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nancydrewandateacher 2 years
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44 Days
It鈥檚 been 44 days since I discovered my husband鈥檚 secret and each day is different. Today has been an ok day. I didn鈥檛 see her, I was busy when she dropped her child at school. I didn鈥檛 think about it too much, but maybe because I was busy doing assessments all day that I didn鈥檛 have a moment to think. I like days like this.
Someone gave me the advice that when your spouse cheats it鈥檚 like having a crack in the mirror. At first you see it every time. It annoys you, you can鈥檛 stop thinking about it, you want to get rid of it. You think you could toss this mirror, it鈥檚 imperfect, it鈥檚 broken, it鈥檚 damaged never to be the same again. But as time goes by you still see the crack, you still think about it but you look past it until one day you barely think of it. The mirror will never be fixed but if you put in the work you don鈥檛 have to stare right at it everyday.聽
I look forward to that day. I鈥檓 tired of the anxiety. I鈥檓 tired of the stress. I鈥檓 tired of having no trust in the person I vowed to love forever.
Tomorrow is Friday. I hate Fridays. That was the day they sent their sexual texts. I relive it every Friday. I force myself to stay awake afraid it will happen again and watch him like a hawk. This is not me, but Friday鈥檚 will never be the same. I just want my life back
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nancydrewandateacher 2 years
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Another day done
Well another day is done!!!
I was so happy watching through my window as she just dropped him off at the gate. I thought she finally has got it through her thick skull.聽
Nope...... He forgot his lunch box so she went home to get it. Well once agin because class has started every other parent drops it off at the office for kids to collect. They shouldn鈥檛 be walking around school. She has dropped it at the office before. But today she thought she would walk it down and put it in her bag, then stand at my classroom window staring in.聽
Of course I had turned from my lesson and saw her. She didn鈥檛 care. She is brazen. She carries not guilt. What type of person is she? Does she have no conscious? I felt so sick, but I鈥檓 brave. I don鈥檛 let her see how inside I am falling apart. I鈥檒l never let her see that.
Let鈥檚 see what tomorrow brings.
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nancydrewandateacher 2 years
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Waiting
In 23 minutes that woman will walk down to my classroom, wait near my husband鈥檚 work shed and drop her child off. Guaranteed she will be wearing skimpy clothes all done up. Every other parent drops their child at the gate. I stare at the window each day, she鈥檚 the only one who walks there. Does it irritate her that I made him block her on his phone? That I make him drive the long way so we don鈥檛 pass her house? I do track him when he is alone and make sure he doesn鈥檛 go that way. She used to be out the front and wave or chat to us when we went past. Not now. I鈥檒l never speak or even look at her again. Boy parent teacher interviews are going to be fun.
My stomach is churning and I feel sick. My heart is beating rapidly. This is how I start each day. Constantly looking out of my window, constantly nervous, constantly wishing my life was back to normal.
I saw her on my way to school. She is leaving for her run earlier now. Is it because we are leaving for work earlier? Is it just a coincidence? I wanted to wind down my window and call her names. I wanted her to experience the same rage my husband has copped. She walks around guilt free. If it was me, and let鈥檚 be honest I could NEVER do that to someone, I would be eaten with guilt. I鈥檇 move my child鈥檚 school, gosh I鈥檇 probably move away myself. I don鈥檛 even think she has told her husband, or maybe she has and they have an open marriage.
I feel so sick. 15 minutes until I see her. My heart is pounding faster. Ironically my wedding song just played on my phone. It makes me sad. The whole thing has tarnished the past few months of my life and everything we have done feels like a lie. Our trip away, Christmas, birthdays, New Years, dinner dates, weekend trips and love making. Everything feels wrong.
9 minutes to go.....
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nancydrewandateacher 2 years
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Somewhere to share my hurt
I鈥檓 writing this just to get it out. I鈥檓 sure no one will ever read this, but writing it down might get it out of my head.
