oathsins - Tumblr blog

oathsins · 2 years

Text

some angst idk y’all i like crying

“ i don’t want you here. just go. ”

“ you ‘didn’t mean to hurt me?’ yeah you did. like it or not, i know exactly who you are. ”

“ why won’t you even look at me? ”

“ i’m not angry at you. i’m angry with myself for trusting you. ”

“ i wish you’d stop trying to destroy yourself in some misguided effort to feel worthy. ”

“ i know it’s not fair to say this, but i don’t have anything without you. if i don’t have you i have nothing. ”

“ you can’t love me. not the way i need to be loved. ”

“ i’m broken. and i don’t need anyone to try to feed me white lies about it. something inside me is broken and it isn’t just going to be put back like it was. ”

“ sometimes being broken isn’t about trying to put things back together like they were before. it’s about picking up what pieces are left and building something new. ”

“ okay, so you’re a monster. so am i. lets be monsters together. ”

“ because of what they/you did i’m damaged. ”

“ what the hell is wrong with you? ”

“ what the hell is wrong with me? ”

“ i can’t fix you. you can’t expect me to know how to fix you. ”

“ yeah, i’ll be here. i’ll be here when you’re ready to stop running. ”

“ my world is just falling apart. it’s like everything is just crumbling around me. i don’t know what to do. i just want it to stop ”

“ you’re the only thing that makes sense right now. everything else is just— the world is so loud. and the only time it feels quiet is when you’re here. ”

“ i don’t know how to talk about shit okay? it’s too hard. but i do care. i need you to trust me that i care. ”

“ stop punishing yourself. you wanna make up for what you’ve done? get off your ass and do something about it. ”

“ whatever it is you think was going on between us, you’re wrong. ”

“ it didn’t mean anything to me. ”

“ you should move on. i did. ”

“ i feel like i’m one bad day away from becoming everything i’ve fought against. ”

“ stop pushing me away. i’m not going anywhere, asshole. and as soon as you get that through that thick skull of yours, the better. ”

“ i don’t need you in my life. i don’t want you in it. ”

“ i can’t trust myself. if i let myself get comfortable enough, when i try to be happy, people get hurt. ”

“ people like me don’t get to have peace. ”

“ i’m not the person you want. i know you think i am. but it won’t take long for you to realize this is a mistake. ”

“ you want the truth? the truth is when i love people it burns inside me like a poison. it infects every part of me until it feels like they’re in my goddamn soul…and then i fuck it up. and it’ll destroy us both. ”

“ i’ll always choose you. that’s the worst part of it all. i’d choose you over and over, even though i know you wouldn’t do the same. ”

“ you never had to be perfect. you just had to stay. ”

“ will you please just stay for once. just. don’t walk away. ”

“ if i loved you less, i might be able to talk about it more. ”

“ just tell me something real. tell me something i can remember no matter what happens to us. ”

“ when you look at me, i feel seen. i feel like you see past everything i’ve always surrounded myself with to try and protect my heart. no one has ever looked that deeply at me. ”

“ how can you uncover so much about someone, make them let their guard down and lay themselves bare to you. and then just throw it all away? ”

“ if you walk out that door don’t bother coming back. ”

“ why are you so afraid of trusting this— trusting us. what’s making you hold back? ”

“ will you still be here? will you stay even after you’ve seen all the ugly parts of my heart. ”

“ i don’t care how willing you are to die for me. i want you to fucking live with me. live for us. ”

HURT/COMFORT

[ DISCOVER ] for one muse to find the other crying alone.

[ COMPANY ] for one muse to sit with the other so they don’t have to be alone while they’re upset.

[ EMBRACE ] for one muse to suddenly hug the other one for their own comfort.

[ OFFER ] for one muse to suddenly hug the other one to comfort them.

[ SETTLE ] for one muse to comfort the other and end up cuddling.

[ SHOULDER ] for one muse to rest their head on the other’s shoulder while they comfort them.

[ CARRY ] for one muse to find the other injured and carry them to safety.

[ SECURE ] for one muse to carry the other to bed after they fell asleep.

[ STRUGGLE ] for one muse to resist being hugged but then break down and crumble against the other.

[ CLEAR ] for one muse to wipe the other’s tears.

[ BREAKDOWN ] for one muse to ask the other if they’re okay prompting them to finally stop bottling things up.

[ BRUSH ] for one muse to run their fingers through the other’s hair while they open up or cry.

[ NURSE ] for one muse to tend to the other while they’re recovering from injuries.

[ TRUST ] for a scenario where sender’s muse is the only one receivers muse will let close.

[ COAX ] for scenario where receiver’s muse knows they’re the only one sender’s muse will let close.

[ CALM ] for one muse to subdue the other during an outburst.

[ CLARITY ] for one muse to help ground the other back in the present (i.e. after nightmare, breakdown, battle etc)

[ PREVENT ] for one muse to stop the other from going too far during a fight.

5K notes · View notes