first of all. Secondly, thank you again. I am hoping to, at least, inform once oblivious individuals about said issues that I noticed are ignored very often.
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you can click on this button once daily to help palestine and support other causes in the middle east for free. it takes literally 5 seconds and could help save lives so please take the time to click and share this link.
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I'm attracted to fat men and hairy men because I have good taste and they're gorgeous. No ulterior motives. Stop being weird about it.
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Anyone else's OuiOui this demanding all the time?
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oculocutaneous · 3 months
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I find out that stress is one of the major triggers of my seizures yet I still insist to put myself in stressful situations.
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