Biggest lesson learned how to forgive myself for putting up with bulls#*t #believethepoweroflove https://www.instagram.com/nessa_luv_fall/p/CXW-WWUv8UO/?utm_medium=tumblr

Loving the view on the government lands… ❤️☁️ https://www.instagram.com/p/CRQGNgHNDMV/?utm_medium=tumblr

As I walk in this darkness with my heart in my hand, once again ripped from my chest and left for dead, but I know this isn’t the end for my story is sad but never over.

LOVE SIK

I can't deny this feeling anymore but I ask myself how could this be? I don't know who you are yet my soul yearns for your touch we haven't even met yet I feel like I've known you all my life... please make this go away I cannot stand the pain of love no more I have been hurt and left to die but you have sparked my soul and brought me back to life but for what? To leave me in the trench once again....

now I wander alone again

My life right now... growing pains suck

As she wakes the sun kisses her cheeks through a slit in the window curtain. Another day, another chance to make a difference but the dreams run away from my reality...

July 29

Dear C,

I’m finally finished with him I can’t go back, I will not be stuck in the same cycle of this basic love. I yearn the feeling of my soul being shocked by the fire within. I am done feeling so alone even when he is with me. He doesn’t see me anymore, he doesn’t feel me, he doesn’t know me. I cry for true love, he says “you deserve that kind of love.” I die inside.

D

July 25

Dear C,

Today is a sad day. Today I say my last goodbye to my father, he was so lost when I last seen him. He was always loving someone who never seen the true love within, always worrying who will be there for them when no one was willing to do the same for him. When I placed my eyes on him one last time he looked peaceful, ready to take his journey back home for that is where his family was waiting for him. He looked wise like Gandalf the White, which brings me some comfort for he was the one who created me. He will live on through some great memories. Like the sound he would make when he ordered the earthquake from DQ and I would get the kung fu shake, memories of fishing by the highway, even having a picnic in the cherry blossom fields. Today was surely a sad day but your love lives on with us, your sweet child.