Just over a month ago I was looking at my phone and saw an iCloud link from a friend, who is also my neighbour and whose children I have taught (including one right now). I was a bit confused as she hadn鈥檛 sent me anything since asking me if I was going to have a birthday party a month earlier. Without opening it, it looked like it was in a bedroom and I was very confused. I googled everywhere thinking maybe it was a glitch and it was sent to everyone. Then of course I opened it and God help me I wish I didn鈥檛. The video was of her masturbating with a sex toy. I watched all of ten seconds before I deleted it from my phone.
I was feeling so confused and continued googling it. The video was sent in a Friday night and it was a Tuesday. Then it dawned on me, I set my husbands phone up with my AppleID and our phones were linked. I immediately threw up.
That night was his birthday and I didn鈥檛 want to cause a scene so hinted that I knew. He denied, denied, denied it. I couldn鈥檛 sleep and I knew what was coming. The next day at school my husband kept asking me if I was ok (he also works at my school) and I said to him we will talk after work. He said we can talk now (the kids were at other lessons) so I blurted out that I know about the videos and the texts.聽
Finally he admitted it and when I asked how long he almost knocked me over, four months. He said it was just texting and started because we were going away and she offered to keep an eye on our house. He said then she texted him that he looked good and he write back thank you. He knew it was wrong and kept it a secret from me. I was physically ill. What was worse is that she sent him the video on the Friday night and we had awesome sex (like I thought we always did) on Saturday. He said he opened the video but couldn鈥檛 watch it, however she texted him again on the Monday asking how his day was and he replied. She also the nerve to talk to me on that Monday.
My husband said they never met up and he never physically touched her. She asked him that Friday night if he liked watching porn and that鈥檚 how they started on that. I鈥檓 not too sure what to believe.
I have analysed every conversation and should have seen the signs. She was desperate for me to have a party. She always asked my husband to fix things for her, while her husband was away and got cranky when I turned up too. She joined our gym when we told her we were going and always wanted me to do things with her kids and she would want to talk to my husband. It makes me sick.
I made my husband end it immediately and block her from his phone. Even saving on our iCloud contacts her as home wrecking whore. He did that and said he is an absolute fuck head and he doesn鈥檛 want to lose me. Well he is pretty close to that happening.
Now the Whore is walking her child all the way to near my classroom, which she never did before, and waiting near my husband鈥檚 work shed. He keeps right away, but she is incredibly brazen and continues to send her child to our school when her other children attend a nearby school. She dresses up in her tiny Lycra as she doesn鈥檛 work and exercises all day. Yes I鈥檓 not thin, but I have lost that many babies, my body is just ruined and I also work full time and work damn hard as I grew up in poverty.
I have to see this woman everyday. I have to drive alternate routes so I don鈥檛 see her running in our estate. She followed us in the grocery shop with no shame or guilt at all. I have heard she did something similar with another neighbour and acts like it is the wife鈥檚 fault. I don鈥檛 even know if her husband knows as he works away earning her family money.
Each day I am trying to work through things, but it hurts. He hurt me. I already felt down as I knew another woman at work had a crush on him and she too is this thin sporty woman. My husband kept right away from her and made it clear he was not interested. They think I鈥檓 not good enough. They think he can do better and any ounce of self-esteem I had left has vanished.
When I am alone I鈥檓 sad. I hate being me. I want to forgive my husband, but I hate what he has done. Was everything a lie? Was he thinking of her when he was with me? He says no, but I鈥檓 not a mind reader, I鈥檒l never know. Is it truly over? It better be. Will we survive this?
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nancydrewandateacher 2 years
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Vote for Lili
Vote for Lili聽
https://www.justjaredjr.com/2021/12/13/jjj-fan-awards-favorite-young-actress-of-2021-vote-here/
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Lili is up for favorite young actress of 2021 in the Just Jared Jr. Awards. Go vote a few times if you鈥檇 like.
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Lili is up for favorite young actress of 2021 in the Just Jared Jr. Awards. Go vote a few times if you鈥檇 like.
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