oathsins · 11 months ago
god i like every ship on cm pretty much and if had half the chance I’d move a hotch but idk
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oathsins · 11 months ago
some angst idk y’all i like crying
“  i don’t want you here.  just go.  ” 
“  you ‘didn’t mean to hurt me?’  yeah you did.  like it or not,  i know exactly who you are.  ” 
“  why won’t you even look at me?  ”
“  i’m not angry at you.  i’m angry with myself for trusting you.  ”
“  i wish you’d stop trying to destroy yourself in some misguided effort to feel worthy.  ”
“  i know it’s not fair to say this,  but i don’t have anything without you.  if i don’t have you i have nothing.  ”
“  you can’t love me.  not the way i need to be loved.  ”
“  i’m broken.  and i don’t need anyone to try to feed me white lies about it.  something inside me is broken and it isn’t just going to be put back like it was.  ” 
“  sometimes being broken isn’t about trying to put things back together like they were before.  it’s about picking up what pieces are left and building something new.  ”
“  okay,  so you’re a monster.  so am i.  lets be monsters together.  ” 
“  because of what they/you did i’m damaged.  ”  
“  what the hell is wrong with you?  ”
“  what the hell is wrong with me?  ”
“  i can’t fix you.  you can’t expect me to know how to fix you.  ” 
“  yeah,  i’ll be here.  i’ll be here when you’re ready to stop running.  ”
“  my world is just falling apart.  it’s like everything is just crumbling around me.  i don’t know what to do.  i just want it to stop ”  
“  you’re the only thing that makes sense right now.  everything else is just—  the world is so loud.  and the only time it feels quiet is when you’re here.  ”
“  i don’t know how to talk about shit okay?  it’s too hard.  but i do care.  i need you to trust me that i care.  ”
 “  stop punishing yourself.  you wanna make up for what you’ve done?  get off your ass and do something about it.  ”
“  whatever it is you think was going on between us,  you’re wrong.  ”
“  it didn’t mean anything to me.  ” 
“  you should move on.  i did.  ”  
“  i feel like i’m one bad day away from becoming everything i’ve fought against.  ” 
“  stop pushing me away.  i’m not going anywhere,  asshole.  and as soon as you get that through that thick skull of yours,  the better.  ”  
“  i don’t need you in my life.  i don’t want you in it.  ”  
“  i can’t trust myself.  if i let myself get comfortable enough,  when i try to be happy,  people get hurt.  ”  
“  people like me don’t get to have peace.  ”  
“  i’m not the person you want.  i know you think i am.  but it won’t take long for you to realize this is a mistake.  ”  
“  you want the truth?  the truth is when i love people it burns inside me like a poison.  it infects every part of me until it feels like they’re in my goddamn soul…and then i fuck it up.  and it’ll destroy us both.  ”  
“  i’ll always choose you.  that’s the worst part of it all.  i’d choose you over and over, even though i know you wouldn’t do the same.  ”  
“  you never had to be perfect.  you just had to stay.  ”
“  will you please just stay for once.  just.  don’t walk away.  ” 
“  if i loved you less,  i might be able to talk about it more.  ”   
“  just tell me something real.  tell me something i can remember no matter what happens to us.  ”
“  when you look at me,  i feel seen.  i feel like you see past everything i’ve always surrounded myself with to try and protect my heart.  no one has ever looked that deeply at me.  ”  
“  how can you uncover so much about someone,  make them let their guard down and lay themselves bare to you.  and then just throw it all away?  ”
“  if you walk out that door don’t bother coming back.  ”
“  why are you so afraid of trusting this—  trusting us.  what’s making you hold back?  ”
“  will you still be here?  will you stay even after you’ve seen all the ugly parts of my heart.  ”  
“  i don’t care how willing you are to die for me.  i want you to fucking live with me.  live for us.  ” 
[ DISCOVER ] for one muse to find the other crying alone. 
[ COMPANY ] for one muse to sit with the other so they don’t have to be alone while they’re upset. 
[ EMBRACE ] for one muse to suddenly hug the other one for their own comfort. 
[ OFFER ] for one muse to suddenly hug the other one to comfort them.
[ SETTLE ] for one muse to comfort the other and end up cuddling. 
[ SHOULDER ] for one muse to rest their head on the other’s shoulder while they comfort them. 
[ CARRY ]  for one muse to find the other injured and carry them to safety.
[ SECURE ] for one muse to carry the other to bed after they fell asleep. 
[ STRUGGLE ]  for one muse to resist being hugged but then break down and crumble against the other. 
[ CLEAR ] for one muse to wipe the other’s tears. 
[ BREAKDOWN ] for one muse to ask the other if they’re okay prompting them to finally stop bottling things up. 
[ BRUSH ] for one muse to run their fingers through the other’s hair while they open up or cry. 
[ NURSE ] for one muse to tend to the other while they’re recovering from injuries. 
[ TRUST ] for a scenario where sender’s muse is the only one receivers muse will let close. 
[ COAX ] for scenario where receiver’s muse knows they’re the only one sender’s muse will let close. 
[ CALM ] for one muse to subdue the other during an outburst. 
[ CLARITY ] for one muse to help ground the other back in the present  (i.e. after nightmare, breakdown, battle etc)
[ PREVENT ] for one muse to stop the other from going too far during a fight. 
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oathsins · 11 months ago
if anyone wants to rp on here or @downinnola (if I can remember the password…?) please feel free.
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oathsins · 11 months ago
since all the masterlists seem out of date and tumblr tags suck, let’s do this. REBLOG THIS POST if you actively write a muse in the ONE CHICAGO, LAW AND ORDER, GREYS + STATION 19, 911, CRIMINAL MINDS, NCIS UNIVERSES or any other FBI/MEDICAL/FIRST RESPONDER based show. [multis and OCs are totally allowed!] bonus points if you list who in the tags so people can use tag reader to find blogs!
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oathsins · 11 months ago
/ give me some jemily angst
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oathsins · 11 months ago
𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐢𝐬 𝒏𝒆𝒘 𝒐𝒓𝒍𝒆𝒂𝒏𝒔 𝒉𝒐𝒏𝒆𝒚 !   written by josh.   twenty - one  ,   he / him  ,  bst  timezone.   est.  2021 .   independent ,  private roleplay  blog  for  𝐖𝐈𝐋𝐋𝐈𝐀𝐌 𝐋𝐀𝐌𝐎𝐍𝐓𝐀𝐆𝐍𝐄 𝐉𝐍𝐑  of  𝐂𝐑𝐈𝐌𝐈𝐍𝐀𝐋 𝐌𝐈𝐍𝐃𝐒.   tv show &  headcanon  based.  
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oathsins · 11 months ago
𝒉𝒆 𝒊𝒔 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒑𝒆𝒓𝒇𝒆𝒄𝒕 𝒎𝒂𝒏. 𝒉𝒆 𝒅𝒐𝒆𝒔𝒏’𝒕 𝒉𝒐𝒈 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒄𝒐𝒗𝒆𝒓𝒔, 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒉𝒆 𝒑𝒐𝒐𝒑𝒔 𝒊𝒏 𝒂 𝒃𝒐𝒙!   written by josh.   twenty - one  ,   he / him  ,  bst  timezone.   est.  2021 .   independent ,  private roleplay  blog  for  𝐃𝐈𝐑𝐄𝐂𝐓𝐎𝐑 𝐄𝐌𝐈𝐋𝐘 𝐏𝐑𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐈𝐒𝐒  of  𝐂𝐑𝐈𝐌𝐈𝐍𝐀𝐋 𝐌𝐈𝐍𝐃𝐒.   tv show &  headcanon  based.  set season 15 onwards, can do earlier seasons for plot lines.
other blogs: william lamontagne jnr | @downinnola
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